Okay, so I've been having this problem recently.
I've had several instances where I hear or feel something and it causes me to snap awake. They don't feel like hypnagogic hallucinations, mostly because when I have those I don't wake up. But if they aren't hallucinations, is it empathy? How can I even tell?
The one time I was sure it was empathy was when I was trying to sleep in, but I kept hearing my phone vibrate under my pillow like my alarm was going off. Except that my phone was on the floor. My boyfriend's phone, would have been much closer to his head, in the other room. So I think I was connecting with him and hearing it like he was hearing it. Anyway.
The next time, I was trying to take a nap. This one was a lot like a hypnagogic hallucination or OBE, even though my eyes were closed I could still see my room. I felt a pressure next to my face like someone kissing me on the cheek.
I have black out curtains in my room, I figured I wouldn't sleep as long if I left one panel open. I tried to get back to sleep. Again, I could see the room through my closed eyes. Just as I was about to drift off, everything went dark like a light switch flipping. That startled me awake too.
Then today. I tried to take a nap. I was just about to fall asleep when I felt my phone vibrate under the blanket near my head, like I had gotten a text message.....except my phone was in my pocket. And I hadn't received a text.
One night, I was trying to sleep and every 30 minutes I would wake suddenly with my heart racing. I don't remember what woke me well enough to tell you, but they were similar. Noises, something touching me.
My heart races and refuses to calm down for 30 minutes to an hour after each occurrence, my resting heart rate is usually around 65bpm, but afterward it sits at 86bpm. I can feel my pulse in my teeth.
I suppose it's more likely that it's a new form of hypnagogia that I'm waking up for, but they feel different and empathy isn't beyond me. There have been times when friends in other states have been sick and I get ghost symptoms, or I know when they're upset even if they haven't spoken to me. Or I get stuck on someone else's emotion. Like the time I was trying to help a couple at work and everything about the woman was annoying me, I literally had to step away because I was overwhelmed with irritation for every pause she made between sentences and her need to look at every little detail and pick it apart. It felt so strange. I found an excuse to duck behind the desk to get a different book for her to look at and then I got a peek at her husband's face over her shoulder and it became clear that I had been overwhelmed with his irritation for her. Once I knew where it was coming from it was easier to ignore.
I don't know.
It's really frustrating.
I just wanna take a nap, damn it.
What do you guys think?
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