Did WBTB. Lied back in bed and just daydreamed for a bit to catch a bit of sleep before work. There was moment where I was daydreaming myself walking down my neighborhood. That daydream turned into a lucid dream. It was cloudy outside with what I would describe as stationary tornadoes all around. I do have a fear of them like most sane people so I did my best to make it back to my house. My dream tried to do this weird thing where my movement kind of "sticks" when I am trying get somewhere fast. I figured out that if I use my mind to move instead of my dream-muscles I can overcome that. After I found shelter, I tried to find my dream guide but for the life of me I can't ever summon them. Sadly, it is one of my most sought after goals. The most I've gotten was some glitching in the distance. I tried to "expect" them to be in the house behind me but the response I got was that the dream guide did not want to be bothered. I don't blame them, it was stormy outside. Hmm, I might want to play around with "awareness of time" as a WILD anchor. Perhaps it was never about the many techniques I formulated over the years but the conflicting goals of wanting as much restful sleep as I can get within 30 minutes vs not wanting to over sleep and be late for work. Can't wait to test.
Updated 12-09-2020 at 09:57 PM by 28341
(night of) 09-12-20 Presleep - chanting to find the dog and discover it's name, I get a name while chanting randomly come to my head - not sure if it is the correct one or not.... Searching for 'Dog' 1) I'm having a series of False awakenings, it's dark, I know I am asleep so ignore the false dream around me forming, I fall back asleep, now it's dark, and I try walking, I walk into my bed where I wake again, still lucid - I get out of bed, but it's really dark now, I have to feel my way around, it's not entirely solid either so I have to make sure I am focusing so it is there. I walk down the stairs and what I feel like is my front door - I open it and... Still darkness. Fuck. I go to what I know must be the front garden and take a handful of soil and shove it into my mouth. It's awful, but I feel I am being more solid in the dream now, the area is lighting up around me. I'm in a kind of open space. I hear people talking, from the waking world - an older couple. Then I realize it's just my dream playing tricks on me, I need to focus. I recall my dream goal with Becky - and call out for 'the dog' I here a small voice shout back to me - 'I'm over here - I'm trapped!' I run over to a pile of rubble and lift the largest piece (a broken piece of rock) off of the body. A small boy crawls out, he has round glasses and messy brown hair. 'Hmmm, you're not the dog' I tell him 'YES I am!' he answers back indignantly. I give him a kind of look that says 'you are not fooling anyone' 'OK... I'm not' I look around me and I call out for the dog again. Now I hear a deep bark from somewhere in the distance. I look where the bark is coming from and see a kind of building site and a dark - very large -silhouette. ' He must be HUGE' the boy looks into the distance. Maybe bigger than a person? I don't know - but I want to find out. But before I do I wake up. Past Times 2) In a small Cafe with a friend, I'm younger, hair is longer. We look how we did when we were going out, gothed up, dark make-up etc. One by one old friends come through the door, I get emotional again. I'm semi lucid. I left these friends too suddenly, I miss them terribly now, I wish I could go back but it's changed, I'm older, so are they. Anna comes through the door, I give her a big hug and start crying, telling her I don't understand why I am doing this - why I keep having this dream. When I wake up something dawns on me, back then I dressed and took my introversion and made me extroverted, I had much more confidence, and then I kind of shrunk back into the shadows as I got older, becoming more introverted. It's not just the friends I miss, but the confident younger version of me Training 3) Dream frag - of training someone, or getting trained by someone (influenced I think from the Queen's Gambit series) and seeing a mirror behind me and noticing I have a huge bald spot on the back of my head - I never saw that before. 'UG' 4) Something about wrestling, Andre the Giant is coming out of retirement and fighting again (he's not dead in this dream!) a poster of him shows he is huge, gigantic, and super super muscular like the Hulk. some older guy is takling about when he first found Andre in a small town, and it was like striking gold - getting a super sized wrestler for the same price as a regular one. Now Andre is doing a spot for TV, advertising his come back - he is dressed like a viking, and his female viking warrior princess (with long dark hair) is standing opposite from him. His name is 'UG' - he tells her that he loves her but surprises everyone by saying his lines in this old Nordic language, the viking lady is surprised at first but then answers something back in Nordic as well
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