I went to sleep at 1:52. Before bed i meditated for about 30 minutes to calm my mind. I woke up at 6:52 a bit sweaty because i had clothes on and a lot of blankets (i noticed that i have better dream recall like that and more vivid dreams). I dreamt that i was visiting some elderly people in my family. It was nap time, and it's like they needed visiting because they needed to socialize otherwise their minds kind of like deteriorated. It was like 2 hours before we visited them though, but Teresa, my mom's aunt, held up really well, got herself entertained in solitude until we arrived. Maria, her sister, on the other hand was watching TV and of course her lucidity wasn't as good as Teresa. I just remember arriving, sitting at the table and talking a few things, but i don't recall what we talked about. Then in another fragment, i was in a room with some people, sitting at a table. And i don't know how we got to this topic but i was trying to explain that body contemplation (like Buddhism teaches it) is benefitial. There was a microphone in the table and it was like i was giving a podcast, but also while i was talking with these people in the table. There was a girl who i was adressing this message, but again idk why. Anyways she was listening attentively. As i was explaining though, i couldn't convince her nor myself of what i was saying. It was the way i was saying it, because within i'm already conviced of this. I was trying to describe the body parts to contemplate, but meanwhile i was asking myself why? So i was speaking and internally i had this kind of dilemma. So i tried to reason some purpose in my mind and i started repeating the messsage all over again, from the basics. So i mentioned the purpose of this kind of contemplation, that it was to counteract lust particularly with the body, and that you should contemplate the organs, the blood, the nerves (as i was thinking what else, i was saying it out loud. That was kind of cool because i was exercising my memory & thinking in a dream). Then it seems the girl understood the idea, and she replied something like "oh, it sounds much like the Sufi religion" and in my mind i was like "no, not at all... I don't think Sufism actually teaches this. I would believe you if it were Hinduism or Jainism, but even then no." After that (or while i was hearing that) i was watching a fight scene of a girl about 20 years old with a guy about 40, by the door. They were practicing freestyle wrestling but the guy was destroying her. In one of the times he throws her to the floor, she falls with her head and she cracks it open and her brains get splattered over the floor. I was in shock. But immediately doctors come out and operate her in the spot putting her brains inside again like it was nothing. I recorded some dream notes so i wouldn't forget and went back to sleep. Then at 8:55 i woke up again. I dreamt i was meditating in my father's house. There was like a coaching retreat, but it was like i decided i would not participate so i could meditate. And my father was cool with that. Then i was in like an island. I think it was the same retreat, but we were going to do a parachuting activity. I was standing in a cliff but not so tall, and down you could go to the beach of the sea. I was there until it got dark. I noticed that i would get hungry soon. And my dad went to look for me by that time. Then i had a false awakening. I was in my room and i got up and out to the living room. I spoke a bit with my sister. She had the TV on because since my older sister watched that program (which irl she doesn't actually so idk where that came from XD) she left it on for me. But i don't watch TV so i replied kinda angrily (because i felt like she was trying to manipulate me or something). Then i woke up.
9 ОС. На огороде с другом (22 октября 2011) Я нахожусь с другом "АСом" и другими знакомыми возле деревянного дома. Дом двухэтажный. Часть людей находится на улице, часть в окне на втором этаже. Мы с "АСом" пошли вокруг дома. Весь остальной народ куда-то исчез. Я подумал странно, может это сон. Взглянул на руки - точно сон. Местность стала походить на мой огород. Тем временем мы с "АСом" ступили на деревянный тротуарчик, который пересекал огород. "АС" шёл впереди. Я стал его догонять при этом наклонился и дотронулся до тротуара и его кромки. При этом не переставал двигаться. Дерево ощущалось нормально, я даже испугался что посажу занозу если не уберу руку. Догнав "АСа" стал хватать его и трясти, но он продолжал идти вперёд. Тогда я развернул его (при этом заметил что на нём зелёная рубашка), и сказал ему: "АС, мы во сне" "Нет ни в сне", - ответил он. Я его отпустил, и он растворился в воздухе. Я решил пойти в обратную сторону, предварительно ещё раз дотронувшись до тротуара. Но качество ОСа всё равно было не очень, не то что в предыдущем сне. Если смотреть вдаль изображение искажалось. Поэтому я сосредоточился на ближайшем окружении: тротуаре, огороде, и виднеющих впереди двух дачных построек. До них я так и не дошёл. Выводы: 1. Персонажи исчезают. 2. Тактильные ощущения в ОСе реальны. 3. Спрайт друга отказался поверить, что это сон. 9 LD. In the garden with a friend (October 22, 2011). I am with my friend "AS" and other friends near a wooden house. The house is two-story. Some people are on the street, some in a window on the second floor. "AS" and I went around the house. The rest of the people disappeared somewhere. I thought weird, maybe it's a dream. I looked at my hands - just like a dream. The area began to resemble my garden. Meanwhile, "AS" and I stepped onto a wooden sidewalk that crossed the garden. “AS” was ahead. I began to catch up with him, and bent over and touched the sidewalk and its edge. However, I did not stop moving. The tree felt fine, I was even afraid that I would plant a splinter if I did not take my hand away. Having caught up with "AS" began to grab him and shake, but he continued to move forward. Then I turned it around (while I noticed that he was wearing a green shirt), and told him: “AS, we are in a dream” “Not in a dream,” he answered. I let him go, and he disappeared into the air. I decided to go in the opposite direction, having previously once again touched the sidewalk. But the quality of the LD was still not very good, not like in the previous dream. If you look into the distance, the image is distorted. Therefore, I focused on the immediate environment: the sidewalk, the garden, and those who could see in front of the two summer houses. I never got to them. Findings: 1. Characters disappear. 2. Tactile sensations in the OS are real. 3. A friend’s sprite refused to believe it was a dream.
8 ОС. Реалистичность ощущений (20 октября 2011) Я был с мамой, обходил дом друга. Подобрал с земли бумажку. Реклама какая-то. Стал читать, читалось нормально. Однако слова я не запомнил. Но подозрение, что это сон, в моей голове не исчезло. Я повернул бумажку и так и сяк - читается. Потом отвёл взгляд, посмотрел заново - буквы поплыли. Всё думаю точно сон. Посмотрел на руки. В локте стало больно. Думаю, отлежал. Тут обстановка меняется и я оказываюсь у себя в комнате. В комнате горит свет. Мама в воздухе висит над моей кроватью. Почему- то я думал, что она хотела залезть по ступенькам и, когда обстановка сменилась, то так и застыла. Тут меня начинает выкидывать из сна. Я пробую щупать листок бумаги, который читал, потом щупаю одежду, себя самого - не помогает. Тогда я начинаю тереть руками дорошку. Ощущения чёткие, как настоящая дорошка. Дотрагиваюсь до шкафа - дерево деревом, снова дорошку. Потом дёрнул маму за ноги, поставив её на кровать. И только после этого изображение стабилизировалось. Я разгибаюсь с пола, при этом поднимаю бумажку - это оказывается закладка из книги, которую я читаю. А поначалу точно была реклама. Мама каким-то образом оказывается лежащей на своём диване. Не заметил, как она туда переместилась. Иду в сторону окна с целью посмотреть в него. Обстановка в комнате примерно такая же: мой диван, мамин диван, шкаф - всё как наяву. А вот стол не разглядел. Подошёл к окну смотрю на улицу. На улице ночь. Этаж тот же, что и в реале. Видно деревянный дома за окном, там горит яркий цвет. В реале тоже деревянные дома, только выглядят они немного по-другому, во сне я на это внимание не обратил. Я пытаюсь просунуть свой палец сквозь стекло - не получается. (Действовал левой рукой указательным пальцем). Хочу просунуть тогда голову. Вижу в оконном отражении своё лицо. На мне очки, до этого я очков не чувствовал, но стоило только мне дотронутся головой до стекла, почувствовал и очки и стекло. Ощущения реальные, что я даже подумал: "А я точно сплю?" Заставил себя усилием мысли почувствовать своё физическое тело. Получилось, успокоился. Развернулся, пошёл обратно по комнате. Спрайт мамы лежит и смотрит на меня. Я говорю ей: "Смотри, я сейчас сквозь шкаф пальцы просуну". Пробую обеими руками (опять указательными пальцами). Не выходит просунуть пальцы сквозь шкаф. Пробую ещё раз только помедленнее. Бесполезно, даже наоборот - почувствовал небольшой удар электрическим током. Пришлось облизать пальцы, как при ожоге бывает. Хочу взлететь, но передумал, вспомнил, что хотел позвать друга. Подхожу к двери в другую комнату. Заметил, что там телевизор работает. Дверь была приоткрыта, наяву открыта полностью. Просовываю руку за дверь, сам отворачиваюсь. Зову его три раза по имени и фамилии. Никто руку не берёт. Тогда я решил просто так руку из-за двери выдернуть, вдруг материализуется. Не вышло, проснулся. Выводы: 1. Осознался из-за надписи. Поначалу читалась нормально, но после того, как отвёл взгляд, и посмотрел заново, буквы поплыли, невозможно было прочитать. Саму надпись не запомнил. 2. Посмотрел на руки - стало больно в локте. В прошлый раз было больно ладонь. 3. Спрайт мамы завис в воздухе над кроватью. 4. В неосознанном сне персонаж мамы со мной разговаривал. В осознанном нет. 5. Ощупывание предметов, и сдёргивание персонажа на пол, помогло подольше удержаться в ОСе. Все ощущения настоящие, от реала на первый взгляд не отличаются. 6. Стоило отвернуться, как персонаж мамы мигом оказался лежащим в кровати. 7. Просунуть часть тела сквозь стекло не вышло. 8. После попытки просунуть палец сквозь дерево получил удар током. Очень натуральные ощущения электрического удара. 9. На голове сами по себе возникли очки. Потом они исчезли. 10. Сумел из сна почувствовать своё физическое тело. И при этом я не проснулся. 11. Реалистичность обстановки заставило меня усомниться: "А точно ли это сон". Казалось, что я не сплю, и действительно хожу по комнате. 12. Метод двери в поиске персонажа не сработал. 8 LD. Realistic sensations (October 20, 2011) I was with my mother, went around a friend’s house. I picked up a piece of paper from the ground. Some kind of advertisement. I began to read, it read normally. However, I did not remember the words. But the suspicion that this was a dream did not disappear in my head. I turned a piece of paper and this way and that - it reads. Then I looked away, looked again - the letters floated. I think everything is a dream. I looked at my hands. My elbow hurt. I think, lay down. Then the situation changes and I find myself in my room. The light is on in the room. Mom in the air hangs over my bed. For some reason, I thought that she wanted to climb the stairs and when the situation changed, she froze. Then it starts to throw me out of dream. I try to feel the piece of paper that I read, then I feel the clothes, myself - it does not help. Then I start rubbing my hands on the powder (carpet on the floor). The sensations are clear, like a real powder (carpet on the floor). I touch the closet - a tree with a tree, again a powder (carpet on the floor). Then I pulled my mother's legs, putting her on the bed. And only after that the image stabilized. I straighten up from the floor, while lifting a piece of paper - it turns out to be a bookmark from the book that I am reading. And at first there was definitely an advertisement. Mom somehow finds herself lying on her couch. I didn’t notice how she moved there. I go towards the window in order to look into it. The situation in the room is about the same: my sofa, my mother’s sofa, wardrobe - everything is in reality. But the table did not make out. I went to the window looking at the street. It's night on the street. The floor is the same as in real life. You can see the wooden house outside the window, there is a bright color. In real life, there are also wooden houses, they only look a little different, in a dream I did not pay attention to it. I try to stick my finger through the glass - it doesn’t work. (Acted with the left hand with the index finger). I want to stick my head in then. I see my face in the window reflection. I have glasses on, before that I did not feel glasses, but as soon as I touched the glass with my head, I felt both glasses and glass. Real feelings that I even thought: "Am I exactly sleeping?" I made myself an effort of thought to feel my physical body. It turned out, calmed down. Turned around, walked back around the room. Mom’s sprite is lying and looking at me. I tell her: "Look, I'm going to put my fingers through the closet now." I try with both hands (again with index fingers). It doesn’t come to put your fingers through the closet. I try again only more slowly. It is useless, quite the contrary - I felt a slight electric shock. I had to lick my fingers, as happens with a burn. I want to take off, but changed my mind, I remembered that I wanted to call a friend. I go to the door to another room. I noticed that the TV works there. The door was ajar, fully awake. I poke my hand out the door, I turn away. I call him three times by name and surname. No one takes a hand. Then I decided to pull my hand out of the door just like that, it suddenly materializes. It didn’t work, I woke up. Findings: 1. Confessed due to the inscription. At first it was read normally, but after I looked away and looked again, the letters floated, it was impossible to read. I did not remember the inscription itself. 2. I looked at my hands - it hurt at my elbow. Last time, my palm hurt. 3. Mom’s sprite hovered in the air above the bed. 4. In an unconscious dream, the character of my mother talked to me. In the conscious no. 5. Feeling things, and pulling the character to the floor, helped to stay longer in the LD. All sensations are real, from the real world at first glance they do not differ. 6. Stoilo otvernut'sya, kak personazh mamy migom okazalsya lezhashchim v krovati. 7. Prosunut' chast' tela skvoz' steklo ne vyshlo. 8. Posle popytki prosunut' palets skvoz' derevo ya poluchil udar tokom. Ochen' natural'nyye oshchushcheniya elektricheskogo udara. 9. Na golove sami po sebe voznikli ochki. Potom oni ischezli. 10. Sumel iz sna pochuvstvovat' svoyo fizicheskoye telo. I pri etom ya ne prosnulsya. 11. Realistichnost' obstanovki zastavilo menya usomnit'sya: "A tochno li eto son". Kazalos', chto ya ne splyu, i deystvitel'no khozhu po komnate. 12. Metod dveri v poiske personazha ne srabotal. Развернуть 566/5000 6. It was worth turning away, as the character of the mother instantly was lying in bed. 7. To push part of the body through the glass did not work out. 8. After trying to put my finger through the tree, I got an electric shock. Very natural sensation of electric shock. 9. On the head, glasses arose on their own. Then they disappeared. 10. I managed to feel my physical body from sleep. Nor did I wake up. 11. The realism of the situation made me doubt: "Is it really a dream?" It seemed that I was not sleeping, and really walk around the room. 12. The door method in the character search did not work.
Awake|Dreaming|Lucid I used the mantra "I am going to wake up after each dream and remember it". I woke up 05.15 with the first dream and 06.10 with the second dream. 05.15 I tried out WILD and it was the best I have ever had! WILD attempt 15: I wake up 06.10 and write down my dream and drink some water. I go back to bed. I lay still and focus to relax my neck and tongue mostly. I have to swallow two times because my throat is so dry. After about 20 minutes I get some insane sensations in my left part of the body. It's like super fast vibrations. After about 25 minutes I am almost not conscious and on the verge of sleep. I am suddenly in a dream but I still feel my body in the bed. I wake up after a while, maybe after some seconds maybe after a minute, but can't remember the scene I was in. I enter my normal sleeping position and go to sleep. I'm in a party in the left up corner of the room. I feel much older because the company I'm with are all as old as my parents. I speak with a younger lady (perhaps 20 years old) and we introduce each other. She says she is from Germany and I think I said that I was a Jew(?). We talk about bread baking and I talk about my bread(??). I get the impression that she is flirting with me. I walk down to the dinner table and my family is already there. The young lady sits two chairs away from me and she has two friends next to her. I see that her friends are pretty stupid. Suddenly my mother accuses her for flirting with me even though she has no intentions of wanting me. My mother says an advanced word that no one understands except she and the young lady that flirted with me. I understand that the word describes the situation me and the girl are in. Suddenly the girl who flirted with me becomes black and she leaves the table. I think to myself that my family is going to think that I fancy coloured girls but it doesn't bother me. I follow her to talk with her and she says that she is sorry because she flirted with me even though she didn't fancy me. I'm in a hospital and I walk into the only door I see. My brother is laying there but he doesn't seem to be that sick. We talk and he says he is okey. I wait out the night outside the door and in the morning we see each other again. I suddenly have no shirt and I only have a towel around my waist instead of pants. I hold my other clothes around my arm and I walk outside to change clothes. For some reason I change in the middle of the corridor. There are two heavy nurses by my little brother's door and I see them through a mirror as I change. They also look at me through the mirror. One of the nurses starts to change clothes and looks at me. She is naked and when I have changed clothes I walk away from the nurses. I see some showers and go in to wash myself. My smaller cousin is there and she talks with an older man. When I stand in the shower my cousin suddenly harasses me by hitting me and I can't stand up because it hurts so much. Possible recurring elements: Parties, family, hospitals, brother and chaos, showers, cousins. Notes: I have noticed that I dream about parties pretty often and that it is one of my dream signs. The girl I met in the party was German because yesterday I saw an educational video and the teacher spoke with a german accent. Maybe I said that I was a Jew because I think of jews when I think about Germany. I dreamt about breadbaking because yesterday I made russian pasties and my dad thought that I made the bread to them but it was premade bread. I have dreamt about my brother and chaos some nights now. I want to help him fix his life more. I have also dreamt about showers lately. I often dream about my cousins.
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