Hehe, I think I got too excited.
So today is my 6th day of even knowing of the idea of Lucid Dreaming. My 4th day recording dreams as well as researching, and my 2nd day developing my RC's. I laid down last night after reading up on several techniques (MILD, DILD, and WILD in particular). I figured I would try a MILD, and worse comes to worse it might turn into a DILD as a side-effect. Anyway back to the story, so I lay down at about 11:30 last night. I read up earlier that day that trying to LD right before you go to sleep the first time is almost worthless. So I set my alarm for 4am before going to bed, just barely loud enough to wake me up (WBTB). I downloaded the ultimate lucid induction mp3 off of a thread on this site also, and listened to that as I laid to sleep the first time. I did my best to deeply relax but did not reach the state of SP. The sounds offered from the track put a lot of colors and designs in my mind, but nothing that materialized completely. I could feel my eyes shooting up and down, almost siezuring, which I thought could have been the first REM cycle? I don't know. After listening to the 13min track once I took my headphones off and fell asleep.
My alarm woke me up at 4am like I planned, and I was happy to remember why I woke up in the first place. This leads me to question, If I can constantly think, practically obsess, about LD'ing right before I fall asleep and the moment after I wake up, where's my subconscious going in that inbetween period? Anyway, I pick up my comfortable headphones, put them in, and start the song on my iPod. This time the colors and designs are magnified, and I see light trying to come into my vision from the lower left and right corners. After a valliant effort they die out, and I see a forest from afar but not completely, it's like the black sheet was torn a little bit and I could see through it. The image was off center, a little bit to the right. After my vision went back to black and continued with the designs, all of a sudden an image kind of...half spirals into my view. It was a black sky with stars that were pretty visible. My best bet was that I was in space. I'm not sure if that was me drifting into a dream, or just an image my mind put up. I mean, the majority of the scene was black...so that's pretty close to just having my eyes shut anyway...I would feel different if it were a bright sunny day in the park. Right when that scene came up, I could feel or see, something, maybe my hand or foot, pressing down on a pedal. I was just as the pedal was all the way pushed down, and a huge feeling rushed all over me. I'm still trying to decide what it was. I think it was either a huge state of panic, or wild excitement...I'm not sure which. If it was panic then fear was right along side it, but if excitement, then it was an anxious side-kick. It was definately one of those pairs. Right after that feeling rushed over me I think that I woke up, long enough to feel my body in the bed. At that point I might have been in SP, but once I started thinking about it it wasn't too difficult to move. I certainly did feel a tingling feeling all over though, I'm positive about that. When I fell asleep that first time it was about 4:15am, when I woke up (at this point I can't remember completely) I think it was about 5-ish. At that point I became more alert, frusterated almost. I turned on my iPod again and tried a MILD. Something about mentally muttering to myself wouldn't let me fall asleep, or rather didn't mimic the effects that I felt earlier. I simply rolled on my side and waved the white flag, allowing myself to catch the last moments sleep before having to wake up for class.
Was it possible that I had my first, if extremely brief, lucid dream? I mean, when I was "in space" I didn't really have enough time to look around before snapping out of it, so I'm not sure if I had any control or consciousness of what was going on. It's not like it's a dream that I just remember extremely well, because it's the process of which led up to the space moment itself that I remember most. I don't recall seeing any dream signs (probably because I don't even have them fully developed, just some ideas), nor do I remember doing a reality check. I think my RC, if I did one, was just: "What the hell?!". What is your gut reaction to this? Did I LD, or did I just want to LD so bad that my mind is making a normal dream more significant than it's worth? Thanks so much to everyone who read this all, it was hard to put the feelings into words without writing a 100 page book!
