Originally Posted by Confused_911
well if it will benefit both of us as having a old lost friend, would those circumstances be enough to be "allowed" by psychic standards?
And wow, physchic powers can influence you alot i see. well either case, i would like to not forget about her, but i would like to explore everything my mind will give me. i hope that psychic dreamwalking will be ok for my cause, but if in the case i do forget about her, then i wont be trying so hard to get to her, and so i will have more free time to try out some psychic stuff.
i just want to be able to get to her, ya know?
Wer, what (if i may ask) have you experienced in psychic powers?
I've been researching and practicing (on and off... marijuana use doesn't work well with psionic practice) for 4 years now. I'll tell you everything I've experienced that has changed my entire world view (basically every psychic experience I've had).
When I first started all I knew about was lucid dreaming, and it wasn't long until I had a few of my own. It was through searching this site for techniques that I could use to communicate with my long-lost girlfriend that led me to a post about astral projection. Once I understood what it was, I became fascinated with the idea. Every sense I was a young child I wondered if there was more to life then Christianity and what was right in front of me. I feared death in particular. After discovering astral projection I bought Robert Bruce's book, "Astral Dynamics". I read it with extreme interest, and on a trip with my father to Florida I had my first OBE. It happened on the way back home, when we stopped at a hotel. That night I had a lucid dream, and because the entire trip I was obsessing of OBEs (I had read you could project via lucid dream), I tried to project from the lucid dream. It worked, and I ended up stuck at the end of the bed in utter amazement. It was only until later that afternoon that I remembered it. After that I knew OBEs were real, I didn't know for sure if they were just lucid dreams, but I knew it was possible. After that I threw my Christian beliefs in the garbage, and began my journey into the unknown. After that I discovered the Wingmaker's website and the Psipog website. I practiced psi-balls for a while on and off, and I also tried telekinesis. The first thing I was able to do was put out matches, and later I became pretty good at spinning the pin-wheel. For a while I could change the direction it spun. I also did minor aura viewing and was able to see colors around people, but it was never clear to me if I was seeing auras or just after images. At this point I was pretty sure psionics existed, but not positive. Many times I would loose faith and become terribly depressed. My quest for knowledge and the mysterious was not an easy one, expecially because I was trapped in a private school where I had only one friend (it was fun to show them the pin wheel, they never accepted that I wasn't faking it somehow, but it was amusing none the less). Me and that one friend were both depressed and generally pissed off people. It didn't take long for me and him to discover what people call "psychic vampirism". Of course, its nothing like fictional vampirism. Psychic Vampirism refers to people who have a rip or tear in their aura, resulting in negative psychological effects. These people had to feed off of energy from various sources. I became fascinated with this idea and soon I was feeding as much as I could off of other kids. Once me and my friend (Shay) fed off this kid together and the poor guy fell asleep during a test... hehehe. I was good at feeding and was almost positive I had a tear in my aura (it was more of a power thing, and I knew it). I later dropped vampirism. I still believe that people may exist who have naturally low energy and need to feed off of other source to balance themselves, but as for me I know now I was simply depressed and the idea of being a "psychic vampire" excited my ego and gave me a sense of power. I stuck to it so long because it made me feel good, and feeding does give you a rush of energy. Anyways, the next big thing that happened to me was a astonishing change in my ability to run. I had gained an interest in biokinesis (which I learned of from wingmakers), and had tried it many times with no sucess. One night I attempted to increase my ability to run through biokinesis. I later forgot about it. About a week later I noticed I could stand in one spot for even as short as a couple minutes, because my feet would ache with horrible pain. There was about a week of that, and then one day, it stopped. That day I had a very strong urge to run, so I did. To my utter amazement I could run like the wind, faster then I've ever ran before. I felt like a god damn pro runner! I knew it was from the biokinesis and I asked Shay if he wanted to race (Shay was one of the fastest kids at school, and this school was big on sports). He agreed and we started running. It didn't take long for me to take the lead, he even through something in my face to slow me down and I still kicked his ass. That was one of my first major psionic breakthroughs.
I later left that school and entered a public school. That was when I was introduced to drugs. To make it simple, psychedelics taught me how to seperate myself from the ego and the illusions of the ego. This changed me drastically and me entire world view changed. Unfortunantly my use got a little out of control and I was sent to rehab. There I saw many amazing things. I don't want to explain everything in detail because it would take to long, so I'll cut it down. A skitzo friend I made there managed to kill several ants with his mind, and one time he brought it back, controlled it, and killed it again. He also fucked with some kind of negative spirit and a girls I was close with there got attacked several times in her dreams by a tall dark figure, and everytime she would feel the pain inflicted on her in the dream the next day. It ended in a violent psychic attack when she suffered unexplainable pain and looked so bad I thought she was going to die.
Another one of the staff members there demonstrated telekinesis for me (he had seen me practicing the pin wheel) by moving a key back and forth on the see through table, outside in the cold with another witness. That stay in rehab changed my life... it proved psychic phenomena to me and got me interested in it again like never before (before I got sent away my drug use was so severe I began to forget about psionics).
When I got back I dedicated myself to the whole area of psionics and consciousness. Of course I got back into drugs but this time never forgot about psionics, and swore that I would one day quit drugs and pursue psychic phenomena. I went on and off practicing telekinesis and psiballs. I got pretty good at psi balls to the point where I could feel a strong magnetic field between my hands. Eventually I became depressed again and even with all the amazing things I had seen I still felt I couldn't KNOW psionics and astral projection were real. I simply needed more experience, and that was basically impossible because I was stoned out of my mind every day. It was one night of intense dispare and total sobriety that I had a OBE that changed everything. This OBE was special. I completely missed the exit and only became conscious in the OBE in the middle of it. Of course I had no idea I was in a OBE or even a dream, I thought I was in waking reality. Everything looked completely in place and I was on the middle floor of my house (I was sleeping on the top). I remember walking across my living room when all the sudden intense vibrations covered my entire body. Because I had no idea what was going on at the time, I thought, "Jesus, I must be extremely fucked up or something!". I walked forward more and more until I reached the front door and I could go any further. My entire body became paralized and was rushing with vibrations. Slowly I began to lift up off the floor and through the ceiling. I clearly remember my real-time double sifting positions to the position of my physical body, going through the ceiling and entering my physical body. Right when I got back I awoke with utter amazement. I knew something had happened, so I made a mental note and went back to sleep. In the morning I remembered everything perfectly (except the exit). The thing that really amazed me was that later that day I physically re-enacted the projection and discovered that the vibrations started when I was about 20 feet away from my sleeping body on the top floor. Then I noticed that exactly where I became paralized was RIGHT underneath my physical body. I had experience the silver cord phenomena, actual energetic phenomena, without knowing I was even in an OBE, therefore its impossible that my mind created it. That was the final straw. After that I was 100% positive that psionics and astral projection were real. I finally had found some peace.
And that led to my decision to stop using drugs on the weekdays for now on, so that I may advanced in psionics, astral projection and meditation. Of course I still believe psychedelics are connected to astral projection and spiritual development so I will never actually completely quit using. Theres no point in doing something like that.
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