LEGEND: Black = non-lucid Grey = awake Blue = lucid Lucid fragment I reality check and get lucid, but either don't remember what came after it or the dream faded. Great false awakening lucid! Discouraged from my failed lucid that I just woke up from, I decide to do an especially aware reality check and then go to sleep with the mantra "When I see my hands I will remember I am dreaming and I will remember my body isn't real." The last part of the mantra is to make me more lucid and aware, so that I'm not just a zombie. I then heard a noise my father made (maybe be dropped something) and got startled by it, and was disappointed. But I did a reality check, and, to my surprise, I breathed right through my plugged nose and was in a lucid dream. I immediately stood up and decided to leave my home. I tried looking away and back, imagining there'd be a door. I wanted to go to a specific place, but I ended up going into a mall. For some reason I suddenly had a VR headset on my head and my lucidity slipped a bit and things started getting unclear, both since that's something that happens if you don't have your VR headset on correctly and because the dream was fading, but as I took it off it caught itself. For a few seconds, I was somewhere else, but returned to the mall without really noticing. The place might have been full of brownish sand and sort of boxed in somehow. Now, back in the mall, I run around and explore, excited, although not as aware as in the beginning anymore, but still better than any other lucid dream I've had. I see a small (100ml volume?) box of sodium iodide and think about trying to blow something up (that's hard with sodium iodide, but, again, I had lost awareness in the VR headset segment), but I ended up not trying, both because I didn't know if they'd have any chemical that'd work out with it (forgot that you could summon things since my awareness was shit) and because I didn't want to anymore. As I thought about it, I had actually tried to grab the box of it, but I only had the lid in my hands since it slipped off, and somebody was mad at me since I grabbed it (I had a small fear that someone would notice, but I didn't really care since I was sure I could just flee). And thus, I fled. I then decided to try some shapeshifting again. I looked at my hands and saw that I had way too many fingers than normal (about 14 on my right hand), so I tried to touch things with the hand to see how having more fingers feels like, and it felt like normal, just slightly different. It's hard to describe. But I didn't want to continue to do something else that is more personal. I went to a sort of computer terminal and input commands and hoped for them to appear in the dream, but it didn't quite work out. At some point I did a stabilization attempt by inspecting my hands, but still nearly woke up, but ended up back at a sort of bodyless distant view that was even less aware of the terminal, which now looked like a piano/organ, and apparently dracula was playing on it. It sort of was like a comedic variation of some sort of area in a video game. I then sort of had to click on the piano to go to the terminal again to continue typing, and it still didn't work, and then I woke up. That awareness drop after the vr segment was annoying, but being that aware at all was progress, at least. I think I will add something to get more aware of dream control in my dreams. Also, the first lucid fragment resulted from an extra aware reality check yesterday before I went to bed, since I was a bit disappointed that I couldn't reality check all that much because of school eating my time and stressing me.
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Date of Dream: TUE 28 JUL - 2020 Dream No. 699 - Separated Sections Dream 699 A - In Order To Sit The Exam I don’t remember much about this dream. To me, it only felt like a very short scene and that was it. In my voice, the dream was saying to me that in order to be able to sit the exam, Riku needed to sign some sort of form. A sub-scene then showed Riku (KH3 appearance) standing in the dining room of my old house while he was signing something, but the dream didn’t show what he was signing. Dream 699 B - Kneading Pizza Dough I don’t remember how this dream started. From where I can remember, I was in my garage and I was trying to kneed this pizza dough, that was sitting in a plastic box, into a specific shape. However, the pizza dough became extremely hard and so I had an extremely hard time kneading it. I heard that I should have started kneading it earlier when it was just freshly combined; apparently exposure to the surrounding air was making it hard. I looked up and my grandma as well as some of her friends and other members of my family were sitting at the edges of the garage. They were encouraging me but it seemed ‘torturous’ in a way, like they were making cute faces at me as if I was a kid and I grimaced at this. I then still wondered why the pizza dough was so hard to knead. As I squashed it together, all these Kingdom Hearts figurines suddenly came flying out of it and landed in pieces on the window sill. I went over to examine the figurines and make sure they weren’t broken in any way. The figurine at the front was Riku and he looked fine. I then saw other characters like Terra, Aqua and Kairi in the back ground. I then went over to Roxas, this set of figurines having ‘stick’ legs. Roxas’ current pose was a sitting one, but I could not get him to sit properly on the window sill. So I ended up detaching Roxas’ current legs and changed them over so that he could stand. He ended up successfully standing. I then went back to the dough in the box and suddenly it was easier to knead, either that or I seemed to apply more force this time around. The box also seemed to fill up with a tomato-based pasta sauce. Somehow, the dough broke into small pieces and went amongst the sauce, and then I got in and ended up bathing in the mixture. I can’t remember anything else about this dream. Dream 699 C - The Disney Stairs I don’t remember how this dream started. From where I do remember, I was at a shopping centre that felt like a cross between Dandenong Plaza and The Glen, but was identified to be Dandenong Plaza. On Level 3, I came across AD and she just seemed to plainly ignore me as we passed each other. Further up the corridor, I discovered that there was this huge attraction in Target called ‘The Disney Stairs’, which I had to go and check out. So I took the escalators down to level 1 where Target would supposedly be, but apparently I wasn’t there yet. I wondered where ‘The Disney Stairs’ was and soon, I saw a sign saying ‘To Disney Stairs’ with an arrow on it. I grew worry as I thought it was an elevator going down, but eventually, I see all these people going down a narrow, weirdly formed escalator. I wondered why it was formed the way it was and someone said to me that it was good practise for the actual ‘Disney Stairs’. The escalator was moving terribly fast and the steps were very narrow, so I had step on at the right time or I’d fall. I thought Target would be 1 basement level below, whereas we actually went down many ‘mysterious levels’ to eventually end up in Target. We approached the ‘Disney Stairs’ scene which was actually a Christmas set-up which looked more miraculous than any one I had ever seen in real life; it was a corridor full of ‘Christmas’ leading to an unknown journey path. Mickey was at the front of it and seemed to be the curator for this event. There were twelve of us and so he told us that we’d be in three teams of four; blue, red and white. Mickey then told people to start coming up but they all hesitated so I decided to go up first. As I approached Mickey, I realised Santa standing just inside the corridor, which was actually Riku dressed in a Santa suit! Mickey said to me, “And I see you have a special relationship with Santa”, which proved further that this was actually Riku. Whereas the rest of my teammates were going to get a plain white robe, I got this elegant cream coloured robe with dark teal patches on it and fine beading; as if it cost $500 to make or buy. Just as I was about to go over to Santa to start the adventure and potentially be greeted with a hug, I woke up. Dream 699 A Dream Guide: None Lucid?: No Dream 699 B Dream Guide: None Lucid?: No Dream 699 C Dream Guide: Riku Lucid?: No The exam is the IRL response I will be writing to Kingdom Hearts (imaginatively) once all 7 dream tasks are completed.
Date of Dream: MON 27 JUL - 2020 Warning! Depending on the reader's judgement; Dream 698 A may make mentions of mature content such as sex and/rape. Please avoid reading if this ought to make you feel comfortable or you are Under 18. The dream character expressing the concerning content is 'Nathan'. Dream No. 698 - Separated Sections Dream 698 A - A Boy With Big Problems I don’t remember how this dream started. From where I do remember, I was in the hills, in one the supermarket, when I ran into a couple of girls currently attending my old high school, wearing their PE uniforms. However, it like the girls recognised me and were really happy to see me. One of the girls told me that it was ‘Wellness Wednesday for them’ and this is why there were at the shops. It was eventually that I saw some girls in the academic summer uniforms; but then what I saw next shocked me; a couple of boys in summer uniform. Since when was this a co-ed school? There was one boy that really caught my attention though, and this was for the wrong reasons. Just by looking at him, I could tell that he had violent tendencies and therefore huge mental problems. I found out that his name was Nathan. It wasn’t very long though before he started acting up towards me and that he actually wanted me for his own ‘desires’ as it were. I tried to get away from him, but he was really forceful and would actually be really violent to me if I tried to leave; so I was basically trapped. The dream no longer played in the supermarket, but Nathan seemed to be a consistent theme in all the scenes. However, to my relief though, my dream guides seemed to know what was going as Dreamy WB walked into the scene to try and get Nathan off me. She managed to provide a distraction and told me to led me to wait in the ‘staff room’ of the complex. For a while, I was just dawdling in there until someone came into the room and told me to get out. I did, thinking that Nathan was finally dealt with. Though as soon as Dreamy WB had gone, Nathan came back and was threatening himself on me again. I needed to act fast and decided to call for a male dream guide to see if they would yield a better result. I decided to call for Riku and somehow managed to summon him without Nathan detecting me. What was even more satisfying is that Riku had walked into the scene (KH3 appearance) and Nathan didn’t even suspect that Riku was there for me. Riku came and sat on the ground, prompting me to sit down in-front of him. However, I thought that in the current position, Nathan would be able to whisk me away and use me. So I asked Riku to bend his knees out slightly so I could go back in towards him a bit more. I ended up lying down with my head on Riku’s lap as he then looked up and started to speak to Nathan. Despite the severity of Nathan’s actions towards me and his obvious mental illness; Riku didn’t raise his voice to Nathan at all or even insinuate that he had a problem. It’s like Riku knew not to flare Nathan up or that’s when Nathan would become uncontrollable and bad things would happen. Riku actually simply smiled at Nathan, connecting with him like a friend, and said to him, something like, “I think you should go and see Mickey. It’d be good for you”. And to my surprise, Nathan left the scene on his own and did not come back this time. I also knew what Riku was really doing. It was Mickey that was going to give Nathan a good roasting; Riku basically insinuated, in a disguised manner, to Nathan, that he had problems and needed counselling. I can’t remember anything else about this dream. Dream 698 B - Dirty Bathers I don’t remember much about this dream. From where I do remember, family friend couple EW and JW were at the beach and apparently they were recalling a phone call that they had gotten from my mum, asking them to wash my sandy bathers while they were at the beach. The wife JW had taken my cobalt coloured bikinis and held them over the water, waiting for the waves to wash over them ten times. Meanwhile, EW and their baby were standing on the sand, listening as JW counted the number of times the waves had washed over the bathers. As soon as JW said ten, she stepped back from the ocean and went back to EW and XW. EW had pulled his phone in order to film proof for my mum that the bathers had been washed. However, as EW was filming and JW was now holding XW and my bathers, XW took a swipe at the bathers and they immediately fell on the sand, taking the family back to square 1. I can’t remember anything else about this dream. Dream 698 A Dream Guide: Dreamy WB & Riku Lucid?: No Dream 698 B Dream Guide: None Lucid?: No
Last night I went to bed tired and had to wake up early so I decided not to try a WBTB attempt, so I wasn't really expecting to have any lucid dreams. When I went to sleep I just re affirmed my intention to remember my dreams. However I had a series of dreams that were awesome. In them I felt much more "me" in the dream. Like it was first person, and I was in the plot, and they were very vivid and fun. I thought about it throughout the day because I would love to have more dreams in this genre, but I have not been able to think of anything I thought or did differently to provoke them. It's a mystery. What was really interesting about the sequence of dreams is that in them I thought I was lucid, but I think they were more like dreams about becoming lucid, with only the very lowest levels of any real self awareness or memory because the plots where crazy and I never questioned them, and in the dreams I never considered I had any other body or activated memory at all. Dream One: Dream Warrior Clan I am standing with my two sisters in a trial ground of sorts. My whole extended family is standing around the three of us and we are lined up ready to begin a trial. At this time the dream is very vivid and first person and in the dream I imagine that I am lucid now, in fact I realize that all three of us are lucid and this is a dream sharing dream! In fact that is why all my extended family has gathered, because there has finally been a night when all three of us are lucid so that the trial can be conducted! (This is why I don't believe I was actually lucid, because I was fully engaged in this plot at this point). I am very excited because I have wanted to dream share with my sisters for a while now and it is finally happening! My uncle M.L steps forward and starts laying out the challenges of the trial. At the time I understood that my family was like an ancient clan of dream warriors, and the three of us were being tested to see if our training had prepared us to join. He shouts to begin, and I look up and see a crazy scene of a hoard of all types of monsters, fantasy, sci fi, everything, running and jumping down floating hills and other floating landscapes toward us. I understood that the trial was to fight them off. My sisters engage both running forward shouting war cries and attacking the closest of the monsters, I watched them thinking they looked very bad ass. I thought that I probably wouldn't have to fight because they could handle them but the monsters where much tougher than they looked, and some of them were like captains that had dream control and dream powers themselves. My sisters had each only managed to defeat a small handful of the monsters each, and as I looked around the swarm extended as far as I could see in every direction, even from about because there were floating landscapes above us they were jumping down from also. At this time I am not really emotionally invested yet, I am just preparing myself to have fun fighting like I normally would. But as I am looking around trying to find a tough monster I hear my sister A.S cry and like she has been hurt and as I jerk to turn to see her, she is on the ground and a big werewolf monster that is like twenty feat tall and all white is standing over her holding a big club over his head to swing down at her. And I get REALLY MAD! Like more mad than I have been in years in any dream. And I start to summon up my deepest rage and strongest powers, and time slows down. And I enter a place beyond rage of calm deadly focus, of pressure, and destructive intent, and I want to kill them all. I am scared I will hurt my sisters, so I look to find my other sister A.B. and am impressed that she is still holding her own. I hold both of them in my mind so that I don't accidentally hurt them, and begin releasing my power. I summon my Techno (I gift in a previous dream) which begins to well up from the center of the earth spreading my Techno rhythm to the whole planet. The ground begins to shake and a steady thumping emerges from all matter. I summon my two swords (which won me title king of the arena in a previous dream) which fall into my outstretched arms descending from the sky. As I look around I think that I could defeat all the monsters with the power I had already summoned, with my rage, my rhythm, and my swords. But I am feeling strong, and am so full of rage that my sister is in real danger even though this is just a trial, and I am angry with my family for letting this test get so out of control so quickly. So I decide to really cut loose and summon my strongest dream power, I summon my pressure (also a power from a previous dream). Living within me is a million year old demon spirit (my deepest rage and primal arrogance and violence) that is always sleeping and only wakes up when it senses another million year spirit. It is awoken and summoned by my rage and my spirit begins to swell to a great density, gravity, and pressure. I make sure that I am still holding my sisters in my mind so that they are not crushed. I begin resonating with my techno beat and gently float up into the air, I lower my gaze unto the monsters that are now all paused and looking at me, and I let them meet my gaze as if to ask them who amongst them would dare to stand before me. And they all start running. I notice that my extended family that was monitoring the trial is scared and shocked, and they are running too as I was angry with them for endangering my sister, and not holding them in my mind to make sure they were not harmed, so my power is violent towards them also, but still not as focused with rage as toward the monsters. I claim dominion. Non will stand before my violence and power. I gather my rage and power, and flexing my arms back and body I challenge all foes within my dominion to face my power, I challenge them all. And I kill them all. In the dream it wasn't a long fight at this point. I really just wanted to express my anger and with my strongest anger summoned I flexed all my power and let out a shout, and the next second all the monsters where gone and the dream transitioned. With all the monsters gone the trial ground looks peaceful again. I start quickly flying away because I don't want to be here anymore. My sisters and family are gone and I am all alone. As I fly up into a blue looking sky I hit a wall and realize the sky is just a painted dome with clouds and blue painted on it. It seems really hard, and I know that it's not supposed to be passable, but I feel like it is like the nether roof in Mindcraft and I know how to glitch myself upwards through it to get out and to the roof, outside the laws, to the space I'm not supposed to get to. So I glitch myself through the ceiling and I end up in the vast area, and feel and incredible amazement at what I see. This space is full of everything our dream warrior clan has ever captured, confiscated, or created. There are weird devices and buildings all over and I don't really know what any of them are but I feel like they are a great treasure and am very curious to explore them. As I am feeling this amazement and curiosity the dream ends and I wake up. Analysis: When I wake up I felt excited like I had just had an awesome lucid dream, but also very emotionally drained. I still felt scared for my sister, but also excited like maybe they were actually semi-lucid also and will remember the same dreams (they did not). I don't usually feel strong emotions like that and the excitement, fear, anger, deep rage, shame of completed violence, and excitement and curiosity again at the end where almost overwhelming. I started committing the dream to memory so I would not forget it, and after rehearsing it went back to sleep. I had more dreams in the first person nature of this dream through the night, but non of them were as intense as this first one. I really like the first person nature of the dreams though, almost a semi lucidity. I feel like recognizing dream signs, and activating a lucid mindset in these type of dreams to really DILD would be possible.
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