I absolutely cannot lucid dream, so that doesn't really do any help.
I keep having these nightmares about nuclear war.
It all started when I got interested in things like radiation, Chernobyl and nuclear war. I read this book "Voices of Chernobyl" by Svetlana Alexievitch. I really don't recommend that book to sensitive people, it tells the truth, all of it, all of the suffer. It's so horrible. I felt very disturbed. Also because of the fact that no-one really had ever told the truth in the main media. A cloud of nuclear dust had been landed on my land too.
Well, I started to gain more and more interest in these scary things and before I realized I had read every book of radiation, nuclear warheads, nuclear power plants and all that I could find from the local library. EVERYTHING of it. I had watched most of the documentaries and movies about it. I got obsessed with the idea that maybe it could happen to me. Would I be prepared? It could happen these days but no one is prepared for it. They don't know what to do.
I started having nightmares where I died in a nuclear bombing. I kept reading about nuclear war in hopes of learning how to survive perfectly. I started having dreams where I could survive, almost, but sometimes I got exposed to the radiation and got sick. I know the exact symptoms of radiation so that doesn't make it any better.
Now I know how to survive. But, my family and friends don't. I've told them some of it but I'm afraid I just sound like nuts, I know it is nuts.
Now I'm having dreams where I try to save my family but they don't believe me. u_u
It has been going on for two years now. I don't have those nightmares too often (About twice a month) but I don't really like to have them. This morning I was afraid to go out of the house because there could be radiation outside. At last I could though.
Just how do I get rid of these obsessive thoughts? I know I have a small case of OCD that gives me sometimes obsessive thoughts that scare me, I cannot stop thinking about scary things happening.
The thing is, I don't really want to seek help from professionals, because I don't see the situation that bad, and I don't really trust them either. (I have my reasons and experiences for that. I think psychology is still in it's infancy, many of the professional psychologists admit this too.)
Just any ideas on how to get rid of them? I don't read things like that anymore nor even think of them but I still keep having them randomly and they ruin my day.
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