Thread: Comunication with heart/feelings.

I was just about to make a topic about this, so nice to see u just made one.
I had this feeling in my heart for about a month now. At first it scared me and i thought tobacco came to take its toll on me.
Coincidentally i've been flirting with a girl for about the same time.
This feeling comes unexpectly and i have no control over it.

One night about 5 hours after i took a 1g dose of truffels (my normal dose is 10-20g and trips always peak 1-4 hours in)
i had some mind blowing auditory hallucinations.
The first sequence was weird. I thought i was going to die, heared my dad slam the door when he went to bed and curse about someone to himself . While he was cursing my heart felt HEAVY.. really it hurt a lot, maybe that's why i thought i was going to die. And suddenly out of nowhere we seem to share some telepathic link and apperantly we had some misunderstanding and we're cool again. Some things happened i don't really remember but i remember saying to myself Holy shit i got a freaking sattelite in my head.

I thought i was going to die and realized i might be dreaming so i went over and told him if something happens to me tonight its okay because im fine with.
Then i found out he didn't slam the door or curse anything at all, we didnt share a telephatic link and he thought i was pretty wacko for saying such weird things.
So i went back to bed and tried to sleep. But this feeling in my heart continued and when i thought about that girl i was flirting with i guess i felt her presence. I remember having a really vague awareness that we where in some place and i communicated with her. Everytime i told her something about what was going on.. after all this felt like magic i felt she felt deep affection and some kind of merging with hearts, it kind of hurt a little bit but it was also nice. I don't remember the details very well but i don't think there where any visuals at all. I was not asleep because i did reality checks every 5 minutes the whole time this all happened. I had my eyes wide open most of the time and was incapable of imagining something else.

I know she had a bunch of dreams containing me and after this night she started showing me loads of love even tho i did nothing to provoke it or tell her about my dreams / feelings about her.
This feeling persisted troughout this week pretty much 24/7 and gets heavier when she goes to bed .
Anyway i kinda fucked up with her a few days ago by not paying her enough attention. Then slowly my heart started hurting again and out of nowhere i heared her voice in my head whispering i hate you.
Then i realized i screwed up and tried to make a move fixing things but i was too late and she's already flirting with some other guy.
I made her feel okay again tho, and we're friends now.
At the moment i still feel my heart itch slightly but not often.

Wow this was long.. i wanted to shorten it up for reading pleasure / privacy but i thought what the heck.
And i need to know if others have this to and im not mistaking a heart attack for something nice

Frill, I am loosing count of how many there are inside my head vying for dominance over these poor ten fingers and two sad eyes.

I always speak from my heart. or act from my heart.

Originally Posted by saltyseedog

I always speak from my heart. or act from my heart.

I hope so, from what I have seen it doesn't seem that way.

What do you mean it doesn't seem that way??????????????????????????????????????????????? ??????????

I feel there are layers of your own consciousness that are much more aware than your normal, waking ego. Your ego isn't supposed to do all of the thinking, it actually acts more like a conduit or focusing mechanism for these other layers to express themselves through.

So, seemingly paradoxically, if you let up trying to think, often insight of a much higher clarity can come to you spontaneously. Looking at your energy body, your rational mind - the ego center- is highly localized in your solar plexus. Hence if you let up constant thinking, it allows energy up into your heart, which sort of acts as a bridge for insight to come through.

An inner voice once told me "speak to me with your heart." Ie: stop trying to force your thoughts, allow and accept whatever comes with your heart.

Obviously don't abandon rational thought, it has its uses, but relying entirely on it is like exercising only one muscle, while ignoring all the supporting muscles around it. Over used, even that once useful tool begins to break down.

Your heart it wants to be free. Your mind it thinks it has to do something or have something or be something. It thinks other have to be something or do something.
Your heart knows it doesn't have to be anything. It is what it is.

There are many layers to the heart, like an onion. The outer layers seem to be emotions manifested by thoughts. The deeper layers can hold what is beyond thoughts.
At the very core of your heart is something like a cord that goes up out your crown into infinity.

Express your feelings. Be who you are. Know you are free. Speak from the depths of your soul.

Our Hearts are our direct connection to The Creator. It is through our Hearts that we connect to one another. When we allow our Hearts to guide us, we are acting in accordance with our purpose.

That is not to say that the Mind is less important. It has a different function. The Mind is necessary to gather, sort and store information. Without information, our Hearts cannot make good decisions. The two are essential to one another. But it is the Heart that we should follow.