(Somewhat) Frightening Experience
Hey all! I just registered on theses forums so I could share an odd experience I had a couple minutes ago. If anyone could explain to me what just happened I would be delighted! :D
I was asleep, barely. I had been laying in bed, thinking about girl I like and my imagination kept getting more and more vivid until it consumed my entire consciousness and turned into an LD, but a very shallow one. The entire dream lasted maybe six minutes and then it faded, and I started getting the sensation that I was about to wake up. I opened my eyes (or I thought I did, more on that in a bit) and my room was entirely pitch black. Not as in an absence of light, it felt as if some black presence had filled my room and swallowed all the light. (Now bear in mind that I was sleeping with my window open, and there was a ton of light coming in from the recently full moon, as well as light coming from my computer screen. In reality the lighting in my room was similar to twilight). Anyway, as soon as I saw, or rather felt the void, the thought occurred to me that some evil presence was filling my room and that I was under attack (not something I would consider under rational circumstances). The concept of fear entered my mind, and it immediately consumed me so completely that I closed my eyes and entered what felt like a state of full body panic. My whole body started shaking, or vibrating, and I felt an intense pressure in my lower right abdomen that grew more and more in intensity. The sensation that I was being attacked grew more and more concrete in my mind and I became fearful for my safety. I concentrated all of my focus on taking a breath (I couldn't breathe) and opening my eyes. Almost immediately I accomplished both and I woke up and was laying in bed in my normal room, with nothing to show for my experience except for the feeling that I'd just taken a huge shot of adrenaline.
There are a couple of thoughts I have about the experience that I want to share, but they are only my own ideas. I have no idea what happened. My first theory is that I entered the preliminary stage to experiencing astral projection. My concept of AP's is rather vague. I have been reading some other people's experiences online with it the last few days and I don't really have a firm grasp of what it should feel like, only a few loosely connected ideas. I remember reading something about vibrations being a part of the transition into and AP, something about increasing your vibrations to reach a higher plane of reality. I didn't pay much attention to it at the time - it sounded like a lot of waffle to me. I've also read about a state that one enters immediately after leaving one's body that is filled with 'creatures' or energies that 'scream' and are extremely unpleasant but entirely harmless. I'm wondering if the dark energy that I felt could be this state. Second, the reason I made the distinction between the first and second time I opened my eyes is because I'm curious if the first time was the sensation one experiences when they wake up in the astral plane. It felt so real, but I've heard the one feels extremely realistic physical sensations when in an AP and the fact that wherever I woke up wasn't my actual physical room (another theory I'm playing with) , and also the second time I opened my eyes the sensation was one of relief, along with a general sense of being back to 'reality'.
Oh, one more thing that I forgot is that when I felt like I was shaking I felt at the time that my body was filling itself with fear energy* and that it was entirely a result of my mental suggestion that I should be afraid of what I was experiencing. It occurred to me that the experience could have been a very different one, but the energy that was filling me was entirely out of my control and I felt like I would lose my mind if I didn't escape it. It was that feeling of negative energy that made it an unpleasant experience for me, not the darkness.
Skeptics should bear in mind that I consider myself an entirely rational person and had never considered astral projection to be a real phenomenon until this recent mindfuck. Please don't troll my thread.
*whatever that means. It seems like as good a word as any to describe what I felt.
Anyways, thoughts? I calmed down as soon as I woke up and now I just want to repeat it in a more rational state!
