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Date: 04/07/2012
Place: My own bed
Time of getting into bed: 2.30am

Dream 1 - non lucid 6.16 am

I am a young boy again, possibly 13ish. My family are all farmers and we own some considerable land and wealth. My father has recently died in a freak accident, of which my Uncle thinks my Mother is responsible. My mother and Uncle fight, but he remains around the home, does most of the work on the farm and raises us. Soon my eldest brother dies in a freak accident somewhere on the farm. My mother, who appears a bit unstable, involves me in some illegal activity which includes me standing outside a school, and dealing with big wads of cash. I have to smuggle the cash into a building, as I enter some guards try to pat me down, I hide the cash in my pocket, and luckily they don't find it and I get through. Then my mother murders my other brother, by drowning him in mud at the farm. My Uncle is angry and tries to stop her, but she thinks he is after the money. They fight for a long time, until eventually he locks her in a tractor, and she sinks into the mud, drowning. When we recover the tractor, she has left an envelope with my name on it, and inside is all the money they were arguing over (it was £4000) my Uncle seems sad, and I agree that he should be entitled to some of the money, so tell him to come and sit with me while I work it out. He starts talking about how I should buy a house with my money, and that he has seen a nice one nearby for £4000.

*There is a fragment of dream here, and I was pretty sure it was the same dream as above, although it doesn't fit anywhere.*

I get a card, which says 'Nodon' on the envelope. I know this is from a certain friend, because their email address includes the word Nodon. The card has lots of glitter and decoration inside it, and the letters have been written in brown felt tip, very neatly. I suspect it was 'Nodon's' wife who wrote it. It is congratulating me on something, but is written in a very silly and childish way, with 'Ni ni ni ni ni' written all over the text. It also includes a picture of me, which was taken from facebook, and I think the picture is terrible. I tell myself that I really must not forget to say thankyou to Nodon.

Dream 2 - non lucid 8.23 am

I am in a room, with lots of rooms attached to it in which people are living / store their belongings. A bit like a ship. None of the rooms are locked, and everyone is out, we are the only people here. (We are myself, little sister, and unknown DC) My little sister steals some jewellry from one of the rooms, and I tell her off, and make her put it back. We pass the room of a tattooist, and suddenly we set lots of machines off. The 2 girls (my sister and the DC) make me turn the machines off because I am the man. I do so. I am carrying around a file with lots of bits of paper in it, I keep going through the paper, checking off boxes and lists. The paper had a bigger role to play in the dream but I forgot it. However I am now going to a music concert, and start getting ready. I put on a white shirt, and the girls make fun of me, telling me I look silly. I go to the gig, and there is another man with a similar white shirt on. I talk to him.

Dream 3 - non lucid

There is a young girl (10 yrs old?) blonde, and a bit chubby. She is advertising what looks like a bottle of cooking oil. She says; 'If your body is unique like mine (meaning fat) then you need this!'

Dream 3 - WBTB / WILD & 2 x FAs 9.34am

This is where it gets weird, I woke up, got up to drink a little water, then after writing the previous entries in my DJ, I tried to WILD. Several times I got very close, and had to re-try.

The man I am sleeping with turns around and says 'Shall we get up and have some food?' I am annoyed because I was trying to WILD, but I tell him 'Yes, OK then.' It wasn't until after I got up for the day that I realise this never happened. Must have been dreaming.

Suddenly I felt the familiar onset of SP. There was no noise this time (woohoo!) just a really bizarre all over body feeling which I have grown used to. I welcomed it, and a few times it came and went as my concentration wavered. However soon I felt it flood my senses, and at this point I 'willed' my body to move. I felt my body sitting up, and leaving my other body sleeping behind. I kept thinking 'so how do I go from here, into a dream?' this was more like an OBE, it felt so absolutely real. Suddenly I lost it, and I was awake lying in bed. I decided to do an RC, in case it was a false awakening. For some STUPID reason, I held my mouth, not my nose, but I did realise I was dreaming and became lucid. I shouted out, 'I am dreaming!' and then decided to try and calm down, however I must have got a bit too excited, because I suddenly woke up. I was annoyed, but happy the WILD worked, so I started writing in my DJ. I put the time as 1.17, but put 1.77 by accident. I scribbled it out, and put 1.17 then suddenly, I woke up for real. It was a FA!! The time was really 9.34 I was so sure that I had woken up, what an idiot!


***NOTEWORTHY***
My family are not farmers
I do have a friend whose email address is really Nodon
Lucid
FA

Date: 26/06/2012
Place: My own bed (for a change!)
Time of getting into bed: 11pm
Glass of apple juice in the day.

Dream 1 - non lucid

We are at a music festival or music event. There are lots of bands and different stalls etc. We go into a small, dark, dingy shed. (We being me, and friend I and friend R) We are just chilling / talking in here. I know of a group of people just outside, and I know that they are not friendly. One of them comes in to retrieve a bag he left inside here, which is like a holdall type bag. He tells us there is a human skull inside, and we just say 'ok' because we don't want any trouble. The group are young, hooligan type kids (god I sound old) who have guns. The young guy gets offensive and pulls out his gun, but my friend I takes it off him. There is no struggle, more like a nervous tension. I plays with the gun, asks the kid some questions while the kid answers them. I then aims the gun jokingly, and 'accidentally' shoots the kid several times. Although he is not hurt, they shots are close and nearly hit him every time, so the kid takes the gun back. Now he has it back, the kid dos the same; talks about the gun and aims it at people. I panic, assuming he will end up shooting someone. He shoots at me, and I get scared but he tells me not to be scared, and that my jumper is too baggy, and will catch the shots before they get to me. Amazingly he's right.

[Dream 2 - Lucid dream

I woke and wrote my previous dream (see above) I needed a pee so I went to the toilet and came back. As I lay down, I attempted to WILD. I was very hot and had to stop to remove covers then continue. (I always get hot when I WILD?) I start 'feeling' a dream, talking with friends, playing with my friends cat. To keep myself aware, I start 'rubbing' my friend's sofa that I am sat on while this dream forms. (Dream sofa, I am really in bed) However the dream is not solid yet. Suddenly, I am in a fully fledged dream and don't know how I got here! However I am fully lucid. Unlike my last lucid, I do not panic and I stay calm. But I think this is due to a lower level of awareness. So I'm walking with my partner (let's call him 'N') down the road, I fear there was more to the beginning of this lucid but alas, I have forgotten. I am telling N that I am dreaming. He doesn't believe me, but does ask me some questions to test me. I tell him let's get a train, so take him to the train station. As we walk there, I am amazed by the details my mind has come up with. The scenery etc. We get on the train and I see a pigeon close by, I try to touch it but it flies away. However I'm not bothered as I'm happy I am dreaming, so we hop on the train. As I walk by a DC, I stroke his face to feel the stubble on his face, he stares at me but doesn't seem to mind. We get off the train again, and I'm not sure where we have got off. I ask N if he believes me yet, he says no, but does seem to be thinking hard about it, like I am beginning to convince him. We have to go through a check-point before we can leave the train station (like guards on a gate) and as we approach I get horny. I get out my junk with the intent to present it to a DC when we arrive at the gate. N notices and asks me what I am doing. I suddenly realize I don't want to upset N, even if it is the DC version. So I put it away and pretend I wasn't doing anything. However N is very persistant, grabbing me and challenging me. I get a bit frustrated and suddenly N is as well. I fear he may become angry and ruin the dream, but I remember what I read on DV about making DCs do what you want, so I think of the most plausible thing I can and say 'N, aren't you supposed to be at the post office today? It shuts in like 5 minutes you better hurry!' N works for the PO. He suddenly realizes and rushes off, leaving me alone. I decide I am no longer horny after that charade, and progress through the gates into this new, unknown place. When entering this place (must have been a building, but I don't remember doors of any kind) I was almost speechless about how AMAZING it looked. Not necessarily real, but just very detailed, and beautiful. It was along the lines of a train station, mixed with a shopping centre, and maybe a pub or nightclub element to it too. I saw so much in here, simple wandering round that I have probably forgotten much of it. First of all, there were lights and displays. I think it was evening-ish time so these lights looked BEAUTIFUL, I really stared at them, noticing they were made of little lights, with a yellow glow. Reminded me a bit of Xmas lights. I was smiling madly, thinking 'this dream is awesome.' I then walked off, found some women searching in a fridge for their dinner while they were on a break. I searched for a little bit but then walked off. I was at a bit of a loss of what to actually do. I didn't even think of flying (dur) and even though I knew I was dreaming, I didn't do anything crazy or mind-blowing! I suddenly remembered the task of the month. I knew it involved walking through a mirror. I turned around, expecting to find a mirror, and taadaa! A lovely mirror. It was a bit high for me (I'm a shortarse) so I pulled myself up to it, and just stuck my head through boldly. At first I thought of a beautiful park scene, and thought 'don't think of that, cos then that's what you'll see!' however it wasn't, what I did see, was SPACE. Like, our universe, just black, and filled with stars and I could even make out the milky way. It was BIG. There were brightly coloured parrots flying through space, just casually flying around, in all directions, kind of slow. The vastness of the space scared me however, and I decided there was no way I was climbing in there! So I pulled my head out. It was hard to get out, like I would somehow fall in, and for a minute I was stuck, but a very nice young DC, who had black hair and a friendly smile pulled me out. I thanked her and told her the mirror was 'all hers.' So she climbed up and stuck her head in too!
I walked off again, repeating over and over that I would remember the mirror for the TOTM, determined not to forget. I followed rooms in this building, not going in them but reading the signs above the doors, observing the DCs going on with their lives. I came across a large photo booth (the type you get passport photos printed instantly on) but it was 4 or 5 times bigger. I went inside, and realized you were supposed to sit on the tacky-looking plastic sofa (it was an old, battered machine) and put money in, then a person would have a conversation with you about anything you liked. I found this silly and walked out, the thought crossed my mind that if I pulled the curtains, I could have some 'adult fun' in this booth. But I decided against it, not wanting to end the dream early. I walked up some stairs, running my hands along the metal pole at the sides, and finding it very metal-like. I found a room which I spent some time reading the sign above it, but have now forgotten what it said. A young guy walked past, and I got horny again. Figuring I'd just go for it, I walked up and asked him if he fancied some fun. He ignored me, but clearly wasn't interested. He wasn't even that good looking, but for some reason I persisted, taking his hand and placing it down my pants. He was clearly uncomfortable with this, and gave me a terrible look which made me question my morals. However I knew I was dreaming, so kept telling myself he wasn't really upset and it was just my mind telling me its not nice to do things like this to strangers! However the guys dad suddenly appeared, concerned where his son was. His dad looked mad so I left! While walking away, I thought 'hey, I haven't had to stabilize this dream once!' So I rubbed my hands together to practice, and the whole place lit up, and became a bit clearer. However this faded again as soon as I stopped rubbing my hands. I already thought everything was clear, but now it had been clearer and gone back again it seemed a little unclear. (If that makes sense) I shouted stabilize! But my dream began to fade, I shouted it again, this time with NOW on the end, and summoning up as much confidence and courage as I could. The dream came back. I had a few more seconds of walking around, then blackness began to set in. I tried spinning, but I couldn't do it, it was really hard! I couldn't even get close, I tried rubbing my hands again, and this was better, but in the end I just gave up, and let myself wake up. I figured it was the end.

When awaking, I could have gone straight back into a dream again, I didn't move or open my eyes. However I wanted to write in my DJ, I didn't want to lose the dream! So I got up. Although this dream was clearly lucid, it didn't feel as real as the first time I had a lucid dream. I think this is why I was a lot more in control, because it wasn't so shockingly life-like. Don't get me wrong, it was pretty amazing. I feel annoyed that I didn't do more, and super annoyed that I let my penis get in the way of a decent dream.

Dream 3 - Non Lucid dream

My cousin 'C' has come to stay fr a few days. I got on well with him (he annoys me in RL) and we had lots of people who were crowding round to see / meet us, like we were famous or something. More him then me. We were talking about going to a music concert while he was here, I told him Linkin Park were playing, but he wanted to see Rhianna. I thought 'he used to have decent taste in music...'. There was some sort of parade going by, with lots of drunk people watching and celebrating. I have a fish tank with lots of shrimp but no fish. I complain about this and someone tells me to draw some fish, put them inside and they will come to life. I start doing this, but my cousin distracts me, as do our fans who keep watching us / asking us questions.


***NOTEWORTHY***
LUCID DREAM!!!
WBTB / WILD
TASK OF THE MONTH?
Festivals / concerts YET AGAIN - DS
Cousin hasn't visited for a while