Alyzarin

Lucid again! I smoked a couple bowls of calea right before going to bed so that may have contributed a bit, at least in the vividness and detail of the dream. Actually, I know it did, I'm familiar with calea and for me it always creates what I'm now calling the "crowd effect", where my dreams tend to have at least some part that includes huge amounts of people for whatever reason. I'm not sure why that effect specifically happens, I guess it's just an easy way to add more detail to a situation lol.

#1 - Tiny Girl

There was something going on in the dream already before this, but I come in when I'm at my friend M's house (it's not actually her house, though) and I'm waiting for her to finish something so I decide to go swimming. Apparently, I'm a shapeshifter (still non-lucid at this point) and I turn myself into a little girl (not myself) for some reason. I already had my bathing suit on so I jumped in the pool and swam around briefly, but then it started raining so I got out and went inside the house, perfectly dry. I went down a staircase (apparently I was on the second floor despite having just come in from the back yard ) and walked past anderj101. And as I did he started chanting "tiny girl, tiny girl...." in a trance-like voice. After that I turned back into myself, and at the bottom of the stairs I found myself at some kind of party that took place in this huge building and spanned several floors. The building had one of the openings in the center where you can look over the railing and see the other floors above and below it, and there didn't seem to a end to either direction. I walked around and just talked to people for a bit, but I kept hearing people doing the "tiny girl" chant but each time I did that person would add an extra line to the end of whatever the previous person said. Eventually I found my cousin P and told him that G (his little brother) was crazy (he was one of the people chanting) and that I was afraid I might have accidentally started some cult or something.

After that there was a total change in subject and I said to P "I bet I can jump over this railing and land two or three floors down and be perfectly fine." to which he disagreed, so I got ready to do it. I had a brief moment of "what the hell am I doing " but then I became lucid! I got an adrenaline rush and laughed to myself and ran forward and jumped. It was a long fall down the few floors, but I landed on one below and the impact felt like nothing at all, as if I had just jumped in place and was landing back on the ground, and everyone cheered when I made it. I walked off and noticed a cute girl standing there and made a move to kiss her, but she backed away and some people started laughing, so I shrugged it off and kept walking. I saw a counter with people behind it and immediately knew that they were selling movie tickets. I thought that might be an interesting avenue to explore so I walked up there and asked for two tickets for Pokémon. There were no movie names listed, I just chose that by default, and I'm not totally sure why I asked for two. Maybe I was losing lucidity lol. I was a little nervous that there wasn't enough keeping me lucid, so I told her to hurry up and got the tickets and kept walking. She told me to go "where the TVs are", but I walked around and didn't see any. I found a bunch of people standing around doors that looked like they led to lounge rooms where the movies were probably being held, but when I opened one and started walking through it the dream become extremely dim and fuzzy, so I backed out and abandoned that idea. The dream picked back up briefly, but as I was walking down a hallway trying to figure out what else to do, it fully faded and I woke up. Oh well, at least that's another lucid in a really short amount of time.

#2 - Shifting Stairs

I'm in school and after class gets out I end up talking to this girl I used to see from time to time named M (different from the previous dream). Eventually I ask her if she needs a ride home and she says yes, but then her little sister shows up, along with an enormous crowd of students. I go to get something out of my locker (a couple folders or something, once I pull them out and they drop out of my line of sight they're never seen again ) and get stuck in the crowd. One short girl is trying to reach above the lockers for something, and I stand on my toes to look up there and tell her there's nothing there but she keeps reaching. Another girl keeps opening my locker for some reason and looking in it all confused, until finally she says "Ooooh, that's YOUR locker!" and looks at me with an embarrassed smile. I smile back and walk off to catch up with M and her sister again. We're on the second floor so we walk to the staircase which is divided into two sections with a small median in between. We get there and turn around and I notice that the second set of steps actually leads back up to where we just were, they both lead to the same place. M's sister just walks up them like it's the normal thing to do, and I'm seriously perplexed. I turn to M to say something about it but hesitate, then look back and the stairs have corrected themselves. M walks down to meet up with her sister who's already down there now, and I go too but then they just leave without saying anything, and I feel kind of lonely. The next part of the dream I don't really want to say but it involves me thinking about some old friends that I don't really get to talk to anymore because of some stuff that made us not really friends anymore.... And then I even saw one of them walk by and it was really awkward. >_< I finally made it to my car and started driving off, then the dream ended.

So the second one was kind of a downer. :T The first one was fun, though!

Well, my recall was practically destroyed last night since I smoked too much weed too close to when I went to bed. :T I did wake up and fall asleep early in the morning though, so I managed to get something from that. Other than that, all I really have is this note I wrote down, I don't remember the dream connected to it.

Fragment - Checking DV in the morning, later afraid to ask someone out.

#1 - Deliriant Relapse

This dream had a very surreal feel to it. I remember that my cousin G was in it, and somehow he and I came to the conclusion that we were having a shared dream (though I wasn't even lucid, kind of disappointing ) and then we started getting ready to go to McDonald's. Then my cousin K, G's little sister, shows up and gives me some really cryptic warning which I don't remember but it tipped me off even more to the surreal feeling. Unfortunately I STILL didn't realize I was dreaming () but I noticed how everything was shifting and inconsistent and incredibly trippy - much more so even than regular dreams - and I started to fear that I was on a deliriant trip. I got really pissed at and disappointed in myself because I thought I had successfully kicked deliriants for good and it started making me really depressed. Fortunately, I woke up not long after that and realized I was just dreaming.

:\ I talked about being in a dream AND explicitly noticed how dreamy and non-reality-like everything was, and I still didn't realize I was in a dreaming. Damn you, subconscious! I mean, I know I've had like three lucids in the past couple days so I don't have a ton of room to complain, but still... I want more. D:

*sigh*

Two more lucid dreams!! This was a pretty awesome night of dreams. I smoked some weed a few hours before going to bed and got a pretty happy, energetic high, and I think that carried over into my mood in the dreams, and I'm sure it made them a bit crazier too. The one downside is that it also made the feelings a little more fleeting when I woke up, but at least I still remember them.

#1 - Lucid Sex Attempt #1

The beginning of the dream is kind of hazy, but I remember being at school and I was a superhero or something, and I met a fan of superheroes. That was an important part of the beginning plot, but where my memory comes in is in a classroom when I suddenly become lucid. There was no stabilization required to make it last a little while, but I kind of wish I had so it'd be a little easier to remember. :T Oh well. I had tons of energy and got to remind myself of how awesome I am at my tried and trusted lucid power, flying. I zoomed around to different classrooms at supersonic speeds spouting nonsense at people because I just felt like acting insane (seriously, I had way too much energy ) I remember flying down a hallway in what I perceived to be the music class area of the school, and I pass a girl whose face I don't see, but I perceive her as Dianeva and I slow myself down and try to look back and see her but she's gone. Since I'm already back on my feet, I decide to walk into the classroom next to me which is in a pretty big open room like it's for Band class or something, but it just has normal tables with people sitting at them. I go up to the front of the room and yell "Who wants to have sex me!?" This one girl in the front row smiles at me so I think "Lol, sure." and leap over on to her. I'm getting ready to do something but then she starts fading away and the dream is becoming blurry. I say "Hell, I'm not wasting my time with you, I forgot that time is of the essence. Who ELSE wants to have sex!?" I look around and see a gigantic, buff, shirtless guy with dreadlocks standing in the back. I run over to him and rip off my clothes and he rips of his, and people gather around us to watch. Ahhh, he got it in and everything, and then RIGHT before he actually started the DREAM ENDED! Oh well, it was a good first attempt.

HI - Quick hypnagogic stuff about being drunk with my aunt and still having tons of energy, then being at a hospital where the image suddenly dissolves in a really trippy way.

#2 - Hard Happies

This dream was kind of long as well, but I only remember it as one fleeting thing followed by haziness and then the ending. So first I was walking through an airport talking to this guy D about how the planes were all "down" but they were letting them fly again, and then suddenly there was a massive swarm of planes all coming right into the area around us in a way that if it were real life they would have all crashed into each other. Of course, I looked away and it was never mentioned again lol. Then blur.... Then my memory picks up with my having created some kind of department store/house fusion with someone, though I don't remember who. We had made a bunch of "virtual food" and there was a crowd of people there eating it. Suddenly I remember having flown waaaay over the area up into a jungle, of course. I watched a stream of water that looked like it had a raft coming down it, and at that point I became lucid and snapped back to the store/house. (it was mostly just a house now). I heard Minh and Kahn from King of the Hill arguing about getting some Japanese food, and I noticed that everyone in the house was eating some. That made me want to try to find some Chinese food to see how it tasted, so I went looking around the house and the first thing I found was this weird lump of meat that was solid and cold and sort of slimy. I decided against that and went back out to the table. Lily from How I Met Your Mother was one of the people there eating, and the asked me about the "hard happies", which are apparently a type of fruit. They were in slices exactly like orange slices, and they looked exactly like oranges only they were white except for the tip (the innermost part) which had rainbow blotches on it, mostly dominated by cyan, magenta, and yellow though. I picked one up and she said "Hard happy, happy hard. " Yes.... happy hard, I agree. (DCs are awesome. ) I start eating it and it's DELICIOUS! It's also making me super energized again with every bite, to the point that I'm frantically walking around the house like I'm on a load of speed. I finish and grab a regular orange slice next, which also tastes really good. I notice someone sitting down on the ground so I stop to talk to him and try to keep myself calm and centered so the dream won't end, but it does anyway. Oh well, it was fun.

#3 - Best Prison Ever (Part 1)

I have a hazy memory of being in some boat escape involving German kids, but we get caught out in the middle of the ocean by a bunch of prison ships or something and end up at this weird confinement camp. Apparently, I'm also some kind of cyborg and have been having memory problems, so where I come in next is after we've already been there for a while but my memory of everything that's happened since we got caught was erased from my mind so I had to relearn it all and meet everyone again. I'm sharing a three room suite with my friends J and S who were also caught with me, and I later find out that D (a different D from the last dream) is there as well. I say a suite because despite this being some kind of prison camp it's actually like the happiest place on Earth. One of the first things I do is smoke a cigarette with S and it tastes so unbelievably amazing, so smooth and refreshing, and makes me so exhilarated that I say "Holy crap, this is like weed in tobacco form, it's so great." We go to the food court and there's tons of free food and also a whole grocery store's worth of food that you can buy. I get introduced to everyone again and then go buy myself some black Gushers. When I go back and talk to everyone it turns out I don't even remember how we got caught correctly, and they're about to start explaining it to me but then I wake up. I honestly thought to myself right when I did that I almost wish I could go back, it seemed that awesome at the time. And now I especially can't wait until the day I remember to smoke a cigarette in a lucid.

#4 - Best Prison Ever (Part 2)

So back in the prison, I start to learn the way the building we're in works. The food court is on the floor above our rooms, and our rooms are on the main floor, but it's not the lowest floor. Each floor has different "rules", even things like weather are different for each. On the main one everything is normal, but it amazes me to find out that below us there's a floor that's totally covered in lava. :O I decided to trek down there through some sort of... well. (That's really the only way I can describe it.) While down there I discover it's really risky and almost don't make it back up, so I decide not to go down there anymore. Next day (I think?) it's snowing outside on the main floor and inside the well, so I want to take this opportunity to get a picture that has both snow and lava in it on my phone. I get right up to the edge of the well to get a good point of view, and some couple comes by and asks me what I'm doing. I tell them and the girlfriend gets all excited and jumps down there. I tried to stop her, but she ends up getting stuck down there and the dream changes to me watching some anime about this happening in third-person perspective. I don't remember much about it except that there was a fight when the boyfriend got mad at another character and that she made it out alright. It zooms out to me being in my house (but it's still registered as the prison) in my parents' bedroom with a bunch of other people who were all watching the anime. I say "Aw, I was kind of hoping one of them died." (A little morbid considering that it was my fault she jumped down there. >.>) I remember to look at my phone and see a picture of R2-D2 from Star Wars, when I had been pretty sure I got a picture of a snowman. Not that I remember that happening, either lol. So I put away my phone and notice that some more of my friends have shown up there. There are old game consoles and Gameboy games with Gamesharks in them spread out all over the bed, and we start discussing how the owners of the prison must have put them there so we can play any game we want and even however we want (normally or cheating). We can't stop thinking about how great this place is... and then the real mindfuck comes. I start to consider that the truth is that I'm dead and this is the afterlife, and that's why it's so amazing and all of my friends keep showing up. O.O Of course, it didn't even occur to me for a second that I might be dreaming. After that I looked at the consoles a little more, then woke up.

So that was quite an interesting night. I'm so happy I got two more lucids, I think that was the first time I ever had two in one night!

Woo! I had my best lucid yet. It was first one I ever had where I wasn't even bummed when it ended because I was satisfied by it lol. Unfortunately my memory of everything else from the night (and I know there was a lot) is totally gone, it picks up exactly where I started stabilizing. :/ Oh well, worth it!

#1 - Back In The Jungle

So, I'm back in the jungle/forest area. I vaguely remember becoming lucid and I'm pretty sure it was like it always has been for me lately, it just kind of happens without me going through a realization process and I feel like I just already knew it from that point on. I notice that the dream is starting to fade, so I start rubbing my hands together and continue to do so as I walk around and closely inspect the environment. And it worked! I was next to a little shack that couldn't possibly have held any more than bathrooms and had some cement floor with a wood covering extending out maybe ten or fifteen feet from it. Around that, it was all very foresty area, except for through some trees I could see down a hill and there were kids playing on a playground off in the distance. At first I just sat down in the grass I looked at the dirt and the grass and touched them to see how real it felt. It was all incredibly vivid, and I could've spent the entire dream looking at the ground. I thought about staring up at the sky but I noticed out of the corner of my eye that it was somewhat oddly textured and tinted and I had a creeping feeling that if I did the dream would end, so I decided against it. The foliage was so beautiful that it was hard to convince myself to actually do something, but eventually I got up and walked over to a VHS tape box that was left on the cement area. It looked like a mix between Star Wars and Spaceballs, and the text on it was vanishing as I was reading it but I managed to pick up on the fact that it was all nonsense. I saw a water bottle on the ground so I went and picked it up and took a drink - delicious. Afterward I spit on the ground because I had a lot of moisture in my mouth, then marveled at the fact that the dream was so vivid that I actually felt the need to spit. I wanted to go walking through the forest but didn't want to have to carry the water bottle. At first I was like but then, I realized I was in a lucid dream. I stuck the water bottle behind me where I couldn't see it and said "Put water away!" and dropped it. I could feel a weight behind me like it was still in my essence, but had physically disappeared. I walked for a minute then reached back and said "Grab water!" and clenched my hand to feel the water bottle suddenly there. I chuckled to myself, took a sip, and then put it away again. As I was walking into a deeper and darker area of trees, I saw a school bus drive out but didn't pay much attention to it, I was still amazed at all the plants. Suddenly, after a turn the area had turned into what looked like the back of a small store. Also, during the transition at the end of the trees I'm pretty sure I saw Erii's avatar come to life with all three cat heads staring intently at me. In the store area I laughed to myself some more because there were people moving around cardboard boxes and the boxes all had more nonsense written on them. After that, my vision quickly faded to white and I could tell the dream was ending, but I didn't really mind, I had my fun.

#2 - Strange Decisions

I was playing an online game and watching a new Pokémon movie in the den, a strange room of the house for me to be doing this in, but my dad kept distracting me so I moved it into his office, an even stranger room for me to be doing it in. That's it for that one.

Not much to report tonight, I didn't end up getting very much sleep because I fell asleep late and woke up early, but not early enough to really have it be worth going back to bed. But, at least what I got was a little interesting.

#1 - Black Water

This one is sort of frustrating because I know there was a really long dream leading up to this point, but I can only remember the very end. :T I was in third-person and watching a girl get sucked into portals that started out dark but then became swirls of rainbow colors, and they were appearing all over the ground. As she was trying (and failing) to get away, the song "Black Water" by the Doobie Brothers was playing in the background.

#2 - Persian Rug Trip

I was tripping, on acid I think but I'm not sure, with my cousin P. My younger cousin K was also staying over, but she wasn't tripping. It was nighttime and she was asleep in the living room (I think?) while P and I were in my room, and then we went out to the back yard. I noticed while walking out there that I was wearing nothing except a Persian rug wrapped around me like a robe. o.o It looked kind of like this one, but with blue being the main color instead of red.



I go back inside and see my dad concerned that there's someone out back, but then he realizes it's just me and P. I head back out and notice it's daytime now, and P has changed into some kind of white alien with three antennae. He fades away as I notice a cop car driving some kids down the alley way behind our fence. I head back inside and find P back to normal, and then suddenly become lucid. I didn't really go through a realization process or anything, I just knew. Then I was about to say something about it to P but he said that my cousin A was lost at a nearby mall and we need to go get her. I think oh, okay, everything up until this was a dream but this is real now, we better go get her. After that conversation I woke up.

Not too crazy, but at least not dull.

Well, I ended up smoking a small amount of weed yesterday to see if I could do it without anxiety, which I did. And luckily it was early enough that it didn't really blunt my recall at all, it actually feels like it made my dreams a bit more detailed.

#1 - The Sandwich Haunts Me

I was in a bedroom with the lights out in a house at night with K and a couple of random people I don't recognize from real life. We're talking about going to a club or something, and a girl walks in and starts telling K and I about some really strong acid that's going around, I don't remember what she said about it but she gave some description of visuals that one kid had off of it which I'm pretty sure were not that amazing but really impressed us at the time. I really thought about getting some, but in the end I told her I don't trip anymore so at the most I'd probably roll (take ecstasy) or something. We start talking about smoking weed (not actually planning to do it or anything, just talking about it) and then it's revealed that one of the people there I don't recognize is an undercover cop and lights start flashing. I get up and run into the hallways of what turns out to be a really big and beautifully designed house. People all around me are disposing of drugs and evidence while the cops get ready to raid us, and I run out to the backyard where it's apparently daytime and there are lots of people just kind of hanging around and in the pool, not really saying or doing anything. I wandered around there for a bit until I just kind of forgot about the cops and went back inside.

I walk past a guy who's hitting on a girl by telling her some psychedelic trip report story that I (apparently) told him after reading it online. I go in another room and sit down next to some guy who asks me why I look annoyed, and I pull out a small piece of bread and pretend to be using it to text the guy who was hitting on the girl. Also, wherever I touch the bread there's a red mark which at the time I thought of as "raspberry stains". Eventually I was mad at myself for coming up with such a terrible lie and just tore the bread in half an offered half of it to the guy. He tells me how I had successfully taught him to sing like a girl but lately, after the thing with the cops and some jokes at his expense, he wasn't able to anymore. I felt sad and wanted to teach him again. ... While he's telling me this there's also a Powerpoint slide of a wesbite page or something covering half of my vision that listed some information about singing and had an image of the sky as its background. As we're eating the bread my vision suddenly turns third-person and we're watching a Spanish version of The Office. It skips around a lot while people are talking which gives it a very strange and surreal feeling, and it starts focusing on a woman who works in the office but is apparently also a hooker by night and pregnant, and her water breaks while she's walking to someone's desk. Meanwhile, even though I'm not really in my own body at this point, I can hear myself in the background talking to some guy whose job is apparently to redub the US version of The Office.

Suddenly the dream skips forward to me being back at home and my mom making breakfast for me. She started with making bacon strips, and after that she was making some french toast sandwiches, which were literally just half-bread (triangular) sandwiches made with french toast and some unknown ingredients in between them and drenched in syrup, and they looked AMAZING. I never got to eat them, though. Oh well....

#2 - Seizure Radio

It was nighttime, and I was in a bed with my parents, this guy I used to see now and then named S, and this girl A I went to public school with. It was around 4 AM and S kept talking loudly, I told him to shut up so my parents could sleep but he wouldn't stop, so I went out into the kitchen to get a drink of water. I was thinking about texting A about S while I was out there, but then I noticed a strange shadow in the hallway. I slowly walked over to it, then everything got really fast and glitchy and I started making these "vrrrrrrt" sounds over and over again, and I float into my parents' bedroom where I realize that my mom is holding me. I ask her what's wrong and she says she asked me if I was alright and my response was "You'll know once I'm on the seizure radio!" which I don't remember at all. That made me freak out, which woke me up.

Aaah that sandwich... if only I could have stayed in the dream long enough to eat it. >.< I need to have another lucid so I can summon it and taste its glory!

Well this turned out to be a pretty long night, I guess my brain was making up for me not remembering anything yesterday. :O I had a good deal more of those hypnagogic delirium things where I start to go into a dream before I actually fall asleep but then snap out of it at the last second, so I'm just going to list those as HI instead of individual dreams with titles for the sake of ease.

HI - I was standing in front of a refrigerator with the door open, and there was a bunch of beer and a gray (with darker gray stripes) kitten inside of it. :3 The kitten was holding on to some yellowish beer in the main part of the fridge, but I went to grab a dark beer on the inside of the door that was in some weird rectangular vial-like bottle. But then after I pick it up the kitten latches on to it and tries to take it from me, awwwww. X3

HI - All I remember about this one is being back by the windows in our kitchen and there were water bottles hanging from the ceiling.

#1 - Obstacle Course

I'm on some playground-like structure at the end of an obstacle course. I'm supposed to have completed a certain set of objectives to be able to warp to the next course, but apparently I didn't and the way back is blocked so I have to take the other exit and go all the way back to the start. There was a very clear plot here, but upen the dream ending I had TWO false awakenings wherein I tried to get down as many details about the dream as possible, and by the time I actually did wake up I had forgotten most of it. (I also remember now that in the false awakenings there was the sound of someone snoring really loud, was there someone in bed next to me?? >.>)

#2 - Love Games

I had a crush on someone and I knew that I had to have done a certain set of things correctly to get them to love me back, but apparently I didn't and I couldn't just backtrack so I had to give it a rest and go all the way back to the start. ...And then I had two false awakenings that almost made me forget the dream. Wait whaaaaat??



#3 - Chili's

I'm eating at Chili's with my parents, and we're discussing how there's some new setup where you can eat now and have them bill you for it later. (That'd be nice. ) The restaurant is designed with a pretty weird architecture, but it seems perfectly normal at the time. As we walk up to the counter to pay, some guy walks by with a bluetooth headphone bragging to someone about how he's not going to have to pay until later, and then we see this group of kids that look like some kind of ragtag bunch of mini-gangsters arguing with someone up at the front. They're a mix of black and white and all skinny except for their apparent "leader" who is this chubby black kid. We walk past them and my perspective switches to that of the leader kid's. He (me at this point) is mad for some reason and they all decide to leave by climbing out of this window on top of the door, with him going last, while making up song lyrics and singing them for some reason. So I climb out this window and see that we're three stories up and I jump down to the pavement effortlessly. Everyone in the group splits up and one of the white kids tries to shake my hand and says some line with music playing in the background, which I immediately recognize as from a (nonexistent) movie and say "Enough with the movie references!" He walks off but keeps pointing back at me and smiling and winking. So I start to walk out into the parking lot to find my parents' car, apparently at some point I just transitioned back into being myself, and I start thinking about talking to N and get a very clear mental image of it going on. I say to him "Food names can be pretty weird, for example...", and I don't remember what was next but I just named a few different foods, but then my parents honk at me because I walked past the car. I think "Oh, I missed them because I stopped to talk to N.", which didn't actually happen. And that's it for this one.

HI - I'm on what resembles the island from Lost, with a character who resembles Sayid. He's asking me if it's too late to sign up for a free trail membership on some Japanese site, which I suddenly get a very vivid mental image of, and then he talks about helping me to down some Sawyer-resembling character to prove to me that he's worthy for it.

HI - I remember telling N excitedly that I have tons of dream stuff written down for my journal.

HI - I was sitting backwards on the couch in my living room with some guy, and we each had out legs wide open and up against the back of the couch, pointing out the window.

There were a few more HI things between this and the next one, but I was too tired to write them down so this is all I got.

HI - I was posting my journal entry stuff on DV.

#4 - The Secrets Of The Jungle

I was driving downtown on a highway looking for an exit to take but I can never seem to find it. Somehow the scene transitions back into the jungle, which seems to be a pretty common dream area for me lately. There is a kid in the jungle, and I'm either seeing things first-person from his point of view or in third-person from mine, it's kind of hard to remember but I'm definitely not normal me. I want to say third-person for at least most of it. I have a strange knowledge of the things that are going on. In this jungle, your fears come to life and chase you and the more you run away from them the stronger they get, but if you stand and face your fears you have the potential to meet spirits and demons and make deals with them for power. So this kid is running away from monsters and murderers and is scared for his life. I know about his history too, he's a weak person who would do anything for power but is too afraid to make any move, so he got locked in this evil place somehow as a form of torture. Finally though, he can't take the fear anymore and, quivering and about to faint, he turns around and stands against the monsters. They all dissolve into black smoke except for one which is kind of like a giant centipede-leech fusion. He chases it down a path until he enters a thick mist and loses track of the monster, and a voice starts talking as some of the mist starts to form into something of a face. The voice says that he is a demon who takes the images of others, kills them, and then uses their bodies to take form in the real world and deceive people into getting whatever he wants, and that he could grant his power to the kid if he wanted it. Because the boy is weak and desperate for power he doesn't hesitate, but the demon clarifies for him that with his power, anyone whose image he steals will be completely immune to harm from him, no matter what. That way if he tries to deceive someone as someone else and then that person comes and reveals the truth, there's absolutely no way he can get out of it other than to continue making the deceit more convoluted. The boy still accepts, and the demon is clearly pleased as the mist envelops him, and as things fade away, I wake up.

So when I went to bed last night I was still pretty drunk from doing shots of tequila, which is probably what led into the first dream lol. Other than that nothing too amazing, but some interesting hypnagogia in the morning.

#1 - Alternate Path

All I really remember about this dream was that instead of deciding to go to bed I had opted to stay up and keep posting on DV and doing shots of tequila. I recall complaining about how bad the hangover is going to be and people telling me I should go to bed but I didn't listen lol. Of course, when I woke up I was relieved.

#2 - A Series Of Random Events

This one's kind of hard to remember too, but I do remember walking through several very large and very impressive landscapes. It's all kind of in snippits, but first I was walking down some large hill in a very cool looking building complex with O, and we were talking about doing coke and Adderall and a couple other things and then started complaining about how it'd be too much speed. Next I'm with an old friend, C, and we're walking through some amazingly huge mall with crystal chandeliers hanging from the ceiling and a kind of royal orange ambient lighting, I'm not totally sure why we were there but it was a really intense design! Lastly, I was back with someone else in my house and we were playing hide and seek, and I tried to hide under a couch. I lifted it up and let it fall back on me, pretty sure it wouldn't be noticable even though there was really only like an inch of free space under the couch. I couldn't really get it to look as nonchalant as I wanted it to before I woke up.

#3 - The Jungle Of The Mind

This is something that almost happened to me that tends to occur every now and then when I get really drunk (and it used to occasionally when I would smoke weed) where I would get kind of lost in thought in bed and start to get delirious to the point of entering a full dream, so it was kind of like WILD but really more just... WID. It started with hypnagogia about plants and some windy sounds, and then I was walking through some kind of forest or jungle on a path that had been clearly followed before because there were lots of plants flattened on it. At one point I saw a large (maybe like half a foot tall and a foot wide) bug crawling in the distance (thankfully not near me! ) that was golden with blue patches and very luminescent. :O Now, if this had happened to me a while back when it was more frequent, I would have thought something was up here. One bug crawling across my vision is a delirium sign for me, but I didn't catch it this time. I almost got sucked fully into this dream, but then I kind of twitched and it snapped me out of it. Oh well. I also remember that Smash Mouth's "Walkin' On The Sun" was playing in the background of the forest.

Nothing too remarkable today. :T

#1 - Fun With LEGOs

I was walking out back by our pool, and then suddenly I was in a high school class with a bunch of blurry DCs I can't remember and this one guy, D, who I've known for years and years and used to smoke weed with from time to time. He was building some LEGO castle or something which I accidentally destroyed and he got mad at me. D: When class ended I walked out of the door which actually led to the hallway in my house (with the door to the class being where the door to the bathroom normally is) and ended up just going to my room. D comes in and is still angry with me (like really pissed!) so to calm him down I grab a bunch of already made LEGO sets (which I apparently have ) and let him start smashing them.

#2 - Video Game Fragment

I was too lazy to really write this down fast enough to remember much, but I do remember that my life was a video game and I had gotten accidentally fused with someone else. And together we were the main character.

I really wish I wasn't so lazy, that one seems like it'd be interesting to know more of lol.

#1 - Fan Mail?

I don't really remember much about this dream, I just have what I wrote down. Unfortunately, I can remember the exact things that made me write this down, but nothing else about them. :T Oh well. What I wrote: "Taking a picture or video with a camera decides its fate. With K, Futurama game, we have fan mail?"

#2 - Jealous And Horny

My cousin A comes over and starts acting like she's a teen or at least around my age (she's at least like ten years older than me, don't remember the exact age) and looks like it too, and she starts complaining about some problem she's having to my parents. She starts talking like she's super close to them, which makes me kind of jealous for some reason. She even jumps on to the couch where they are and curls up in a ball next to them (in an overly comical way). They end up trying to talk her through it, and at this point my memory of the dream gets kind of hazy.... It picks up again later with my other cousins P and G and some guy who I can't remember now but I recall thinking I knew him at the time all leaving through the back door, with rain pouring really hard outside. At this point I just remember walking around my house feeling really horny.

Then the dream switched to a third-person perspective of watching Marshall and Lily (again from How I Met Your Mother, and this isn't even the first time I've had this third-person thing with the two of them, I watch this show too much lol) and they're about to have sex for the first time. (Good old horny subconscious. ) It doesn't actually match their first time from the show, though. They're in a truck doing it and just after they've started it switched to a view from outside the truck with a guy sitting not too far from it. The truck starts to move and then quickly starts bouncing extremely violently. Basically, imagine if the force behind it was like a gigantic fist repeatedly came out of the sky and smashed into in the ground. The guy that was sitting near the truck is startled and looks like he's afraid it's not going to hold. Marshall and Lily sound pretty happy inside, the whole world is practically shaking along with them.



I also had a false awakening that almost prevented me from remembering any of this, luckily I managed to get it back after focusing for a few minutes when I actually woke up.

#3 - Strange Crossover

All I remember about this one is that I was playing a game that was some kind of crossover between Mario and Pacman. Like, you were in some kind of tunnel with the dots and ghosts but also Mario enemies walking around, and you could actually switch between being Mario or Pacman at any given time. It was bizarre, but I remember it being fun. I kind of wish I actually had that game now.

Well, I didn't really get to remember too much last night, but I did have some interesting lead-up into it. After I kind of almost accidentally did a WILD, I went to bed and had a good amount of random hypnagogic imagery before I was actually able to fall asleep that was made a little more solid by my lingering dissociative feelings. What I remember of that was that I kept seeing my living room form around me, so at first I would think I was in my living room sitting on the couch where I normally sit when I'm on my laptop. I had American Dad! playing in the background so I know I was still awake at this point because I never stopped hearing it perfectly fine, I just wasn't really registering it. After a while it would become apparent to me that something wasn't right and I'd snap out of it, then it would start over again. At one point I definitely saw Ash and Pikachu running at me, pretty much exactly like this but with Pikachu on the other side.



And half way through the run they started doing some really weird and jittery dance, and the setting behind them which I hadn't focused much on crumbled and I snapped out of it again. XP I know there was more, but that's all I can really recall from before I actually fell asleep. So anyway....

#1 - Just Another Middle School Dream

All I really remember from this one is that I was at my middle school with my cousin who's six years younger than me for some reason, though at some point I start thinking that she's actually Mew (the Pokémon), and whereas I had originally left her in the front office, at that point I was thinking I had left her in the Box 2 storage on my game file. One of my old friends was there and acting really depressed, and after class got out he started smoking one cigarette after another (even though he doesn't actually smoke) and half way through each he would just give up trying and sit there as they burned away, and I had to make sure the ashes weren't getting all over the floor and making sure he didn't start a fire by just letting them drop out of his mouth.

#2 - Just Another High School Dream

This one I don't really remember too much of either, except that I was in a class that actually took place in a huge tent covering a king-sized bed and nothing else. The class was Treasure Hunting, and involved me looking around the class (like just sitting in the corners of the room or digging under the bed sheets) for treasure. I found a good number of random things, but all I can really remember getting were Pokémon cards and two of the chaos emeralds from Sonic the Hedgehog. I was pretty sure I was going to get an A in that class, but next I had to go to History, and I was afraid I was going to get an F because I had no idea what we were supposed to be discussing and I forgot to do the homework. :T And that's it from that one.

So yeah, not the most amazing night. The first part was interesting, though lol. I wonder why my mind was so focused on Pokémon?

Managed to remember a good few last night, though I recall not writing some down because they were depressing. But, the last one I got down was pretty... interesting lol.

#1 - Why Do I Keep Dreaming About Gangs?

I'm in some kind of vacation house chasing what I refered to as "dust bunnies", they remind me of the fuzzies from Paper Mario (the black ones) and also of the spirits or whatever they were in My Neighbor Totoro. I'm waiting for my friend M to come over, but before she does I wander off and start walking around the neighborhood. Somehow I end up in front of some diner where there's a guy who looks like he's about to rob me and this other guy who was standing there, so I run into the diner, but then he comes in and holds the diner hostage. He tells us that this diner is now under gang control, and then we hear a loud noise like some kind of boom and someone tells us to run. We all make it out of this door in the back and run by a school bus down what is now a long and deserted field of grass with the diner being out in the middle of nowhere, and the criminal is running with us.

#2 - Killing Time

I remember watching a video about a kid coming to terms with his asexuality, and that's it before I woke up.

#3 - The Final Test

I'm in some kind of college, waiting to meet up with M again. I'm wandering around again (I guess I didn't learn my lesson before ) and I end up in a very strange hallway. Basically, looking down the hallway, there are glass doors leading outside just to the right of me. Beyond that on the right, just a wall, but also another door much further down. On the left, there's nothing but glass walls, that seemingly repeat row after row (the same length of the hallway I'm already in) and go on forever. Every now and then there's a line coming down the wall to show that that's where that piece of glass ends and the next one begins. Suddenly something starts happening outside as I hear a lot of commotion, and a wall of ghosts starts materializing on the other side of the glass, as far down as I can see. Different sections of the wall move closer and further away from me like in a wave pattern. I get freaked out and run outside, which causes all of the ghosts to dematerialize. Everyone seems to be freaked out out here too, so since the ghosts are gone I head back inside but some monsters have spawned and I end up having to fight them, and I lose and die. So I get sent back to my most recent checkpoint, when the ghosts first materialized, which seems perfectly normal at the time. I continue that same routine until I've died a few times, then decide that I need a new strategy. This time, I waited for the ghosts to become really solid and get further out of the glass and I realize it's a bunch of people I actually know. :O I realized that the ghosts weren't my enemy, and they told me that they actually want to dematerialize, so I do still need to go outside but then when I come back in don't stay to fight the monsters, just run down the hallway and don't stop until I reach the other exit. I nodded and did that, and I almost got killed again! But I finally made it to the exit. As I get outside, I meet up with J, and he says "Welp, we've finally finished college." and I respond "Yeah, and I only remember like three hours of class. " ... As we walk triumphantly off into the distance with a large crowd of people, the ending music from Star Wars plays, and my dream comes to a close.

Got another lucid this time! Short, but interesting. I got a little more abstract with my control of it, too. Other than that, a couple other interesting dreams as well. Not a bad night.

#1 - Fucking Hornets

I'm making some kind of video game with a lot of old friends (and a couple current), a guy I haven't seen since high school, and OpheliaBlue. Ophelia and the guy from high school are talking about adding some cinematic to the beginning of the game, so after we discuss how that would fit best they go off to start working on it. My friend O, still my current theory for who my dream guide is, starts talking about how we're going to do the opening credits, and he shows us what he has so far. I don't remember what they were, but I remember that they were pretty funny. But J gets all bitchy about the font size being too small, even though O hadn't actually tried to set it to what it would be in the game, he was just showing us the text. :T Oh yeah, also, we were doing all of this discussion in my bathroom, in front of the mirror lol. Possibly using the mirror as a screen to project things on, now that I think about it...? But anyway, J was standing kind of behind me, so when I turned around to listen to him talk I noticed that there was a gigantic map of the world behind him, one that was clearly not visible in the mirror. As he's talking, he pulls out a much smaller, handheld-sized, map and starts talking about some "red bee therapy" (which I take to mean red hornets) then comes and stands right behind me to try it out and says their are a bunch of the red hornets right behind the map, which he's holding up to my back. Hornets. Now, for those of you who don't know, I hate bugs. They're... soooo nasty. >_< But hornets especially, they're like my least favorite bug there is. So I'm freaked out at this point. I look down at the counter and see a pair of scissors, which I quickly grab, and say "J, get those things away from me right now, I'm not even kidding, I will fucking stab you." He backs off, but one of the hornets gets left behind my back (somehow... ) and I reach back there and feel it. I feel a sting and start running around freaking out, and I grab it and squeeze it to death, something I'd never do in real life but I was desperate , and I threw it down on a table and saw it dead, but then it CAME. BACK. TO LIFE. It's comically large and red with black stripes, and I grab a tissue box and start smashing it but even though it keeps getting nastier it never dies, and it's so gross it makes me feel like I have to puke, and I'm shaking. Then I woke up.

Thank god.

#2 - Fickle Emotions

I'm in high school in an English class that I never actually had, but it's boring so I leave to go find a different class, then pay that teacher $100 (two separate payments of $50) to let me be in her class instead. She shakes my hand and says "A gentlemens' agreement!" (More How I Met Your Mother references from my subconscious. ) But, she turns out to be a hard ass to the point that the other kids in the class are "troubled", like there's a guy not far from me to the right smoking weed in the middle of class, and the girl I sat down next to on my left is single and pregnant (but not visibly). However I learn through the course of the class that she's actually just a really nice girl and pretty cool, and I develop a little bit of a crush on her. I start messing with the teacher to make her laugh, and we end up getting along really well and she's even starting to act like she has a bit of a crush on me too, and it's so obvious that some of the guys in the class are visibly jealous. Somewhere down the line the teacher turns into my old Chinese class teacher and someone says something about him which gets me distracted, after which the girl just never shows up or is even thought about again. Class is over so I get up and walk around the hallways which turn into an enormous and clearly very expensive and high-end mall, and I'm trying to find my locker but it's too hard to navigate, I even pass through a jail cell on the way. I woke up after I found my way out of that lol.

#3 - Third-Person Control

O and I went to a head shop or something, and we saw someone getting arrested in the parking lot, so we quickly got in my car and drove off. While I'm driving, I notice that the accelerator keeps getting stuck, so I'm slamming the breaks to make the car slow down, but eventually it just goes faster and faster and faster until the car pulls up off the ground and we blast into the sky. But I became lucid at this point! I started steering us around the city, as we were in a downtown area with lots of tall buildings so it was fun just zooming around in our rocket car. Before too long I notice that my vision is steadily narrowing down to a very small area and I'm afraid that the dream is going to end if it gets all the way down to a dot, so I consciously switch it to third-person perspective control, which still feels like first-person. (Kind of hard to explain.) It worked for a little bit, though! My full view of the city was restored, and I could see that the car actually had turned into a plane. I start flying off to the side of my vision so that my camera angle moves over and we transition from the city to a mountain range, and the sky starts turning dark blue, so in order to keep the dream changing (rather than ending) I kept up. I had the mountains be just dunes in the background with the sky being underwater, and I transformed the plane into a fish, and I just swam around in the water a little bit, but then I finally woke up. :/ Oh well, it was fun!

So that's it for this entry. I'm definitely happy with the number of lucids I'm getting lately, even if they're brief.

Just a couple this time, but one that was sorta interesting.

#1 - Let's Go To The Mall!

I'm in a class, in high school I think, with LOTS of old people from my schools, and also Robin from How I Met Your Mother! (That show is entering my dreams a lot lately. ) At one point, "Let's Go To The Mall" comes on on the overhead announcement system.

(For those of you who don't know, in the show this is a hit that Robin had in Canada as a pop star that she's really embarrassed about, and for the sake of the joke it's a pretty ridiculous song, but super catchy. )



All of my old friends and I start singing along with it while Robin looks really embarrassed, but then she eventually gets in and starts singing with us! Later one of my other friends shows up and I try to tell him about it but he starts yelling the words right after I say them so I stop in mid-sentence. Weird lol.

After that, the teacher gives us a 100 question pop quiz. >.< She gives us a set of instructions which I remember thinking seemed pretty meaningless, and then I notice that all of the questions and answers (it's multiple choice) are really bizarre and don't seem to be correlated in any way. I keep wanting to work on the quiz anyway but at some point ketchup got smeared all over it somehow. Though I should be worried about the fact that my paper will be messy and soggy, what I'm mainly concerned about it how I'm going to put my paper back down on the table without smearing the ketchup on the table.

#2 - Take A Third Option

All I remember is being in another class with a different friend, and we were told we had to choose between going light side or dark side (like in Star Wars). Though, after we picked, we were given point deductions for not picking the neutral option.

Nothing too exciting, but the first one was fun.

Not too much going on this time, I went to bed really late and woke up really early for some reason. T-T I do remember one dream, though!

An old friend of mine comes over to my house and invites a bunch of people I don't know over for a party, and eventually tells me that this one guy I'd really rather not see is coming over too. I'm really already not enjoying most of these peoples' company and how drunk they're getting at my house anyway so I'm not too psyched about this. But when C, the guy, finally shows up, something weird happens. He doesn't remember me! And I know, I didn't really want to see him so this is technically a good thing, but for the rest of the dream it's really messing with me! We've known each other for so long, how could he NOT remember me? Then it starts making me mad and I start thinking about all the fun we have had together and wishing he would remember me so I could get caught up with him.

Grr, I'll bet he caused my dreams to be like this just so I'd want to hang out with him again, he's sneaky like that.

Aside from that, a girl asked me if we had any vinegar which I just assumed was a totally normal question at the time, so I searched high and low for it all over the house but never found any. After a while I went out front, which actually turned out to be the front of my cousins' old house. One of the guys and one of the girls I don't know where each out here, as was my old friend. I told him to tell everyone it's time to go. He went inside, and then the guy comes over to me and he's wasted. He grabs on to me and starts spinning me around with him while he drones on like a drunk child, then we fall over in the grass and he suddenly breaks down into tears and starts telling me how he loves the girl that's sitting out there too. Like literally, RIGHT THERE. And I'm like um, um, ummm, she's going to hear everything you're saying. Of course, she never looked over. Whatever, I don't even care at this point, I just want them gone. Flash forward to me in my room in the middle of the night when everyone's finally left with an imaginary episode of The Simpsons on TV. I remember it showing Mr. Burns's whole family and Lisa making some pseudopoetic statement about how evil he is. Then my door opens slowly and I realized my cat must've pushed it open, so I get up and push him back out then make sure it's really closed. I get in bed and close my eyes, then wake up in my actual bed.

Overall this dream wasn't really bad or good, just kind of frustrating. I know I had more but I was too tired to care about making note of them when I first woke up. I'm so tired.