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Yup, good advice, thanks! I think improving my dream recall and striving toward lucidity is helping me realize how f'ed up my mind is but how normal that is. I am beginning the healing process of understanding and accepting myself more. Not being hard on myself does not come natural for me, but it is definitely a goal for me. I think dream recall, self-analysis, and ultimately lucidity will help me become stronger and enjoy myself more rather than just trying to fight myself. For now I am still very much in self fighting mode: I enjoy winning, but when fighting myself every win is also a loose.

Or you can chalk it up to the prefontal cortex. You know that portion of the brain that controls judgment and reason. It's turned off during sleep and dreams (and on during a lucid) and that's why we're more than likely to do things we never do in waking life. Try not to be so hard on yourself.

I also get that I was participating in a thread on taboos about sex on DV before going to sleep, and that probably contributed to triggering this nightmare. But I did not ask for this!

Of course, the dilemma is that I have recently discovered how much I hate to be censored, and how this kind of restriction on the free expression of what is on my mind lingers in my subconscious and grows out of proportion and over time small issues become much bigger issues than they should be.

So part of me is saying to me, pot calling a cattle black. If you suppress this expression of mine the steam will build up and eventually erupt. Admit that you are a heterosexual woman and your coworker is an attractive man, and it is not that it is unnatural for you to acknowledge that on some subconscious level, and if you deny it, this will become a real issue whereas it really is not yet.

Upon briefly falling back to sleep I continued with a related dream fragment. Someone read this dream fragment on Dav, and I got a Notification that said "Incoming dream challenge" sort of like "Incoming friend request" in same spot.

LoL. That is a funny coincidence - since I don't believe in this kind of "mental projection", I think this was a coincidence though, not me dreaming about the contents of your fridge. LOL Upon waking I really thought I had reached some profound insight about dreaming in this dream, but of course since this is all I can now remember, I can neither confirm not deny any profound insight.

Oh, I just remembered something that may be significant: just before going to bed I had a conversation with my seven year old son, which was essentially about a chicken or egg dilemma: my son wanted to know, if got created heaven, then where was God before heaven was created? If God is outside of space and time, then where is he? I bet this conversation had something to do with my dreaming in a chicken or egg dilemma theme.

Wow, that's a funny coincidence that you had a chicken and egg dream - I just realized last night that all the groceries I've bought for meals for the coming week are nothing but chicken for lunch and dinner and eggs for breakfast..

In hindsight it occurred to me that this dream most likely is about my desire to be a whistle blower on the online forum that I just left. The public face of that forum is that it is the "nicest" forum of its kind. My "brother" who was "murdered" was my favorite buddy who got banned from that forum. Part of me wants to go back and post a "goodbye" thread in which I would say that I am leaving because this forum is too restrictive, and that I think the banning of this guy who was a member for four years, and provided an important alternative point of view, has made that forum much poorer. However, part of me is concerned that all I could gain would va brief moment of having my say, and then either the thread would just be deleted followed by a private message to me saying that if I have problems with moderator practices I need to address them in private messages to moderators only, or I might get banned too. This is what the ineffective attempt to kill me is about. And I know at this point that they could not really hurt me with any of that. And yet, I hesitate because what is the point: those who find that place oppressive will hopefully realize what's going one and leave, and those who do not, why shatter their illusion that they are part of the nicest forum of its kind?

Since I am into dream interpretation, I am going to try to interpret this dream for myself, since it is in many ways a fascinating dream for me.

The one issue that is now predominant in my life is my decision to leave one online forum because I was uncomfortable with the level of censorship and come here to dream views instead. So I wonder whether this dream is not somehow about that as well: The lesson about How to Dance With a Lady is all about what is the proper thing to do. When I told this dream to my mom, she pointed out to me that the "correct" answer in my dream is a very conservative answer, and it is true. I am an interesting blend of liberal and conservative in different ways.

For the online forum how this applies is: is it more "proper" and "polite" to censor talk such as talk of drugs and sex and dirty language? Or is it impolite to do that kind of restrictive censorship? You know my answer since I am now on dream views. But before I decided to jump ship I was beginning to Have doubts as to whether I am a nice person - why could I not fit in on this nice and polite forum? Why did I feel like I was wearing a corset? I think this dream being about a lesson in manners is thus significant: my mind is struggling with what "good manners" means, and while in this dream the conservative answer is considered correct, but I think it is significant that I acknowledge that there are other possible answers to this question.

As for the helicopter. Strangely enough I am a bit scared of helicopters in real life. However, this dream was not so much a nightmare - I found the helicopter attack exhilarating and exciting. A new adventure begins?

Phased, yup. This is strange but in my experience not uncommon. The more we focus on dre recall in waking life, it spills into our dreams. Btw, I remembered a bit more of this fragment, so I added it: this time below the original text after an EDiT: -- still just a fragment though. Thi night was not very fruitful compared to yesterday for me.

Interesting, once I woke up, and I remembered remembering a dream, it was quite strange!

Just re read it, thanks for the additions!

Thanks fir your comments gab and Phased, I think I remembered this dream after the fact again, and it is even more significant than I suspected I think. I edited this entry and added the new contents first - leaving old contents below.

Nice, I am slowly getting better as well I think :3

Well, at least you remembered at first. Writing it down really helps. Keep it up

Wow - memory consolidation in action!