Twoshadows

Lucid Dream:

There was a fish tank in front of me. It was very large, about six feet long and two feet tall. I looked in and was surprised that there were no fish in it. It was slightly murky with large grey rocks in it. As I looked I saw two guppies come out from behind the rocks.

Yes, I remembered I had guppies in this tank. One had a beautiful violet colored tail. A moment later I noticed several babies swimming around. Oh, cool, my guppies were breeding. Maybe in a few months I would have a tank full of guppies.


Then I saw something in the tank that startled me. It was a shark. It was bluish grey. I knew I had seen sharks in fish tanks before, but this one seemed odd to me. I looked at it again and tried to figure out what was not right. Its mouth was open. It almost looked like a toy, but yet it was swimming around.


I think I know what's wrong. Maybe this is a dream. This is exactly what would show up in a dream. I need to try to fly. I turn from the tank and take off. In a moment I'm in the air flying next to a two story house that I knew was home in the dream.


I suddenly remembered that I needed to eat something that I had been craving but couldn't eat in real life. I flew back to the ground. I saw a paper plate on the grass. I looked closely and saw a small pile of roasted salted cashew nuts on the plate. Ha! That's what my friends had been eating in real life yesterday and they looked so good to me. I scooped them up and popped them into my mouth as I hovered horizontally over the ground about 8 inches high. I then went on to the next paper plate that was on the grass. I was suddenly really hoping to find some rich and chewy fudge brownies. As I got closer I could see a big cookie. I picked it up and saw that there were M&Ms in it. Well, I love cookies too, so this was alright. I shoved the cookie in my mouth and flew back up to the roof of the house again. I thought about what I could do in this dream. I felt that my time was short. I knew I would lose the dream if I didn't think of a task to do quick.

I knew I had read the MM tasks--but nothing was coming to mind. Had I read the DV tasks for April? I couldn't remember. But I did remember that the Task of the Month for last month was to grow and tree and eat a piece of dream fruit. I decided that I would do this one.

I looked back down to the ground and saw a clear patch of grass out in the backyard. That would be the place. I focused on the ground. I wanted to do this fast. I gave a little "push" and I immediately saw a tree sprout up out of the ground. Like I had hoped, it grew extremely fast until about seven seconds later it was a full grown tree. It was about twenty feet tall and had the shape of an elm tree. I looked to the far side and saw a branch that was covered with reddished colored fruit. As I got closer I could see that the red peel didn't fully cover the white fruit inside. Each quarter of the fruit had a stripe of peel connecting from the top to the bottom. Between the striped of peel I could see inside to the fruit. It was white and shaped like a peeled orange. It had brown seeds on it that were the same size and shape as the beet seeds I had planted in real life last week.

I picked the fruit off the tree. By this time there was no peel on it at all. I knew the fruit was hollow, so I gripped it and gave a little twist. It pulled apart into two perfect halves. The fruit was smooth--about the consistency of a mango. I put it to my mouth and took a bite. It had a sweet yet tangy flavor that reminded me of a guava, yet milder. I took a few more bites, then flew back up in the air.

My hands felt funny. I put my left hand in front of me so I could see it. I was wearing black leather gloves. My fingers were twisted in weird uncomfortable angles. I laughed a little because I know that my hands are never right in dreams. I tried to straighten my fingers out. A glove fell from my hand. I must have been holding and extra glove. I tried to move my fingers again and another glove fell out of my hand. It was strange. And my fingers were still twisted up. I suddenly realized that my real life hands were most likely tucked under me in a way that made them feel bent and uncomfortable, but I couldn't fix that without waking up, so I decided to move on. But as I flew, I could feel the dream slipping.

I thought I awoke...but in retrospect I just moved on to a non lucid dream.

5-3-2006

I had my third Lucid Dream last night. Last night marks the two week anniversary since my first LD. So three in two weeks...I'm happy with that.

I am slightly frustrated because recall wasn't very good on this one. I didn't think that that would happen to me on a lucid dream, especially this early on.

I had awakened at about 5:00, and had decided to WILD. Wednesdays are a sleep-in day for me, so I thought it might work. But it was hard to concentrate. I had the window open, and it was already getting light, and there were dogs barking, and the birds were all singing so loudly. I finally decided that I wouldn't WILD. But as usual, I was hoping that I would DILD.

So I did fall back asleep and start some normal dreams. In one of the dreams I was flying. Not by myself, but in some sort of open topped flying car. And I was with several other people. Recall on that part of the dream is poor.

It was doing this flying that triggered lucidity. I remember thinking, "This is a dream. I'm Lucid." And the next thing I knew I was out flying on my own.

Yesterday, I had made it my goal that if I had an LD I would work on changing scenery...and if that didn't work I would patch a hole in a bucket (May's Lucid Task).

And this is where I wish I could remember details; I do remember being sucessful to the point of changing things so that I was instantly really high in the sky. I have never been that high in any dream. Comparing it to Google Earth, I would say that I was about 15,000+ feet altitude...which is pretty amazing for me since my normal flying altitude in dreams is a couple of hundred feet tops.And that is basically all I remember of the lucid part of that dream. I somehow lost lucidity and went to other dreams that involved my grandma and having a toothache.

But knowing I had a lucid dream at all makes me happy, and it makes me realize that this is starting to become more natural. And that it will only get better from here.

First WILD attempt....a Success!

May 1 2006 2:00am

I just had an amazing experience. I wrote it down on paper when I first got up, but then decided to get it right on the computer. Here it is:

I was awaken at about 12:15 and was having trouble falling back asleep, so I got up and did a few things and then laid back down in bed. Laying awake in bed at night has always frustrated me. I feel like I am wasting time, yet I know I need to try to sleep.

But this time I thought I would make use of this time. I decided to try to WILD. It had been quite a while since I had read about WILDing, so I wasn't really sure what to do. I did remember something about counting down back from one hundred while laying real still. I figured it was worth a try since there was nothing to lose.

So I got in a comfortable position on my back and slowly counted down from one hundred. But I kept having itches and found myself scratching them. I got down to one and started again.

At about 50 I thought, "This isn't working. I must be forgetting to do something." So I stopped counting. I laid there for a few more minutes and then I suddenly felt very sleepy. I figured I'd try one more time.

This time I didn't even count. I just laid there staring at the ceiling and focused on the feeling of myself becoming more and more "detatched" from my body. I heard a noise that was like a "hum", and I saw the ceiling "bouncing". Or maybe I was the one bouncing. Which ever it was, the ceiling would come closer then go back, then closer and then back, until finally I reached out my hand to see if I could "physically" feel it. Sure enough, I could feel it...even the texture of the plaster.

When that happened I knew that I had successfully WILDed and I was in a Lucid Dream.

I did the first thing that seems to come naturally for me in LDs. I flew out of bed and down toward the door. This time it was still dark outside. I remembered that in my last LD I was able to control the weather so it wasn't cold outside. I did the same in this dream. I opened the door and flew out in the not-so-cold night.

I could see the house lights and street lights around me as I started to fly higher. Finally I looked over toward the city and saw all the city lights. I realized that this was not my city, but a much larger city. I decided it didn't matter. In this dream my house was on some sort of hill overlooking the downtown area. I had to fly across the hill before the ground dropped away, and I was over all the city lights. That was pretty cool.

But then everything changed. I wasn't expecting this. My last LD seemed so perfectly real except for the fact that I was flying. But this one got a little strange. I was suddenly in a big dark room flying over these board games. Everything was huge, like I was the size of a fly in comparison. I didn't like it. I wanted to go back outside. I tried to change that, but was frustrated that I couldn't. I also wanted to see other people, since my LDs don't seem to have other people in them (except for that little girl that just passed through in the other one). But I couldn't make anyone show up.

I decided to try one more thing. I remembered that the Lucid Dream task for April was to swallow a goldfish (It didn't dawn on me that I was now at least an hour into May). So I decided that I would fly into the next room, and that I would see a fish tank full of goldfish by the wall. And....yes.....this time I was able to do it.

So there it was...this fish tank in an otherwise empty room. I landed on the floor beside it and looked at the fish. There were about 8 in the tank. They were a little more like Koi than the typical goldfish, but I figured that I had done pretty well considering this was only my second LD. They were all about 3 inches long and white in color with little spots of gold and black.

When I had read about this task I had wondered if "dream goldfish" felt or tasted anything like real goldfish. I was actually very curious to find out. I stuck my hand in the water and grabbed one. To my dismay, it felt exactly like a real fish...cold, wet, and slightly slimy. Without looking at it closely, I popped it in my mouth.

I stood there for a moment not knowing what to do next. I had hoped that once I got it into my mouth I could wish it into a cookie and chew it up and swallow it. But instead I had a very large, very real goldfish wiggling around in my mouth. It was too big to swallow whole. Yet the idea of chewing it was too gross to consider.

I finally thought, "If I can make myself fly in a dream, I certainly can make myself swallow a goldfish!" and with that, I swallowed.

The huge goldfish went about halfway down my throat before stopping. I started to gag. Unfortunately, the gagging made me wake up.

But again, I wasn't upset. I suddenly realized the significance of what I had just accomplished....my first WILD....and how easy it had come.

I had felt slightly frustrated that a week and a half had gone by since my first LD, and I had nothing else close to an LD since then.....until now.

I am definitely going to try this again.

Time to start...

My first LD:

April 19, 2006 4:50am

I just had my first Lucid Dream a few minutes ago.

In the dream I was lying in bed. Suddenly something felt funny in my mouth. I felt my teeth with my tongue and, sure enough, my upper left bicuspid was cracked and loose. I pulled a piece of the tooth out of my mouth, thinking, "I can't believe this is happening!" Then I thought, "That's it! I don't believe this is happening. This must be a dream. This always happens in my dreams." [NOTE: This was the dream sign I kept telling myself I needed to recognize because it happens so often in my dreams. And I have now started using this as a reality check during the day...to feel if my tooth is loose].


Nothing else strange happened, but at that point I knew I was in a dream, and I realized I was lucid.

As one might expect, I got very excited. I then thought about this website and how it says that when people first start having these experiences, they get so excited that they wake up. Well, as soon as I thought that, I felt myself wake up.

Next thing I knew I was lying in bed saying, "Darn." But then I reached up and felt that same tooth. It was still loose. I had had a false awakening. I was still in the dream. I finished pulling out the tooth, and took a moment to sit and think about what was happening. Some of my thoughts were: So this is what it feels like to be in a dream and know it is a dream. It feels amazingly like real-life...yet there is a difference that I can't quite pin-point. Okay, what I really need to do is to try to float".

I concentrated on the feeling I have had in dreams where I have floated. Next thing I knew I was floating (horizontal...because I had been laying down). At this point I really wanted to get outside. Too many of my recent flying dreams had taken place indoors (what a waste). I wanted to fly high.

I floated out of the bedroom. Suddenly there was a little neighbor girl there pulling on me and asking for her ball. I reached in my pocket and pulled out a little pink bouncy ball and gave it to her. She took it and went away. [Note: Since this makes no sense to me, it shows that my subconscious mind was still doing its thing. If I were more lucid I'm sure I would have noticed that this was strange-- or that it wouldn't have happened at all.]

I floated to the back door. As I reached for the door handle, I thought, "I don't want it to be cold outside...I can control that too, can't I?" I pulled the door open and floated out and took off flying. The weather was perfect. It was early morning...cool, but not cold.

All around me the music from Peter Pan started playing, "You can fly...you can fly...you can fly...". I was feeling so happy that I started singing along. [Note: I remember thinking "I hope I am not singing in real life in bed and waking everyone up". I think that shows how lucid I really was...not forgetting that my real body was still laying in bed somewhere else.]

I flew up over some trees, and grabbed some leaves off the top of a really tall one and told myself to fly higher. I did for moment, then the next thing I knew I was back near the ground. I told myself I had the power to go higher. And I was then able to go quite high. I looked down and could see the roads. I remember thinking, "I'm glad I have done Google Earth so much so I know what this is all supposed to look like from above".

I decided I wanted to travel. I started following the highway, but realized that I was going to have to learn to fly faster or I wouldn't have time to get anywhere before I woke up.


And sure enough, at that point I did wake up.

But I didn't really mind. I was truly excited. I now knew that lucid dreaming was possible for me. And that this was just the beginning.