My Primary Questions for the Dreamviews Community
Good night, Dreamviews.
As some of you may have seen, I posted an extremely lengthy introduction here. I feel obliged to make a second thread, not introducing a great deal of content, but clarifying it, and posing actual questions without a page's worth of fluff. I feel I will get more proper and more thoroughly discussed answers here, in a forum dedicated to Lucidity instead of Introductions and basic questions.
To start off, I'll say that although I've known about LDs for a while, I have not been very devoted to the subject, but I've returned, and this time, I mean to stay. This account I've created should solidify that. Now, to the questions.
1) Whenever I achieve Lucidity, always through a mysterious and very spontaneous epiphany, the dream is extremely weak, unstable, blurry, and drowsy. The best I've ever gotten it was about three seconds of life-like detail - but that was a long time ago. I know that part is possible, though, so I pose this question - Is it possible to have a dream in which you feel completely awake, with no drowsiness and no blanketing over your thought processes? Do you ever feel fully "there" in a dream? The dreams I have always turn out to feel like I was there, but I never acknowledge that I am there. This is because I'm very, very drowsy in dreams, and I never acknowledge or even think about myself and my consciousness at that moment. Do you ever feel as if you're really in the dream?
2) I've tried WILDing as a hopeful remedy for this. I've found several roadblocks, however. The first is willpower, but I can cope with that. The second is H.I. - I simply can't identify it. The best example I have occured during an attempt at a WILD. I was nearly in a trance, and suddenly, I saw and heard a military-class helicopter's (Apache, perhaps) silhouette pass by overhead. It was a simple vision - Two colors, brown and black. It lasted about three seconds, then I realized it was happening and it stopped. Was that H.I., or something similair?
3) I also had a similar incident at about one thirty in the morning. After beating Half-Life 2 for the first time, playing it for almost the entire night, whenever I closed my eyes, I would see myself (in my mind's eye) playing HL2 some more(first person perspective, of course). I couldn't easily stop this vision. What was this?
4) My primary concern with H.I. is where it is. Where do you see the Imagery? Is it in the mind's eye, where you imagine things, or does it actually display in your vision? I've had instances of both - the HL2 vision was in my mind's eye, but in very recent WILD attempts, I got a flash of fuzzyness and dots that were really concrete - like the bit when you press your palms against your eyelids. This is the closest I believe I'm come to the true imagery - am I right, or have I stated a better example? Note that I consider the bit I recently stated, the dots, to be the most concrete I've had to date.
5) Last, sleep paralysis. This is extremely evasive - while WILDing, I've had major disorientation and displacement of limbs, but never SP. I've felt as if my entire body, or at least everything above my waist, was spinning rapidly through space. But the closest I've ever come to the SP was when I was going to sleep, and I was experimenting with my subconscious. I asked, "where am I going", and waiting for a response in a meditative-like state. This seemed to do the trick - I kind of had a vision, but not a very concrete one, of me soaring along a road. Passing a lighthouse, a cliff, and then desert, I suddenly had a pulse of a tingling sensation. I also had difficulty drawing breath. Was this sleep paralysis? I reflexively tried to regain control of my breathing (moving in the wrong direction, I'm afraid), and the state dissipated. My limbs were difficult to move, requiring a true act of will to shift, but they were movable. This is the closest I feel I've come, and it sparked my return to Dreamviews (this time, with an acccout!).
There you have it. This has grown to an immense length. I really have too much time on my hands.
Thanks for reading this. I know it was quite the wall of text... I apologize, but most of my real posts may turn out like this.
Wow, I can't think of a closing statement.
Happy end!
