DJ of lucid goals and how it goes

I'm in in Sturkö and I'm juggling with three big plastic hollow balls. One is blue and one is red. I can't recall the last color. I'm trying to throw a ball behind my back and catch it but it's impossible. Max comes and shows me how it's done.

I'm in a big hall where people sport. I'm showering in the exchange room and then go to pee. I'm able to pee for a very very long time and then I feel relieved. I go to the next room and there are a lot of girls in my age lying on massage benches. They are getting massage from women about 25 years old. One prominent of them has dark skin and is pretty big. All the other women are western people. It feels too good to be true. I walk out from the room and try to do some telekinesis on a pair of bottles. It works! I'm lucid and go back to the massage room and see the girls in my age leave. Perfect! I lay down on a bench and ask for a massage. One of them says she can fix me up but then walks away. I ask if the other ones can fix me and they do. About ten of them come around me and take one hand each on my back and do some kind of circle motion. It doesn't feel good even though I was prepared it would feel very relaxing. My vision goes blank and I wake up.

Notes: I have gotten massage about 3-4 times in my dreams and it has always hurt or just felt bad. Never relaxing. I wonder if anyone else has experienced good massage in a dream.

P.S. I'm leaving for a mission to Germany, Austria and Switzerland and can't be active here for the next 2 years. I think I'll write some in my physical journal though.

I'm on a snowy mountain with Isak. We are skiing and I do a 360 down a steep slope that seemed dangerous at first. I overdo the 360 and land on the side and lose my balance and have to stop.

I'm by a house and there is a jacuzzi with some naked people walking into it. I am doing massage on their shoulders.

Notes: I'm getting massage this week.

I'm home and looking into the storehouse upstairs. My sister's room is there and she is hanging out with Helena and they talk by the bed.

Something about a big list with different things I have to do.

Notes: I have pretty much school right now.

I went to bed with the mantra. "Stop and meditate, the answer is fire" because I want to fire bend in my dream. Sometimes when I put up goals and try them out in my dream I stop when I don't succeed on the first try. I prepared myself to don't give up after the first try for this mission which helped me out.

I'm driving a car in Lyckeby. I wonder how I got here and start to count my fingers while I drive which I get a bit ashamed of because I should keep track on the other cars. My fingers look fine first but then I see six fingers and get somewhat lucid. I wonder how I should escape this car and decide just to open the door and fly out. While I fly I remember to stop and try out my fire bending. I land on the ground with some child present. I try to create a fire in my hand but fail. I remember that I should keep on going and not give up. I try to think about what could be a small start in order to get bigger and bigger. I start with just trying to make my vision go red without actually create a fire and succeed. I see big red particles in the air in front of me. I try to advance and create a fire in my hand. A 2D fire is in my hand but it is painted and not real. I try some more and succeed with a small real fire in my hand. I don't feel the fire, I only see it. I try to shoot the fire forward and succeed. The fire comes out from my hands in a single stream that starts small and erupt in a cloud one meter away. The child next to me is also doing some similar fire bending.

Notes: I would like to try to fly away with a car while I am in it. I think I would like to improve my fire bending and make it natural. My flying is so natural to me that I often use it in non-lucid dreams.

I'm massaging a woman. Her skin is very thick and has oil in it. She thinks I'm doing a good job.

I'm in a hotel and Filippa is also there. She wants to spend time with me while her family is downstairs. We walk down the stairs.