Linkzelda's Dream Journal

I'm really motivated to start drawing out my dreams in the near future, especially when I think back on a few and can still remember the actions I did, facial expressions, etc.....maybe when college starts again for me, or some time during this vacation I might find one dream to do some drawings on.

My ultimate goal is to even add music along with the drawings too. I can already tell that would take a lot of time, and I would have to do it gradually because of that, but it should be interesting.

I'll just stop being reserved of what I can do and just use what I can do instead of wasting it each day I don't.

06.06.2012

Dogs (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

The environment was kind of confusing to presume what time of day it was, but I assume it was morning because the sky was light gray, and the weather was kind of neutral, so it had to be morning, otherwise there would still be glaring hot rays over here.

Very calm environment, very nice as well, I could even push it a little and say that this would be an ideal environment to take a little stroll.....definitely at my University in this dream.

I believe I'm walking to get to my bicycle at what seems to be College Station in Texas, more specifically, the area where the statue of Sul Ross is located at. Yes, I can see it now......large spacious area in front of me, the statue probably 3-6 feet away from me if I paid attention to it.

I see there's a small chihuahua, light brown fur, and probably wearing a little pink cloth hanging around its neck was barking at me.

The owner was right next to it, and looking at the dog, I thought it was kind of cute for it to bark down on me like that. It looked so fragile that I could've squished on it if I wanted to.

Then when I focus my attention back to walking again, something zooms past me to my left. By the time I turn my head to the left, whatever it is already gone, and I'm still a bit delayed from this.

I'm like "uhhhhh" while still looking to the left and to the ground, and then after a few seconds, I look where the thing was headed that went ahead of me. I see it's a dog.

Okay, no problem, I'm a little slow that it basically looks like a double sized pit-bull, and that the owner trying to stop it, even though her weight alone and her holding on the leash should've been enough to prevent the dog from moving.

When I said her weight should've been enough, she was pretty chunky and short. She looked very young as well, I'd say 15-16 or so based on what I saw from far away.

This dog was obviously not within her control, and I believe it was wearing a dark blue cloth around its neck as well. This reminds me of the group of dogs in Okami that are supposed to be guardians or something.

I'd say the dog looked like the 4th one on the bottom to the right, and wore a blue scarf or cloth like the one 3 squares above it. Oh, and it had the ears of the one 3 square above it as well.

I believe it also has a deformed white oval extending from the bottom of its neck, all the way to its body. I look at it for a while, still being a retard until something clicks in my head.


HO



LY





SHIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



That dog was this close from freaking tearing my ass into pieces!!! I quickly look at it, it's still a good distance away from me, but if it could go that fast to where it takes a while for me to notice something passed me, the "safe" distance didn't matter.

I'd say it was 20-30 feet away from me, and I saw that the owner was trying her best to stop the dog by pulling the leash very vigorously.

I could've just played it off and ignore the dog, but this thing is too freaking twitchy for me me to be passive all over again. I finally get me legs in synch with the "holy shit" moment I just had, and the dog turns around 180 to see what's behind it.

Something tells me that in that dog's mind, it was saying "Did I get him? Did I get him? Did I get him? Did I get him?"


*sigh*


But enough for instilling a Black stereotype on myself. I was still scared, just a bit, of this dog possibly coming after me. The owner finally had a good grip on him/her/whatever the fuck you want to label that atrocity, but I didn't want to take my chances.

Me and the dog are both looking at each other from a distance, and it seems that it just happened to glance at me while it's looking at other people as well. I didn't want to take my chances, so I ran a little to the left away from it, built up some speed, and then prepared to do a twirl while jumping in the air like I'm some kind of Ice Ballerina.

I actually pull it off with ease, and I think I land perfectly as well, I can feel myself twirling in the air, feeling as if I might fail and fall, but I land majestically, at least from what I experienced.

When I landed, I bumped into one of those La-Z-Boy furniture chairs, so I guess the landing wasn't really perfect. It seemed I just happened to step on the lever that brings the sofa chair back, so I bend down to pull/push the lever to bring it back up.

I can't remember what I did next.

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06.06.2012

Party (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I'm shirtless throughout most of the this party. It's held inside the house that I'm at in waking life. There seems to be a lot of young people here at first, and I assumed I guess I hosted the party, even though I never hosted on in my life.

I walk around, see a few familiar people, and then I saw her...


Isaura...sigh.

She's not with her boyfriend. Why did she have to be in this dream?

She's wearing a short black jacket that just hands half way to her waste, and I believe she's wearing a striped shirt going horizontally. She's also wearing a really short denim skirt with black stockings underneath and some pretty fancy dark red heels.

Her lips as well are dark red, which makes her more enticing to have a conversation with. But she had a boyfriend in waking life, I'm not going to talk to her at all, even if it is just a dream.

I'm waiting in line to get some food, wait, I have to wait in line if I'm hosting this bloody party?

Wow.


Anyway, while I'm waiting in line, I see some guy that looks like Ivan in real life (guy from High School that I kinda knew in one or two classes).

He's shirtless too, though I don't really pay attention to the details, and I think some guys like myself were either wearing short black sports pants or some weird yellow or black cloth covering our private parts. Ivan asks a stupid question, like he mostly does from what I recall in waking life, and this query of this is wondering how he can alter the color of the cloth he's wearing.

There's supposed to be an island cabinet in the middle of the kitchen (so much for reality checking), but the brown dining table replaces it, and some random person grabs Ivan's cloth, and you know the tiny little gap that shows from tables that can be split in two in order to save space when you don't need them?

Yeah, someone puts the cloth between it, rubs it a little in between, and take it out, and it matches the color of the brown table.

Okay.....don't know exactly why Ivan wants a change in color for his cloth, but not my concern, hell, I think I wanted mine changed too....LOL.

Anyway, as I'm getting closer and closer to the food, I'm still waiting behind Ivan. Then I realize the food in front of me would be gone. Ivan goes around the table to where we're facing each other, and I see there's like 4 pieces of food left, like Hors d'oeuvres type of food.

Sigh.....

I let Ivan take it, and try to look around to see if there's any food, but the only thing I'm seeing are chips and some small packets of what seemed to be red salsa for it. I think there were Fruit Loops cereal as well.

I get a bowl, and I think I put some chips inside, but I also think I put some Fruit Loops inside of it as well. I guess I forgot that I put chips in the bowl.

The dream shifts, and I'm in the same kitchen, and I see bottles of some black stuff. In my mind, I thought they were overloads from Runescape.

To describe what Overload potions are in a nutshell: Basically, you need 96 Herblore to make these things, but you can boost your stats up if you're lucky and get a 5+ bonus from Spicy Stew. When you drink a dose of an Overload potion, your combat stats go WAY up, making it useful for killing things faster, and the effect lasts for 5 minutes.

If you're 99 in all combat stats, you're basically level 125 in Attack, Strength, Defense, Range (I think) and 106 for mage I think? (because having 125 Mage means you're a fucking god). Oh and if you drink potions that drain your stats, as long as you have Overloads and have the effect own, it boosts them back up to max, so it's the perfect potion when you use items like Saradomin Brews that boost your health way up, but drain your stats as tradeoff.

Think of Overloads as Steroids in the game.

Okay back to the dream.

I'm filling out this black substance in different containers starting from as small as a regular bottle with a cap on it, to as large as a oil barrel.

My second thought of what the black substance was is oil as well, the overload thing came into mind after I assumed it was oil. I pour it out in bigger containers, for some odd reason, and then I think I reached the point to where I just pour things out without really giving much thought to it.

I think I drank some stuff from the bottle, then realized I probably took some of the black substance, panicked a little, but it was actually water, not the black substance.

Then someone calls out my name, I turn around, and it's one of older people in their 50s calling me. It's from a group in waking life that basically has parties for anyone's birthday.

Anyway, as I'm listening to her, though I forget what she said specifically, I'm tying up what seems to be a trash bag. I tell her to give me a few seconds to finish tying up the bag, and there were several people sitting near the couches and chairs as well.

The dream shifts again to where the party finally ends. I go outside the garage, and the environment outside is completely mixed up. On my right, I see parts of College Station, Texas, more specifically, areas near the Clock Tower and Texas A&M.

I even see the railroad lane and some oncoming traffic as well, and yet I don't do a reality check for this. I think someone comes in to see if the party is still going, but I'm not sure what I said, but they left eventually. I think I was outside at the garage to get some kind of fairly large blue object, like an over-sized notebook of some sort, and probably went back inside the house.

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06.06.2012

Hypocrite (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I sitting on my bed, it's bright as day from what I see through the blinds and the overall natural lighting of the room I'm in. There are a few kids around, so I presumed I have to babysit them while the adults party it up....-.-

I threw a paper ball at one kid, and quickly changed my facade to where I had no participation in this. He turns around to find out who it was, and he's not completely stupid fortunately.

He's a small kid, probably 6-7 years of age I believe, and resembles one of the twin kids that I sometimes have to make sure behave when they come to this house in waking life. He's wondering where the paper balls are, and they are right next to my left leg. It seems I'm wearing long gym pants.

Before the kid could check the left side, I slowly put my leg on top of the paper balls, and when he goes on the left side, he's wondering what the hell happened to the rest of the paper balls.

Lol, what a bloody idiot. I continue pretending that I didn't do anything by asking him where they could possibly be. I even pulled out some sheets that I probably used to cover myself while sleeping to help him see if there were there.

Nada, still under my legs, he isn't going to find those paper balls.

Idiot.

I guess he gives up eventually because there's a dream shift where I'm talking to another child. I have to bend down on my knees, and slant my back forward just to make eye contact with him.

The kid did something that irritated me, probably something he said to the other kids. He's dark-skinned, resembles another kid who is a little bit more mature than the other twins, probably 9-13 years of age in waking life now.

I tell him he's a hypocrite.

His face is still, I don't think he knows what hypocrite or hypocrisy means. I almost thought he was going to tell on me for calling him one.....LOL...but really, he asks me,

"What's that?"

I gave him what I thought it was at the time with my diluted logic in this dream. I told him that a Hypocrite is a person who tries to proclaim ideals that should be met, and contradicts those intentions by not trying to follow them.

I even give him an example, a horrible example that went a little out of context. I declared something about believing in God, The Bible, Angels, etc., and then contradicting those intentions and ideals by not believing in Angelic symbols.


I'm paraphrasing here, but I know I did a horrible job with telling this kid what it means. Oh well, don't give a crap on what I instill in that kid's head, just wanted to enlighten him so he wouldn't be bothering me, or possibly go up to his parents and declare that I called him a hypocrite.

Boy....that wouldn't be fun.....especially with how my father tries his best to let the adults enjoy and loosen themselves at parties...I might as well fabricate whatever came out of my ass at the time.

Not saying I want to ruin the parties or anything, just that the children can be horrible sometimes with their behavior. Thank goodness for video games or just basic television, because that's the only thing that will shut them up.

Man, I really do hate children huh? Guess I won't be considering marriage for a loooong time.

06.05.2012

Money in Mail Slot (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I took a nap around 2-3PM and planned to wake up at 5 PM.


I have the neighborhood mailbox (one section) in the house I'm currently at in waking life so I can open our slot that had a lot of $5 bills.

While I'm taking out what seems to be an endless supply of $5 bills, and while I'm doing this, "Freckles" the English Version song from Rurouni Kenshin is playing.

Lol.

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05.25.2012

Mow the Lawn (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

My mother is nagging me on how I have to mow the lawn before my father comes. I tell her that I'll take care of it, and she shouldn't have to worry about it. Lol, why would my mother be there to tell me in the first place?

Anyway, the time is around 2:02 PM or so in this dream, and I'm surprised on how fast time is passing, and I know my father might come early, I just had the feeling. So I decided to get started on mowing the lawn, and then he comes...

FUCK.

Well, he didn't look mad for seeing me not finish it as yet, and then it fucking RAINS.



FUCK MAN FUCK.

My father sits down near the garage on a white chair, and coming off of work, tired, it's obvious that he's going to be pissed.

He tells me why I didn't do it earlier, and I just take his verbal abuse at me. I even agree with him on my own incompetence for not finishing something so simple to do.

I wake up, and it's not even close to that time....LOL, more like 8:04 AM.

Man, I don't know how I took that abuse from him! Guess I'm still a piss poor wimp even in my dreams.

Think I better start mowing the lawn RIGHT now.

05.04.2012

Throw the gum away (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I'm sitting in class, and it's almost time to leave, I can just feel it.

I was doing some project with some people I can't remember, but apparently, people were waiting for me to be able to be dismissed. It took me a while, but everyone started to shift their attention towards me.

I look at them have that "Okaaaaaay" face on me, I get up, and I think I was chewing gum.

Guess the teacher wanted me to spit it out for whatever odd reason that prevented us from being dismissed. I wanted to be a hero and throw the gum in the trash can, but I miss, like I always freaking do, and did the walk of shame.

I heard some voices going, "Nooope" "ahhh ahhh!" "awww" when I was going to shoot the gum in the basket.

I go back to sit down, and that's all I remember.

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05.04.2012

Running up Stairs (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I believe I was with a group of people, and one of them was summoning trees to grow larger or something, and then the dream shifts.

I was in a house, don't know who it is, but it has a lot of small sets of stairs going up to the attic. I was going up pretty fast, probably even skipping a whole set, and turning to the other sets until I'm finally up to an attic.

I see those same trees that were extended, and they were weird looking trees, they looked more like zoomed in versions of flowers.

There's this random tree-house attached inside the house, and it extended to the outside. What I mean is that if you decided to go inside of it, it would be in midair, but supported by the house itself.

It looked unstable, since I tested it but tapping my foot near the floor, and there was some creaking sounds....definitely not going to an unstable tree house outside of an attic.

Oh, and apparently, mooseantlers (DV member) built the tree-house because a message came up as a chat bubble saying,

"Mooseantlers built this."

After that, I can't remember anything else.

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05.04.2012

Two Men & One Woman (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

This felt like a middle school dream or something of the sort, maybe a High school one. I was sitting down near the bleachers in the gym, and I was sitting next to a blonde girl.

Someone was complaining why we need to eat stuff, well duh, to survive...right?!?!?

Anyway, I was holding an object in my hand, but can't remember what exactly. The girl I was sitting next to, the blonde, she basically smelled me without making it apparent she was smelling me.

She was disgusted by it, and shifted to the left a little bit. I ignored her to pretend like nothing happen, and to save embarrassment if other people looked at her and saw that she moved away from me.

There was some guy sitting one level on the bottom of me, and he was telling me what's up, and how it's been a long time or something like that, but I ignored him. I saw him make the face that said, "Oooh okay, guess I'm not cool or anything." but I didn't care too much.

I believe she was wearing a white dress shirt, blue jeans, and based on my peripheral vision, she probably had freckles as well. The instructor/teacher requested everyone to arrange themselves to where there would be one female and two males for a group.

She said that,

"It would be best to have it with two males and one females, because having a female in it will give more attention to you all" or something like that.

There was this new girl sitting next to me, and based on my peripheral vision, she looked like she resembled a Biochemistry classmate I had this semester. I forgot her name in waking life though, and she was Hispanic as well.

She wore a black sports jacket with white stripes along the sides of her arms, and had a red shirt underneath it. I believe she was wearing long black sports pants as well. There was another guy with us, but I didn't care too much about him, he was sitting left of her.

After a while, I think the dream starts to fade, and this is probably one of those dreams where I get closer and closer to finally getting a CANWILD technique done.

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05.04.2012

Eva? Anyone??? (DEILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Okay, so......IT WORKED IT WORKED, now to just keep up with the technique. I set my alarm on the computer to wake me up after four hours of sleep instead of the usual 5-6 that I tried this week.

I told myself that when I hear the alarm, I would wake up, keep my eyes, closed, and remain still. Worked like a charm! In fact, I woke up from a dream naturally, kept my eyes closed.

I presumed that since I woke up, it was probably a few minutes before the actual alarm set off. So I told myself in this void state from coming out of a dream that I would still keep my eyes closed and remain still, and it works!

So the CANWILD tech, although I came out of a dream naturally, I was able to listen to the alarm passively. Once I heard it, started getting ready to get into the dream state.

After maybe 10-20 seconds of being still, started to feel this fuzzy feeling around my head and neck region, but I kept calm, with my eyes slightly open, but I closed them shut, and then I realize it's my dream eyes.

But to make sure I wasn't opening my real one, I closed them and imagine what the room would look like.

My dream eyes opened naturally. I was laying on my left side in the bed, and when I was looking inside of the room, the walls were white, and it definitely was NOT my apartment this time.

I think it was either me in someone's house, or maybe this is just a new setting my mind wanted me to explore a little bit. I do a nose plug reality check, and from that point on, I focused on stabilizing the dream.

Stabilization was my main objective, along with trying to summon Eva, of course.

Anyway, the same bedroom I'm in, it had stickers all over the walls. I couldn't tell exactly what they represented, but I know there was this dim light blue light radiating from the bottom somewhere, probably to serve as a nightlight for whoever house this is.

I open the door, and slowly walked out to the living room. The flooring has a wooden shine to it I believe, and it's fairly empty, but everything is pretty vivid in this dream. I turn on the lights, because there were a lot of doors arranged in this dream, and I was a little fearful that something random might pop up.

I kept holding my nose and breathing through it to remind myself that I'm dreaming, since the place would be an environment that I would take for granted and become non-lucid or something. There was some temptation to roll my eyes, which has a nasty tendency to wake me up, but I suppressed the urge, and still kept myself in the dream.

I'm walking around the living room, and there's a light lamp shining from above, while all the other areas such as the kitchen and dining room were left in the darkness.

I decided to summon a T.V., didn't expect it to work but, it did! An HD widescreen T.V. showed up, and it was gray on the external layers on it.

Wow.....that's amazing, summoning something simple as a T.V. was a challenge for me. I think I either turned on the T.V., or listened to another one in the house.

A commercial was playing, or some clip of a random movie, but I never seen anything like it, so I guess it's just a collaborated event going on. There's this blonde female in the shower, and there's two men in it I believe.

Don't think it's porn scene, lol. Anyway, she looked like she was afraid of something, and walked over quickly to the strong and muscular guy for protection. It was kind of short, the clip that is, and I focused my attention back to myself.

I even rubbed my hands slowly as well, finally getting a sense of what it's like to feel my dream hands. Things shift from third person to first person perspective for me a few times, and I believe that's what caused me to get the dream stabilized, since in most of my non-lucids, it's mostly third perspective.

So I guess I just need to get used to being in first person perspective in these lucids now, will help tremendously.

Anyway, I figured that since I'm stabilized in this dream long enough, even though I should've stabilized some more, I decided that since I summoned the HD T.V. in front of me, I said,

"Eva!" and waiting for someone to appear, but nothing. I mean, I knew that it might've taken a while, and that I should've been patient, but since that didn't work out, I decides to say,

"My previous dream guides!"

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Nothing lol.

I was sitting on a small soft chair meant for one person to sit on, and I think I had one of my legs over the other.

Disappointed, I get back up again, and then the dream starts to fade, and I think it's because I was starting to see myself in third-person perspective.

Anyway, glad I got a lucid from autosuggestion and setting the alarm after 4 hours of sleep for the successful DEILD, so even though I didn't do the CANWILD like I thought I would do, I still did it because I told myself that I would be aware of the alarm, and remained still and keep my eyes closed.

04.14.2012

That Guy, I don't build roads, Melanieb and Erii DV post, Stealing my thunder(Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Took a short nap, well a little too long of a nap around 12:50PM-3:55 PM, with at least one period of waking up and going back to sleep, so I'm going to start with the one I had recently.

Oh, and I also realized that the DJ program I use collects all dreams from the same date when it makes a clipboard to copy the text from....didn't know about that before ( I just thought the clipboard copied separate entries, and you would manually have to click publish and close the tabs that appear to the DJ entry link, but that's not the case), at least I don't have to make another long title of my dreams except when entering a DJ title. I really feel like an idiot for not realizing that....oh well, learn something new everyday.


Dream 1: That Guy....

I'm inside of a classroom, probably a High School room because it was way smaller than a college lecture room. I believe it was a Chemistry teacher that had a review session with us.

Everyone is dismissed, and as I'm walking out, I stop mid-way to put some things into a black backpack I have. I put some papers in, probably the review worksheet. Then I find myself holding a plastic bowl with a cover that's filled with water, or some other type of clear liquid.

The bowl cover was kind of messed up around the edges because there was water dripping out randomly, and I didn't want to put in my backpack if it was going to drip on review sheet inside of it. The bowl was transparent orange, and the cover itself was an apricot kind of orange.

I'm wondering what the heck is wrong with this thing, even if I seal it, it either drips a little, or just splashes a bunch of liquid on the floor. I decide I should just hold it in my hand instead.

I stop again to listen to some girls talk about something, but I keep my back facing to them, and one girl says,

"My grandpa (or father) gets more ladies than that guy...."

At first I wanted to think that they were mentioning someone else, but then I get that vibe that they could possibly be talking about me. Then I'm sure I have the feeling that they're talking to me, because the girl pauses after her speech, and the group of girls she's with laughs with her.

I just ignore them, get out of the room, and turn left to go somewhere.

Dream 2: I don't build Roads....

I'm outside of a house with my father, and we're standing on the front yard. This setting looks exactly like a previous house I've lived before when I was much younger.

There was the pine tree in the middle, a small sidewalk if you walked a bit further from that. The atmosphere was neutral, and it was kind of peaceful because the weather felt perfect (at least it would've if I actually went that deep into dream senses).

My father is wearing a gray vest, and some short as well, and he calls me to show me that I could use some type of material to build some roads.

"I don't build roads, father...." I declared. I believe I also turned my back, just my back, and pointed to the main road that is completely tar black with yellow lines in the middle to help distinguish which lane is which.

That abnormality itself should've made me do an RC, since roads like that aren't usually in neighborhoods, but focus my attention back to my father. I believe my mother was here as well, but I didn't pay too much attention to her.

The dream shifts to where I'm in a different house, and it seems to be the one I went to most recently other than my apartment. My father is busy washing the dishes manually.

Then out of the blue, when I see him doing this, I go up to him, smile, and say,

"Let me do this....let me do this."

It takes a while, but he lets go. I ask him if there's anything he wants me to clean that he needs now, and then he said something weird along with the word "knife."

I was a bit confused, and asked him what he meant by that, and he picks up a butter knife.

"Oh, okay."

I only remember myself washing the dishes after that.

Dream 3: Melanieb's Post and Erii

I can't remember much about this dream....but it's worth putting anyway.

I'm on the DV forums most likely, and I see Melanieb is posting something. Apparently, it was deleted by a mod, and I wondered why it was deleted.

It was just a picture of some blonde wearing a black vest. I think she was holding her hair up, which would tempt your eyes to look at her cleavage since the long strands weren't as distracting.

Then I decide to post the same picture to see what happens, and it gets deleted too, apparently.

Then I asked some mods why the picture wasn't acceptable for viewing, but no one responds, and then I made a joke, and then Erii responds with something funny as well, but I can't remember.

I also noticed when I saw Erii's response, her avatar had a green hue to it instead of the blue stripes...I guess I wasn't that aware in the dream.

Dream 4: You stole my thunder....

It took me a while to notice this, but I believe I was standing on a stage with a few females. All of them were anime girls, and I think I took the role of a random anime guy. He was wearing a fancy suit and pants, with some black lace-less shoes.

It felt kind of weird, it was like I was shifting from first-person to third-person perspective back and forth for a decent amount of times.

Whenever I had to speak, I would always shift to first person perspective. I hear a random voice ask me an awkward question, which leads me to transfer to first-person perspective.

"I...uh.....I went out with, this girl! And that one too!"

The anime girls were a bit confused, but they started to smile at me and advanced towards me. I believe even Elie from Rave master was there too. She was wearing her basic outfit from the anime series.

Then some other dude makes a grand entrance, and even though I couldn't remember his visage, he was more attractive to the girls.

All of them except one left me.....he totally stole my thunder, even though I was portraying bravado when I lied about going out with those anime girls.

The girl who is staying with me, she kind of looks like Megumi Ooumi from Zatch bell, but the one in my dreams had black hair. She was probably wearing a long yellow dress with a green jacket. She had her arms on my neck, and I felt kind of happy that she didn't abandon me.

I look at the other guy with the other girls, and that's all remember.

03.30.2012

Oneironaut Zero or Blade Home Invasion?? (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Dream 1: Oneironaut zero or Blade Home Invasion?

The person looked a lot like O, but it could've just been my mind associating something related to him, Blade, or even Morpheus.

Before this dream, I was listening to the Cowboy Bebop Ending Song. It's been so long since I've listened to it, it really makes me depressed, but the music (especially the full version) is so enticing to me. I guess seeing the images pan over after the other makes me think a lot about how fragile your life can really be, but that's just me, it's hard to explain.

Just the music and the pictures really makes you feel like you're trapped doing all of these things in life, the basic things, the things that make you vulnerable....

I don't want to think too much about why I met Spike for a few seconds in a dream I had last night, but the fact that there could be symbolism like a fading star representing someone's death, which is what was apparent at the last episode before showing a picture of Spike at the end of the series, the choir, etc., things that made it look like he was going to die.

And the quote he says before going to the Red Dragon's lair (an organization) to kill Vicious

"I'm not going there to die. I'm going to find out if I'm really alive."

And when the Wikia talked about how he lives like he's in a "dream-state"

Spike's attitude of living in a "dream-like" existence is displayed by his careless behavior and his nonchalant attitude towards dangerous or outright fatal situations....

He also is shown to enjoy sleeping, and that may tie into his mantra of 'living a dream.'

I wonder why Spike appeared in my dream, and then flashed away, like a fading star dying....


I'm talking to my father about something, and then he tells me that he thinks that I'm annoying for some reason. Something along with how I'm some kind of distraction.

After a while, I could tell he was just in rage over something else, and was just saying that to me because he was in the heat of the moment, but after he calmed down a bit, he tried to apologize to me indirectly again by trying to be nice to me.

He asked me,

"Can I play this game called Runescape?"

I respond, "No."

Then he wants to play The Legend of Zelda: Twilight Princess, and at first I wanted to say "No" to that as well, but I just didn't really care what he did at this point, seeing as he's making himself pathetic trying to apologize to me without using direct words.

He disappears, which doesn't bother me at all, the dream was set for afternoon, maybe around 4-5PM where it's still bright outside.

I go near the entertainment center of the house (the cabinet center is what I'm talking about), and I see that there's some weird looking Nintendo console in front of me.

I fiddle around with other things surrounding it, like seeing Zelda collectables. I was pondering if my father was buying this for me to try and suck up to me for being mad at me, but I let the possibility fade away really quick.

Surprisingly, the vividness of this dream was amazing, seeing how I slept around 3-3.5 hours. I did not do a reality check inside the house unfortunately, perfect chance for me to be lucid, since I'm at my apartment in waking like.

I open the container that looked like some part of a DVD player eject out a Legend of Zelda: Twilight Princess Wii Disc. It was exactly like the CD (almost), with the gold-ish tint, and the picture of Link holding a sword to where he has it angled towards the ground instead of upwards.

(Just imagine the image of link on the right being on the CD with a gold-ish color)

I put back the CD to get something to eat, and it seems I take a quick bite out of something that was probably Fish Cakes.

It tasted like red salmon, and then I realize I didn't heat it up, because it tasted weird when it was cold. Then I forget to do that altogether since I look outside because the backyard door is opened.

At first, I see some random DCs, I'm presuming are neighbors, walking their way to their homes as well. For some odd reason, I imagined things like,

"What if a tiger randomly popped in from the backyard?" (that was probably and association where I was watching the AVG tiger toothpick commercial on YouTube....check it out )

I let the thought fade away, and then for some reason, I immediately drop to the floor on purpose to land prone on the right side of my body extended out.

I get my right hand out, and aim for outside, and shadowed the form of a gun with it, and then said, "Bang!" as I imitated the recoil of shooting a gun.

(I know that motion I did just had to be my association with interpreting why Spike from Cowboy Bebop was in my dream yesterday).

I had a little fun pretending I'm shooting a gun for a while, almost feeling like a kid for a few seconds aiming my fingers and random points outside.

Eventually, seeing how I was alone in the house, I felt that I might as well close the door, since I didn't really feel like going outside.

I get back up, quickly dash to the side of the door that was opened and extended to the right.

For those few seconds, just those few seconds of the quick dash, I see someone trying to come into the house through the SAME door.

I barely saw their visage to the right of the door window, and saw that they were wearing shades. The person had a dark skin tone, he was Black.

He wore a gray, white, or silver vest, and it seems they were sleeveless because they were ripped out. The guy had muscular arms from what I saw in the few seconds of looking at him. He wore short pants, maybe blue or Khaki, not too sure on that.

I almost had the feeling where I'm questioning if this person is Oneironaut Zero, or Blade, but the feelings started to fade because my main mood was to wonder what the heck am I going to do to defend myself.

I also think I was in denial in it possibly being O or Blade because of how they tried to enter the house by crouching down instead of just coming in casually.

To describe this mood of mine, imagine having no guns, and knowing that the person trying to come in could be armed, so now you feel so weak because of this, so you try to find anything sharp, and hope that wherever you hide wouldn't be the obvious choice for the invader to investigate.

Basically, just making anything that's metal and sharp into a potential murder weapon.

The person couldn't see me because there is a small transparent gray cloth I believe hanging over the window of the door.

I slammed the door immediately, locked the two silver locks, take one more quick glance at who was outside the backyard.

The person looks pretty serious, and I assume it's just someone trying invade the house silently, and I still think he thought the door just slammed shut because of the wind or something.

He tries to fiddle around with the lock from the outside, and I take this time to turn around immediately, and since I'm in the kitchen, I immediately gear my attention to the knives.

They were conveniently placed 1-2 feet away from me.

(Another reality check I could've done because I knew in waking life, those knives where set a little bit further from the backyard door, but I guess I wasn't serious about awareness of the environment I'm in, despite me looking around seeing weird things happening).

I quickly grabbed one knife out of fear, and then decided to get another. With one knife in each hand, I felt a little safer. I started to think about how I would kill the DC that was trying to lock-pick the door and invade the house.

I decided that I should hide behind the pantry, but that would be stupid, because I was worried that the person would check that first because it was the first thing you could see on your left if you come through the door leading to the backyard.

I believe I even thought of what would happened if I hid behind the pantry door as well, but at the same time, I felt I was already in the pantry door.

I was so afraid, despite having two weapons in my hands, and I think I hear the door slightly open.

I wake up, but my eyes did not open, I could've went into a DEILD and tried to see what happened, but in all honestly, I was afraid because I swore that person looked like Oneironaut Zero or Blade.

And I opened my eyes, but they wanted to close back, so I opened it again.

Did that just really happen? I do a RC to make sure it wasn't a FA when I woke up from it.

And I could've used that fear to try out the Flying Thunder God Technique if I was lucid and was actually trying to be strategic....seeing as this would be a situation where close quarters combat is almost inevitable.

And if I mastered the technique out of fear, the moment the person blinked their eyes to see I'm hidden in the pantry or whatever, it would already be too late because I would be right behind them.

Too bad I didn't use my brain for once....

EDIT

Dream 2: Okay Father....

I don't want to recall the details here, but basically, I was in a car I believe with my father and mother, that's weird.....still didn't do a reality check for that...

I was listening to their ignorance, and it really made me pissed, I insulted my mother, and then my father tells me to apologize to her and calm down.

"Okay father....." in my attempt to be chilled, still wanting to release rage to the both of them.


Dream 3: Ping pong balls..

I can't remember much about this one, except that I was playing tennis with ping pongs that eradicated when you slammed them hard enough. They burst like water balloons.

Dream 4: Adult stuff...

Nothing special, just looking at some adult scenes that I never seen before on my Zune HD.

02.21.2012

Stamping images on Lady's Ass, Riding Bicycle and Finding Kaomea?, In Car, Alyzarin's Garden?

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I'm still looking for Kaomea, but I'm also looking for Alyzarin. Funny thing is....I had a dream where I SWEAR she was there (Kaomea).

The other dream on the other hand....I don't know if it was Alyzarin or not, but damn did I wake up with an erection. O.O

Dream 1: Stamping images on Lady's Ass

Note: I just say it was a threesome because it seemed like I was recalling what happened AFTER we did whatever we did. Kind of like just cuddling and admiring this random woman's ass

I was in bed with some lady, I couldn't get her facial features, all I saw was her ass, I think she was standing up wanting to get her butt stamped with some kind of logos (Like wtf lol, this doesn't make sense, it looked like a pedobear logo, but it's too small to assume about that lol). There was some other random dude, but I don't know what he was doing, he was probably just there to look or something.



I'm wondering why the hell she wants that, but I see stamp somewhere near the bed, and I think me or the guy joining in on the fun just start stamping, but the logos weren't showing up (thank goodness it wasn't a pedobear logo ).

Then someone comes in the room, and when I look quickly to see how it was, I saw that we were doing this weird scene near some place that looked like it was going to be a garden!



There was this DC that looks like he's in his 30's, and he comes in and sees what we're doing I think. I quickly try to hide my naked body (I think it's naked) with a blanket. I'm not too sure on what happened next, except that the same person who came was apparently going to be interviewed or asked a few questions.

I'm wondering why would he be asked questions after the questionable stamping of me putting barely noticeable logos of the something....or maybe it was the other guy who did the stamping....yeah I think it was the guy stamping the girls ass.

Even though we were inside a room, looking beyond the glass structure of the entrance (glass door and everything), the ground was brown with stone and everything. The leaves of the trees were very green and lively.

To be honest, I think I may have been closer to finding Alyzarin in this dream if I was lucid, but these are dreams from NON-REM most likely since I woke up around 4:45 AM (slept around 12:45 AM, but probably went into deep sleep around 1:30 AM I bet).

Dream 2: Riding my Bicycle in Circles and Finding Kaomea again?

I was riding my bicycle in circles. This dream, like the one above, is vivid (I'm wondering the reason why it's vivid is because Alyzarin smoked some stuff to help her make them clearer ....probably just me entering the deeper stages of REM, but I'll still be open-minded to that possibility).

The environment represented the University I'm in, and I believe I'm at a dead end when I'm riding the bicycle. I turn around and see a figure that might look like Kaomea, but my memory of the facial features was hazy (but with shared dreaming attempts, I think it's better to feel their energy signature rather than speculating on what they look like).



I don't know what I did after, but apparently I saw a glance of some meeting of random people asking how much of their time they spend working or going to class.

I think most said they did 75% college work and 25% in having a job (but I'm not too sure on those percentages, I just believe it could've been related to Kaomea).

Dream 3: Study Hall in High SChool

I'm in a school setting again, and it feels just like the Study Hall class I took as a Senior my first semester in Mayde Creek High School. I'm near the entrance of the room, and it looks almost exactly like the class room structure. I'm talking with random DCs that I can't really pick up on facial features, but they were trying to tell me how to find someone.

(Now that I think about it, they were probably showing me how to find Alyzarin....since this is the first time in a while since I had a school related dream....but I'll still be open to the possibility that this dream was just an association with waking life....but again...I feel it was created by my intention to find Alyzarin).

I'm trying to pay attention to where they were pointing and explaining, but they were pretty much gave useless information, or maybe it was me not paying attention. I turn my back to see the small window on the classroom door to see if anyone was there, but I don't think I saw anyone.

Then I turn back to the classroom again, and I try to move my head and neck to see who's in front of the class (the seating arrangement was where the desks where facing opposite of the classroom door).

I know I saw random DCs, but it was too bland and simple for me to really know they're faces.

Dream 4: Mother is Driving (DILD)

I'm inside a car with my mother, and she's driving. Eventually, I know that I'm dreaming after we argue over trivial things (couldn't remember them, probably wasn't even an argument in the first place), and I tried to move, but I wanted to just looks at the traffic ahead of us. I saw the sign that signals people to walk or stop, but the dream starts to fade away because I stared too much at the view for too long.



But there was NO way in hell I was going to fail this time....I woke up, but I believe my eyes were closed....I was sort of dissapointed that I actually knew I was dreaming, but I didn't want to move. It was one of those moments where you just sit and wonder....and you're like...holy $$$$. But I wasn't excited from this dream inside the car with my mother, I just had a realization

Dream 5: Appering Inside Alyzarin's House? (WILD or DEILD)

Again, this could be a WILD, but it was most likely a DEILD since I don't remember waking up again after Dream 4 to do a successful WILD. I apologize for the rambling, but I'm just PUMPED UP and excited from this!

(I think the reason why I rarely became lucid in my dreams, it wasn't the fact that I just sucked, it's just that I didn't stay up long enough for the WBTB...I stayed about for about an hour and 45 minutes before going back to sleep....well....at least I know the rough estimate to be aware of my dreams quickly now!)

And I know this dream wasn't pretentious since it's still lingering in my mind, and I sure as hell knew I was lucid because of the nose plug RC.

I remain still, seeing the black of my eyes, still in the state of being half awake/sleep from the previous dream.

I see images rushing through my head, and I swore I saw an image from a character from the avatar, and I heard music playing as well, and it sounded familiar like the video below. (The guy at 18 seconds to 19 seconds....and 38 seconds until the end of the video is part of what I experience (not exact, but it's a pretty accurate experience I had)...




As I'm seeing more images flash before my eyes, I see this yellow background, and it turns into this wormhole kind of structure, and I'm just sliding along for the ride to enter the dream state.

But before I'm literally being pulled into this wormhole/blackhole/whatever...for some reason, I said to myself "Alyzarin's Garden....Alyzarin's Garden....Alyzarin's Garden..."

(We had the intention of meeting each other in a school related dream, but something just came over me that time, but I just went with whatever thought was in my mind to just go with the Garden thing...sorry about that Alyzarin!)

Anyway, I'm being grabbed into the dream state, and then I wake up...but it's a False Awakening. I'm pretty sure I know I'm dreaming, but I just wanted to make sure since my eyes immediately opened (I wasn't able to gradually open them).

I let myself linger a little bit while in bed to speculate, and then I decided to get up. I do a nose plug RC, and I'm breathing through. Definitely dreaming! YES!

I stay calm surprisingly (since I'm long overdue for a lucid dream), and I'm looking around my bed a little bit in the dark, trying to take in th environment and stabilize the dream (but I knew I should've done more stabilization) I'm floating a little bit, and then I reach the ground (I wonder if this was an OBE/AP...since I'm usually always on the ground when lucid).

I open the door in my bedroom, and I'm in this area that is very unfamiliar to me. The wooden floors had that shiny wooden polish to it, there were several windows to my right that helped me realize it's still night time or just early morning for me being inside this house.

I think I even see a fancy white fireplace to the left of me as well, but I didn't pay too much attention to this.


I had a hunch that I was inside of a house where there was a garden outside. I saw one of those fancy marble statues of some figure that I can't depict too well. I'm still wondering where the heck I am, and I just look around for a little while.



Then I decided to open the door in front of me to see to verify that I'm dreaming and am in someone's house. I open the door slowly, and I see the backyard of someone's house.

The grass is really green and clean, but I didn't pay too much attention because the moment I opened the door, the alarm initiated, and it sounds just like the one in the other house I use to live in for vacation before heading to college.



I quickly go towards the alarm, trying not to panic too much, so I thought that since this sound is familiar, obviously the code I use to deactivate it would work.

Nothing works, I even tried switching the last two entries in deactivating the alarm, but NOTHING works!

That's when I started to panic.....I'm definitely in someone's house. It feels quiet too, like no one is in the house. I didn't feel afraid or anything, it's just this alarm, and me wondering what I'm going to do in order to deactivate it that woke me up slowly.

I think when I was thinking about going to Alyzarin' Garden, my mind honestly wanted me to be transported there, but just inside of her house (possibly)...I guess it's up to Alyzarin to see if she had a similar experience.

But the backyard garden itself would've been a pretty nice environment to look at. I felt as if I was the only person in this setting, which would've been perfect for a potential shared dreaming with Alyzarin....oh well. Next time!

Hopefully I can have another success with the WBTB by staying up for a while. Just have to sleep earlier.

01.02.2012

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Dream 1: Naked Pictures of Myself

I don't remember too much about this because it was oddly disturbing and surprising at the same time. I was inside a room sitting somewhere that had an adequate amount of lights that radiated a yellow/orange color to them, and my father is going through a series of pictures on a Laptop.



I think a few of them are me naked with me holding my penis and actually take a fully body picture with it too. I'm freaked out as hell, wondering how the hell I would do something like that, but my father just scrolls through them like he didn't even see anything.

I didn't register any element of surprise from his face when he was going through my photos.

Either he tried to make it look like he didn't see anything and wanted to scroll faster to avoid the other naked pictures I had, or was a completely oblivious DC that was doing random shit on the laptop.

That's all I remember for that one. And good thing that's all I remembered.


Dream 2: Groping Woman's Ass in a Train

I'm on a train that's pretty empty. A pretty cute black girl is outside wearing a RED shirt and has glasses on (looks like Shi Reeves). She looks familar to me because before the dream, I think I heard the voice of some lady trying to convince me to talk to some people or something.



She's with a guy though, so she comes in the train with him. We're all standing, and the train moves. It's the type of train that's outside and above ground, not in the subway. But it felt like I was in a bus, but I'll just go with train for now.



The girl doesn't recognize me, but I have a feeling she was trying to find me in a dream I can' remember seeing her. She was looking outside the windows of the bus while I take a quick glance at her breasts.

I don't know if she was pretending not to see me, I think she even looks at me, but it was only for a second, but I could remember seeing the cheeks on her face have a little makeup on.

Then she gets closer to me with her back facing me, but not paying attention to me. The guy who is with her is on her right, and he's close to me as well. Her back is facing me still, and she gets a little closer to me. She gets closer and closer, and I eventually feel her ass in gray yoga pants or some leggings with my knuckles.

I wasn't trying to touch her intentionally, it's just that she got closer to me. While the bus is constantly moving, making her ass bump into the knuckles of my hand even more, the dude who is next to her grabs my hand I think and forces me to grope her ass.

He's asks me "Don't you want this???" At first I'm shocked because it feels like this guy had persuaded me to meet this woman before in different dreams that I cannot remember, but I could actually feel her ass.

It was so smooth and firm. Feeling the texture of the yoga pants was amazing, but I wasn't lucid. It felt erotic just holding my hand around this woman's amazing ass, I felt like a child that suddenly got into the temptation.

I ended up holding the sides of this woman and starting to move both my hands near the bottom region of her stomach to her vaginal area and continued moving them around her rear.

I finally was convinced and told the person "Yes...I'll be with her." or something like that. I didn't see how the guy looked though. But damn was this woman I'm touching hot. She really started to look like Shi Reeves.

I think I'm in a different dream scenario to where they are taking me to a random house. We get there by car I think. The environment overall has some gray clouds, and the neighborhood looks like a pretty maintained and fancy place.

It was quiet at the time, and the Shi Reeves look-a-like DC is going in it to pack some stuff I think. I go into the car to get random things out to put inside the front entrance of the house.

When I go in, I see dark brown wood flooring, dining table....stuff that you would generally see in a house. I asked "Hello?" inside the house, and didn't get a response. I started to get louder and asked if anyone was in the place.

No response, so I go venture around the place, and see a bathroom when I moved forward and turned right. It looked empty, and no lights were on, but outside of the bathroom was partially lit.

I sensed that the black female DC was in the bathroom with the lights off, but I couldn't tell. I saw another DC that was in there, but I don't think he was doing anything with the lady. She was probably sitting on the toilet, so I immediately moved away to not look like a peeping tom.

I waited for her to be finished, but I woke up.

Dream 3: Place gets drenched with Tsunami

I'm seeing this random area get demolished by a Tsunami, or a huge wave of water at least. I don't feel any of the impact, but I look around a small field of vision and someone was asking me what happened to the place.

I think I said Scotland had a Tsunami occur, but I'm not sure if that's really what I said. I was telling some random voice that I didn't bother to look for the source it was coming from the experiences I had encountering the Tsunami.



Apparently I hanged on top of a ledge, but not with my knuckles facing me, but the other way around (palms facing me), and I'm just hanging on to the ledge very tightly until the Tsunami hits my way.

How does hanging from a ledge where all of your strength relies on your arms and hands prevent one from getting injured from an incoming Tsunami? I don't know, and it felt like silly too.