Hopeless Wanderings

My friend's dad locked me in his basement in a tiny cell for weeks(or months?). In order to eat, I caught mice and somehow started fires to roast them over. When the dad asked me what I ate, and I told him. "I eat everything but the insides." My body was starved and withering away. I was scared and alone. I looked for ways to escape but it was impossible. Then, my friend and her mom came home and somehow I got access to a cell phone. At this point, I was sobbing. I tried calling the friend's mom to tell her what her husband was doing to me but the call didn't go through. My friend came by and I saw a chance to get a hold of a bottle of alcohol. I told her this, and she told me not too because her dad might find out and be mad. Then I found another phone and tried to call 911 but when I pressed "9" a "0" would pop up after it so it took me awhile. I was crying so hard saying, "help me, help me!" It was traumatizing.

It wasn't quite a nightmare, but a scary, disturbing dream.

So.. I was really unsure about posting this just because it's sort of.. intense. But I decided that it's just a dream and I've posted so many other not-so-pleasant dreams on here so I guess I'll post this one.

Rape
This is my third(I think) dream about a rapist but the first one that involves.. me.

I was in my house when some guy around my age barged in and started chasing after me. I tried to find a place to hide but he chaded me down and found me right away.

Spoiler for a bit graphic:

He dragged me into a room and I laid down on the bed and he got on top of me. I didn't put up much of a fight because I didn't want him to hurt me any more than he already was. I don't remember this part very much, but I know he did the deed and then got off me. He did this twice during the dream.

Afterwards, he acted like nothing had happened and so did I because I wanted him to trust that I wouldn't tell anyone so that he would leave. Unfortunately, he was too smart to leave right away. I tried to get away again but he would chase me down right away. So I just tried to be calm and casual and then he saw the hot tub in my backyard. I asked him if he wanted to go in it and he said yes. I told him I didn't feel like going in and that I would just stay in the house. I promised him that I wouldn't call or say anything to anyone or try to get away, and he actually believed it. He thought we were 'pals' then. So he went out to the hot tub and I quickly locked all the doors so he couldn't get back in. I ran to a room to find somewhere to hide but decided I was safe enough to stay where I was and call for help. I called 911 and told them everything. Then someone else was there with me, maybe a neighbor or something, and the guy was trying to get back in the door as the neighbor or someone blocked it. I was terrified that he would get back in so I held the door shut until one of my parents, my dad I think, came home. I told him what happened and we got in his car and sat there until the cops showed up. It seemed to take forever for them to arrive, but when they did come there was around six of them. I finally felt safe again..

Shopping
I had another dream about shopping for a birthday gift for my friend and I went to mayfair mall with one of my other friends to shop. I had a gift card to Victoria's Secret, which happened to be just a small makeup stand in a Khols, instead of a whole store. I had no idea what to get and my friend was helping me pick stuff out but I didn't really want to buy any of it. Then she just sort of ignored me and walked off to shop for some clothes and I followed her. I went to try something on so I sat in a waiting area with some other people from my school. They were laughing a little at me, I think because I was dressed in a hoodie and jeans while everyone else was dressed all fancy and 'cool'. I laughed to myself then and thought, "Yea well atleast I don't have to go shopping all the time and spend 1,000$ a month on clothes." I was happy the way I was.

yea yea yea I know I hardly ever post my dreams anymore..

SOMEBODY HEL- oh.

I was in school(like most of my dreams) in some class with my friend Aub and some other student. We were the only ones in the classroom for some reason, and out of no where there was some screaming and some people shouting "OH MY GOD!" I was too scared to go outside the classroom and see what was going on, so I just sat there and watched as Aub looked out the door and was like "SOMEBODY DO SOMETHING! OH MY GOD!" but it seemed as if no one did anything. So I asked Aub what was going on out there, and she said something about boys on fire. So I finally went outside the classroom and saw something really disturbing. Two naked teenage guys going at it who were apparently having hot burning love or something.. surrounded by pizza slices on the floor. No wonder no one went to the rescue. I saw one of the teachers, Mrs. Sack., say "knock it off guys, seriously!!!!!!!" in a really angry voice, but the boys just kept going at it. Then I woke up. Ew. I thought something exciting was going to happen, but no, it was just two guys going at it.. at school... nothing out of the ordinary. ha

regular/lucid? dreams: 11-23-10

I skipped school today since I didn't have much going on and I needed to work on finishing my college applications so I slept late and had tons of dreams. For my Psychology class, we are supposed to start keeping a dream journal, which of course is really easy for me, but the problem is that most of my dreams are much too disturbing and I don't think I want my teacher reading them.. so I post them on here instead.


Old Rapist
I was at the house of an old man, along with some other people, and I think some of my friends where there. I don't remember much, but what I do remember is that people would wait in a line to be raped or something crazy like that, and there was blood everywhere, the house was dirty, people were puking, it was gross. After that I went to my next-door neighbor's house and me and my friends were sitting at the counter. My friend started puking, and I tried to puke too because I felt like I had to because of all the gross things I went through but nothing really came out.


Yuck!
Me and my friend Sydney went to a public indoor pool to go swimming. I looked down and already had on my swimsuit, with was mismatched because I brought the wrong top.. or bottom.. or both. I had one of those cami tops on that cover your stomach and I had striped bikini bottoms on that had the Marble Blast Gold logo on them, which I thought was pretty cool(I'm a dork like that). But before I went swimming I really had to go to the bathroom, so I went into a room but it had no toilet so I went through a door in that room that led to another room, and in that room was my teacher(not going to say which one) and some other guys. The only toiled was in the middle of the room. They said they would turn their backs while I went so I sat down but then my teacher started walking towards me in nothing but her underwear and fat hanging out everywhere. I knew that this wasn't actually happening because I wasn't even supposed to go to school this day so part of me knew I was dreaming. But anyway, I sat on the toilet for awhile while she watched me.. it was so gross.

Rhinoplasty
For some reason, I got a nose job because I didn't like my old nose, it was too big or something. I remember taking of the bandages and looking at it in the mirror, liking it even though it didn't look that different. I kept touching it but my mom or friend or whoever was like "you're not supposed to touch it for atleast 3 days!" but it didn't hurt or anything. I realized that I didn't even remember going in the hospital to get the surgery, getting the anesthesia, or even waking up for that matter. But here I was with a brand new nose.

Rollerblading
I went rollerblading down the hill by my house. I was gaining speed quickly and got scared and slowed down but it was too late. I slipped and hit the ground face first, but the ground was rubbery and it didn't hurt at all.


Did I use two different shades of purple for this? They look the same to me..

I swear, my dreams are getting more and more disturbing.

regular dreams: 9-6-10

The first two dreams are from several nights ago and they are kinda depressing/disturbing. I don't really know why I had these dreams, probably from watching too many scary movies or something. The last dream is from last night. I can't remember much so they are just fragments.

Rape
I don't know who's house we were at, mine or someone else's. There was this middle aged woman there, with curly brown hair. I was just standing there watching as this guy was creeping around the outside of the house trying to break in. I called the cops but the line was busy and they never came. The guy got in the house and raped her right in front of me. This happened multiple times, it was like the dream was repeating itself and I couldn't change the outcome.

My Suicide
I was in my room and I'm not sure why but I wanted to die. So I think I took some pills or maybe cut my wrists, I don't remember. There were some people trying to get in my room and help me but they couldn't. I knew that I wouldn't die no matter what because I think part of me might have known that I was in a dream and I can't get injured in dreams. So all I really remember is sitting on the floor in my room dying.. or not.

Late For Class
It was third block(hour, class, whatever) and I was at my locker talking to a friend. I had forgotten what class I had next and the time clock was counting down. I started freaking out and looked at my schedule and saw that I had accounting class next(I don't even take that class in real life) and it was downstairs. So I hurriedly walked to the back of the school and to the right to a staircase(even though there's not one there in real life) and got to class like 5 minutes after the bell rang. But it didn't matter because the teacher said he never takes attendance and didn't care. Then I realized that I might have early lunch instead of late so I didn't even know if I was supposed to be there.