Hey,
I have had a very similar experience.
When I was younger, my first concious lucid dreaming ability was to look at my watch and open a menu screen, exactly like the old Nintendo 64 Goldeneye game for James Bond. From this watch, I was able to select several options which included but were not limited to waking myself up instantly if I was having a scary dream.
I will warn you first off that my point of view is much more esoteric than others. In my studies, I have observed behaviors of things other than myself within dreams that would point to the possibility of other things than yourself and your subconscious populating a person's dream world. Before I go any further, though, it is important to understand a portion of how our brains work in relation to what our five senses take in and what our brain puts out into conscious taste, touch, hear, smell, and see. If our sensory perception takes in (random number for sake of example) 10 bits of information per second, our brain filters those 10 bits and allows our conciousnes to actually experience a "reality" of somewhere close to 4 or 5 bits of sensory information. That means that even in our waking state, there are things that we are seeing, smelling, tasting, touching, and hearing that we are not even "aware" of. How the brain decides to filter this information depends largely on inherent survival mechanisms. That which is deemed unimportant to the survival of the body, the brain ignores. This is why children are more susceptible to paranormal activity; their brains have not yet had the time to convince themselves that the unseen world is "unimportant."
Now, that all being said, from my point of observation I would say that a negative entity is aware of you. (Albeit a dream monster or a shadow of subconcious) When my James Bond watch Lucid Dreaming was taken away from me permanently in one of my dreams, it was done at my grandparents' house by Borg drones from Star Trek. In my attempt to flee from the Borg, I stumbled over a lawnmower, tried to hide in the kitchen but there were too many dirty dishes... My entire environment (I later deduced) wreaked of subliminal authority: the home of my authoritarian style providers, the lawnmower and dishes of my childhood responsibilities. These things, like your CIA lab room that you are taken to, are meant to distract your lucid focus with negativity. For me, the scariest thing at the time were the Borg from Star Trek: the Next Generation. They were like zombies and computer viruses mixed together. (Can you tell I was a geeky kid?) They infected my lucid dreaming watch with nanites so I ripped it from my wrist and discarded it. After that, the dream became more chaotic as I was allowed to finally escape the house. It took a long time to come up with another LD technique.
I would imagine that you are an adult with adult responisbilities. I would also imagine that there is a great fear in what CIA Operatives represent: control, authority, feeling naked under scrutiny, the possibility of losing everything or even one's life... Seems like a pretty good role to take on if something were trying to distract your focus.
In Demonology, often the strongest and most dangerous demons appear the least threatening while the weakest will change their appearance to something big or frightful. Demons are minions of the Father of Lies, after all. Now, I am not saying you are having demonic issues... Not at all. However, take this knowledge and combine it with the information provided above and toy with it, in your mind, how these things might come to play in the infinite realm of your own mind.
Personally, I would suggest that (if you are in a focused enough LD state) you challenge the agents the next time they appear. It may also do well to meditate on why the representation of CIA Agents having power over you shatters your lucid focus. Why does the entity/subconscious choose this form of being perceived?
Good luck! =)
|
|
Bookmarks