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Morning of December 1, 2018. Saturday.

Dream # 18,975-02: Reading time: 3 min 48 sec. Readability score: 58.



My infra-self’s illusory location of being beyond the nexus of RAS (reticular activating system) separates me from my waking life identity. My infra-self (non-lucid dream self as personified subconscious) loses the viable connection with my unconscious mind in the non-lucid dream state, this personal truth (validated tens of thousands of times since early childhood) being the opposite of what most of modern society naively believes about non-lucid dreams. Only one subliminal thread of my conscious self remains without activating any other until I am in the nexus of the waking process.

I am in the King Street mansion, in the middle room of the east side of the second floor of the house, where I have not lived for over twenty years. I am wearing a dark blue hooded sweater with big front pockets. I am going to fly to Northside La Crosse, to Marilyn’s house. (Marilyn is an older half-sister on my mother’s side who died in 2014. My infra-self has no memory of her death.) The thought of physically taking to the air to fly has occurred in dreams all my life (even at age three), without the slightest pause of considering it as an impossible act, and of course, it is effortless. Flight and elevation symbols, both projected and inherited, have occurred at least once (typically more) in every sleep cycle for over fifty years. It is vestibular system correlation, the most common factor of the dream state, which I do not pretend has any association with waking life. It merely correlates with the nature of the absent physicality of the dream state.

I have a total of five Kinder Surprise eggs, all of which are still in the original packaging, though one of them has some of the foil coming off, with part of the chocolate exposed. I decide to eat that one and put its yellow toy container in my right pocket. I put the other unwrapped chocolate eggs in my pockets, three on the left, one on my right, and will give them all (including the toy) to my youngest daughter. (This focus does not bring about a recall of where I live. However, this is the second recent dream where I remembered her while my infra-self was erroneously on King Street and preparing to go to Northside La Crosse, though that one was caused by her speaking when I was sleeping. Also, I never saw Kinder Surprise products in America in reality.)

I fly to Northside La Crosse. I eat an entire chocolate pie (and appreciate its flavor) in an unfamiliar room implied to be in the Loomis Street house. (Dreams in which I eat something sweet only occur after I drink something sweet before sleep.) After this, I am watching television with my brother-in-law Bob. I do not care much about watching his show, which he comments on at times. I subliminally become aware of the nexus (the precursory association being the television), and this causes me to choose to go out onto the front porch. I look outside from the porch door and see a few unfamiliar people in the dark of late night. (There is no recall of often using this scenario to vivify and sustain my dream. Instead, I succumb to the subliminal awareness that I am dreaming in the next scene.)

I lie down on the couch on the porch, my head east. My dream becomes much more vivid in this preparatory transition. Marilyn’s neighbor comes onto the porch but appears as she was in the late 1970s. It is dark, but I can vaguely discern whom it is seemingly implied to be. She is going into the living room to see Bob but stops briefly, saying, “Oh, hello Claude, I’m sorry if I scared you.” On the one hand, there were no concerns about this simulacrum coming onto the porch (even though the preconscious is typically domineering at this stage of the waking process in this dream type). On the other hand, she never called me by my real first name in real life, and this error augments my self-awareness, though I remain only semi-lucid and soon wake.

Hearing my name in a dream usually results in consciousness shifts and level of awareness, as my imaginary dream self is unlike my waking life identity. It causes me to think about who I am, which causes me to wake, though the porch as the commonly recurring “bridge” through the nexus was already extant.

This entity had the essence of the interconsciousness more so than the preconscious (which seems absent here), which is atypical but has happened in other dreams. It most likely included an emerging but distorted thread of recalling Zsuzsanna. However, why was it apologizing? Does this go all the way back to 1965 when it came as a giant white cat (with a beard) that walked over my chest (one of my first nexus-as-porch dreams)? It may also relate to the bull simulacrum that, as a child, served as a limitation of deliberate dream state vivification and indefinitely sustaining them (which is unhealthy).

I think that the five eggs are autosymbolic for the beginning of the return to consciousness, as I have five children, though my infra-self only remembers my younger daughter, which correlates with the partially unwrapped egg as the beginning of waking life recall. (This is a no-brainer as “kinder” means “children” in this context in German - well DUH.) Yellow is the color I have always used (since early childhood) to initiate consciousness, whether in subliminal, liminal, or lucid modes. (Plus, it being on my ride side indicates waking process association, as I sleep on my left side with my right more exposed to my real environment.)

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I'm at some kind of an event and there is a huge crowd of people around me. We are in an audience and someone dressed as the mega dragonzord appears and starts walking down a ramp. He is gonna walk right pass me and I have my toy there. Someone behind me distracts me and I turn away to deal with him. When I turn back The cos player has already passed me up and was further down. I was kinda glad that I was distracted for some odd reason. I saw other people with their things too like swords, guns and sabers, waving them around like he was famous. Was he? LOL

I had a night filled with SP maybe got paralyzed 2 or 3 times. Anyhow I first SP Lucid was hen I was laying down in bed and I felt the SP coming on. It made my head snap involuntarily side to side like I was having a bad dream then finally it washed over me. I felt the weight come over me with some slight tickling then I would start testing If i'm asleep. I would try to move but can't and if I can't that means I'm too awake. So I'd close my eyes for a few seconds then try again and this time I was able to get up. My mom was in the bed but was was the toy of preda zord. He was messing with me with his gator on his chest and then he gets a hold of my finger and swallows it in his mouth. I feel something inside burn me and I quickly yank my finger out of his chest. There is a small burned mark on the tip off my finger and I ended up slipping back into SP.

I slip into a none lucid dream about my dad. It was dawn with the room being filled with natural blue light. I'm at Raymond and I am laying down in my moms room. I'm at the top of the bed inbetween the head bored and the mattress I can feel my legs bending down into the gap so only my top torso was on the bed. My dad comes in and is asking for me. My sister is laying on the bed and is turning towards me but I wake up glad to have been where I was.

The dream changes and I'm now outside with it bright and sunny. I have made my dad upset about something and he has turned into the toy of vintage Dragon zord and is chasing me and some other person. He was small in size but knew we had to stay away from him of you would end up caught by what ever punishments he had in stored for us. The area we were at was flooded with light brown rushing water and we had to swim through it to get further up the road. Dragon zord followed us into the water and I thought he got swept away because of his size and him going under. I laughed at him until I seen a green fin headed towards us, he's swimming under the water. We both bolted to the right embankment and crawled out. the person I was with ended up turning into a small object and then I see Dragon zord come out of the water man sized. He started running after us and in the scramble to escape ended up dropping the person I had. He landed directly in front of the Dragon zord and quickly I grabbed him before he gets stepped on and caught by him and as I did that Dragon snatched at me, almost getting hold on me. I ran next to some brick buildings and down a dirt alleyway as Dragon zord followed me, wagging his drill tipped tail in the wake.

I start off in a huge house of some sort and there are things happening. I am a little girl and is walking around. Some times I'm with people and other times I am alone. There is a strange long room that I am in and the dream cam is a top down angled view and I walking around inside that is full of stuff and junk.

Robocop come from around a corner and he follows behind me. I am not aware of him but he is coming up on me and I began to hear his footsteps. I had no idea what it was and thought that it was machinery and ran away from the sound. I hear someone yell "Hey!" As a black robotic hand reaches out for me.

I ran through a door and is back in the huge room. It was all dark and I can see furniture like a table that is in front of a couch. There was some light but it was from an unknown light source. I walk out of the room and into someone else room. The person there was a sleep but the light was on. I got out before he wakes up and sees me there and then back down the hallway. Somethings happen and I'm running from some one but who ever it was chasing me got cut off by a huge figure who punched him, sending the chaser flying and skidded on the floor unconscious. I began to hear the footsteps again and they were getting louder. I looked back and saw that it was Robocop.

He seemed to smile when I looked at him as I saw the corners of his mouth curled upwards a tiny bit. I grew wide eye and he put his hand up to indicate he was friendly but I again took off and this time found my self in a new environment. I was at Madison and was coming down some stairs and was about to go into a kitchen that was right around a corner but a robotic dark hand reaches out and grabs my shoulder. I turn around and it is Robocop. Again. He held on to me this time and said "Don't be afraid. Don't." In a gentle human like voice.

I think I did some more things but don't recall it very well bu anyhow where ever I went Robo Cop followed me and sometime he would attack things that get too close to me like he did to that person earlier.

video

Dreamed I was watching a video of Jamie talking to me, or we are video chatting. She was really upset and crying. I think she said she missed me and was regretful about something. I wish I could really recall more of conversation in dreams. She seemed upset and like she wanted something from me? But I can't recall what. Wish i knew how to help.


Attacked

First I'm walking my dog through some park. I get over a hill and see lots of people with their dogs. Great... now I have to go back. But my dog is suddenly off leash and he runs towards the other dogs. My dog Runs up to a racoon on it's hind legs and is wearing a trench coat and then punches my dog...

Dream fast forwards on a suburban street where I am chasing after someone who looks like my brother taunting me. I chase him onto a school bus and someone knocks me on the ground. Then I see four or five people who look like my brother peering over me. They taunt and laugh at me. They say they have real plans for someone I know. (jamie?) and they say there's nothing I can do about it. Then they get off the bus laughing.

FA, and now I'm on a greyhound bus. I become lucid right away as everything feels light. I still have the other dream fresh in my mind so I know i must get out of there. I begin walking into the aisle. I will myself to wake up because i want to warn jamie. But when i wake up i remember we aren't talking. Damn.