Linkzelda's Dream Journal

12.12.2013

Female Disintegrates Body and Runs Away from Military Base (DILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Spoiler for Personal Notes:

Guess the image streaming exercises I did about 50+ days ago is starting to pay off. Still going strong with becoming lucid without a WBTB, and I've been going in an out passively with image streaming naturally and easily imagining myself in other virtual experiential realities.

I guess it's clear by default that the theory behind image streaming of connecting cortical regions of the mind definitely has significant effects when you put over at least 20+ hours on it. It clears a lot of the cognitive dissonance I used to go through when trying to understand the concepts and finding applicable methods for gaining lucidity. Though this jolted up the metacognitive ability to know if you're dreaming or not by a lot, and can be improved over time if I ever get time to do more.

I should probably be realistic and not go for 3 hours every other day or every other day if I go back to image streaming. One hour a day, or even 90 minutes a day can be more than enough, it's just that there's so many things to do and learn that I end up doing the latter instead.

Anyway.

I recall existing inside of a building that seemed to have high-end technology, almost like some kind of government or private organization that associates with several political magistrates. I wasn't sure what I was doing for this dream, I just knew that I was dreaming.

The outfit I was wearing is a bit difficult to process, but based on how my dream body felt, it was probably some kind of Tac Suit you'd see in Tom Clancy games. This dream had several themes, and the most prevalent were:

• Espionage
• Military
• Anime

The atmospheric overlay of the dream environment contributed to how it was mostly a colder region for several reasons. The soldiers or guards within the dream all seemed to have a default format from the MGS2/MGS3 soldiers with the black mask covering most of their face except the eyes.

Spoiler for personal note:

With any dream that revolves around attempts at infiltration, it's probably because of my relentless desires to dive into consciousness exploration that usually ends up backfiring. I knew about this probably months or during late 2011 or early 2012, though I never gave it much thought.

It's weird how other individuals can go left and right, in and out of their minds during lucidity to use whatever imaginative potential for some application with waking life, but I seem to have difficulty with that. Even if there's some symbolic implication that I shouldn't be trying to dive into the depths of the psyche or whatever, there's really no point in all of this occurring. Either there's some kind of higher self-implication, or several good reasons why I can't really take advantage of what any sentient and sapient mind can do in their natural sleep.

The weapon that I'm holding was probably just like the default gun you get from MGS2, the American military M9 that's modified to fire tranquilizer darts. Considering how I was using that gun instead of something lethal, I guess there was some ambition to stop killing figments of my imagination, since the last time I tried doing that to try to save dream characters, it ended up biting me later on.


I see a few soldiers passively patrolling this linear area I'm at, and I quickly shoot them in the head since I was just going for Metal Gear Solid logic here. The area itself seemed to be split off with a black metal rectangular border in the middle.

And if you looked from afar, there were more guards on patrol as well, and I had to be very careful of the direction they're facing. I had several guards wondering what was occurring in the area I was in, and I had to quickly go to the other side for safety.

Fortunately they didn't go too far into investigating things and seemed to have pre-fetched sayings and declarations for whenever they're suspicious or presume the area is clear of intruders. As for the bodies of the soldiers that were passed out from the tranquilizers, it seemed I could care less about putting them in safe areas.

I figured that there wouldn't be some weird system that demanded one to store bodies, or else there would be an alarm of suspicion. The area that was about 40 feet away from me seemed to be the external section where the weather had a lot of snow on the ground, but no snowing in particular.


The dream shifts to where I'm now inside another base that has a lot more guards, and what seemed to be unarmed individuals that looked as if they're important. I found myself lying down on my stomach near a section to the left. I believe I was probably under a desk, and there were conveniently placed rectangular objects that concealed my position that were at least 9 inches in length.

Since my field of vision is limited in this position, I had to make use of my lateral peripheral vision. I saw a Black male that was wearing a milky light violet colored dress shirt and regular jeans. For some reason, he was looking down right where I was at, though I wasn't sure if he knew I was there.

He seemed to have made several glances back and forth at me and whoever he's talking to. Seeing how he didn't scream my position, he probably wanted to help me out, or he was just staring at random space to avoid the whole averting eyes awkwardness that occurs in most conversations.

Whatever the case may be, looking at his visage and how he expressed himself, he seemed to have been involved as a computer guru or something of that nature. After a while, it seems some of the individuals leave to their bases and sections, and I finally get out of the awkward position under the desk.

Unfortunately, there were still a good amount of guards around the area, and I had to time my shots in a specific pattern so one or two would hear their own men being knocked out with tranquilizer darts. Fortunately, the process was easy and I managed to take down the three guards within this room.


Then the most absurd thing occurs in this dream. There was another individual that was knocked out that was unarmed. My mental image of this person seemed to be them wearing a white dress shirt and red jeans with some pink to it.

His whole existence disintegrates, and a 3d model of a female that looks like this (it's hard finding an image of her not making lewd facial expressions):

Spoiler for ...:

I don't know what the hell was going on, and I was busy trying to process what I'm going to do if she ends up doing some weird demonic things to me. I can't really recall what happened after that though, just her running away.

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12.12.2013

Girl Doing the Limbo & Vomiting that Defies Physics (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I'll keep this short and sweet, no need to be sensory descriptive of someone vomiting in a dream.


A girl that seems to be 6-8 years of age is walking in a manner as if she's setting herself up to do the limbo without a bar. Then she randomly vomits while in the limbo position, and I'm not sure if the vomit is going in my direction.


Maybe it's a sign that I'm a pile of vomit, or I'm being aware of certain false pretenses of those who I feel I could relate to. That's not really surprising, though I wonder who it is in particular the dream was trying to inform me on. And I guess the girl doing the limbo is either another symbolic implication of how that certain individual in waking life is still an enigma.

And considering I had a dream about two children dying yesterday, maybe it's probably that one individual that I feel is another confused woman that just happened to gravitate to my openness to them. Probably a sign that I should go for more stable females than the psychotic ones.

12.05.2012

The Boss' Escape and The Boss' Prelude to Sorrow (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I'm outdoors in an PS3 simulated type of environment, and it seems that the day is almost coming to an end. I can see the sun preparing for departure to my left, and it's emitting a bright yellow color.

Because it's starting to set down, this saturates the surface color with slightly darker shades than the original color of the sun. I realized that I'm on a white brick like surface.

There's a few random trees to the left and right of me, and they're all aligned ideally to imply that this must be some kind of magical and large front yard to get to someone's gargantuan existence of a mansion.

I felt that something suspicious was going on for a while, like someone was watching me. I was aware that there were people around me, and even though I don't know why I was participating with them, I could still feel this tingling feeling inside of me that someone else unknown to me is there.

There's was a gate that required access to go further into this white brick like surface path that has fancy trees and grass on the sides.

The control panel of the gate involved taking a Democratic or Republican side; and there's Obama and Mitt Romney to choose from, but they're in the wrong position. Romney is on the Democratic side and Obama is on the Republican side.

After fiddling with this random apparatus, I finally managed to open the gate, and when I do, my feet start vibrating, sensing someone is coming in. I realized it was The Boss from Metal Gear Solid 3: Snake Eater, and she's merely taking on the form of her shadow.

She bypasses the gate that's open, and as soon as she sets foot to this new and unlocked area, she takes form, and immediately dashes for the lake 20-30 feet or so from where I'm at.

She's wearing a slim black outfit, probably just a black version of the default white outfit she wore in the game.

I think people are trying to shoot her, but of course, she's invincible to all attacks.

It didn't matter if it was a hot and deadly laser gun emitting red aura, or if it was 100s of bullets from a machine gun shooting her, she remained calm, and all the efforts from the random dream characters were useless.

I tried to catch up to her, and as I'm going into the lake, I have the dream shifted....

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12.05.2012

The Boss' Sorrow and White Lotus (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

This dream is continued from the last. I'm now in a completely different dream environment.

It's similar to the Agata Forest in Okami:

I can feel the mist around me, the blue atmosphere setting off a depressing setting for the environment. And I finally see The Boss in her white outfit instead.

She's standing from above, trying to tell me something, and I can't recall what she told me, but knowing her existence, it was probably something important.

Especially since every dream character that ends up being invincible is probably someone I should focus my attention to. She stands straight up, and curves her spine downwards as she looks at me and starts stating things that are all a blur to me.

All I can remember is feeling sad, empathetic for whatever it is that she told me. I saw a flash of a young girl in a white kimono:

She didn't look like the one in the image above, but at least it's better than nothing. Most of the features were like that for the one I met for a while in the dream. She apparently passed away, according to The Boss' declarations; maybe I'm wrong in my presumption that the girl died, things are still a bit skewed in my recall for this.

I remember seeing a white lotus making a large contrast from the blue and gloomy environment surrounding it.

I could feel that The Boss was apparently sad over the death or disappearance of the girl, and I could see how much she tried to hold back her tears. I didn't know what to do but stand there and just periodically look at the white lotus and paying attention to the words The Boss was stating to me.

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12.05.2012

Someone Gets Kidnapped (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

All I remember is that someone I know in waking life, "A," was kidnapped by some kind of dictator.

In the end, he was rescued, and things end up being just fine.

05.24.2012

Man in a Green Jacket (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Everything is in first person mode, and I have machine gun in hand. The setting is very dark, and it seems I'm invading some kind of stone castle and fortress. I sneak in, and then I go check what's inside a small stone house that seemed to be an area where soldiers could get some ammo.

I sense a guard, and I check the back window, and the guard starts getting suspicious, I turn around to make sure I won't get shot in the back, and then opened the door in front of me. The guard gets closer, and I tried to hide, but I was too slow to take cover.

He notices me, and he looks exactly like the guards in Metal Gear Solid 3. I shoot him with a machine gun, and then immediately get out of the house, and I aim my gun at where the other guys might come from, and I'm right.

Just Exclude the "J" on his head, and that's how they looked, and the camouflage was a bit more yellow.

There's at least 3-4 of them out to get me, and I'm already having the machine gun aimed at the head of the guard without even twitching a single part of my arms and wrists. I was dead accurate with aiming, but I still have put a little more bullets in the guards heads to even cause some kind of damage.

And when I did shoot them, I'm not even sure if they died, this dream seemed to be those rare ones where my shots do not make a difference, and they will keep coming after.

Then......the moment when I thought I was safe while trying to shoot and run, this man comes up closer to me and tries to shoot me.

His hair, it's a mix of gray, and white as well, he looks like one of those people that could be a vampire of some sort, you know, the old guy who still looks handsome but deadly....the type of guy that you don't really want to provoke too much.

He didn't have the jacket look swamp-ish like the one above me, it was a bit more of a regular dark green.

He was wearing a red tie, black pants I believe, a large green jacket that extended near his ankles, and probably wore a white dress shirt with some kind of black vest on top of that. I couldn't see his eyes, he seemed to be one of those figures with the eyes that stay like this:

" - - " (I would draw it out, but that's my best description right now )

I continue shooting him, and I even see his life bar, but it isn't going down at all. After I ran out of machine gun ammo, I switch to a pistol/handgun, and started to barrage him with whatever bullets were left in side. This guy was also dead accurate with his shots, and I'm wondering why I'm not feeling any kind of damage....

I'm still running while having my attention focused on this guy, and he's going really really REALLY fast to the point where I think he isn't even using his feet, he's just freaking levitating and zooming in on me fast.

Then there's this "Mission Complete!" logo that comes up when I'm seeing things in third person view.

Some stats show up, but I don't even pay attention to that, I'm wondering how I completed the mission if I'm running like my life depended on it?

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05.24.2012

Princess (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I see a blonde female in a glittering and silver dress, I can't remember most of her visage, but I'm presuming she was at least cute. I think she's putting on make-up and some earrings as well.

That's all i remember.

Well, there's one more dream I remember, but it just involved me going through random things and meeting with random people....not really a good description huh?

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