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Whenever i try to wild, i close my eyes, and start counting. I see a little bit of black screen /w colors. i for some reason skip ti HI, but my only choice is to watch it all. then a dream forms. i think to myself that it can't be so early, i didn't even feel SP yet. then i stop and fall asleep.
why is that happening?
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That's you mostly blacking out the HI part, except for some fragments of the beginning of the Dream and then Falling asleep Unconcious...Just like me when I try to WILD :-P
I also found that sometimes pretty realistic images, sounds and voices, scenes and very abstract and deep emotional ''impressions'' appear very rapidly after closing my eyes long before falling asleep ( I am a terrible Insomniac the last months so it takes about a Bloody hour to fall asleep after having closed my eyes )
These experiences can be very immersive indeed, but in my case they are usually very brief and inconsistent. I cannot yet manage to stay concious untill these ''shards of dream'' seem to start making any sense ( as experienced in REMdreams; They are complete stories. ) I believe this ''phenomenon'' is also what alot of people discribe as Day Dreaming.
I really need to work on staying concious JUST that tidbit longer, but I still find it extremely difficult not to get all Hypnotised , become entised and lose conciousness.
However lately I have been much more able to recognise and observe more and more of the Hypnotic images, sounds and impressions so I am defenitely making some progress. But perhaps I have yet to find or create a technique that works best for me. I'm not sure yet, but since lucid dreams and dream recall were nearly ground to a halt, due to my Insomnia, I am back to square one and have to work step by step and not just attempt WILD ...which is something more suitable for more experienced Lucid Dreamers