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Morning of December 17, 2017. Sunday.



In my dream, I am in an unknown house, though my sister Marilyn (deceased) is present. It is not seemingly implied to be the Loomis Street house. She appears as she did in the 1960s. I have no recall of her deceased status.

I have the awareness that a laptop computer does not use 3.5-inch disks (and that they are old technology), and yet I have no viable memory of the last twenty years of my life. (Dreams are strange that way.) Marilyn does mention this game as not being compatible with her computer. There is a set of about seven disks that are needed to install and run the game.

Eventually, we somehow get the game to work. It is holographic, though also seemingly solid at times, and fills nearly half of the unknown room. Two spherical aquariums appear on each side of the playing field, near the center of each side, where other features appear on each end, though I am mostly only focused on the aquariums. The virtual aquariums are about three feet high, though elevated to about five feet from the floor with a stand.

Apparently, the game involves some sort of event when an anthropomorphic fish emerges from at least one of the aquariums, though no actual game play ensues. There are some resets of this dream where parts repeat, though much is not that clearly defined.

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An aquarium represents the mental model of the nature of the dream state (in real time). In this case, the two spherical aquariums symbolize the sleeping minds of Zsuzsanna and me. The anthropomorphic fish would represent the emergent consciousness “coming out of sleep”, sleep of which is symbolized as water.

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RAS quantizes the mental model of the dream state in this way at times, more so when sleep is somewhat restless or with “intrusive” environmental factors, based on the analogy of being in a fishbowl when outside noise is more intrusive into sleep, otherwise vaguely similar in waking transition symbolism to the very common water lowering waking symbolism (which has occurred at least once per normal sleeping period for over fifty years, since earliest memory).

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This dream kinda went all over the place...

The earliest part I remember was that I was programming a video game, but I was at the very beginning of development. Instead of seeing code, my work was visualized as a physical construction I was floating around in. The program was in such early stages that the construction was just sort of a skeleton made of copper wire and fragile cardboard. I was stuck thinking on some problem, something very technical, like a threading issue. I got kinda lost in my thoughts there and felt stuck and a little frustrated.

Some time later, I was playing a video game, presumably my own game in a later stage. It looked like Zelda: Breath of the Wild, but Link's hat was alive, like Cappy from Super Mario Odyssey. I went to a dungeon. The dungeon was like a grid of very large and empty rooms.

One of the rooms contained a guy with some sort of a "bonus shop" or whatever (that's what his stand said). I paid him 10 rupees and the room got filled with a puzzle minigame. It was strangely easy and I completed it in like 5 seconds. The guy gave some golden reward item, the item that I went into the dungeon for. Then however, Cappy warned me that he was a scammer, and he gave me fool's gold. I searched for another room, and there I found the REAL bonus shop. Now this guy asked 300 rupees and it was a hard minigame. He gave me the true reward. I guess there's no free lunch in life...

As I was trying to look for the exit, I came across another room, and this room has a cute black prostitute in it. My dream went quite into detail for this part, but I guess I won't go into that much detail in my DJ entry... well, let's just say I spent some more rupees and my HP got refilled.

Then I found the exit. Since I found the item, I could now complete the quest. I brought the item to some sort of a shrine. Cappy got a little sad and said goodbye forever to "the old link". Link came out of the shrine, and his gender changed! It's like Link changed into Zelda but it was the same person. Then the game continued as female Link. This part also felt oddly sexual.

Then I was in some platforming part where I had to climb up some platforms in a jungle-ish area. When I finally got to the top, I found a box. Inside the box was my cat, together with 3 colored packets of wet food and a manual, as if she was a boxed market commodity. I read the manual and it said "Please feed the cat. Open the 3 packets and let her smell them. Figure out which one she likes the most. Then feed her that packet". But I ignored that manual because I know of my cat that she doesn't care what food she gets, so I just gave her one of the packets and she ate it. This is where the dream ended.

Date of Dream: SUN 17 DEC - 2017



Dream No. 245 - Finding My Way Home

I don't remember how the dream started. From where I do remember, I was on the DreamViews forum when one username on the online list caught my eye. The username was “WB” followed by a couple of symbols. I checked out the profile and as soon as I saw the word “Killester” in the about section, I thought “uh oh... WB's got a DreamViews account”. I looked further and it was actually some other Killester girls that made the account; BG was actually the main person on there. All I could do for a few minutes was sit frozen in my chair, in shock, and gripe over the fact that they could see all of my dreams.

I reloaded the account in a few minutes and found out that it had been deactivated. They must have known that I was on and I was going to do something about it if they didn't. When I was at Killester for classes, I thought to avoid Ms L at all costs as the DreamViews scenario would've still had a big impact. She was at the portables area and I had classes there as well. I timed it so that I waited a few seconds and then followed behind quietly until I got to the place that I wanted to get to.

The dream changed scenes to actually having a class in the middle of the walkway leading up to the library. In waking life, Mr C teachers PE and woodwork but in the dream, he was teaching RE. I remember sitting on the floor, having bibles in front of all of us. I can remember that AA spoke but I don't remember what she said specifically.

The scene changed again and I was intending to make my way home from somewhere. For the first part, I was running down the Monash Freeway and ended up travelling almost as fast as a car. When I got off the freeway, I found myself in some neighbourhood that resembled the area behind my church. I soon found out that I had a lot longer to go and started to feel lost. I then saw arrow shaped signs that said “Mulgrave” on them; I figured I would get home by following these signs. After following two signs, I felt completely lost.

I figured it was time to start calling for Dreamy WB. It was hard to get her in this dream and it felt like forever that I was calling for her. At one point, I told myself to keep on the task. I eventually entered this bushy nature walk and there I elaborated on my intention. As I look up one of the cliffs, examining my surroundings, I yell out “Dreamy WB, I'm lost!”. I continue walking down the track and see all these people appearing, sprouting up from the ground like a beanstalk. I'm now walking through a maze of people, still calling for Dreamy WB who is nowhere to be found.

I am now going on like a broken record and eventually, someone who looks like WB comes out from behind a bunch of people. It's Dreamy WB and her appearance is that of an ash coloured jumper with black leggings and white canvas sneakers; her hairstyle is the short frizzy pigtail. She held a cute, innocent disposition while standing on the spot, waiting for me to come to her.

When I stood in front of her, she picked me up and started carrying me back down the path where I originally came from. I felt at ease when she was holding me, almost as if feeling like she was taking me for a leisurely stroll. I was facing in towards her so as she actually saw what was coming ahead, I had my head tucked into hers and admired the scenery that was behind us when I was first looking for her.

When we got to the end of the path, I said to her, “That's where I came from”. Dreamy WB must have been mistaken since she found out as she turned me around and took me the other way. Along the way, she stopped and spoke to some stranger Asian woman with me still perching on her. She said that if the woman got to the station as soon as possible, she could catch the 4:55 train with Dreamy WB. When we left the woman, I asked what the train thing was about. Dreamy WB told me that the train would be going to a station that I actually recognized the name of, I think it was Glen Waverley. I knew this would be my ticket home, so I asked if I could go with her. She said yes and so now I was hoping the other woman wouldn't turn up because now she couldn't go.

We got to the station and other members of my family were there. I said to Dreamy WB, “I have to ask them if I can go with you” and she told me to be quick or I'd miss the train. Seeing as though I had to be quick, I didn't ask anyone as I couldn't tolerate a no... I just told them. I went up to my brother and said, “I'm catching the next train with my dream guide”. Before he had time to say anything, I went to locate my dad and I said the same thing. I saw my mum and grandma on the upper floor but couldn't reach them, so just assumed that my dad and brother would pass the information on.

I headed over to the side of the tracks where Dreamy WB was waiting for me to board the train with her. Just as she was helping me to board the train, I woke up.



Dream Trophies Achieved:
- None

Date of Dream: SAT 16 DEC - 2017



Dream No. 244 - Separated Sections

Dream 244 A - Repair The Friendship
I don't remember how the dream started. From where I do remember, I was in my other grandma's house in the room next to the garage. JSa's dad was in there and he was making an offer to me if I wanted to restore my friendship with JSa. At first he sounded confident but when later on, he started becoming skeptical. He said that something I said online was really bad. I said to him “but that was a few years ago!”.

After that, he had made his decision that JSa and I could never be friends again. I then go to him, “Well why make the offer in the first place? That was a waste of time”. I don't remember what else happened in that dream.

Dream 244 B - Deceased Vet
I was in my brother's room where my mum came in to discuss treatment plans for the cats leg with me and my brother. My mum said that the vet had passed away and so she would see if one of the desk ladies could take her in and have a look at her. That's all I can remember about this dream.

Dream 244 C - The Arch Nemesis Returns
I was at my old house, nearly being night time. There was a school test taking place in the dining room. I don't remember how I felt but I walked out on that test half way through and Mrs M was following me to the backyard while trying to call me back in there. I ended up in the backyard in the end and that's where a bully from my primary school was. TS was giving me some really horrid, dirty look, daring me to fight him. I thought to myself “I'm going to get rid of him once and for all”.

I was to face TS like I would be facing some sort of boss in a game. TS disappeared and what replaced him was some yellow lit-up wall that placed itself up against one of the fences in the yard. There would be all these different amounts of money on the wall and my challenge was to catch the balls that the TS-wall would throw at me and knock out all the values in a certain amount of time. The first time it was easy as it would just throw one ball at me that I would easily catch and throw back. I barely knocked out any money values though when the frequency of balls at me increased to two.

Time had eventually run out and so the wall reset itself and I had to start again. The frequency of the balls increased quicker this time. It seems like each time I had to start again, TS would be harder to beat. I tried about four or five times and on the last try, there were four balls coming at me that I had to catch. I missed the first few goes but I eventually got hang of it and caught all the balls to throw back at him. When I had lost the last try, I woke up.



Dream Trophies Achieved:
- None



I find this funny; the dead vet scene felt so real that when I woke up, my mum was talking about the cat and so I ask her "Is it true that the vet died or was I dreaming?" and she said "no, he's still around"... Oops!

Morning of December 15, 2017. Friday.

Dream #: 18,624-02. 3 min 20 sec read.



Cubitis (irrelevant since 1978) is the first location of my dream, but snow and ice cover my Cubitis home's front yard. My dream self does not hold a recognition of this place, and snow and ice would have never been a feature. Cubitis occurs as an incidental setting rather than having associations with my childhood and teenage years.

I am vaguely aware of my conscious self's identity but not my current address or status. I am involved in a treasure hunt but not as a recognized participant. Laverne and Shirley, as the television characters from the original series, are key participants.

A vivid segment occurs with a life-size version of the Matchbox car Alvis Stalwart BP Exploration Vehicle. It approaches from the northwest and is functioning as a snowplow. It is nighttime. I am amazed by its size and power, though I am unsure who is driving it. (I know they are one of the treasure hunt participants.) The loud yet soothing noise it makes is vivid. I know I have to get to where the treasure might be before it catches up, though I am only walking fast. Despite the snow and ice, I do not feel cold. I walk briskly through an area toward the south, south of the front yard of the Cubitis house, and the headlights of the vehicle shine on me twice. I try to dodge their beam, yet I feel little concern. (This is a factor of being vaguely aware of daybreak and not wanting to wake yet.)

Eventually, although I am still outside, I arrive at a place that looks like a large hall of a house, though the implication is that it is an outside area. (Using a real-life comparison, it is about where the south neighbor's carport would have been.) I notice fast-food wrappers and some papers amidst piles of books and other items to my left. Laverne and Shirley seem confident about finding the treasure at this point. There may be a letter from someone, or another clue, revealing where it is.

I realize we are nearing the end of the area designated as part of the treasure hunt. I wonder if the exploration vehicle is still somewhere nearby. My dream's setting, which is still part of the outside treasure hunt, is now a bedroom, with at least one wall and part of the ceiling missing.

Laverne and Shirley become annoyed that the treasure may not exist. However, I soon notice an A4-size transparent plastic envelope that is full of shiny gold coins. It is vertically upright and pressed against the south wall just behind some other items. They look like Australian two-dollar coins, but I know they are twenty-dollar coins. Laverne and Shirley are sitting on the bed at this point. I give it to Laverne and soon notice another container of more gold coins. It resembles an A4-size plastic box that we keep documents in, though this one is more transparent. I ask Laverne if I can have some of them, not considering that they should all be mine, as I am the one who found them. She cheerfully agrees I should have some of them. I awake while looking at the supposed twenty-dollar coins sliding out of the first container onto the center of the bed, ready to be counted. (The bed's orientation is from east to west. Its association with where it would be in the setting from where my dream started is unknown.)

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The "Laverne & Shirley" influence is mainly a metacognitive association with dreaming from hearing the opening theme song so often. It mostly corresponds with the lyrical line, "got a dream and we just know now." "Reaching a bed" has been a fundamental ending to my dreams since childhood, for the self-evident reason I am a metacognitive dreamer.

Coins have often featured in my dreams since childhood, from summoning somatosensory dynamics. (It is from wanting to enhance or stabilize my sense of touch while in the dream state, but I also had a silly belief when I was very young that I could pull a coin from out of the dream state). Noticing the sense of touch is one dynamic when emerging from REM atonia.

The ambiguity of dream settings and their countless composites of unrelated locations, their continually transforming attribute, and consciously unresolvable indoor-outdoor ambiguity (perception of being in an indoor and outdoor area simultaneously), and partial renderings in otherwise undefined space, is wholly unlike waking life or any factor of reality or memory.

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The Matchbox car I dreamt of yesterday (the flatbed truck with a house on the back, listed as "Truck with Site Office," though there were two in that dream of different colors), and the Matchbox car appearing here as a life-size vehicle (listed as "Alvis Stalwart" BP Exploration Vehicle), are number 60 and 61 (appearing in my dreams on consecutive days). The sequence may be coincidental or residual thoughts of a dreaming experience from the previous day, integrating into a new dream.

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Date of Dream: FRI 15 DEC - 2017



Dream No. 243 - Disability Residence

I don't remember what happened at the start of the dream. From where I do remember, I was at some place that looked like The Glen Shopping Centre. No matter what I did in this dream, the dream wouldn't allow me to summon Dreamy WB even though I was in a major crisis. I did eventually gain the confidence to attack all the flying bot-like enemies myself with my available elements. First I used fire on them but that didn't seem to do much damage. Next was electricity which was enough to disrupt the circuits on some of them, making them fall down and die but they weren't all gone.

The last element I used was ice which made every single one of them shrivel up into a messy prune shape and then fall out of the sky and into nowhere. When I was back on the ground, I tried to see if I could still get Dreamy WB. I told myself that she would be in the carpark of The Glen but when I went into the pitch black complex, I couldn't sense anyone or anything still besides myself and the emptiness surrounding me.

The dream scene changes to where I am at some sort of nursing home but rather than being for old people, it was for people with any age who had disabilities. I was one of the residents in this home and because I was new, the staff had asked me to introduce myself by sharing my condition with my room-mates. My friends JH and LA was also in my room but JO was elsewhere in the home. There were other room-mates besides JH and LA but I don't remember them from waking life.

A member of staff had come to check on us. I forgot what they did but they would always treat me like an 80 year old in a typical nursing home. Later on in the dream, my mum and I were at some shop that looked like MYER. The lady from the disability home told me that I was only allowed to chose clothes from one certain colour scheme in the Review section. My mum and I ended up looking at a lot of Review racks across the entire 2nd floor. The lady had soon called us back as it was time to head back to the home. That's all I can remember about this dream.



Dream Trophies Achieved:
- None

Saturday 16th December 16, 2017

Forgot most of it already, but on the first dream of the night was watching dream porn because its much better than real porn and because I can just pick it up for myself and started to pick dream guys out and fuck them.

Back to sleep.

The dream starts in a mountain, and me on a bus. Become lucid and teleport from the bus to the top of an airplane, ridding it. When I am on the plane quickly open up a random portal and expect for nothing to happen again but weird enough I am taken to a world where the WWII is still going on.

The first thing that happens is that the machine I am on, or airplane gets shot down. Right after I see that they have weird weaponry… uh, no actually they seem to be living beings?

Apparently, the people are fighting using experimented on creatures from nature because why not? I get mad at this and decide to participate in the fight. The people who are Nazis are against it while the others are pro it since they have nearly won the war by using them and plan on keeping the experiments.

I get mad again so join the Nazis, or try to because they try to capture me. I keep killing their military people and they keep getting further and further away from victory, they currently hold only a few weapons and a few islands with military might.

The only reason why they have not been wiped off by bombing is because they have hostages from all over the world, but the others plan on using their creatures to get them back.

I get captured on purpose but wake up, damn.

Back to sleep.

Walking around somewhere, become lucid midway and teleport back to get captured again.

In the process kill 2 other guards and find a few guys who are in hiding… wait I was supposed to be captured GAH! The guys get really close to me and tell me to help them run away, I try to explain to them that I am trying to get captured to free the creatures away and then most of them leave.

Out of the 10 team people I found, only 2 remained who agreed with me. One of them wants to talk it out with the government and I say that’s ridiculous. The other one says that he heard they experimented on humans here and that if one of the human experimental warriors defeats the creatures they will stop the whole thing, since they will be inferior goods.

I agree with him and tell him I can help with that, he asks me if I am an experimental warrior and just… agree so that we can understand each other. The guy is kind of cute actually and has a good body and I feel a really bad need to fuck him but first things first!

Tell them we need to get captured but they are afraid they will get killed or tortured or experimented on. I tell them not to worry and that I will protect them so long as they stay with me.

The first guy says he will not partake and he wants to run away because the union is already coming together to exterminate us so I just help him out and wake up.

Back to sleep.

So there is this cute guy next to me, I try to get up and feel heavy, become lucid and then get up and kiss him. He pushes me aside and I am like “What?” then recall… oh yeah.

He asks me what was that for and starts to go about not swinging that way, so I just force him to swing whatever way I want him to by controlling his brain chemistry and memories then just tell him I understand, caress his face and get outside the cavern he took me into for protection.

“We have a lot of work to do dude” tell him and bring him outside with me. He seems to get nervous and I feel victory is mine already. We get into sight of a… uh, one person from the Nazis. He shots at us and I grab the bullet then we continue walking.

There is someone behind who shots at the guy so I take the bullet for him, there is no scar even but he gets worried so I let some blood out and fake been hurt. He asks me if I am okay and I say yes then smile at him and keep going towards the other guy and explain to him the situation while keeping his bullets in my hand.

The other one would have shot again but made sure to thoroughly trash him before continuing. The guard says alright but they will take us to their prison. I agree not to kill him so long as he keeps my companion safe who keeps getting more flustered by the minute as we move on.

When we arrive to the prison, I wake up again.

Back to sleep.

Talking to… oh yeah, get lucid when I see the guy and feel my weight. So what were we doing? Where is the guy I was trying to fuck with? Ask the guard and he says he was taken.

I go pursue and the guard tries to stop me so just zap him. He thinks that zapping is my ability and tries to come with gloves made of plastic but just punch him out of my way. When I find the guy he is tied and in a weird looking room, so just untie him and ask him what he is doing there.

He said he was taken hostage and we are to be killed, give him a barrier and teleport outside. When I am outside find a giant whale coming so zap the water and it looks weak, why? I feel weak in this world so do it again but with my hand inside the water which leaves the whale out of it and they retreat.

Feel another presence and teleport there, on the backside of the island there is another one, a mole this time. Make an earthquake eat away at their troops and take out the mole just to make sure they understand the position we have been placed unto.

Now that everyone is aware of human experiments been stronger they will stop carrying out stupid experiments on random animals from their planets, make sure of this by mind fucking all the humans on this planet then get back to the cell.

When I get back his cell was half destroyed from the outside and they can see inside. I make sure to erect a new barrier to make us invisible except for a small window. Ask the guy when the guard will come and explain the situation.

He says it will be a good 2 or 3 hours so take my sweet time explaining to him and he says we should leave. I agree with him and fake tripping while standing up and falling on top of him. Look him in the face and kiss him again then retreat.

The guy grabs me by my hand and so I kiss him again, he does not resist me anymore ha! We start to make out and as soon as possible start to remove his clothes. He gets all shy so make sure to brainwash him again and push him against the wall.

Eventually get him to have sex with me and what not, but a stupid guard comes cause he heard weird sounds which gets him down, I get mad and create another barrier but the guard seems to be able to see us.

I make us both invisible and explain this to the dude but he is sweating and makes us visible to the guard again. So take us out of there, fly to the nearest location and see that the Nazis are following.

So again get mad at them and drop bombs on them to destroy their last nests, try to nuke them but it seems nukes do not exist in this world so just keep bombing them.

We finally arrive to a peaceful site and I brainwash the people, force my way into an empty house and everyone believes that is my house. Made clothes for the guy on my way there and once we arrive start to remove them again.

I have my way with him before waking up and take such a sweet time fucking him, wake up quite content.