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    The Kestrel's Dreams

    Welcome to my Dream Journal! I'm still getting used to the site, so bear with me!

    I'll make this all pretty eventually.


    // Recurring Characters (real people), for your and my own reference (since they're all aliases) //

    Zukin: Bestie and 3/4, went to Germany with me last year. We have almost died together multiple times by now
    Backpacking Group: Zukin, Ivan, Dan, Josh, Kebab, Penny, Cindy, and Suzy; We all drove down to Texas and spent Spring Break ('14) backpacking in the Guadalupe Mountains
    Bob: Older Brother
    Erik: Little Brother
    Germany Group: Zukin plus 7 others who were in the same program to study abroad in Germany for 6 months
    Kristin: Current roommate and close friend of four years
    Jasmine: High school Best Friend, but we don't talk much anymore


    Now that I have something Lucid in my DJ: Orange text = Lucid

    1. KITTENS, Field Trips, and some Lucid!

      by , 01-31-2015 at 10:27 PM (The Kestrel's Dreams)
      January 31, 2015


      Finally back into the swing again!


      Awkward Love Triangle, BUT KITTENS

      I was at a friend's house. We'll call him J for now (no, Zukin, not your J, the one I friendzoneded last year...), and there was soooo much water in the front yard. IT was like one huge pool, with lawn chairs and pots and such floating around. We were on the second floor, since the first floor was flooded, too. He had so many cats and kittens, for some reason. I was playing with them and putting them in those hanging shoe organizers and such. They would just sleep there. They were so cute, really. One of the kittens got up and climbed down the pockets, and rubbed against my leg a bit. While I was cuddling with that kitten, another one took its place in the shoe organizer pocket. I put the kitten down again, and it climbed back up the shoe organizer and when it noticed its spot had been taken, just climbed right on up to another pocket. It was pretty awesome. So yeah these things were hanging on like every door and there were cats and kittens everywhere.

      Then I started getting lots of calls from people, and they're all worried their houses are being broken into. Like all of them. IT was really weird, like some group had decided to mass-invade everyone's homes. One of the calls was from a gal I knew. But I couldn't tell who it was because my phone always makes voices sound different. Apparently this gal had a crush on me. Like, she kept saying "I've always really liked you...!" I kept asking who it was because I couldn't tell, and eventually she told me; it was K, one of Zukin's old housemates and ex-friend of J (they got into an argument a while ago and are no longer friends, as far as I'm aware...) She told me the real reason they weren't friends anymore was because they both liked me and J was being a bitch about it, or something.

      Very strange dream.




      Field Trip!

      I was going on a field trip with my 1st graders and some of my Cohort. There were also some other staff members from the school going on the trip. Some of them, I had never seen before. I was one of the first ones to get on the bus (which was a strange combination of a normal public transit bus and a school bus) and sat near the back, but as soon as people started getting on, I wished I had sat closer to one of the really cute guys I had just seen. I had the two seats all to myself, so I sprawled my stuff out a bit to be more comfortable.

      At some point we stopped at a rest area. Either H or M said "Guys we've all been here before!" But the rest area looked unfamiliar to me, and I was a little confused. She went on to tell of her second grade class trip to somewhere, they had stopped here. "Oh, so you mean YOU have been here. Why'd you say all of us had been here together?"

      "Oh, I don't know~" She said, smiling.

      We get back to the bus, and I find my seat (my stuff was closer to the front than it was before, but I didn't notice this discrepancy). I remember going over a bridge of some sort, but after that it was all fuzzy and I woke up.





      I tried to WILD, but every time I felt the shaking start, my heartbeat would speed up on its own and I would lose it... so, didn't exactly WILD but DID get lucid in my next dream!

      It was THIS Guy!

      I was playing a Pokémon-Minecraft hybrid game of some sort. My starter was Charmander, and I somehow trained it up to a Charizard without even leaving my home town. I also had caught like 10 other Pokémon. My big brother B had told me to put 6 different Pokémon in my party, and leave Charizard out. I was about to protest and say WHY TEH FUCK NOT HAVE CHARIZARD?! when he just told me to jump and fly, and watch. So I did, I jumped up and started flying along the main street in the hometown, and to my left and right, the rest of my Pokémon were running along the road. It made me smile, and then B showed me how to have Charizard fly to my left with me, so I would always have him, even if he wasn't in my party. Apparently any Pokémon that could fly, you could take with you on your left. So I am happy happy happy to have my Charizard, and go flying in search of the villages that would hold gym leaders. In this way it was more like Minecraft. The towns were basically larger Minecraft villages, but you couldn't enter them if you didn't have the right badges yet.

      I found two towns near each other, and went to land at one of them. It was in a forest with HUGE trees. Like they were all spaced out pretty widely, and yet the foliage blocked out all the sun. (I believe I have dreamed of this town before, once... but I don't remember much abotu it, aside from a slight foreboding feeling...) I landed there and was about to enter, but an NPC at the gate wouldn't let me enter. Apparently this was the fourth or fifth gym.

      I jumped up again, and glanced at the other town I had spotted, which was on a beach backed by a high cliff. The town was built out into the water on cobblestones and such, and was tiered as it neared the cliff. It only reached up to about half the cliff, though. I decided this city looked like one of the last gyms, and turned back where I had come from. I assumed that the first gym would be nearer the hometown.

      On my way back, I got a bit lost... I somehow ended up against a never ending and massive book shelf. It extended up as far as I dared to fly, and I couldn't see the end of it in either direction. I took note of my coordinates (like you do with the F3 key in Minecraft), and I noticed that the numbers kept changing, even though I wasn't moving...

      I finally realized this was strange, and looked at my hands. I was dreaming! I grinned and looked around a bit, taking in the environment. I decided to try for something else, and figured there must be something beyond this huge book case. I pulled away a book, let it fall to the ground far below me. I pulled a few more, and then stuck my head through the hole to inspect the other side. It looked like the swamp-pool in Mononokehime, so I was excited. I pulled more books away so I could fit through the hole (should have tried phasing through it!).

      I stood on one of the little grassy islands in the middle of the pond. It was so beautiful. I would have just sat there and enjoyed it if I didn't really want to keep my wings. I made a mental note to come here next time I was lucid and had nothing to do, and then thought about which task I could try. There were no DCs here (I was pretty much completely alone), so I couldn't be able to do something naughty and blame someone else... unless I summoned some random people. But I didn't want other people here, so I decided to try making a storm. There were too many trees above me, so I flew until I passed the canopy. To my surprise, the swamp was in a rather small patch of huge trees, and beyond it was medium-to-small city. So I decided to save the storm for later, and went to find some DCs to blame for things. I landed and looked around. I seemed to be in a sort of bazaar. Good. Lots of DCs. Then I started to think of what "naughty" thing I would do... I saw a woman in a long dress, so I came up behind her and lifted her skirt all the way up, then scooted over a little, so that when she turned around, looking angry, I could simply point at whoever was next to me. I didn't look to see who was next to me, though. When she looked at the person standing next to me, I also looked ,and realized it was a little boy. She narrowed her eyes and told him "That's RUDE." The kid was unphased.

      I giggled a little bit, and then went to one of the stalls, wondering what they sold here. I was trying to think of things to do to get points for Sensei's competition, and remembered my next three-part task: changing an object. Bonus points if it was something from a show or book or something. I saw a bauble of sorts, it was pink. I picked it up and pocketed it. The stall owner saw me do it, and got angry, and I said, "It wasn't me. It was this guy." Patting the shoulder of the person next to me. "This guy" turned to me and yelled, "You know what FUCK YOU." And ran away. I liked blaming DCs.

      I flew up and out of the crowd, and landed on a roof nearby. I took the bauble out of my pocket and closed my eyes, thinking that it was about to get warmer and start beating. I was in a Miyazaki kick, so I was going to change it into Calcipher. When I opened my eyes, there he was, in my hands. It was warm, but not burning. I said hello to him. "What?" He said. He sounded a little annoyed. "It's cold out here," he complained. I stuck him in my pocket for later, thinking it would be warmer in there. I jumped up to do my last three-part task, advanced flying, but the dream started to fade and I
      woke up.

      Updated 02-01-2015 at 01:52 AM by 69491

      Categories
      lucid , task of the month
    2. Minecrafts Meets Attack on Titan

      by , 12-08-2014 at 05:23 AM (The Kestrel's Dreams)
      December 07, 2014



      Minecraft Meets AoT

      I was in Minecraft, and there were HUGE pigs and whatnot. Like... HUGE. The size of mountains. They took a lot of hits to kill, even with a diamond sword with enchantments. But when I finally did get one of them to fall, I got a shit-ton of porkchops. I also killed a giant chicken, and it dropped one massive chicken, already cooked. I was sitting there, eating it, when I encountered a massive pair of siblings. I was in a hammock over the door in a kitchen, right next to a fridge. I was having trouble getting the meat off the tendons for some reason, when the children came. They were so big. I think they were trying to kill me, becaue the next thing I knew, one of their fists was coming down on me.

      I flew up higher than the Titan children could reach, but they seemed to be getting all the larger. I was flying through a mountainous landscape, looking at the huge chickens and pigs and cos below me.




      Ruins Fee

      I was on a large boat with my brothers, and we were headed for an island in Thailand, or just off the coast, or something. It had ancient ruins on it, and we wanted to go see them. I parked the boat rather sloppily, and then had to redo it a few times because the person who was supposed to catch the rope I threw wasn't there and I kept missing.

      When I finally did get us docked, the dock master asked for the parking payment and entrance fee to the island. It was the Thai equivalent of $35. Or it was 35 bot, which is like one US dollar, I believe. Anyways, I didn't have any money, so I asked my big brother if I could borrow some money from him. But just as I was paying the dock-master, our mom came up on a jet ski and told us we had to leave here at 3:00 because our grandparents had just gotten into town. It was already 2:53, so we basically had to leave right then.
    3. Minecraft in SPACE // MBME // Girl Crushes // Magical Rape

      by , 07-13-2014 at 12:09 AM (The Kestrel's Dreams)
      July 12, 2014




      Minecraft IN SPACE

      I was living in a Minecraft-like world; It wasn't blocky like Minecraft, but you could build whatever you want and such, like a sandbox type game (such as Minecraft). Except there was the option to play with an extra dimensional world, where you could spawn in space and find planets to build on. It was pretty mind boggling.



      So I was inside this game, and I had started off on a medium-sized asteroid. It was longer than it was wide, so I used four "sides" along the rod-like (read: phallic) asteroid to build four "sets" where stories could be acted out. The first "set" was for a tragic love story, where the husband dies in the house. The second involved a cat that didn't want to get down from on top of a piece of furniture. The third I can't remember, and the fourth was a horror-suspense where a woman's husband goes crazy and goes on a murder rampage, killing her, their dog, and their child, and some of the neighbors. He stored them all in their fridge.

      So, I had used up all the space on this asteroid, and so I jumped off from one edge, because I had spotted a smaller asteroid nearby. I built a small star-base on that one, and left a tracking device on it so I could find it later. And then I pushed off from it in a random direction, and floated through space for what seemed like a really long while and an instant at the same time.

      Eventually, I found a good sized planet (I assumed it was my normal dream world, but I am not sure). I landed on it in a large field that stretched as far as I could see. Everything is all good; I meet some cool people, and build a nice little house for myself as I search for new resources, but then I figure out that I can't jump with enough force to escape the gravity of this planet. And so I would never be able to see my original creation again, and would have to stay on this world forever. I was saddened by that; even though it was nothing much, I was sentimental about my first creation.

      I eventually fell in love with one of the men I had met on this planet, and life seemed to be okay. Then one day, there was a huge asteroid impact, and then another one: It turned out that my original asteroid and the mini star-base had collided with another space object, setting their trajectories on a collision-course with this planet. The horror-story set was destroyed when the asteroid landed, but everything else was well intact. I was so happy, and ended up acting out one of the sets with the man I had fallen in love with. We were in the first set, but we chose a different story; a school romance (lol, someone has been reading too much manga!)

      I was a student and he was my teacher, and we had a forbidden mutual love. The classroom was set up so that there was one room for the teacher, and another, larger, room for the students. The wall dividing them had holes used for communication. Each student had a section of the wall and a number of holes they used to stick their comments and questions through to the teacher on the other side. We were using it to send secret love notes.




      The Most Beautiful Man in Existence

      I was a student at an elite almost-all-girls school. I had a crush one of my male classmates, who just happened to be Yato from Noragami. I may have been Hiyori (the girl in that picture), but I don't remember. Anyways. The school uniform was orange jumpsuits. We all looked like prisoners. Or Chell.

      The dream spanned many days (at least half of a school year) and I switched characters quite often; I was Yato for some part of it, I was a series of their friends, and one of the teachers at some point, too. By the time I was near the end of the dream, I was the best friend of the first me. Somewhere in the middle of my cycle of characters, I had been showing a picture of some famous photographer to my friends (one of which was the first me), and this guy was apparently the "Most Beautiful Man In Existence" (MBME). He wore black shiny-ish clothes, with lots of belts and buckles, and his face was always covered by a DSLR camera in the pictures, so I was skeptical. The first me was fawning over him, which made Yato-me jealous by the time I was him.

      When I was the last-me, first-me's best friend, there were rumors going around school that MBME was transferring to our school. I was scowly and upset by this, thinking the first-me would fall for him instead of Yato, who was by now her boyfriend. I didn't want this MBME to get in the way of their love, and so I was all pissy about him coming to our school. I was with first-me and our friends, and she was going all gagga over the fact that he was coming here, and so I got exasperated and left to walk around outside and get some fresh air. I decided to run laps around the building, but as I rounded the corner to the front of the building, I saw a line of cars coming up the driveway of the school, from both directions (it was a two-entry half-circle type driveway). I assumed it was the new MBME. As if on cue, MBME got out of the car in the front of one of the lines, and it was just like an anime, where the roses and sparkles are in the background. He really was the most beautiful man in existence. But I shook my head to clear it, and got angry at myself. I saw a woman get out of the car behind him, probably his mom, and I did my best to look as delinquent-y and unlady-like as possible, hoping his mom would see the jail-bird-ish uniform and my behavior, and think everyone in the school was like that, and would take her son out of the school.

      But I woke up before anything else happened.




      Girl Crushes and Doughnuts

      I was in a big mansion with a group of girls. We were all classmates, I think, and we were all on a trip together. They were all jealous of me because I was best friends with the beautiful, popular girl who everyone admired. Some of the girls even had crushes on her. And so they all basically hated me.

      We were all staying in this mansion overnight, and I was in the same room as the popular best friend, and there was also a box of mini-doughnuts in our room. During the night, random girls kept sneaking in to steal doughnuts so they could give them to the beautiful best friend in the morning. Eventually I got tired of this, since my bed was right next to the door, and I grabbed all the doughnuts and hoarded them under my blankets, and locked the door.




      Magical Rape

      I wasn't any character in this dream; I merely watched the scene. I was watching from a corner of the living room in a house; a woman was cleaning and such. Then a little boy, her son, came in, soaking wet and looking mentally defeated. His mother gasped and ran to his side, but he brushed past her and continued on to his room. Then I was in his room, and he stood at his writing desk. His mother appeared in the doorway, asking what was wrong, and then she saw a toy (it was like a top, but not quite a top. IT was yellow with red and blue and green patterns at the handle of it) directly between the boy's legs. She looked horrified, but when she checked for blood on his pants, was relieved to see that there was none. But the boy merely said "It's different..."

      The mother looked aghast at him, shaking her head. "No... it can't be...!"

      The boy took of his pants and (here it gets really weird and I don't know what the heck my subconscious was on) turned, revealing black patterns extending from his anus. They were magical marks, signs of a curse. Then the POV zoomed in on that and went up the boy's ass.... Like I said, weird, and I don't know why the heck I dreamed it.
      Categories
      non-lucid
    4. First Lucid Experience: Minecraft Blocky AND Real-World Smooth

      by , 06-10-2014 at 07:55 PM (The Kestrel's Dreams)
      June 10, 2014




      After having mostly fragmented memories of dreams and waking at 5:30 am, I fell back asleep and had this dream:


      I was visiting some other country with my family (immediate and most of the grandparents/aunts/cousins, as well as the Stanleys, who are the family of my mom's old high school friend). At first, we were in a city, wandering around and exploring new places. We were in a Hotel there, and my mom had come back with a bicycle she'd just bought. We all wondered how practical this was, since we were going to have to fly back, just like we'd had to fly there. We all got in multiple cars and headed for the house we were renting for the next week and a half of the trip; apparently Bob had built it.

      I decided to do some exploring of the house. There was a main section of the house, with the living spaces, and three of the bedrooms, and then there was a separate space connected by a partially underground hallway (there were windows at the top of the walls, and these windows were just above ground level outside). The second space was a garden/master bedroom. There were flowers in pots everywhere and when I looked out the window, I saw that the whole top of that hallway was also planted. There were lots of windows, and the bed was in a section that was sunk down a few steps. I went outside the building and saw a door, but didn't think much of it, assuming it was just leading off from one of the bedrooms.

      Then, mom got back. She'd decided to come on her bike, so it took her a lot longer to get there. Except she came on a motor scooter. We asked her why she had it, and she said that she'd traded the bike for the scooter. She had apparently also picked up groceries on the way there; they were in bags behind her.

      I asked it I could ride the scooter (I only call it a scooter because I can't think of any better word... It was basically a box with wheels and no right-side wall, so that you could get in and out. I guess it was more of a cockpit?), and mom said sure, why not? She proceeded to show my family the snake she'd gotten on a whim at the grocery store.

      So I get in through the absent right-hand wall, and sit/squat in this awkward little seat that was slanted forwards. The steering mechanism was a simple floppy paddle handle (like the locks on some bathroom stalls). At first, I thought that it was also the way to accelerate (kind of how in bumper cars, often times to reverse, you need to turn so far you go backwards), so I turned it really far and ended up just spinning really fast and getting dizzy (it spun without pressing the gas, apparently). I found the actual gas and break pedals and got on my way, taking it out for a spin.

      I first went up the road to the left (as you face the house), which was up. The house was on a hill, so to the left it went uphill, and to the right it went downhill on a curve to the right. We were on a mountain or something, I think. I got bored going uphill, so I turned around (the turning was like in some video games, where when you rotate the handle to the left for the camera view, it turns right, and vise versa. I hate that, it confuses me so much) and went downhill. I passed the house and went along the curve to the right, and then it was straight and steep, and there was a jeep (this jeep, to be precise; I should clarify that I am in no way a conservative. One of my friends posted this on FB) coming at me really fast with their brights on even though the sun was just starting to set, and the road was narrow, so I pulled over to the right side, which was nearly a cliff, and waited for it to pass. I got freaked out by the jeep and turned back to go home.

      When I got back, the snake my mom had bought with the groceries was chilling on the front porch, but then a large red snake with yellow spots outlined in black came out of the ground (like, it came out of the GROUND, not out of a hole in the ground) and attacked mom's snake. It was crazy. They were vicious and kept going in and out of the ground, and I was freaked out because I was almost positive this other snake was venomous and they kept coming up at random spots, so I hopped back inside where I would be safe. I told my mom, but she didn't seem too worried about her snake. "She's a tough cookie, that one," she said with a thumbs up.

      I went off to find my brothers and ended up finding them in the main living room. Bob said he'd included a secret space when he built the house. I looked over and found a room I had missed before; it was long and narrow, with bunk beds built into the wall on the right-hand side. There were four bunks, then one twin, and then one queen/double. The last thing built into that wall was a sort of reading nook with a table and booth-benches around it. Bob and Erik said they would be sleeping in this room with the Stanley boys and our uncles.

      On the left at the end of the room was an open space, and a door was at the very end. I opened it, and found out it was the door I'd seen earlier.

      When I closed the door, everything went all Minecraft on me. I accidentally deleted a block from the wall, and I rotated through my inventory to replace it with a stone block, but then I realized the walls were made of leaf-blocks. I didn't have any of those in my inventory, so I left it as it was. I looked over to the area to the left and noticed something strange; it looked like there was something behind the leaf-blocks making up the wall, so I broke one of them with my sheers (so I could replace it if there wasn't actually anything there) and found a tunnel with a pitfall at the end. I looked down the hole, and found out there was water running below. A tetris-ish shaped lily-pad floated past, and I jumped down and landed on it.

      I was in this GORGEOUS underground jungle-temple-like space. The river was artificial, it seemed, made out of cobblestone blocks, suspended a few blocks from the ground and winding and going up and down. There were vines hanging down over everything and dappled light coming in through little holes in the ground (the ceiling above me, since I was underground now). Roots intertwined and connected with the cobblestone river. It was at the same time minecraft blocky and real-world smooth. It was so surreal and so beautiful! There were lily-pads on the water, and chests full of treasure scattered throughout the river; some in the water, some above the water, some on the cobblestone at the edge of the water.

      I let myself be carried by the river until it came into open daylight (the sun still had not set, but was very close to the horizon now) and found myself above the house. Instead of the road there had been before, it was all a river now. Wait a minute, this was a road before... Am I dreaming? Sure enough, for the first time ever, I did a reality check in my dream, and found I was dreaming. I was so excited that it started to destabilize, but I ran as fast as I could to the house to tell everyone we were in a dream.

      I woke up before I could reach the house.
      I gained lucidity (and remember it) for the first time!


      Update: That day I spent way more time than I should have building the house in Minecraft. lol

      Updated 06-12-2014 at 12:00 AM by 69491

      Categories
      lucid , memorable