hey again

lately i've found out i had a serious case of amnesia .. i could not remember anything that took place from my time as a baby to my 20th year.... since then i have gone to doctors and a psychologist but they are clueless and haven't found anything significant yet... im still under treatment so i don't know it could be they find something...

for years most of the dreams i was having were actually real life experiences that i have , i have no reason to supress them - most of those memories aren't significant in a emotional and psychological sense.

last few weeks im able to seperate real life memories from my dreams and deja vu's, i got most of my memory back right now ... i still dream alot - almost every day i have 4 different dream.

does anyone know why this is happening to me...

i've had a very traumatizing life but im very concious of this im not seeing any reason to supress these emotions - im very aware of my emotional state.

sometimes im just going through my day studying.. working out or..cooknig dinner , seeing friends or dating hot woman... and suddenly it feels unreal - like i am not here ... suddenly the thought of it being a dream strucks me.

does anyone have similar experiences ?