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    1. TOTM Success, and LD Meditation

      by , 06-25-2020 at 04:35 PM
      I typed this up in great detail, and then the page reloaded and didn't save any of it. SO here's the much shorter run down.
      MCT oil, raw honey, melotonin, and tincture blend (African dream root, bobinsana root, blue lotus, calea z, mugwort, lemon balm, damiana) around 10:45, asleep by 11. Multiple dreams and multiple Lucids, woke up several times but the dreams continued each time, so here's the important stuff I remember.

      Theres a party in my apartment, lots of people are hanging out. Someone does a hit of coke in my kitchen, causing me to question the situation. I look at my hands. Tooooo many fingers. I tell someone else to look at her hands, she agrees with me, this is a dream.
      I go to my room to go to bed, the apartment is empty now, my roommate says something to me. I look at my hands again, yes this is still a dream. I grab some pillows off my bed, sit on the floor to meditate. Several Om Mani Padme Hums later, I open my eyes. My room is no longer my bedroom, but a concrete industrial type room with floor to ceiling windows on the two outward facing walls. This is sharper, more in focus than any lucid dream I've had in a long time, the meditation was well worth it. I decide to seek the McDouble I've been after in several of my last lucids. I turn toward the windows, expecting to break one and jump out, but to my surprise theres a window that opens easily, and a staircase leading to the ground. I walk down, and think of the task of the month. A breeze starts up, cooler and fresher than it has any right to be.
      As I walk through this city scape, I look at the DCs and am aware they are simply projections of my subconcious. I lock eyes with one, he knows what I am thinking.
      Strawberries grow like weeds against a building. I pick some, a nearby tree whacks me with its branches, these are not my strawberries.
      I see my families old tan van, I climb in, find Mcdonalds bags (clearly full of trash). I search one anyways, hoping to find a McDouble. My mother is in the drivers seat, says she'll take me to a McDonalds. She drives, and as she is on a collision course with a wall, I close my eyes. I open them, and now we're at McDonalds. We're so close, my McDouble dreams are coming true. I place my order, get my burger, take several bites so big I finish nearly half the sandwhich at once. No ketchup. I wander the store, find a ketchup bottle on a shelf, douse my burger, take some more bites. Perfect.
      I sit at a long table, my mother to my right, the people from the party filling the other seats. Soon we are all eating chocolate covered strawberries, which are much tastier than the burger. My mother and I fight about my unhealthy eating habits, but I tell her this is a dream and I can eat whatever I like. She leaves.

      I wake up for the final time.
      During one of the times I woke up, I had my usual false awakening during which I thought I was writing in my DJ, only to wake up and find out that never happened. This occurs at least once every night.
    2. June 25, 2020 Non-lucid

      by , 06-25-2020 at 03:41 PM (Deep Inside The Lucid Dreamer's Subconscious)
      In a hotel, checked in, cardholder with pen, corner of the room was fenced off, there was a baja blast can on the table.

      Auditorium, tried to get my luggage with $300, guy covered it for me, starts rapping in my ear, I fall in the mud.

      Game designer explaining to me the origins of a game.
    3. Lucid dream and observation

      by , 06-25-2020 at 12:12 PM (Nef's dream journal)
      So I did a wild, easy entry. Was listening to one of those ambient space noise on youtube through my phone.
      At first the dream was very unstable, I didnt gain full form, nor did the enviroment so I stopped and stayed still.
      Then, as if I was summoned into a world like in dark souls 3 , I rose out of my bed , on a torso level, somehow stepped out of bed. And checked out my room.
      My sight was very clean, there wasn't anything weird, exept that some of the stuff in the room was arranged in a very strange order. Also the tv was much tinier.
      But I couldn't move fast ,or else I would lose my sight, my eyeballs were hard to move , I felt heavy pressure and it was like if my eyeballs were always moving in one direction unless I changed it.
      So I slowly moved out of the house, and I saw that the street was also kind of different. It felt kinda uncomfortable so I decided to let go of it.
      I ran and jumped on top of the roof of the house infront of my house, and then I lied there and the dream dissipated.

      It was strange. The visuals were clear , but I didnt dare to do anything else or else the dream wouldve fallen apart. Or so I thought.
      lucid , side notes
    4. Dream - Have A Jacket

      by , 06-25-2020 at 11:04 AM
      Date of Dream: TUE 23 JUN - 2020

      Dream No. 674 - Have A Jacket

      I don’t remember much about this dream. From where I do remember, my dad and I started our walk on what would be an extremely long track that would go on for miles and miles and have many different stages. The first stage felt normal, and was a peaceful walk in real life, but eventually, things started to get weird. There seemed to be this huge stretch of wet concrete, which seemed more like some really nasty slop to me. There seemed to be some sort of linear hole in the middle of the goop, where people would be forcefully submerged under by the dream and would then get out on the other side. Thankfully, my dad and I didn’t actually have to experience that in the dream.

      We ended up at some sort of beach which was heard was really special. Apparently 18-Volt was there to take people past a really nasty point on the track. As we entered onto the sand, I was really excited at the fact I would see 18-Volt and was thrilled at the idea of having a lap ride again. So I beckoned for 18-Volt to appear, but it is not what I expected. 18-Volt seemed to appear, but behind some sort of door and only by his energy, I could perceive how he looked and felt.

      His appearance was his realistic Game & Wario appearance but he was actually nowhere near happy to see me. He threw his rainbow jacket over the top of the door and then actually walked off in a huge stink. I was in total disbelief and just walked back to my dad, looking and feeling humiliated. That’s all I can remember about this dream.

      Dream No. 674

      Dream Guide: 18-Volt (?)
      Lucid?: No

      This dream was quite interesting; and not because something good happened, but quite the opposite. Here I was in the dream thinking 18-Volt and I would be happy to see each other again, but what 18-Volt did shocked me not only in the dream, but in hindsight when I woke up as well. I believe that in my universe, 18-Volt might have felt hurt and betrayed, or like Riku has come to replace him. It's like 18-Volt's action in itself was his way of calling me an asshole.

      Then again, 18-Volt felt too perfect as a dream guide; I will elaborate on this. In my dreams, 18-Volt didn't seem to show ANY signs of a weakness whereas for fairness and human relation, I declare that my dream guides and/or tulpas should have strengths and weaknesses; and indeed they are all different. But 18-Volt was so perfect and felt like a mother.

      So I think I have discovered that 18-Volt's strength is that of ensuring my emotional wellbeing and that he gives the best hugs. Yet his weakness is when he finds out he isn't being utilised as much. In the past, when I changed primary dream guides, Dreamy WB or Murray never got angry at me and even after years, they appreciate it when they see me again. Murray actually has extreme joy when realising we haven't seen each other for ages; whereas Dreamy WB continues to help me nonchalantly like nothing was ever wrong. It's 18-Volt that has been the first ever in dream guide history to snap like that.

      And I seemed to have come across Riku's strengths and weaknesses already as well. Riku provides effective help, but struggles actually interacting with me, and cannot seem to interact with other non-KindgomHearts dream characters at all. Riku is also a weak hugger.

      So to counteract both weaknesses at the same time; within my task journal, I have asked Riku to meet with 18-Volt. The hope is that by Riku approaching 18-Volt, 18-Volt's 'replacement' is the one declaring that he is not there to replace 18-Volt. Then also, this is someone for Riku to practise interaction with and ensure he has a connection with the other dream guides. Because at the moment, Riku is the only one who does not interact with the others; almost like he's isolated from the rest of the dream guide team.

      In theory, each new dream guide has seemed to be taught by their predecessor (18-Volt was taught by Dreamy WB), so Riku was SUPPOSED to have his introductions delivered by 18-Volt; lack of dream guide introduction may also explain why Riku still has a lot of weaknesses despite him already appearing in a few dreams.

      This dream has revealed a lot to me; and rather than it being solely bad, it has given me a lot of interesting things to look at.

      Editing to make another observation. Perhaps Riku and 18-Volt don't like each other. The reason I say this is because of what happened in Dream No. 665. When Riku was carrying me oddly, I said that 18-Volt does it better than him and this seemed to affect him for the rest of the time that he was in my dimension. And then now, the fact that 18-Volt knows I'm with Riku, he gives me the biggest 'F U' ever by not helping my dad and I. So it may seem like I'm caught in the middle of a rift between a Warioware and a Kingdom Hearts character having gripes with each other. I may need to help them resolve it as I have always wanted my dream guides to get along with each other like one big happy family.

      Updated 06-25-2020 at 11:13 AM by 93119

      non-lucid , side notes
    5. Dream - The Croatian Protests & Free Pass Out Of Jail

      by , 06-25-2020 at 10:26 AM
      Date of Dream: SUN 21 JUN - 2020

      Dream No. 673 - Separated Sections

      Dream 673 A - The Croatian Protests

      I don’t remember how this dream started. From where I do remember, my family seemed to be travelling in the car along this scenic road to some sort of town, but it was not for a holiday. Apparently we were attending these protests that were targeted at The Croatians, so therefore our family being included in the targets. When we got into the town, it seemed to be somewhat darker, like it was about to be night time.

      It started to get really cold and windy too. In-fact it was so windy that I actually had to hold onto the hood of the jacket because the rest of it was going to fly off. However, this stranger came up to me and attempted to have a conversation; however, this was an ulterior motive because they knew I was one of the Croatians. As I ended up loosely speaking to them, my jacket flew away and then they invited me into this shop on the roadside.

      I ended up going into the shop that sold vintage clothes but when I spoke to the lady at the counter, she got extremely nasty. I forgot exactly what went on, but despite the nice clothes, I knew I had to get out of there and try and meet back up with my mum. I can’t remember anything about this dream.

      Dream 673 B - Free Pass Out Of Jail

      I don’t remember much about this dream. From where I do remember, I was at Waverly Gardens Shopping Centre, but a seemingly darker, distorted version which had a creepy vibe to it. I headed towards the food court and that’s when I came across my brother who seemed to be struggling to get lunch; not only because og the coronavirus restrictions, but because in the only restaurant that was open, the man seemed to show a bias to my brother and not like him.

      I ended up writing a letter for my brother saying to have the man deliver the food to the Chisholm 311 campus and then I would have control over the man and make sure he did the right thing. The dream scene wasn’t clear in logic anymore, but I felt as though the man either acted, or at least my brother got the food. The dream then changed scenes altogether.

      The scene changed to some sort of outdoor jail, where Riku and Sora were there in their KH2 appearances, as well as two other men; all four of them were seen to be crying. The dream then showed me far away in a separated jail cell, yet I didn’t seem phased by the fact of being in jail at all, because I had a plan. Riku had received a note from me saying to have the person responsible deliver something (I forgot what it was) to Chisholm 311 and that would cause me to mistakenly be realised, then when I was released, I’d release the four men from their jail cell. Riku grew a soft smile and his eyes beamed as he showed Sora the note and told him “she’s going to free us”. The dream ended there.

      Dream 673 A
      Dream Guide: None
      Lucid?: No

      Dream 673 B
      Dream Guide: None
      Lucid?: No
    6. Dream - Exam Assistance Bribery

      by , 06-25-2020 at 10:02 AM
      Date of Dream: SAT 20 JUN - 2020

      Dream No. 672 - Exam Assistance Bribery

      I don’t remember much about this dream. From where I do remember, I was at my house and although I seemed to be alone, I ended up asking Riku if he could stay over for the next few days to help me with my final exams. He didn’t appear fully, but a holographic version of him did, slightly faded though. He was wearing his KH1 clothes but his flesh and hair were realistic and closer to KH3. He had an awareness of me, but at the same time was in an isolated scene. He rolled his eyes and gave a look like ‘do I have to?’.

      I did feel I was asking a bit much of Riku and so I thought I could perhaps sweeten the deal. I went downstairs to the garage and remember that I had made a keyblade for him out of all these different craft materials. Indeed I saw it lying on a paper plate in one of the shelves. The craft (seemingly toy) keyblade seemed to be out of a tissue paper roll wrapped in thick silver ribbon and a decorative tassel at the end out of thin silver ribbon. I had also put a yellow bow on it to signify that it was for Riku.

      He appeared like last time, in the same clothes and style, as the feinted hologram but in a different scene. Though now, I could tell he was trying to hide any feelings of ‘awe’ but did manage to give me a look of ‘alright fine’. I can’t remember anything about this dream.

      Dream No. 672

      Dream Guide: Riku
      Lucid?: No

      This is another dream that is directly linked to my real life exam period. On the day before this dream, I wrote in my task journal asking for Riku's energy not to dissipate and 'return to his realm' at any point. I would be having my last exam on MON 22 JUN.

      The only concern for me as a dreamer is that lately, Riku has been acting more like his sassy side of his Kingdom Hearts self and not adopting many dream-guide-unique traits. So at the completion of my exam period (it is now 25 JUN), I have asked him to work on affection and/or having a proper conversation with me.
    7. Dream - Protests In The Streets

      by , 06-25-2020 at 09:56 AM
      Date of Dream: THU 18 JUN - 2020

      Dream No. 671 - Protests In The Streets

      I don’t remember how the dream started. From where I do remember, the dream had just changed to another scene. My brother and I were walking around this unknown town, but it didn’t remain peaceful for too long. Apparently the dream started initiating the sense of protests and riots in this town as well. There was this man that was one of the troublemakers but he seemed innocent. I was talking to him on the streets for a while until he said he had to go because we could feel the presence of the police closing in. I was slightly devastated that I couldn’t talk to the man more because he seemed like a good guy.

      As the guy went into the block of houses, the police car pulled up and parked at the side of the street. There was only one police officer in the car and when he got out, he ended up speaking to me and my brother. Even though he was a guy, he seemed to have some womanly features as well. As he was talking to us, he had this seemingly creepy grin and he was saying way too much to try and sound like the good guy. In-fact, he was talking to my brother and I as if we were babies and we didn’t understand anything… I did not like this one at all.

      The police officer eventually went away to try and find the man from before and when he did, my brother all of a sudden got really angry at me. He accused me of saying something to the police officer when in-fact, I said absolutely nothing the entire time. I tried to explain to my brother but he just wasn’t having any of it. Eventually, he got so mad with me that he actually started to walk away. I kept trying to beg for him to listen and understand but he just stormed off and actually left the scene.

      Everything that was happening made me now feel unsafe, but what amplified this the most was the way I was treated by my own brother, and so I was under the belief that he too was affected by the surrounding riots. I decided that it was time for me to find a dream guide before things got any worse, so I could be taken to safety. I thought I knew who I wanted, but at the same time I didn’t. As I was walking down the sourrounding suburb streets in a mix between a calm but panicked manner, I first called for 18-Volt, but then I changed it to Dreamy Wabbi, but then I changed it again, this time to Riku.

      I seemed to stick with Riku though as I repeatedly called his name as I tried to walk further and further away from the town. Eventually, due to Riku’s energy, I turned around and noticed him walking into the scene from one of the backstreets; he even went around a parked car. I stood as I watched Riku coming towards me. As he then traversed the grass to get to me, the sides of his hair (he was in KH3 appearance) seemed to sway slightly back and forth. In this dream, his hair ended up looking really soft and silky and the white on his t-shirt was almost visually piercing.

      As he was finally in-front of me, he hugged me briefly. On releasing me, Riku then gave me a slightly serious look like he knew I was in danger and was telling me I needed to get out of this place. Although he himself wasn’t, his energy made it feel like we were linking arms as I walked beside him to be escorted out of the area. However, that energy didn’t last long and I realised that Riku was actually gone, but not by his own will.

      I was shocked as I looked down to notice two pieces of a small laminated Riku in my hand. My heart sank as I realised his head was separated from his body; the dream basically ruining his existence. I knew I had to keep walking in the direction Riku had started me on though. I did so with a look of despair and disappointment, but at the same time, feeling obliged to make this Riku whole again. Eventually I was able to stop and had a roll of sticky tape with me. I took a piece off as I tried to connect Riku’s head back to the rest of his body. Even though I had used the sticky tape, I came to the realisation that Riku would never be the same again. The dream ended there.

      Dream No. 671

      Dream Guide: Riku
      Lucid?: No
      non-lucid , memorable
    8. Dream - I Will Survive

      by , 06-25-2020 at 09:52 AM
      Date of Dream: WED 17 JUN - 2020
      Nap Time Range: 5:10 PM - 6:00 PM (AEST)

      Dream No. 670N - I Will Survive

      It was a fairly short dream, or so it felt. As in the game reveal trailer I saw in the morning when I was awake, both Riku and Kairi were togther in The Final World. However, the dream was playing in third-person and I skipped and twirled into the scene in the Kingdom Hearts outfit I drew myself in IRL. As this was happening, the song ‘I Will Survive’ was playing and I was somewhat singing to it as I approached the lurching Xehanort with purpose; it’s as if this would be my theme if I was really in Kindgom Hearts. I couldn’t tell their emotions but I could tell that Riku and Kairi could do nothing but stop and stare at the magnificent entrance of this unknown but seemingly powerful person who was going to handle Xehanort on their behalf.

      The dream then moved onto the next scene which was completely unrelated. The energy felt like I was in my bedroom, but the scene itself was rather an empty black void as I was supposedly talking to Riku about how my tax exam went. I said that I needed to get 35 out of 60 to pass (which was actually also the case in real life) and then Riku appeared (still in the black void) as a hologram and gained a sort of ‘yikes’ look on his face; he shot his head back as his mouth remained closed but his eyes widened with his grey eyebrows shooting up and his forehead scrunching up. I woke up after this as my mum said dinner was ready.

      Dream No. 670N

      Dream Guide: Riku
      Lucid?: No

      I find it an amazing coincidence that this dream happened immediately after the tax exam; like 1,1/2 hrs after the conclusion of it. It's even more amazing because in my waking life task journal, I asked Riku to be with me IRL (in the form of energy) during the exam period. I was non-lucid, yet I accurately stated I needed 35/60 to pass which is actually the benchmark I need to meet in real life, and then Riku giving such an animated reaction to that made it feel even more real.
      non-lucid , memorable
    9. Dream - The Dreadful Tax Exam

      by , 06-25-2020 at 09:43 AM
      Date of Dream: MON 15 JUN - 2020

      Dream No. 669 - The Dreadful Tax Exam

      I can’t remember how the dream started. From where I do remember, I was at my old high school, however, I was using this as my primary place of study; it felt almost like home to me. There were a few scenes showing me in the year 12 rooms and I was worrying about the material as well as that I was not going to leave myself enough time to sit the exam properly.

      The subject coordinator had given us a practise exam for some of the revision materials. I was now at the library in the year 12 study room as I seemed to recap in the dream what the practise exam was based on. Apparently, in the real exam, the subject coordinator was going to also be giving us questions completely unrelated to tax to distract us, and so there were some in the practise exam as well. There were some really hard questions about biology and then there was one question which wrote ‘what is a baka?’. I had a feeling that the subject coordinator was trying to call us an idiot as I envisioned the answer being ‘baka means idiot in Japanese’.

      In the dream, the exams were still being sat at the Chisholm 311 campus but everyone had to do it on the computers. As it was getting stressfully close to exam time, I was going to ask for Riku to take me to campus. Even though he wasn’t yet present, I didn’t end up yelling or even declaring; I seemed to use a calm voice instead like I was talking to somone in the area. I said; ‘Riku, please take me to Chisholm 311 and please include my laptop, the Australian Taxation Textbook, the Australian Taxation Study Manual, the Australian Taxation Legislation Guide, and a calculator’. I said this because I didn’t have those materials currently with me, and I wanted to use my laptop because I didn’t trust the Chisholm computers. Riku didn’t necessarily appear to transport me like I expected but his energy started to amplify and there was a slight hologram of him in his KH3 appearance as I then seemed to suddenly be teleported to the location, with the requested materials magically appearing in a neat stack in my arms.

      Unlike in real life, the campus wasn’t in the correct suburb and was rather in the CBD of Melbourne. I first seemed to be hovering and looking at the campus from the outside, like Riku was yet to release me. Inside, I saw some familiar classmates already working at the computers, so it seemed that I was already late and had find to make my way to the examination room quickly. Social distancing protocols weren’t being measured either; people were sitting next to each other.

      The dream scene then changed and I seemed to be inside the distorted building, on Level. I had to make my way to Level 3 as that’s where the classrooms for our exams were. The only way to get to Level 3, like in real life, was via an elevator. I eventually found an elevator but it said that it leads to ‘MYER’ and so I grew a look of disgust as MYER was the last place I needed and was definitely not related to the exam.

      There were no other elevators around and so I figured I had to traverse the huge building (campus is really small in real life) to find another one. As I walked through Level 1 and 2, I realised the majority of this area of Chisholm was actually a public cinemas entreprise, not an education institution. I kept the look of disgust at all the irrelevent, pointless features of the campus, but a feeling of worry and panic started to increasingly build up as well. The scene ended and I never found my way to Level 3.

      I was though back in the library of my high school and as I walked through room, there were now other students around. Strangely, they were all crying for some reason and I could make out why. Everyone was wearing dresses and even though this is an all-girls school, there were boys in dresses too! I approached the library man at the desk to have myself marked off for the study period. In this dream he seemed nasty and asked my why some details weren’t there. I said that even though I was there, I was not enrolled as a student in a homeroom, and it hasn’t been that way since 2017 through to 2020.

      Eventually I was able to go to the year 12 study room next door again and there were people in there. There were two people that came up to me and spoke to me, and it was actually Sora and Kairi in uniform even though they didn’t actually identify themselves! Sora was the only boy in the dream not wearing a dress but proper shirt and pants instead, and even the navy blue jumper over the top. Sora asked on behalf of himself and Kairi about going to the Chisholm 311 campus because apparently they had the same exam there. I said that I was asking Riku (whom they seemed to not know in this dream) to take me and that he could take them too.

      I walked out of the room by myself and proceeded to ask Riku like last time; but I asked just for myself. I figured that once he had me at the campus; I would ask him to go and do another trip for Sora and Kairi. Just as Riku was fading into appearance to take me across to campus, the dream ended and I woke up.

      Dream No. 669

      Dream Guide: Riku
      Lucid?: No
      non-lucid , memorable
    10. Dream - The New Keyblade Wielder

      by , 06-25-2020 at 09:41 AM
      Date of Dream: SAT 13 JUN - 2020

      Dream No. 668 - The New Keyblade Wielder

      I don’t remember how this dream started. From where I do remember, it was day time and I was sitting on my bed. I wanted to write a letter to someone Sora had met in their travels. I was trying to write to Jack Sparrow from Pirates of the Carribean. However, I wrote on the paper in greylead and my handwriting was large and messy like a child’s. I also seemed to have difficulties folding the paper neatly and was going to put it in a rather small envelope.

      As I was putting the paper in the envelope though, something hit me. I realised that as Jack Sparrow wasn’t a real person, the letter wouldn’t actually reach him; it had to be written to someone else. It took me a while to think of who the person was and I went blank a lot of times, but I eventually figured out that it was Johnny Depp that I had to write to. The dream didn’t show much of me re-writing the letter.

      A sub-scene was then playing as a hologram over the bedroom scene. It was a close of Master Yen Sid and apparently he was telling the Kingdom Hearts crew that they were going to get another new keyblade wielder to be taught by Merlin. However, Master Yen Sid had a look of disbelief on his face as he revealed that I’d rather teach myself. I then looked to the bedroom window and there was a hologram of the new Kingdom Hearts trio. I was in the middle and one of my real life OCs Selvian (a teddy) was on my left (right in your view). However, the right (left in your view) was empty, apparently Sierra (female teddy OC) was going to join later. The dream then ended and I woke up.

      Dream No. 668

      Dream Guide: None
      Lucid?: No
    11. Dream - The Discord Mediator

      by , 06-25-2020 at 09:39 AM
      Date of Dream: FRI 12 JUN - 2020

      Dream No. 667 - The Discord Mediator

      I don’t remember much about this dream. From where I do remember, it was night time and I was in my house, talking to my parents. They mentioned something about going onto the balconies but I forgot what it was. I went onto the front balcony and it was deformed, but you could still see outside. I went to the back balcony and it was worse. When I was on the terrain, all 4 sides were enclosed brick walls around me and I was terrified.

      I went back into the main room of the house to talk to my parents again but once again, I’ve forgotten what I said. Due to some adverse events in real life, Riku was due to come and see me in this dream, but there was no sign of him yet. I went onto the back balcony to be by myself again and it was the same enclosed environment; more like another room in the house.

      I pulled my phone out and went onto one of the Discord servers. I realised that Riku was going to join the server and was going to come into the voice chat to regulate it and stop people from bullying me in any way. It was going to solely be a voice call between me and Riku, but heaps of other people started joining and so there was going to be no room for Riku with the chat limit applied, I felt gutted.

      Eventually, a server introduction message came and it was a user called ‘Reaperiku’; I believe that this was meant to be a cross between Riku, Replica Riku, and also him identifying himself as a ‘reaper’. I wanted to be the first to welcome him to the server but someone else beat me to it and I was furious as I thought they were going to take him away from me.

      The dream then went back to me being off the phone and in person again. I felt that the real Riku was now on his way to come and talk to me and I was preparing myself. However, the closer he felt, the less intact I seemed to be with the dream. And when Riku was almost present at my location, I woke up.

      Dream No. 667

      Dream Guide: None
      Lucid?: No
    12. Dream - Heartless In The Sewers

      by , 06-25-2020 at 09:37 AM
      Date of Dream: TUE 9 JUN - 2020

      Dream No. 665(2) - Heartless In The Sewers

      The dream started with me in a series of narrow corridors which at first I thought was just the backstage complex of some building. However, I seemed to traverse it like I was some character in a game, in a slight running motion; and there was music playing. It was Boiler Room Doom from Crash Twinsanity. I looked at my surroundings, the brown metal flooring and the other equipment around, and realised that I was in ‘the sewers’ underground.

      I entered this one room however, and it looked like a mix between a costume prep room and a bathroom. I ended up looking into the mirror and noticed I was wearing the clothing that I drew for myself as a Kindgom Hearts character in real life. I then felt a negative enregy emanating from the outside corridors. The dream camera went to third-person and showed a big Kindgom Hearts heartless in armour standing right in the way in one of the passages.

      I felt slightly nervous about going out to deal with the heartless but at the same time, I had an idea of what I was going to do. I didn’t have a keyblade, but I found a chair that leaned against the door of the room I was in. I picked up the chair with both hands by the head and marched towards the heartless. The chair’s legs were repeatedly bashed at the heartless until it faded away and a small pink heart was released, meaning that I had killed it with the chair.

      With the heartless gone, I was able to put the chair down and continue my journey. From one of the other connected corridors came Riku in his Kingdom Hearts 1 appearance. He spoke but I forgot what he said in this scene, warm dream guide energy was emanating off him. For the rest of the scene, he continued behind me as we tried to find a way out of the sewer complex.

      As we headed out the door, Riku ended up turning into his 5 year old self and just as I was going to close the door, he panics and says in his child voice not to otherwise we wouldn’t be able to return. I had feeling from this that we would be indeed returning to ‘the sewers’ later in the dream. I checked the door to see if I had already inconvenienced us but apparently it required two pushes to close and I had only done one, so we were safe.

      The 5 year old Riku disappeared from my sight briefly but I decided to press on and see where we were. Upon looking at my surroundings, I couldn’t exactly identify the place, but it felt like the Notak city from Ratchet and Clank 2. I noticed that I was on some sort of urban walkway and there were steps leading to an open, desert-like area. I realised that this is where Riku and I were supposed to rendezvous with the rest of the Kingdom Hearts characters. As I headed towards the steps, I saw Aqua, Kairi and Axel in the distance; I knew the rest of them were also around.

      It wasn’t long before the dream had seemed to assume a successful rendezvous despite me not actually talking to anyone as Riku came back but he was now in his Kingdom Hearts 3 appearance. He spoke to me, suggesting that we indeed head back into the sewers. Apparently Riku and I were the only ones that had access. It felt as if it was mainly supposed to be my mission but Riku was assigned to be with me to protect me. Before I could open the door to re-enter the sewers, the dream had ended.

      Dream No. 665(2)
      Dream Guide: Riku
      Lucid?: No
      non-lucid , memorable
    13. Dream - I Can Do Better Than Him

      by , 06-25-2020 at 08:53 AM
      Date of Dream: THU 4 JUN - 2020

      Dream No. 665 - I Can Do Better Than Him
      Lucid Dream 36

      I don’t remember how this dream started. From where I do remember, I was doing things around my house when I wanted to try and see Riku again. However like usual, these days, maintaining a stable dream environment seemed very difficult. The dream showed me actually lying in bed, like it was morning; and my grandma came into the room with a mischeivous smile on her face. She came up to the bed and started rapidly and forceully tapping at me to ‘wake me up’.

      The dream morphed to make me think I was now awake, but then I somehow managed to realise that I was still in it, and therefore I realised that I had become spontaneously lucid. The next segment in this dream would prove so, and I used this scene to be able to gain enough control so I could seek Riku with a clear intention. I took out my phone and went on the Discord forums to check messages from my friends.

      Every time I would look at the time, it was different, and not just by a minute. That’s when my lucidity really started to pick up. I then tried changing the time on purpose a few times. I finally declared that if I could command the time to be 1:07, I would be successful. I looked back and the time was 1:06, however, it only clicked over to 1:07 after a few seconds; so I deemed the command to be executed pretty accurately. I finally felt I was ready to go and look for Riku and left my bedroom to initiate the new venture.

      Initially, I was going to call Riku myself but then I walked past my dad in the sitting room next to the kitchen; so I asked him if he could help me find Riku. I was pleasantly surprised when my dad agreed and actually went off to look for Riku himself. He went onto the back verandah and said something, though I panicked as my dad was not asking for Riku by name, and so I was worried that the dream would interpret his request to summon somebody stupid. However, I perceived an energy wafting off my dad and into the house like he was confident he knew what was doing.

      However, I was still freaked out about the fact he didn’t specifically call for Riku, but I felt that Riku was coming, so I ran outside through the back door as fast as I could, in hopes that I would intercept Riku, with that fear of him passing right by. I sprinted to the bottom of the backyard but then I hear the verandah door opening, with Riku stepping out in his KH3 appearance and I was dumbfounded. So I realised he had appeared at the top of the backyard like I predicted but he went the opposite way to what I thought; straight into the house.

      He looked at me amused, like in a ‘silly girl’ kind of way. His clothes were as they as were in cutscenes; his t-shirt being purely white and his jacket in the dream looked like it was from black luxury suede. However, his pants were slightly different; they were plainly black with no belts and buckles on the legs. With my feeling of dumb surprise still wearing off; I moonjumped up over the rails and onto the verandah to go to Riku. He greeted me with a casual hug; not like last time where he almost squashed me to death. He was also rightly lankier and taller than me in this dream.

      What he did next, I wasn’t expecting though. As we went through the house to go out the back door, Riku picked me up and began to carry me. Then as he carried me down the sloping backyard again, I started to study how he felt. He was much thinner compared to 18-Volt and with the way Riku was holding me, some parts of his body felt rigid and uncomfortable to me. Heading into the lower part of the backyard, I remember saying to Riku “I think 18-Volt does a better job at carrying me”. Riku wasn’t offended but there was a feeling of ‘oh you think that do you?’ and as if he was now out to find a way to 1-Up 18-Volt; Riku was silent in this dream. Although Riku was more joltier and uncomfortable, he did have the advantage over 18-Volt of moving quicker.

      It’s when we got to the door to the garage that Riku struggled to hold me and open it at the same time. There was a time where I felt like I was almost going to fall backwards off him as he struggled to scoop me back up, but that all stopped when he finally opened the door and he perched me up on himself again. I could tell that Riku felt bad whenever he struggled with me as he was keeping in mind that 18-Volt was ‘better than him’. He continued to carry me precariously into the front yard and up the hill towards the local primary school.

      Part way up the hill, there became a point where Riku realised that he just wasn’t good at carrying me, and so he gave up and put me down; but he wasn’t done. This was the part where he was going to show that he was better than 18-Volt. He started to float and get into a hovering, sitting position; I knew he was going to take me somewhere. In-fact, I realised that he was going to take me to the world of Kingdom Hearts!

      He patted his hands on his lap, telling me to come and sit on him, so I did. However, as he started to ascend into the air, I couldn’t see his hands anywhere and so I panicked as once again, it felt like I was going to lose my balance and fall off him, but sideways in this case. I shouted in a fluster, telling Riku that I needed to be secured. I remember specifically saying “If you’re doing interdimensional travel, then you need to be wearing a seatbelt”. Riku finally realised, lowered us back down and put his arms around me as loosely as possible, still having no ‘secure’ effect whatsoever; like he still didn’t know what he was doing. I said “tighter” and so he tightened his grip slightly, but it wasn’t even near enough. So I kept saying “tighter” until I could finally feel his arms securely and there was no gap between them and my stomach; I remember I had to say it 5 times.

      He was finally then able to ascend into the day time sky and when he descended with me again, it still felt like the same area (the hill at the bottom of my court), but it wasn’t day or night. As Riku helped me off him, he told me that we were now in Kingdom Hearts; in this dimension he spoke, as if he was now confident because we were on his side of the realms. And in return, I now became unsure of myself in some ways, as well as where we were because I didn’t realise any difference.

      I kept asking in a confused tone ‘we’re in Kingdom Hearts?’ because I couldn’t see any sign that said so. That’s when Riku walked slightly down the hill with me and pointed into the sky as he said “there it is, that’s Kindgom hearts”. I looked up and realised the heart shaped moon in the sky; but to me, it seemed like it was the sun and the moon at the same time, hence no definitive day or night time. After I had examined it for long enough and the reality had set in, I turned my attention back to the streets and Riku began conversing with me. I couldn’t remember what he said but it seemed like he was telling me more about Kingdom Hearts, and he sounded very fond of the stories he was telling me.

      Eventually though, it seemed like Riku and I were all caught up, and for once, there was no longer a purpose for him to be around, and so he gave me a farewell and then actually walked off and left the scene, but I was satisfied. This was a lucid dream and so I realised I was still in control. I wanted to do more but I couldn’t think of anything to do, so I continued to walk aimlessly up the hill. As I got nearly to the top of the hill though, a sudden realisation had hit me and I needed Riku back; I remembered I wanted to ask him about his age as per the task I had set in my waking life dream journal. I became anxious as I thought I wouldn’t be able to get him back. After some hesitation, I urged out to the sky “Riku! One more question!”, hoping that I would be heard.

      Something happened; the dream turned into to an empty void, but an entirely white one, and I was all alone in it. But shortly, Riku appeared again (same KH3 appearance but in all default clothes including pants), but this time as somewhat of a giant; he was only two or three times bigger than me, but it was still an obvious discrepancy. He got on his knees and leant over me to hear what I had to say. Then I asked him “What is your age between the number of 16 and 25?”. At first, he didn’t seem to get what I was saying but after I repeated the question, he got it, but didn’t seem to receive it well.

      His anxiety spiked through the roof as the question had seemed to catch him off-guard; almost like he wanted to prepare an answer before-hand but couldn’t. His eyes (and eyebrows) gained the look of sheer horror as he rapidly mumbled and stuttered but managed to utter out an “18” amongst it all. It’s almost like he knew I was going to lock his age once he said it, and so he did not want to make the decision so impulsively. He continued babbling nonsense afterwards like he thought I wouldn’t be satisfied with his response. Being lucid, I knew he needed to stop and calm down, so I said over the top of him, “It’s okay. Thank you Riku” in which he then was able to stop but still looked flustered. Then I came in and put my hands on his sides, trying to hug the giant Riku in which his panic competely stopped and he looked rather delighted. Now I was truly done and the dream took me back to the hill.

      I started to slowly walk back down the hill and while doing so, reflected on the previous scene. The emotions were raw as I recall how panicked Riku was. I then thought that perhaps I wouldn’t lock in his age straight away; that I would assume he was 18 but allow him a revision when he would be feeling more confident. Then I finally had nothing else to do as I stared off into the distance of what seemed to be a mix of my suburb and Twilight town (the Kingdom Hearts sky was now pinkish with an actual sun on the horizon); so I declared to wake up.

      Dream No. 665
      Dream Guide: Riku
      Lucid?: Yes

      I might add side notes to this dream at a later stage; I have an interesting discussion in-mind.
      lucid , memorable
    14. Hurting myself and denying it's a dream

      by , 06-25-2020 at 08:38 AM (DJ of lucid goals and how it goes)

      Me and my sister have inherited a lot of money and building material. We walk outside our house and we see all these building material. It's actually just some big paper rolls with paper inside. I open a paper roll and take some things with me in. Two strangers on the street look suspiciously on me because they think I'm a thief and I'm stealing from the house's owner. I tell them that I live here and they become calm. I walk inside and we notice that all the money is gone. We just have the building material left. We decide to build something and sell it so we get our money back. I see a broken pogo stick and try to jump it. It doesn't work so I decide to fix it. I don't know how to do so I ask my dad. He shows me how to remove some parts and shows me that it was the spring that was old and had lost its elasticity. We remove the old spring and look in a box full of different kinds of springs. There are many different sizes and forms. I pick one I think would suit but dad says it's the wrong shape. He picks a very thick and short spring that I don't think will ever work. I take it and it doesn't work. Instead my dad takes it and makes a basket for basketball.

      I'm telling Madeleine that I'm sorry and that William really is the best outside a big house. (I cry when I say William's name)

      I think it's a dream and do a RC. Cool, it's a dream. I try to summon a fire in my hand but it doesn't work. I walk outside and run to finally jump and try to fly. When I jump I just fall on the asphalt and do a kind of sideways somersault to not hurt myself too much. It still hurts. I think that it isn't a dream anymore and think to myself that I'm going mad because I can't distinguish reality from the dreaming world. I also think that I'm going to hurt myself more badly next time when I try to jump from a building to fly maybe.

      I became lucid in another dream but only remember this. I'm stabilizing the dream and it feels more real than in most cases as I rub my hands together and on my cheeks. I fly and it's not going that well.

      Notes: It was so hot in my room and I kept on moving in my sleep, waking up from different vague dreams all the time. One of Madeleine's closest friends just died, that's why I dreamt about saying I'm sorry to her. This isn't from this DJ entry but for some time ago I dreamt about Gabriel and that he was in trouble so yesterday I asked him if he wanted to hang out with me. This is the first time I have taken help from a dream directly in real life. I have let my dreams guide my real life, that's pretty cool I think. We are going to play some table tennis and take a bath I think.

      Updated 06-25-2020 at 08:41 AM by 97565

      lucid , non-lucid
    15. Dream - Paper Riku In My Pocket

      by , 06-25-2020 at 08:37 AM
      Date of Dream: FRI 29 MAY - 2020

      Dream No. 663 - Paper Riku In My Pocket

      I don’t remember much about this dream. From where I do remember, I was in my old house, sitting up on the stools at the kitchen bench and I was eating something. That’s when I decided to feel around the pockets of my pants and I noticed something in there. Just by feel, I could tell that it was a laminated paper Riku from Kindgom Hearts. That’s all I can remember about this dream.

      Dream No. 663

      Dream Guide: None
      Lucid?: No
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