Dream experience and sleep paralisis
Hello,
Last night i have an strange dream experience, or better look like a more in between wake and sleep experience.
I don't know if i was sleeping or awake, i think i was between both. I was in my bed and my room, was exactly the same nothing change.
For some reason i can't give a rational explanation, i enter in a state that i realize i was almost reaching enlightenment, i know this may sound ridiculous, but i can be more sure then now, and once i explain the further developments, you will realize my words are true, and in fact without knowing how i did it i have realize how to reach enlightenment in a trance fashion.
I ear in my head an extremely loud sound like a siren, very loud but not disturbing, was almost like pleasant for a so loud noise that was increasing, wile this sound was increasing my sense of reality was changing so much so much that i immediately say this to myself "I have discover the secret to universal enlightenment" once i say this, something grab me, i could not move my body and was hard to speak. I was not afraid but a little in shock because i realize i was so close to reach enlightenment deep inside of me i know i was one step near it, because my perception of space and reality have change so much that look like i was in a total different place and that i was all knowing. And this thing that grab me i couldn't see it, since it tie me to the bed, i remember i say a exorcism in Latin, what i really don't know, but it pops into my head, like "praecipitur in nomine de jesu, se ordinatur criatura discurate" is all i remember, and once i say it i got strength and was able to release myself, then i say to myself i should not be afraid at all and i fall asleep, and about 5 to 6 times last night the same thing happen again, not the part of the enlightenment but again the sleep paralyses!
I already have previous experiences of sleep paralyses and i know what may cause it, like our body trap in the blankets and this say to our mind something is try to hold us, or when you sleep on top of your own arm and can't move it. I know all of this, and every time i wake up i relax my body, and check if something was tie me or not. What happens to me was totally different, something was really try to lock me, but every time i was strong enough to release myself and fight it without any fear of any kind, i do net even stand up and turn on the light i keep falling asleep very relaxed!
So like i say i already have experience sleep paralyses, but never more then 1 time in one night, this was not normal paralyses, was something really there try to take my attention from my objective of reach illumination! So something stop me for reach my goal, you can call it a demon or something else i don't know and i don't care i'm not afraid, and i have a very open mind, inclusive i am a very dedicated student of Hermetic, Esoteric Arts and i'm an alchemist as well, so i know well what is beyond reason and explanation.
Any one can explain me what i have experience and why? A logical explanation :S
Ah i forget mention something that may be very relevant. Before i go sleep i was read Manly P. Hall Secret teachings of all ages, and i was in the part were he connect Roger Bacon as to be the true author of Shakespeare literature master pieces, and he give many examples of ciphers hidden on their folio. This make me remember something, first i try to all sorts of combination of the word Shakespeare, and for some reason the pythagorean tetractys pops into my head, and i use the word Shakespeare in all sort of combinations (OK i know Shakespeare have 11 letters and the tetracys have 10 dots, but even so something tell me to try. And this was the last thing i do before fall asleep, all type of sketches and numerology connection and rearrange of the letters and geometry inside the tectractys, i know was well that this was a Pythagoras great secret that he only reveal to the initiates of the Mysteries!
