Thread: Split Consciousness?

I've been noticing some changes in myself. They're pretty cool, I wonder if any of you guys are going through the same things.

Anyway, lately I've been noticing how vastly different I can be in different situations and around different people. Almost as if I completely switch personalities. I'm sure everyone does this, for example, you act differently in front of your parents than you would in front of one of your best friends, right? But now the way I've been acting has become so notable that even my friends have started to be able to tell when I've essentially switched personalities.

So that could be anything, amirite? Just me, being a normal teenager, all hormonal and emotional and whatever. But that's not all.

So, I can think two separate thoughts now at the same time. One train of thought will be a lot louder and more, I don't know, intelligent, able? The other is quieter, underlying. I can't do it all the time. And it's not as if I can solve a difficult math problem while pondering the mysteries of the universe.

And also,

I do things and say things without completely understanding why or how. It's more complicated than just reflex. I can say something to a person, something I would normally say, and not know what I'm saying until after I've said it. I can completely grasp and analyze a situation, react to it normally, but not understand what I've done until afterwards. So here's an example that happened last night, at my friend's birthday party. It's not that amazing.

This was before we had sung 'Happy Birthday' and for some backwards reason, the cake was already being served. The birthday girl's piece had a lit candle stuck in it, and it was sitting on the table. Another friend was starting to eat her piece already. Without meaning to I stared straight at the friend that was eating and said, "I think we're waiting until the birthday girl eats first." I hadn't even thought about what I'd said, I didn't even realize I'd said it. A few seconds later I realized that the cake was being served first, before we sang Happy Birthday, and that a candle was lit, and we were waiting until we had sung Happy Birthday and the birthday girl had taken the first bite before we could eat. Then, I remembered what I'd said, and I felt confused.

Things like this happen all the time. During class I'll raise my hand, say something intelligent and not be aware I'm talking until halfway through saying it.

And now it's happening in my dreams too, apparently. I can be non-lucid yet aware enough to rewind a dream for pleasure. Like almost anyone, I can have a nightmare and force myself awake. But the other night something really odd happened. I had a nightmare, bad enough that I had to wake myself up from it. It'd been an odd week, and my sleep schedule was off. So when I woke up, I woke up with sleep paralysis. Still believing I was in the nightmare, I was panicking because I couldn't escape due to the paralysis. I could FEEL myself in my body shaking and screaming, my body was vibrating a lot. Then the other part of me woke up. One part was screaming and panicking, and the other part became aware of this. I heard myself think clearly, 'Calm the f*ck down.' and the other part, the one that was panicking, stopped.

Now listen, I felt like two separate people, in the same body, thinking and feeling differently. I was feeling panicked and terrified, while the other part of me was waking up and trying to calm down the other part.

SO YEAH, cool stuff. Anyone got any comments or something to share?