There is also language barrier I experience, I have problems to express myself clearly... I think. It is hard enough to explain those states of consciousness in mother language
To explain my experiences better- I found, that if I'm in emotional balance- it isn't blockage of emotions, it is their dissolving, nullification, understanding... it is many things but not suppression... I found myself to be more sensitive to outside inputs but at the same time relaxed, unattached, analytical... It certainly functions in real life. I can feel into feelings of others, into situations and analyze them unattached... therefore adding as little of my own content as possible. Lucid dreams are very sensitive as I said. But in OBE to astral dimension it is much worse. Imagination can ruin whole experience and let it slip into lucid dream. I trained OBE for about 33 years now. I explored what was needed to stabilize them, to have them as clean as possible. And, there is something coming to my mind now -> One can't hear whispers in loud polyphonic orchestra, isn't it so? If I have to receive information from outside of my mind, then I want as low noise of receiver as possible.
My way is to understand my fears and dissolve them. When I was about 6-8 years I feared darkness. It was oppressive and I didn't like that. But one day I said myself that enough is enough. I needed to get rid of illogical feelings. I wanted to be very logical at that times(and no there was no StarTrek available in my country so I didn't have any Spock idol ) What I did was, I went to places where I felt the largest fear with lamp. I extinguished light and waited in darkness. I felt into it. When I thought that something scary is going to get me, I lighted the lamp. Of course, no snakes, no ghosts, no skulls or skeletons(those things I feared most), nothing was there, so I extinguished the light again and waited... and I did this for some time on different places. The fear parted myself this way. Now, when I'm in lower astral it could be quite scary, but I'm there guarding my emotions by observation and dissolution, navigating through darkness through seemingly dangerous surrounding which I find only interesting if I find something new. It wasn't always this way. But I needed to solve problem and this was similar problem as in real life fears. Now fear is negative emotion, but I found that also positive ones could be a hindrance of understanding. So I did the similar thing as with fear with other emotions. Now, I know myself enough, I know my emotions and I learned how to have them quiet, in balance. The life is much more quiet his way. Things come and go. Nothing is there for forever. "While I'm standing still, I prefer the stillness here... "- that is why I like OBE... mainly to higher dimensions. The stillness, the quiet existence. Where mild feelings substitute thoughts... where applied will can be only very fine, so fine, that it can be compared to disinterests in real life and yet it causes large disturbances there.
I'm not well versed in philosophy, so stoicism or I'm not sure what other thing you found in me is not what I followed. I followed only my observations and experiences. I tried to test things other people experienced... but I'm unable to use emotions well in OBE, since they destabilize the experience every time.
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