Auke

13.06.14 Friday, and full moon...

Did not sleep until four a clock. Was meditating and listening to music in bed til around midnight. turned on the computer and doing LD related tasks. Wrote myself into the dream yoga course in here, and wrote about some dreaming related books. Last thing I did before bed: Hunt for a bat or something which where making a scrapping noise from the roof/ possible from in the room. Did not find any thing.

Setting: 1001 night, arabic but bent out of shape. Dreamworld. Flat roofs and towers. Earth, Stone, Air, water and/or liquid dark matter, something else than water. High clarity. Some colors. Vision and sound, no clear memory of touch and smell. Though I can remember hugging.

Way of becoming lucid: MILD because same DC appeared many times (I think), used hands and spinning to stabilize.

Grade of remembering: Low to medium. (Did not write it in the night.)

Planed mission attained: Yes. Experience unconditional love and compassion.

Mission succession rate: Failed.

Special physical conditions: Yes, atlas in neck gone out of position. Must sleep on back. Maybe problems with energy. Are at hotel.
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I am sure that the same DC try to make contact with me several times, and I am almost positive that's what brings me to the conclusion that I am dreaming. I am not sure if I have encountered this DC in previous drems. But I am sure in this dream that I don't want anything to do with him. Also a girl in similar clothes try's to contact me, but I am not interested. My "I" wants to:

A. Not go into a nightmare.
B. Fulfill programmed task.

The DC's are wearing black and ghoulish clothes. The man which I encounter many times looks kind of scared in his face. And also looks sad and unpleasant. He remind me of this boy I once encountered in a horrible nightmare who I am pretty sure where the victim of my subconscious. This boy was full of terrible wounds and he waited for me to go trough a door so that he could pas the other way at the same time. Well I kept my distance and focused on the Lucid state and try to remember my task I had planned. I would like to experience the feeling of great compassion.

Well I was trilled because I got seated on a hillside facing some sort of water. Just to get into the meditation position in the dream trilled me. There where a lot of other people there. And the ground started moving slow and controlled into the sea. I am sure the sea represented death, or reincarnation, but the people where pretty much expression not caring so much about it. When it was my turn I stopped the experiment. This is a dream of a controlling and intellectualizing person. Afraid of my feelings I would like them to come in portions. My last LD, I had the era where I receive feelings, open, and the dream completely overwhelmed, scared and angered me. So no I turned the LD into a dead thing not really concerning me?

Then the ghoulish DC would contact me again. I thought, no more mr. nice guy. And made myself the strongest most powerful human form and just wrecked him. (Idea from LD literature read on the evening before.) Well now this DC dropped one or two books on the bottom of the ocean or something. I remember reading "OCULT GRAVE RITUALS" on the cover of one of these books while holding it in my hand. Now the DC faces me and says. "I have tried to contact you so many times, your time is running out, you only have half a month and a year left, and I haven't teach you anything yet!" Then I wake, maybe I choose to. The encounter was scary enough, and the things he said made me wake up. This was a really clear dream, but I did not write it down before morning so a lot of the details are gone.

This is the second LD in a rough where death is playing a role. I later will share the first one as well. I am thinking/hoping that I will change in a year or so. Maybe also die (not hoping that), but It's not like I am sure of it, actually I am kind of stuck in believing that I will not die. I woke up this morning happy about having had a LD, and that I remembered my quest. To day has been a good day. I need fear and being kicked to wake up from my samsaric lullaby.

I am doing this effort not to gain powers, not to gain wealth and fame. Not to in anyway feel superior to other beings. I am doing it to gain clarity, compassion and happiness and bring that in to the world.