wallad

forgot to tell you guys about this, but i had my first lucid dream of 2019 [usually i have unexpected lucid dreams 10 times a year]

uh so basically,i was in m y room, and there were my little pony characters everywhere and i was trying to explain it to this girl and stuff and she kept calling me an animal abuser, and when i mentioned the cutie marks i just explained them as 'tattoos that you get during puberty' then she told me it was abuse to the horses and animals
then
then she walked away and right when i walked outside i became lucid, and i didnt know what to do so i was just like 'ALRIGHT IMMA FUCK YOU!!'
So i spawned her back in, and then pushed her down to the floor and raped her and i started moaning and stuff, then i realized i was just on my bed then i fell off of it,
i went outside and tried to fly... AND SUCCEEDED!, But the first few seconds felt like i was pulling on all my muscles and bones and it really hurt, THEN I FINALLY FLEW, BUT I WENT WAY TOOOO FAST as a song was playing in the backgroumd, i forgot what it was, but I felt really sick when I was flying then I woke up.

Tonights dream.. was FINALLY WEIRD! OH BOY! I missed having dreams like this! all my dreams used to be sooo weird then once i started dream journaling they were sooo normal and boring UGH!! But finally! I have a weird dream Like I normally did!..

So, it started in school, I was just talking with people and stuff and sitting in my chair at my desk, then I went on youtube.. and saw that SOMEONE HACKED MY ACCOUNT AND POSTED CHILD PORN ON IT!!, literally! I was watching some of the videos and it was just really lotioned looking fillipino girls from ages 4 - 8.. they were clothed of course, but then some old guys hand came on and pulled down their pants and stuff, No i'm not a pedophile.. idk why this happened but I'm happy about how weird it is.

after this, I met my partner in real life. we were just standing in the dark outside of these houses. He told me this was his city, that it costed him 170$ and he told me there are 70 people living in it, he called it Spiderman... lol. this city was just one huge cluttered weird house apartment thingy, and it was hard to navigate through. Also, for some reason he was a fat indian and kinda looks like Ajit Pai, when irl hes really white and looks like a emo hipster.

after talking for awhile, I was gonna leave since the conversation was kinda awkward and told him i'd talk to him again on discord, but instead of leaving i got lost then came back, I went to the oven which played songs then it started playing my music playlist then i made sure to pause it on the oven, but it didn't work.

My partner then collapsed to the floor and was dying, really ill or having a seizure, not sure what happened, and i had a cup of water and noticed a bug in it, i tried taking it out then this guy helping him just yelled at me and said ''YOU CARE MORE ABOUT A STUPID BUG THAN YOUR OWN BOYFRIEND??'' And I just quietly said ''I have a phobia of bugs...''

after this, I went on discord and he was online and he was messaging me, his name 'oh yeah, my boy Hivie' [I'm Hivie.] then I started singing My boy by Billie Ellish, the lyrics I sang in the dream was 'My boy, my boy, my boy, don't love me like he promised..' which is really depressing now thinking about it, then I sent the lyrics to him, and sent a really bad animation i made of some neon randomly coloured mammoth lip syncing it BADLY, there was no audio either so I worried he wouldn't be able to tell.

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