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    The Kestrel's Dreams

    Welcome to my Dream Journal! I'm still getting used to the site, so bear with me!

    I'll make this all pretty eventually.


    // Recurring Characters (real people), for your and my own reference (since they're all aliases) //

    Zukin: Bestie and 3/4, went to Germany with me last year. We have almost died together multiple times by now
    Backpacking Group: Zukin, Ivan, Dan, Josh, Kebab, Penny, Cindy, and Suzy; We all drove down to Texas and spent Spring Break ('14) backpacking in the Guadalupe Mountains
    Bob: Older Brother
    Erik: Little Brother
    Germany Group: Zukin plus 7 others who were in the same program to study abroad in Germany for 6 months
    Kristin: Current roommate and close friend of four years
    Jasmine: High school Best Friend, but we don't talk much anymore


    Now that I have something Lucid in my DJ: Orange text = Lucid

    1. Me-House

      by , 06-18-2015 at 02:21 AM (The Kestrel's Dreams)
      June 15, 2015


      I was with a group of my classmates, except that there were some other people there, too. One of them was a girl who was a year below me in high school, who is doing her undergrad in education at the same university as me. She was telling me how she was going to come back to do the same master's program I'm doing when she finished her undergrad studies. another of the people in the group was a guy from my high school.

      We were sitting, eating our lunch near a large building with lots of big windows. There were apparently a lot of illegal Asian students at the university lately, and the campus police were really cracking down on them. We could see through the huge windows that a young woman was running from a group of like five cops. She was carrying her books and had classes, she looked like a normal college student but much more modest. She eventually ran out of the building and past us. I was a little worried because one of the people in my group was Asian and I was worried about racial profiling. Three of the cops continued chasing the young woman, but two of them stopped and inspected our group. One stood back as the other confronted me first. He asked my name and major, I answered. He moved on to the friend from highschool, and asked him the same questions. But he was nervous and stammered, and the cop got confrontational and hostile, got up in his face, and then forcefully kissed him violently. I punched the cop in the jaw and yelled at him, telling him I was filing charges and that I had been recording the whole thing. The cop skunked off.

      Our group was moving on, to a secret garden type place, where we were going to meet Kali, who was apparently our field instructor or something. He told us we had to go to Germany for a final test, and that the university was paying for our tickets. I was so excited to be going back to Germany! We all packed our things, and somehow managed to get in the same car heading for a place we were going to stay in tonight, before the flight. In the car, I was looking out the window. The scenery couldn't decide what it wanted to be, and I thought this was funny... I had the inkling I was dreaming, so I checked my hands... I WAS dreaming!

      I was so happy to be lucid again after such a long dry spell, that for a while I just let the dream play out. We were still in the car, though, and it was still driving. I remembered the TOTM to find a house that represented yourself, and so I told myself that the car would stop in front of the building that was ME. Sure enough, the car did stop very soon after that. I phased through the door and looked. The building in front of us was a large-ish Greek looking place. It was really pretty, and Kali stopped to take pictures of all of us in different poses in front of the building. I opened the door to see what the inside was like. It was fascinating! It was all Winchester-y, with rooms in odd places. I could see most of the rooms at once, though, because it was all very open. Most of the things in the rooms were deep reds, dark blues/browns, whites and splashes of blinding bright orange. Zukin was sitting on a bench in the entry room, and stood up when she saw me. "Finally!" She said, grabbing my hand and leading me around the house. "I've been waiting for you for ages. Let's explore!" We looked through a lot of the rooms, but I knew there were more. We went up stairs and ladders, down some and through countless doorways. Somehow I still knew exactly where I was in the house! Usually I'm so directionally challenged. We heard the maid calling us down for drinks, and I decided to go talk to her to see what she knew about this building. But Zukin wanted to go find the Chinchilla Room.

      We split up, me going down and she going further up. When I reached the bottom, I was about to ask the maid what she knew about the Me-House, when the DC of the high school friend thanked me for sticking up for him earlier. He game me a drink in a "candied coconut shell" which was really delicious! I lost a lot of my lucidity and got horny, but the dream faded away after I walked onto a long balcony overlooking a cliff on the ocean. It was beautiful.
      Tags: germany, school, zukin
      Categories
      lucid , task of the month
    2. New Mommy and Cult-ish Next Level

      by , 04-27-2015 at 04:21 AM (The Kestrel's Dreams)
      April 25, 2015



      My New Mommy
      I was in class with the kids but we were in this weird room. I sat in the corner with my computer, and I greeted the kids as they came in because the door was right in my corner. I remember that the room was made with light wooden floors and walls, and was very open to the outside; there were big windows. We all had on headphones with microphones that were all connected, so all we could hear was each other. I was checking kids' papers (we did research papers) and sources. M and T had the same source for their paper about women's suffrage. I walked around a little more and then sat down and turned on my headphones. K said "if i loose my mom and I'm all tragic will you be my new mommy Ms. Kestrel?" And I pretended I didn't hear it, because I wasn't sure what an appropriate response would be...

      I was with K, T and M later at recess or something and we walked around the back of the school. There were interesting stairs and weird structures so I climbed the stairs and came to a pretty hill overlooking an orchard of sorts with some forested areas surrounding it. It was sunset and very pretty. It reminded me a lot of the space Zukin and I found in Germany while biking one day.



      The Next Level Cult

      I was in some kind of survival game, or a spiritual/intuition test. A bunch of people were let into a big room with about 7 holes in the ceiling and ladders hanging down from them. We had to pick one of the ladders to go through. N (one of my students) was there but I don think I recognized anyone else. He was trying to reach one of the ladders but couldn't because he was too small. I lifted him up to it and then went to a spot where two ladders were in the far left corner. Almost everyone was choosing the ladder that had a platform to reach it, but something drew me to the other one. It wasn't a lot harder to get to or anything, so I didn't know why everyone was going up the other one. I had to fenangle just a little bit to reach it, and climbed up...

      I came up into another room with a really tall ceiling. There was also some ledges. It was as if the room before had a huge box over it, if that makes sense. There was a very short (maybe a foot tall) fence down the middle of the room, which was made of spaghetti, or something else that wasn't all that strong. There were about 15-20 people on my side and lots of people on the other side. There was a voice through a speaker somewhere. It told us that anyone who tried to cross the fence in the middle would be thrown off the edge, into something deadly... The voice also told everyone on the other side of the room to go back home. Then the guy in charge of this event came up the ladder on our side, and greeted us as people who had good intuition. The ladder test was to weed out the people whose intuition wasn't good enough for the following tests and trials.

      We all sat in a circle and he explained the point of this all to us. He said we would be feasting tonight... he was sitting between me and a guy I had met and been chatting to, and he seemed to be favoring us, like talking mostly to us, or at least looking at us more. Anyway, he said we'd be feasting and then looked right at me, ran his hand down my back to my waist. "Feasting," he repeated and I was just like "No." Very firmly.

      He seemed put off but in a good way, as if I had impressed him, and moved to the girl sitting next to me and said "feasting?" She said hesitantly no. He tried a few more girls and then said something about us "not liking vampires too, I guess." I rolled my eyes and we were all thinking, ugh, Twilight. The Master said, "well, I mean, I read the first books." I had to confess that I had as well in high school. Then he talked about Bella birthing Renesme and this is where it got even weirder... He got on the floor and spread his legs, pretending to be giving birth, scooting around on the floor on his butt and making weird faces. "You'd pay to see that, right?!" We were all a little disconcerted. "Right?!" He was a little crazed here, and then he zeroed in on me again which made me feel super uncomfortable. It was as if he was targeting me more now, and planned to get me pregnant, then keep everyone here for 9 months to watch me have his baby... That or like he knew I was already pregnant or something. I was starting to think this guy was an insane creep... But this test was somehow important to complete.

      We moved on to a new conversation though I can't remember the topic. I know that we broke off to do a series of tests but that whenever the Master stood up and held out his hands we were to create a linked circle. It got more and more cultish. Eventually we ended up at my house; we were competing in my driveway. One of us had a little chocolate-ish blob and the other was supposed to try to squish it. I was partnered with H (one of my students) who had just appeared there. H's blob started going down the driveway hill and I was able to pretty easily squish it, so I won and started up the driveway again. It had been all nice and warm and spring-like, but once I got to the top of the driveway, in front of the garage, there was snow on the ground. I was walking through it barefoot (we were all wearing barely anything by now; short shorts and tank tops with hair pulled up) and then the Master threw snow at me and it got in my left ear. He started throwing snow at all of us, and we weren't quite sure what to do about it. None of us were sure whether this guy was a mad creep or a genius.

      I went into the porch but noticed a circle gathering in the garage, so I dropped my stuff and went to join the circle. We were all standing. The Master was standing opposite me and said, "everyone sit down." But even though i heard him clearly, at the same time there was a crystal clear, loud, strong voice in my left ear that said "Don't. Move." So I stayed standing. 3 or 4 other people stayed standing and the rest were sitting. All the sitting people closed their eyes and seemed to be asleep. The Master looked at each of us (one of them was the guy I met at the beginning and had a slight crush on) and was about to give further instructions (I knew now that I had passed some sort of spiritual or other-worldly test... I had been chosen, but I don't know what for) but I woke up.

      It's strange, because I think I was in and out of waking throughout this whole dream. Like, I knew I was awake in bed even as I was in the dream. Two places at once, almost. It was strange.
      Categories
      non-lucid , memorable
    3. Creepy School of Death

      by , 03-06-2015 at 01:48 AM (The Kestrel's Dreams)
      March 01, 2015



      I was walking through a dark labyrinth of hallways... It reminded me of the hallways of a church I once went to a youth group sleepover thing I went to with one of my friends in Middle School... The place creeped me out a fair bit. There were a lot of ramps and short stairwells to get to the room I was looking for: The room in which my students were all doing their Language Arts rotations for the day. I got to the room, and had just met my MT or someone else who was going to work with the kids that day... but there was no one i the room. We panicked for a bit, but then realized they were just in the next room over. The room was connected by a door at the back, so we went into the other room. It was bright and cheerful and loud. We found the adult who was with them currently, and found out that the class cat (I WISH we could have class cats, but allergies...) had just had her kittens, but one of the kittens was very, very sick and was about to die. They didn't want the kids in the room when it happened, so they had moved the kids to another room. Then I helped my MT put things on the wall; they were masks, or faces or something. Actually a little creepy. I then had to pass out to each student a contraption of some sort that involved a magnifying glass. One of my students (who is notorious for loosing things left and right) lost most of his contraption.
      Tags: cat, dark, school
      Categories
      non-lucid
    4. Barefoot Reminiscing, Power/Sexytime, Subnuclear Time Shift

      by , 02-03-2015 at 01:41 AM (The Kestrel's Dreams)
      February 02, 2015


      Barefoot

      I was at the old science and math center i went to in Highschool, visiting for a special day or something. I had signed up for two special classes for this day, and my old friend A ended up being in the first one too. We got to catch up and were sitting in our seats (the class was in the presentation center) for at least an hour after the class, and then it was time for the next class. We had started walking around and I didn't know where my shoes were, so I put the rest of my things in the room for the next class, at a spot I wanted to sit in. They would hold my spot while I looked for my shoes.

      I found my shoes but when I got back to that class room, it was packed and someone had taken my seat. I didn't even find all my stuff, either. I was like "Screw it." I decided to take off my shoes again and walk around barefoot reminiscing with A and coughing (my cough was persistent, man. It even shoes up in a half of my dreams)




      Power Struggles

      I was involved in this campus-wide power struggle of a water fight. Everyone had a huge water gun, but if you got hit three times you had to stop playing. I was running from my brother, B, and his friend, who had formed a small team and were after me. I got each of them twice, but then they both nailed me so I was out of the game for good. I threw my water gun to the side, a bit upset with myself for not having joined their team, and walked away.

      I was bored though, and wanted to hang out with my brother. I decided to go find their base, which had been somewhere in the center of campus. I was expecting a little hut or something but when I got there it looked like they had taken over most of the area, and gated or roped it off from the public. There were guards all over the place. B just happened to be at the main entrance. I told him, "Hey I'm not in the game anymore so can I chill here with you guys?" He took me to his friend, who was the leader, and vouched for me. Apparently B was the leader's right-hand-man, so he was like, "sure, welcome." So I somehow became the second right-hand-man. My first input was to help pick the color of the new sign to name the base. I had assumed it would be the leader's own name, but he named it after his mom instead. I thought that was kinda cute.

      After putting up the new sign in the entrance, I noticed that a computer that was along the wall was all wet. B said someone must have attacked it with a water-gun to sabotage them. I took a closer look and noticed sticky, green stuff under the mouse. "Guys someone just spilled Mountain Dew on it and then got it wet to cover their asses." The Leader came up behind me and reached past to see the evidence. "She's right."

      He found out who it was and punished them, not for spilling the Mountain Dew, but for being a coward and trying to hide it AND for doing a messy job of hiding it. "If you're going to blame someone else, do it so you never get caught!"

      So then, the Leader, B and I went down to the basement because we needed to fix some super important machine. It was this sort of vacuum thing, with a long tube coming from it. The tube was inserted into a glass cylinder of some sort, and that cylinder did something special. Leader held the cylinder and instructed me to pull out the tube so he could inspect the inside of it. As I was holding the end of the vacuum tube, I looked at it, and realized it looked a lot like a penis. Suddenly the Leader sticking his face up to the glass cylinder and sticking his fingers in it was very sexual and I was getting turned on. He finished inspecting it, and held it out so I could stick the tube back in it. I looked at it again, and then looked at the Leader and said, "If this penis were a real penis, it'd be a really happy penis because I'm holding it," and I he just kinda stared at me and blushed. I grinned and stuck the penis-like thing back into the glass opening, then walked back up the stairs passing various blushing young men who had heard me. The Leader and B followed me up and we all went into the main room of the base, which was having a party or something. The Leader had put the machine we just fixed on a table somewhere, and when I was at a table with a drink, I felt him come up against me from behind. We were about to leave and go to his suite, when there was a ransom call. He rolled his eyes though, because apparently it was just his aunt pranking him. She did that often I guess. Anyways, he took my hand and dragged me upstairs and we had a little fun.




      LOOK! A Subnuclear Time Shift!

      My little brother, E, and I were visiting B in some other town. We'd all left his place to go to the main street of the town so we could get some food or drinks. We were cutting through a park or backyard or something, and it was dark. When we got out of the park thing, there was a loud noise and behind us a large blue rift opened up in the air. B called it a "Subnuclear Time Shift," whatever that is. I didn't believe him, but I was scared of whatever it was because it was dark and it gave me to spooks.

      We got to the main street, and found two 10-ish-year-old girls who had lost their friend after walking home with her. I was about to go sit with them and try to comfort them and figure out where they lived, when I felt a hand on my shoulder and turned to see the 10th Doctor standing behind me. He held his finger to his mouth in the "shh" motion, and I was speechless and instantly horny. I was about to attack him when he turned me into the girl the other two had lost. I was supposed to pretend to be that girl to find out more about what happened. Apparently aliens were involved. So I went to talk to the girls and pretended I had just got lost and found them again. We didn't find out much but we got them both home and I said we would play again tomorrow and gave them both a drawing I'd just whipped up for them. They really loved the drawings apparently and promised we would hang out tomorrow.

      Then I woke up in B's living room from a nap. I wondered what that dream had been about. E and B came into the room and suggested we go get some dinner, so we all left B's place and took the same park path. Again, at the end of the path, a blue rift in the sky appears and B calls it a Subnuclear Time Shift. I realize how strange this is, and look down at my hands. They're normal-ish but there's a sort of aura-hand in them, too. So I was still dreaming! I look back at the rift and wonder what might be on the other side of it, but then I wait because the Doctor might come back and I can attack talk to him. I look around and then I spot him talking to the two little girls. I felt the dream destabilize but couldn't really do anything to keep myself in it, and woke up.
      Categories
      lucid
    5. Only one VERY short lucid

      by , 01-28-2015 at 07:08 PM (The Kestrel's Dreams)
      January 27, 2015



      I was at the school, teaching a hands-on lesson. I don't remember the details of the lesson, though. At some point in the middle of the lesson, I realized that there were like ten of one student. I thought this was very, VERY strange, and looked at my hands. The left hand had a huge lump protruding out of the pinky (ewwww) so I knew I was dreaming! I looked around, and noticed that some of the parents were also in the room. I was about to talk to one of them when I woke up.
      Tags: school
      Categories
      lucid
    6. Only Three Short-ish Dreams

      by , 01-27-2015 at 03:58 AM (The Kestrel's Dreams)
      January 26, 2015 (With CZ)


      I could NOT sleep last night. Figured I was being good and going to bed early around 10:00... nope. Didn't fall asleep until 11, then woke up at midnight and was awake, trying to fall back asleep, until 4 am, then woke again at 5, and was awake for another hour or so attempting to WBTB and only have about another hour and a half of sleep before my alarm went off D:
      Nevertheless, had a few interesting dreams:




      Cave Tour (between 4:00 and 5:00)

      I was on a tour of a huge cave system. I was with Zukin, a few other people I know, and at least one anime character, though I can't remember which one. I distinctly remember the ceiling getting higher and higher as we climbed up. It was reminiscent of the Carlsbad Cavern if you walk back up. At the top, though, there was a small amphitheater and a projector, and a door in the wall at the very, very back top corner. The projector was supposed to display the night sky on the cave ceiling, with a short presentation about something, but the projector wasn't working. We tried to get it to start working, but nothing was helping. Zukin suggested finding a ranger to help us, but there were none to be seen. In fact, we were the only ones in the whole cave...




      Sleep Over (between 6:00 and sometime before 7:30)

      I was with my mom, and we were visiting Zukin's house. We were in a room divided by a book shelf that was about shoulder height. Each side had a couch, but there was only a TV on one side. We were arguing over who got to sit on the TV side and therefore decide what to watch. I am pretty sure I wanted to watch Doctor Who. On the side without the TV, there were about fist-sized holes along the bottom of the wall, every two feet or so. Zukin's mom mentioned them being homes for the rats she kept as pets.

      The dream shifted a bit and instead of my mom and I visiting Zukin and her mom, it was just me visiting some guy. I was about to leave, but it started storming and my bus was canceled. So I had to stay the night. He was saying that I would sleep on one side of the room, and he would sleep on the other side so I wouldn't feel lonely but also wouldn't be worried about him doing anything. Such a gentleman, though I wanted to sleep on the same side, though I didn't tell him. We stayed up pretty late watching a movie on my side, though, and both ended up falling asleep on the loveseat reclining couch.




      Mall School (right after dream 2)

      I was in a class about dinosaurs. I was listening to the professor get all the information wrong, though I can't remember how it was wrong. I got fed up with all the misinformation, and got up to go to the bathroom. I exited the classroom into what seemed like a mall (I've had a few dreams with malls that have classrooms instead of shops...) and turned left to the bathroom. I skipped the toilet and just went to wash my hands, and might have gotten lucid if my alarm didn't wake me up right then D:
      Tags: cave, mall, school, zukin
      Categories
      non-lucid
    7. Gilbert, TARDIS, Bucket Fillers, and Yule Ball

      by , 01-25-2015 at 06:16 PM (The Kestrel's Dreams)
      January 25, 2015 (With CZ)


      Gilbert's Safe Too!!

      I was in a post apocalyptic-ish world. In this world (we were at my house back home), only my dad and I had survived out of my family. Well, and Bina, my kitty. We had gathered with the remainders of our neighborhood at our house and out neighbor's house. We share a driveway, so we had built a wall of sorts around both properties so we could safely travel between the two houses. We had also connected them underground somehow in case it was ever unsafe to go above ground.

      I had gone outside on a normal supplies run one day, and thought I saw a flash of brown and white. I thought of my other cat, Gilbert, whom we hadn't seen since the disaster. I was so hopeful but also a little terrified that he wouldn't be him. He was also outside the walls... I wasn't allowed to exit the perimeter without explicit permission and a buddy to go with me. But I jumped the fence after checking, and found that it was indeed Gilbert, and that he was normal, if not a little frazzled from being on his own for the few weeks it had been. I called his name, and he perked up and ran toward me, jumped over the fence. I got back over the fence as well, and couldn't find him. I called his name again, and he shot out from the other side of our house, and went into our garden. I went to the door, opened it, and again called his name, and he came shooting into the house. My dad picked him up and scolded me for going outside the fence, but I could tell he was so happy to see Gilbert alive. Even Bina came up and licked him and like huddled next to him (they pretty much never get along, true brother and sister pair haha).




      Look, a TARDIS!

      I was at my field placement school, and my class had a horrible substitute or training teacher. My mentor teacher was in the room and sitting next to me, but we weren't allowed to interfere in any way. But this guy was doing things all wrong. None of our classroom norms were being upheld, and he didn't know what our "I agree" and "I disagree" hand gestures were, so he got confused and that made the kids confused. He had us chant something when we gave the "I disagree" symbol, which completely defies the purpose of having a hand gesture (being that they don't talk when they do it, disrupting who ever is speaking). I was so pissed. We finally got dismissed for lunch, and I followed the kids out to the playground. I saw one of my old high school friends there. Her hair was the length it was in high school, but I knew her hair was much shorter now, s I was a bit confused. I asked her about it, and she said, "Ohhh, yeah... those photos were all really old, it's grown out since then." And I was still a little confused, but just shrugged it off. She mentioned a new movie coming out that was going to be really interesting and insightful, and then I had to go inside to eat my lunch.

      I went to the staff lounge, which ended up being completely empty, so I went in search of other teachers. Where were they all? I ended up finding a new teacher's lounge that I hadn't even known existed! Someone spilled something, and I offered to clean it up. I had to find the paper towel, so I was looking in the cupboards. By the time I got to the spill, it was already cleaned up, so I put the paper towel back. The teachers were all gossiping about something or other, so I left as soon as I finished my lunch. I'm not one for gossip in the professional setting.

      I got back to my classroom just as the kids were coming in. But only about half the class came in. Apparently, the class was getting split up. I was teaching on group, and my mentor Teacher was teaching the other group. We each had one of the usual TAs with us. At some point I was writing something on the board but before I got to the board, I noticed the bracelet on my hand (the one that says "I will question reality" on the inside of it) and Paused. I held the hands up and noticed that I had a ghost middle finger. I am dreaming! I looked around the class and shrugged. They were all only Dream Kids anyways, so I left the classroom. As I walked through the halls of the school toward the main entrance to the playground, I debated what I should do. Should I try to incubation task, or my personal task, or the TOTY? I also wanted to start the three-part task as well, and I decided to go with that one. My first one was Advanced Summoning, so I wondered if I could used that to help my incubation of creating a TARDIS (including the insides). I exited the building and looked around expecting to see a TARDIS. In the grass field in the distance, a TARDIS materialized out of thin air, accompanied by the sound it makes. I was about to fly toward it (which would be my second three-part task) but while flying, it started to move around and I couldn't catch it. Then I noticed that the light at the top was flashing red. I knew that was wrong, and then the TARDIS turned into a red phone booth and then vanished again.

      I stood there in the grass, and willed again that a TARDIS Would materialize, this time adding to my thoughts that it would be right in front of me. This time, a blue, accurate TARDIS materialized with sounds included, right in front of me. I touched the wooden walls and inspected the signs on the front. They had gibberish on them, which I would have to work on fixing if at all possible. I made a mental note to look up the exact words they should be, so I could memorize them and hopefully this would make it so that the words would be more accurate in my dream. Now for the big task... I opened the door... And discovered nothing much on the inside. Well, I knew what else to work on next time, too. I vaguely wondered if I was doing this "incubation" thing right...

      I closed the door and discovered that the TARDIS had attracted a herd of nerds, who were trying to climb the back of it and steal it away. I yelled, "IT'S JUST A PORTA-POTTY, BACK OFF." But the nerds wouldn't have it. I lifted the TARDIS away from the nerds, but they clung to it and traveled with it. Fuck, these guys are persistent. I then hit one of them with a rubber mallet that materialized in my hand mid-swing (internally thinking that this was pretty cool and I'd never tried it before, so I was just a little proud of myself~) and they scattered. I patted my TARDIS-In-Progress and was about to jump off to do some flying and advanced flying, when
      I woke up.





      I fell back asleep trying to pull myself into a dream where I could summon a Pegasus, but these two string of smaller non-Lucids happened instead:

      Bucket Fillers

      I was in my class again. This time, everyone was writing a short piece about the things they liked in other people. Each student had another student assigned, so that everyone would get a nice letter to make them feel better. This was our little Bucket Fillers activity for the week. When the students were done writing, they would put the letters into their friend's cubby. I was walking around the classroom and watching all the kids be all nice and bubbly to each other.



      Yule Ball

      I was walking to the Yule Ball that was being held by the Quiddich team here. I was going to meet Zukin there, because we had just gotten our tattoos, and wanted to rest before the ball. I passed a huge group of toga-clad undergrads, and enjoyed watching how drunk they were. I asked if they were warm enough, but they all said, "Oh, yeah, we're fiiiinnneee." I shortly got to the Union, where the Yule Ball was being held. I was all the way at the front table where I would pay for my ticket, when I remembered the Zukin and I had decided not to go anyways. I looked around, got embarrassed at my little mistake that no one else could possibly know, and left.

      Updated 01-25-2015 at 08:50 PM by 69491

      Categories
      lucid
    8. 12/26: School Sexy, School Disaster

      by , 12-29-2014 at 07:48 AM (The Kestrel's Dreams)
      December 26, 2014



      I was walking through what seemed to be a large mall, but turned out to be a school. I met my professor in the hallways, and she told me that we were in the classroom that belonged to one of her colleagues, doing a project the required more space. I found the new room. The other teacher turned out to be the guy who played Four in the Divergent movie, and I was instaswooning. All my classmates had partners already, so I ended up being Four's partner. We were making bacteria cultures or something, but I had missed the instructions, and didn't know what the heck to do. It was something about cutting out squares of a special bacteria paper and put them in Petri dishes. I was so confused and Four wasn't helping, as all I could think about was wanting to screw him... I told him I needed to talk to him privately and we ran off to a staff bathroom for a while ;D

      After that, I was in a course where we had to film a game show or something. My group decided to do ours with a puppet or small animal of some sort as the host...

      As I was leaving the school for lunch, there was a siren and the sky was all dark and ferocious. I told my friends, "ah, it'll be alright. We get warnings all the time but there's never actually a tornado."

      Right as I say that, a funnel forms, and touches down about half a mile out from the school, heading right for us. We all go back inside and head for the basement. I was standing by one of those windows that's at the ground level, so I could see. Not very smart, really, but I wasn't thinking about safety. I just really wanted to see what it would look like if the tornado went right over our heads. The tornado came right next to the school building, destroying the church next door. I realized there was a small puppy right next to the window (which turned out to be a bar window), and I called for it to come over so I could hold onto it through the bars. I was worried about it flying away and getting hurt. I couldn't get hold of it though. It didn't get blown away, but it looked so scared, it made me so sad.

      As soon as the tornado was over, I went outside and looked for the puppy, but couldn't find it...
      Tags: puppy, school, sex, tornado
      Categories
      non-lucid
    9. Math Class

      by , 12-23-2014 at 05:42 AM (The Kestrel's Dreams)
      December 22, 2014


      eeeeehhhh. Been sick the past few days, so my dreams have been vivid, but easily forgotten somehow. I need to remember to write them as soon as I wake up, at least some notes. They're vivid enough that I only need to see a few key words to remember being in the dream, but I have a lot of trouble with remembering if I don't have something to go on... Hopefully I get healthy soon, and have more lucids!

      Anyways, the dream from last night, which I actually forgot to write down, couldn't remember for most of the day, and suddenly remembered in the car on the way to see The Hobbit pt.3:



      I was in a class, about 4th grade or so. I was one of the students, and my math methods professor was the teacher. I had just transferred to this school, so I didn't have any of the materials yet. It was math time and I was sitting at a picnic table at the back of the room, looking on a new friend's math journal. My prof got pretty upset with me for not havingmy book open to the right page, and every time I said I didn't have a journal, he assumed I meant I had left it at home. There had been some sort of miscommunication from someone who was supposed to give me the journal...

      I finally did get one, and it had one of those perforated bits to open it, like a bill in the mail. I had to tear along the long edge across from the binding to open the journal. We were using math boxes on pages 43 and 49 (but not those in between for some reason)
      Tags: math, school
      Categories
      non-lucid , dream fragment
    10. Cabin Dream

      by , 12-22-2014 at 06:03 AM (The Kestrel's Dreams)
      December 21, 2014


      I didn't sleep well lat night at all. I caught something from my 1st graders, and was awake with a high fever most of the night. When I did sleep, I felt feverish even in my dreams...



      I was in a class taught by one of my old German professors. But he had forgotten my name. He saw my name on the roster and he was asking about how it was pronounced and I said something like "COME ON. IT'S GERMAN. YOU KNOW HOW TO PRONOUNCE THIS." He finally remembered my name, and then got all weird and touchy-feely. I was feeling feverish and got up to get a drink of water from a water fountain around a large pillar to the front right of class. We were in this big open area, not a classroom.

      I got out of that class to meet a guy friend in the woods, outside the building he had his classes in. It reminded me a little of the nature center in my hometown. I had a crush on this guy or something. But he was either uninterested or oblivious to my feelings, so I gave up and called my brother, who was going to drive me to the cabin up north my family has gone to every year for Mother's Day since I was teeny tiny.

      We pulled up to the cabin, and it was as if the cabin itself was in the landscape of a different family house that's actually even further north and on the lake. We were on the roads, which was above the cabin, which was in this big bowl-like ditch in the woods. We had to get to the service road, which linked to the back in the cabin, and then also looped around in a weird way that reminded me of the paths at the nature center, again.

      We parked and were about to get into the cabin, when I had this really weird sense of déjŕ vu inside the dream itself, though I didn't know why. There was something about heating or a refrigerator, but I woke up very shortly after that.



      It was only after I woke up that I realized I had had pretty much the exact same dream before, long ago (excluding the part about classes). It was pretty much the exact same as a dream I'd had when I was a kid. Or at least it felt like I had had the same dream before.
      Tags: cabin, school, woods
      Categories
      non-lucid
    11. Lots of short dreams

      by , 12-14-2014 at 04:28 AM (The Kestrel's Dreams)
      December 13, 2014



      More Boring than Homework

      I was in a crafts class or homework session of some sort, working on something. I finished the work early, and left. But it was boring, whatever I decided to do, so I went back to the class.



      What a Nice House

      I was in a foreign place. Or at least a different state. My family was on vacation there. An elderly woman was driving me to the house my family was staying in for the trip, and she said "Was für ein schönes Haus." We pulled up to the house, which was in a large lot. The whole town seemed western-ish, but the house was so out of place.



      YOU KNOW WHAT THIS MEANS?!

      I had to call one of my old high school friends, K, to tell him something important. But he never picked up the phone. So I called like five or six times, and finally left a voice mail and as I was leaving it, he answered. I forgot what I told him, but his response was: "YOU KNOW WHAT THIS MEANS?!?!" He asked what we would do next, and then the dream faded.



      Wrong Number

      My best friend from high school called my phone, and I was really happy because we haven't talked in a really long time. It turned out she had called the wrong number. I was sad because she sounded really disgusted or something. I asked her to wait a moment and we talked a little, though I'm pretty sure she didn't really want to talk to me at all.



      REALLY Don't Wanna Get Up.

      I had a false awakening in my room. I sat up, got out my iPad and started reading manga. My roommate walks in, sees me, and says, "wow Kestrel you REALLY don't want to get up do you?"



      Turkey and Peacock

      Here I actually woke up, fell back asleep, and had a longer dream. I was in a room with one of my students, who has ASD. I had the feeling of being responsible for him, and was trying to get him to fall asleep, for some reason. The room we were in was really bare, and had a dark blue-green feeling to it. It was a bit murky, or so,etching. He eventually fell asleep, and I stood up to leave. As soon as I opened the door, there were tons of people in the hall, leading into the living space. It was like a version of my apartment, but much bigger and with different flooring and walls. My brothers, cousins, some of my students, and other people ranging from age toddler to about 20, were all there. One of my cousins came up to me and said the adults were all out to a party of some sort. We older ones were all supposed to watch the younger ones for the night. Her hair was all curled and up in a prom-do, and when I commented on how pretty it was, she said it was always like this at school.

      Two of the people there were actually people I went to elementary and middle school with. They were playing some kind of epic battle game with some of the other boys there, and I tried to cross the "battlefield" without getting too much in their way.

      Once crossed, I was at the front door. The room had shifted to be like a larger and slightlyx different version of the Quaker meeting house I attended as a child. I was looking out the windows and big glass double doors, and one of the littler children suddenly said, "look, a peacock!" I hadn't seen one, but when I looked back there was a peacock right there. It was pretty, but also a little plain as far as peacocks go. I look a little to the left and see my craziest cousin outside, trying to get closer to the bird. I try to tell her she'll scare it away, but she is just being her usual wacky self, approaching the bird with weird motions. I see a little further off a turkey Tom.

      At first I thought it was all okay but the turkey and the peacock were looking like they were going to fight each other. I called my cousin to come inside, and we watched as the peacock flashed his beautiful feathers to look big and threatening. The turkey also puffed himself out to look bigger. The peacock started pecking amt the turkey, until it ran off. The peacock was alone now, but still looked like it wanted a fight, so I made sure to close the door firmly so it couldn't get inside and hurt any of the children.
    12. STOP and ICECREAM

      by , 12-12-2014 at 02:51 AM (The Kestrel's Dreams)
      December 11, 2014


      STOP!

      I was in an art class, and many of my students were there with me. I might have been teaching or at least helping out in the class. I was sitting in a beanbag chair at some point. One of my students, B (who is an English Language Learner), came over and sat on my head somehow. He was immensely heavy, and he was bending my neck and back in a way that made it so I couldn't breathe, and it hurt a lot. I yelled "STOP!" But he didn't seem to understand me, because he just sat there. He somehow used my eye-socket as a footrest, and put his heels in them. I yelled "STOP!" a few more times, feeling I was going to die, and somehow shrugged him off. I held him by the shoulders and panted, "STOP MEANS YOU HAVE TO GET OFF!" He must have realized he'd hurt me, because he looked like he was going to sob, so I wrapped him in a big old hug as if it was him that had almost died, not me.




      But the ICECREAM!

      I was going up north with Zukin. We were going to meet at an old cottage in the middle of nowhere to go camping and roughing-it. I was looking at the map and deciding which trains I would have to take to get there, and wondering if the Ice Cream I was going to bring would survive the trip. I might have actually been driving there. I remember seeing a road I dreamed about before on the map, to the east. It wasn't labeled, but I knew, because I had a feeling. I was still fretting over getting the ice cream to that cottage in the woods, when I decided randomly to get on a train to China without a ticket. I just wanted to see what the inside of the train was like, but it started moving while I was on it, so I ran to the back of the train, where there was a little platform. The train was like an old steam engine's car, but with modern touches to it. Anyways, I sat on the little platform and, before the train picked up a lot of speed, slid off onto the track below me. The train had only gotten maybe 50-100 feet from the station, which, now I could see it, was very small and simple. I looked back at the train, which was gaining speed now, curving to the right through the woods, toward a big bridge with another platform on it.

      I sensed a couple running down the tracks next to this track, saying something about how they missed the train, and now had to run all the way up to the bridge platform to catch it.

      I turned back and walked to the station, and ended up in a line of Chinese visitors, who were going through customs. Any one of them could have just walked off because there were no walls at this station (it was more like an outdoor bus transit center than an international train station [disregarding the fact that there was a train to China from the USA]). But they were just waiting in line, and some people were cutting. The rest of them were just kinda "eh, whatever," about it. I tried to get them to stand their ground against the cutters, but they wouldn't, and I woke up.
      Categories
      non-lucid
    13. No Pokémon for You!

      by , 12-08-2014 at 05:12 AM (The Kestrel's Dreams)
      December 05, 2014



      Iwas walking to school on the last day of classes. It was highschool, so my old best friend was there. I noticed that everyone was dressed up, and realized it was the picture day. Her and I were walking on a bridge or something, over a wide canal. There was a tall wall to our right (and she was on my right). There were homeless people along the bridge, asking us if they could keep the boots they got in a give-away. We told them of course they could keep the boots, though I didn't know what giveaway they were talking about.

      There was a point where my friend like... slid between the tall wall and a rail that was only about a couple inches from the wall. She was like a cat trying to push herself through a space in which she wouldn't fit. It was eerie, kinda creepy, thinking back on it...

      When we got to the school, we went down a narrow, slightly downward-slanted hallway (It was like one of the wings in my high school, but slightly different. More narrow, more slanted.) It was when we were in the line to get our pictures taken that I realized I wasn't dressed up, like at all. I actually looked rather sloppier than normal. Oops.

      At the door to the picture room, my 3rd grade teacher was giving out complimentary pokemon holographics. He handed me a card without really even looking at it, and it was the wrong card. I told him, and he was like "Oooh my bad!" and handed me another one without looking, again. He was chatting to me, so he wasn't paying attention to the cards. He asked me which card I'd filled out the form for, and I realized I had never filled out that form. So apparently I had missed the memo that we would all get a free pokemon card and that we had to fill out a form for it.
      Tags: pokemon, school
      Categories
      non-lucid
    14. Yellow-Rabbit-Egg-Thing and Leaf Pile Portals

      by , 11-30-2014 at 06:14 AM (The Kestrel's Dreams)
      November 29, 2014


      I was at the school in which I am student teaching, and we were doing the reading buddies program we have (basically my 1st graders are paired with a 4th or 3rd grader, and they read together). There was this large egg-shaped rabbit thing. It was yellow, and would role around and bounce up and down. I'm going to call it Ralph for now.

      So Ralph was rolling around the class helping out, and then the kids went to lunch, or a specials class. The room was empty, even the chairs and tables were gone. Ralph was glitching or something; he would jump up and down on a spot on the floor, doing the Mario Ground Pound, and would seem to go through it, at which point the floor directly under him would spin. He would get stuck in a few cycles of this, and then roll away. He would go do something, but every time he rolled over that spot in the floor, he would glitch.

      I decided I wanted to know what was up with this spot, so I wanted to see what would happen if I went over it. I was aware that something was weird here, but didn't get to lucidity yet. I walked over the spot thinking I would glitch too, but I didn't. So I jumped and used a Ground Pound, and the floor gave way, spinning like it had for Ralph. I was falling down a long shaft. It was lit pretty well, but I don't remember seeing any actual light sources.

      I landed in a large, rectangular room. Every inch of wall was lined with cupboards, drawers and two fridges (one at the corner behind and to my right, the other midway along the wall to my left). There were two eggs that looked a lot like Ralph. One was smaller than my first, the other was as big as my head. I picked them up and put the smaller one in my pocket, and somehow managing to also fit the larger one in my hoodie pocket.

      I thought that Ralph would be happy to have younger ones of his own species (I assumed they were eggs for his species). I started looking through the drawers and cupboards, finding nothing much at first. As I made my way around the room, the drawers and cupboards started having things in them. By the time I reached the second fridge, the one in the corner, it had parts of toys in it. Like bags and bags of a single part of the toy, so you could make lots of them by putting the pieces together. There was also some sort of snack food in the fridge.

      A colleague opened a door at the corner directly behind me, which I had not noticed before. They were calling me because the kids would be back soon. I turned and left the room, and was surprised to find myself in the hallway just a few doors down from the classroom I'd started in. How could I be in the same hallway if I'd fallen down that long shaft? I looked down at my hands and realized I was dreaming. I was aware enough to do a task.

      I could have gone back to the classroom to tell the kids we were in a dream, but I didn't remember that task... Instead, I went to what I assumed was the door to the outside. I paused before opening it, trying to envision the kind of surroundings I wanted to see. I knew this place was supposed to be the school I teach in, but it was so different that it wasn't too hard for me to envision a new surrounding. One with more trees, and therefor more leaves.

      I opened the door, and there was a long lane with houses on each side. All the houses had big front yards with big maple trees. Perfect! Some of the trees were bare, some were green, and some were orange, red and yellow. I think my subC didn't really have a grasp of different seasons being at different times. I did notice that the trees that were colorful seemed to clump together, as did the green trees and the bare trees.

      It was almost like a temporal whatchamahoozit. Like there were different times at the different clumps.

      Anyways, I walked over to one of the clumps of fall trees, and looked around. There were leaves on the ground, but no piles. I was too lazy to rake them up, so I decided to walk along the lane until I spotted the house of a more conscious leaf-raker. It didn't take long for me to find one. There was this big old yard with a decently large pile of leaves.

      I stood next to the pile for a moment, and then decided to jump in it the way I do IWL. I stepped back a bit, and hopped through the air right into the center of the pile. At first it was just super normal. I was on my stomach, so I turned so that I was sitting up in the pile. I let myself fall back into the leaves, and then it was like every leaf was a gentle spark.

      I could feel a lot of little tingles and waves on my back and the backs of my arms, and there was a sensation of sinking. I felt like I was being sucked in, and then I was completely surrounded by leaves. I stayed there for a moment, and then felt air on my back, and pulled myself up face down in a pile of leaves at my Oma's house.

      Leaf pile = dream portal?

      I dinked around in my Oma's back yard for a bit but lost the dream pretty quick. I kept trying to remember another task to do, but couldn't before I
      woke up.

      Updated 11-30-2014 at 06:37 AM by 69491

      Categories
      lucid , task of the month
    15. Car at School

      by , 11-30-2014 at 05:37 AM (The Kestrel's Dreams)
      November 28, 2014



      I was in a high school shop or art class, but my boyfriend was missing. I knew that he liked to sit in his car and listen to the radio, so I went out to the parking lot to see if he was there. The lot was a lot like the lot at my high school, just a bit bigger and with more trees around the edges.

      I found him in his car and he wanted me to sit on his lap facing him. We sat like that fooling around for a while and we're just about to have sex when another classmate (his friend, who turned out to be one of Zukin's housemates... We'll call him J) was walking toward the car, calling my boyfriend (lol, I don't even know what his name was). I hid in the back while the boyfriend talked to J just enough to get him to go to his own car, which was on the other side of the lot.

      Classes were just about to get out for the day, so we decided to just leave and go somewhere quieter.

      Flash-forward, and I'm at my conferences that night. I was acing all my classes, but the shop/art teacher had docked me half my grade for missing class that one time. What a bitch.
      Tags: car, school, sex
      Categories
      non-lucid
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