Lucidity awareness???

okay, the other night i was dreaming that i was running barefoot along the beach. I felt very free, as if i could run forever. Whilst dreaming, i thought, i feel like i could fly. And then i thought, well, why don't you?
now, no sooner had i thought this than i immediately changed my mind.
what i would like to know is, was i becominglucid?
I've had a lot of dreams lately where i've gone to do something, decided against it, and the dream has just gone it's own way.
it's almost like i have a fear of taking control, not a problem i suffer with in waking life!
any thoughts on this are appreciated.

Well, it sounds like you were partially lucid but you didn't do an RC and kind of talked yourself out of it. If you have a problem with the idea of taking control in the dream while you don't have one in real life, it might just be that you talked yourself out of your ability to or it might be that your personality in your dreams tries to equal itself out with your personality in waking life. I had to do a little work to act more like myself in my dreams.

thanks, i'm going to look out for this sign and then when i go to talk myself out of something, i'll just say, go for it!!
will post if i have more success!!

Good stuff. :) If that doesn't work then you might have to do some hypnosis or meditation to get your subconscious to stop with the matrix references and realize that you don't need to keep a balance with everything. :wink: