Old Lucid Dream from 1991 (yeah I still remember it) My grandfather died IRL in 1991, suddenly. About a month later, I had this dream: ----------------------------------------- I was in my grandfather's attic, but it didn't 'look' like his attic. There were boxes everywhere and it looked like someone was moving out. The attic was fairly dark and no light was on - only a bit of natural sunlight from a small, square window. In front of me was an oval standing mirror. You know, those antique looking ones? I faced the mirror and noticed some hats. These were wide brimmed hats with feathers in them. They reminded me of the hats ladies during Victorian times might have worn. I placed one of the hats on my head and as I took it off I saw my grandfather standing behind me on my left. I was startled and turned around, but he was not there. In a flash, I was outside my grandfather's house now. It was a red brick house with a red cement porch. A sidewalk was in front of his lawn and then a small strip of grass was near the curb. Hunched over, near the curb, with one foot in the street and one foot on the curb, was my grandfather, edging the grass...just like he always did. He looked much younger than when he died but I would recognize him anywhere. My grandfather was always doing yard work. He kept a pristine lawn in real life and apparently in the afterlife too! And here I became somewhat lucid. I realized he was dead and it confused me because he looked so real, and I believe I smelled him too. He straightened at that point, stopped edging with his clippers, and looked at me. Clear as day he said, "I'm all right. Everything is all right." Then, he hugged me and I woke up.
April 12, 2012 Day 3 ----------------- Meditated with "Between Worlds" CD hemi-sync. Survived w/o any "distractions". I noticed that I kept feeling like I was moving when I don't think I really was. I seemed to go into a light trance very quickly and float in and out of a deep trance because when in the deep trance I tended to nearly fall asleep. So, as soon as I went under, I snapped awake and was out of the deep trance. Still my mind chimed in with all kinds of comments and advice: "Don't think about the bum gif...", (which means I thought about the bum gif)..., "Okay, don't focus on the base chakra but move onward." (which means I focused on the base chakra BUT I did move on and got my abdomen chakra to thud as well as the solar plexus and heart - didn't go further). I did a bit of energy work as when one wants to experience OBE it's helpful to prime your energy body for OBEs. Basically, I'm just preparing for whatever comes or doesn't. Nothing special in meditation other than feeling heavy, getting some reaction to my energy work, and trying to focus on the blackness behind my eyes. (Energy work: envisioned white pool of energy beneath my feet, then I draw up the energy from the pool through my feet and eventually circulate the energy. It makes my feet and body warm and buzzy...no not that kind of buzzy.) Tonight, I will write in my journal an affirmation and leave the real life DJ on my beside table. Sooner or later, I will recall a dream and I want to be READY!
April 12, 2012 --------------- Wrote affirmation in my dream journal: I am open to exploring new worlds and remember my dreams upon waking. --------------- Fragment: Something about MASH the TV show. I remembered it after I'd already woken up this morning and fallen back to sleep only then to realize I needed to get up immediately. So, I sort of forced myself awake. Nonetheless I still only recalled the 'theme'. ------------------- Side Note: I began perusing through my old Astral Dynamics book and noticed a section on activating the chakras. Apparently, it is very common to have the Heart center go all spastic right before exiting the body. The last time I consistently meditated (year or more ago) I was doing energy work and activating/opening my chakras. My heart center had become so strong that I thought something was wrong. I even stopped my meditation and checked my pulse only to find it was not elevated. (which is what the book said would occur) It seems that if one can ignore this pounding and let go the next thing to occur is an OBE. I, obviously, was not able to let go. Bruce said it was very hard to ignore and the man was certainly right. Only mention this because I think that is what's occurring during my most recent meditation but in the base or abdomen chakra - which causes one to focus on sexual energy and distracts you. You're supposed to also ignore it and move on to the next center. Being completely out of practice, I focused on it and whammo - orgasm.
Updated 04-12-2012 at 01:36 PM by 54103 (*corrected a spelling error (to should have been go all spastic))
Meditation Day 2: April 11, 2012 I hunted for my other CD that is also hemi-sync but not "Between Worlds". I could not find it! Poo! So, I decided to try and block out any unintentional or unwanted distractions. This round I noticed a few things - I seemed to nearly fall asleep a few times, and I was startled awake during the session. I hadn't gone completely under, but was on the edge, like you feel right before you sink into unconsiousness. I kept my focus on the blackness behind my eyes. I use it like a screen or chalkboard when I want to visualize something, but in the beginning meditations, I use it as a focal point. When thoughts came, and they did come, I would blow them away or acknowledge them and realign my focus. I felt very relaxed today - maybe because I didn't get enough sleep the night before or because I was going deeper into meditation. I don't know yet. My body got very heavy. I know at various points my fingers, the middle and thumb, felt like they were no longer touching and had actually moved into different positions. When I pressed them together, they had not moved and were still touching one another as the back of my hands rested upon my thighs. No particular images arrived to distract me....until the Didgeridoo sounds began. I swear to God this thing must be some sort of vibrator because it's tones send a vibration straight down my throat to my groin area. I just acknowledged these sensations but realigned to the blackness behind my eyes. However, the Didgeridoo vibrations increased and so did the sensations in my core. And like a little girl on Christmas morning, I ran straight to the present under the tree! I found myself reflexively breathing very deeply - deep enough so it inflated my whole midsection. And I became aware that as the Didgeridoo played and held its note, I held my breath. As I held my breath, the vibration seemed to have a better path/connection to my sexual center (chakra above the base). This vibration just grew and then the sexual images arrived - And it was all over until the Didgeridoo stopped playing and another instrument took over. Ahem. Naughty self... I'm a bit disappointed, but I knew it was like playing with fire. I knew my mind would be just itching to repeat that sensation. So, it's my own fault. Not a bad punishment - I'll take it. But it's not my goal to climax every time I meditate. After my fun time ended and the music shifted, I found myself lost in darkness again with random thoughts coming and going - mostly berating myself. "Told ya you should have gotten the other CD" "Why didn't you just meditate without any music?" "You wanted this to happen, so why are you surprised?" "Better find that other CD." On and on the comments came like some scolding friend or parent, chiding me for my misguided choice of CD. I heard them and refocused each time saying, yeah, yeah, you're right, you're right. I know you're right. *Black screen.* The rest of the meditation was good. Got very sleepy. Felt a little disconnected from my body at times. I get the jumpy sensation or that falling sensation when I lose myself. But it was a good start... *Note to self: FIND THE OTHER CD STAT!
Updated 04-11-2012 at 05:15 PM by 54103 (Changed Font Size)
2010 (approx) I fell asleep without doing my affirmations in my journal. ------------- My husband was flirting with me, and he touched my left side, below my ribcage. I cringed and pulled away because it hurt there. It felt like a really bad bruise. He placed his hand on my ribcage again, I said, no, don't that really hurts. He grabbed me by the arm and held me in place then forcefully began rubbing the tender spot beneath my ribs. As he rubbed harder his face contorted into this demonic face and he smiled an evil, malicious smile. I couldn't pull away and he continued rubbing, knowing it was causing me terrible pain. I woke abruptly IRL and noticed my left side, below my ribcage was very sore. When I felt there, I noticed a lump - for real. I ended up seeing the doctor and found it was a Lipoma. Six months later, I had it removed. --------- Afterthought: I am thinking that the activation of my chakras either sensitized the nerves here so that I felt it or it simply brought my attention to that area. Because during meditation my chakras (base, sacral, solar plexus, heart) were all throbbing away. I actually checked my pulse rate several times believing that my heart rate had increased, but it had not. My pulse was steady even though the beating inside me was very strong and insistent. The solar plexus centered chakra and the heart chakra are the ones that thundered away. Did this have an effect on my side? I don't know. Perhaps just coincidence.
Apr 10, 2012 My meditations have always been vivid, and when I start the process of dream recall I amp up, or in my case now, start my meditation schedule. When I meditate, especially in the beginning, I use metamusic/hemi-sync/embedded binural beats with headphones to assist my focus. It's just my method and won't work for everyone. I find it blocks out my bodily noises that are especially distracting at first - heartbeat, breathing, gurgling stomach...as well as blocking out external noises: clocks ticking, cars, airplanes. So, in this particular meditation I used the 'Between Worlds' metamusic CD, which at one point has a very heavy beat that reminds me of a tribal setting. I had no intent other than meditating and focusing my mind on the music. But scenes of nondescript tribal people in a circle around me came to mind, and I couldn't shake it. So, I went with it. Everything was blurry though. It was almost like I was in a drug induced state within this 'visualization'. The tribe acted in chorus with the music. They chanted and played the instruments I heard - one of which is a didgeridoo. Google it and listen to the heavy sound vibration and you'll see what I mean. You can also google Hemisync and binural beats to get an idea of what I use. Then, my focus shifted, and I felt a pulsing in the first/second chakra. It's not a helpful way to focus your attention because it ends up being a complete distraction, which it ended up being but in a good way, I guess. Anyways, the first chakra is in the lower pelvic region and the second one is your sexual center, I suppose. It's they are the two most primal and basic of the charkas, IMHO. [Feel free to correct that if someone knows otherwise.] As the first/second chakras pulse, my attention gets drawn specifically to that region and my pelvic region begins pulsing with the music. Well, the music had a very heavy beat that began slow and sped up. The visualization - or my imagination - which is one and the same in the beginning - happily went with that. In the center of the tribal circle lay this man - I never saw his face just his legs and I knew he was naked, but I did not see any naughty parts . Again, the whole scene was blurred. I felt, more than saw, myself moving toward this man and I did a sort of 'hands in the air and move like you don't care' type of dance to the beat. I fell to my knees and straddled him and began moving to the beat in my visualization. As the One thing lead to another and...I'll leave it there as I don't know the appropriateness of this post. [so apologies ahead of time] Now, what always gets me with meditation is wondering why my brain pulls me to one direction or another as I don't recall thinking about sex before I started. While some might say this is a GREAT meditation, do it again - it becomes a complete and utter distraction from the main goal, which is to focus and clear your mind. Well, if you're focusing on sex and climaxing, that's not going to clear your mind. Next time, [today] I will use a different CD because I think it will become an issue and my mind will immediately go to the tribal scene like a little girl on Christmas who can't wait to open her presents and runs directly to the Christmas tree... Dang body - you're a treacherous sneak!
Updated 04-11-2012 at 02:47 PM by 54103 (Corrected Chakra position - I had it mixed up and I knew it did't sound right.)
June 15, 2007 Sitting in a church watching a big screen presentation. A lady to my left was very large and i was smooshed in the seat. She kind of moved toward me, or asked if I would move over, but I had no more room. So, I got up. I was about to leave. People were confessing to the minister in a makeshift confessional made out of cushions and pillows. (and I'm not Catholic) I decided to leave. Went to exit door and had my children. I saw a bottle with fire coming out of the top - a dirty bomb! I ran for the other exit. I told someone in a pew that there was a fire or danger. All exits had bombs. I think I got out?? ---- Saw a woman - blurry - at some point she attacked me! I had razor blades and cut her lower arm to make her let go. Then, I was on top of her and had control. I woke up.
August 14, 2006 ------------------- My husband is not a believer in anything. But that night, as I had on other nights, would visualize each member of my family cocooned in white light. I woke sometime in the night to Russ's bad dream sounds. He got up and left, went to the back room to sleep. I fell back to sleep and recall that I had strange dreams but not nightmares. In the morning, I told him that I heard him moaning because he must have had a bad dream. I asked if he remembered what he was dreaming about. He said, he woke up because he felt a hand on his head. When he opened his eyes, a dark shadow figure stood in front of him and then faded out. He thought it was real, but realized his mind must have played tricks on him. I asked if he dreamt that . Said he was awake when he felt and saw the dark shadow. He said it had a hat, like a fedora and it stood near the doorway. He thought it was going to hurt us or him.
July 16, 2006 --------------- Pelicans were boxed in - they weren't really trying to get out. On water - many pelicans. They would - or maybe just one - try to bite and nip. Now, I'm in line for a psychology class. I had to sign in, but the class was full. Somehow I still got in. The teacher took stairs multiple steps at a time, but he got winded and would pause. I would catch up, but then he'd begin again and I would be behind once more. He had blond hair and was male. In part of this school (?), people were on gurneys. One woman in particular was on a gurney waiting to be operated on. Patients passed me in the hallway and I got the sense they were missing parts of 'themselves'. Perhaps from the operations? The woman suddenly jumped off the gurney and ran. I followed her but slower. She ran outside and found a gate or exit? Where she slipped into a type of drawer and was gone. A man - perhaps a security guard - chased after her but failed to capture her. Then, I was in class at my desk. Both my desk and book were there but my chair was gone - it was missing. The teacher entered the classroom and I said, "While I think pretending to sit or acting like I was sitting would work, it might get painful." And then I asked for my chair back.
April 4, 2006 [Apparently I found an older entry than originally thought...] There's a party inside a house - my house? Windows are open with screens. It's warm out. At some point I notice bees. Bees were getting in the house. I was alarmed - worried. I noticed bees on the ceiling, many bees. I got angry and scolded people because they allowed the bees to come in. people in the party seemed unaware of the bees. I think I was worried that the children would get stung.
Someone named, Patty, her husband, Joe, died. We went to my Aunt's house. Bugs were in the beds and on the floor. My grandma died again. She'd died once, but apparently, she wasn't really dead. Now, we had to have her funeral. Pap, my grandfather, called me and asked if we were coming. I said, I didn't think he was going to have a funeral because she'd already had one - it seemed a little awkward. Apparently, he was having the funeral. So, I had to get a dress or maybe hose for the funeral. But I was swimming. My kids asked to swim. My daughter said, no, and then we were leaving. I got out of the pool and my brothers said they would meet us there. I think, along the way, a woman was in the road doing something. I offered to pull over so we wouldn't block traffic and she could finish what she was doing. (?) So I pulled over. It was now a park like setting. I stayed in the car. A dog I had known, with his friends, came to my car window. I rolled the window down and he licked my face. His owners watched from afar. Next scene, I find myself driving to the mall again in search of a dress or hose. The mall is HUGE! And the parking lot was too. I drove the wrong way and someone in the car, I guess, pointed that fact out. They also mentioned that if I kept driving, I'd hit those spikes and ruin my tires. I turned to avoid them and saw a police man. I didn't know how to get to where my brothers had parked at the mall, so I could meet them. The lot and mall were so big. The police officer said to pull off and he'd take me to the mall and the correct lot. (how did he know?) I did as he said. As we walked people were following. I began limping as I had hurt my foot. Someone asked about it and I said I hurt it on the beach and stepped on something sharp. We were on steps going down, I think. Hubby came and woke me up. ----- Fell back to sleep: Dreamed a wasp flew at me and hit me in the face! Darn wasp!!!
September 21, 2008 Day 13 -------- I dreamed about a fire. A fire was set purposely to kill those inside a building. I escaped with others and found this building further away where everybody was. I thought this place was safe. I saw the fire coming toward this new building and told the people to leave - to get out. I ran for another building, but I had to sneak for if the bad guys saw us they'd kill us. I ended up in a building with African American kids. At one point, i was in a hotel in the halls. -------- Knife stabbing. There was a fight over a girl. She went down.
September 20, 2008 Day 12 -------- Dreamed a big spider ran up the wall and hid behind the curtain. Hubby got it with his bare hands. Could see it in his hands Took it outside. When he returned, I asked if he killed it. He did. ----- Dreamed about lumps on my arm - forearm.
September 8, 2008 [This began the time period when I intentionally began trying to recall my dreams, become lucid, and have an OBE] Right before bed, I wrote in my Dream Journal: I am a spirit in a body capable of experiencing dimensions beyond physical experience. I have the ability to separate from my body, return safely, and remember. [First lucid dream occurred on DAY 5] ----- My husband's cousins were at a waterfall party and drinking. [an aside: these cousins are very religious and I can't imagine them doing this in real life] The male cousin, we'll call Paul, got drunk and fell asleep. My husband filled the fountain (?) and then went to lie down. Paul was flirting and then he passed out. I played religious music for Kathryn (not her real name).
2008 (Not lucid) I was in an antique store and was looking at teacups. It was a very upscale place and I felt I didn't belong there. As I looked into a case, the sales clerk asked if he could show me a teacup or take something out for me. I asked for one teacup and saucer. He told me I could go to the table near the window and wait. I took a seat and waited. There was a pot of tea on the table. When he brought the teacup and saucer he set it in front of me and left. I wasn't sure if I was supposed to test drive the teacup by pouring myself a cup of tea. I decided not to. I looked at the bottom of the teacup and it was expensive. The saucer had to be bought separately and it was expensive too. Well, I thought, I can afford the teacup but not the saucer. So, I bought the teacup. The sales clerk looked disappointed or disgusted with me. Guess I didn't buy 'enough' for his liking or commission. I left the shop and took the subway home, which in real life, I don't do and don't even live in a city. On the subway, I met my grandmother - my dead grandmother. I told her and showed her what I bought. She tsked me and said, go back and buy the saucer. What's a teacup without a saucer. The dream ended. In real life, that weekend I drove to my mother's house and just happened to go into the garage to get my mom something. In the garage were these beautiful teacups or coffee cups and saucers. I asked my Mom why they were in the garage and she said, they were my GRANDMOTHER'S and she didn't know what to do with them. I asked, Can I have them? So, I got the teacups AND saucers because my grandmother would not have been happy had I only taken the cups!
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