I don't understand people. Recently in my very close group of 6 friends they decided they didnt want to include me anymore. Which is fine i saw it coming a couple of months ago and i figure if i am even able to worry about something as insignificant as friends then im a very lucky man. But i figured i could use this one as a learning experience from any of you open-minded people.
I get exhausted being social but i can keep my energy up for days if i have to. But i dont understand people. If they say something i will take it in a completely different direction then what is perceived by everyone else. I am also either extremely in tune with emotions and stay quiet or i am numb to everything around me and again stay quiet. But sometimes if i need to be social i can put on a well-played fake person. Maybe i have some kind of social disorder, i dont know, it seems irrelevant though because as long as im nothing but nice to people, what they think of me doesnt matter (i need to work on being nice again though).
I was just wondering if this is how people are supposed to be to me. Are they supposed to be best friends then very rude suddenly. Why do they pretend to be friends to people? Is it difficult for them to make a decision about a person and stick to it?
Again, im blessed and happy that this experience has given me the reminder that i need to rethink my mind and start being nicer, more open-minded, and closer to GOD because if this is considered bad im extremely lucky.
