Sleeping Fox

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Maybe I'm getting a little ahead of myself, but I thought I would start trying to recall some of my better dreams and nightmares (since those tend to be the ones that stick out in my mind the best) that I've had over the years and finally get them written down somewhere. I think for the first one I'm just going to copy/paste the nightmare series that I posted in one of the discussions since I already took the time to write it out and it was a very important series of dreams for me. Probably one of the most important that I've ever experienced.

So without further ado here it goes.

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Out of all my dreams my nightmares are always the ones that are most vivid. I could tell you just about every single nightmare I've had in detail even though they've been going on since I was little and I've never written them down. They're pretty much burned into my memory. Usually my nightmares are always reoccurring and last for a week at the very least, most of the times longer. However not very long ago I started having a series of nightmares.

At first each one started in the same room. It was a white rusted out public bathroom with those annoying flickering florescent lights. I was watching everything from first person view though I couldn't make any movement other then to turn my head. At the start of every dream it was the same with a girl in a hospital gown, bare feet, and long stringy black hair standing in the middle. Her skin was all gray and bloated like how they portray bodies that have been in the water for a long time. She looked like she was completely drenched, but I can't remember her ever dripping any water. She just had the appearance. I this point I never saw her face, it was always covered by her hair.

While each dream started out the same what happened in them was different. Sometimes she would just stand in the middle of the room doing nothing, but staring at me. Other times she would be reaching out to me like she would touch me, but she never managed to get to that point, and sometimes she would be walking around the room. No two were exactly the same like I was used to and there was never the sense of nervousness or panic that I usually felt. Then suddenly out of the blue it changed completely.

Suddenly I found myself in a strange ruin that looked like it was some sort of pyramid, except everything around me was kind of grainy. Like I was playing an old first person game like Wolfenstein only with a bit better detail. It was very claustrophobic feeling and while I didn't see any ceiling or floor I remember there being a lot of blue beneath and above me. I knew that I was with several other archeologists who were in light brown outfits though they never actually came into my eyesight. It was just like a memory I had of who they were.

As we wandered around the pyramid I came across a round amulet secured in one of the stone walls. When I took it I realized that I had seen an old fireplace with a round spot cut out on the mantel. It all felt very much like a puzzle video game and I knew I had to take the amulet and place it in the mantel (I probably should add I never actually saw the fireplace in my dream, just like the other archeologists it was just like a memory I had). I remember I could hear their voices calling for me as I took off towards the fireplace and I called for them to come, but the closer I got the further away their voices were until finally I couldn't hear them at all.

When I got to the fireplace I suddenly knew what was behind it. I knew that the girl from my other nightmares was there. I placed the amulet in the mantel and suddenly the fireplace pulled back and slipped to the side revealing a beautifully dark blue tiled room. The detail in my dream suddenly became much, much clearer and actually looked like something that could really exist in the world rather then a video game.

As I said the whole room was made of dark blue tiles of various shades and there were beautiful green vines climbing up to the ceiling where there was a hole that provided the only source of light. It must have lead to the outside because it was obviously sunlight. It was a small, but breathtaking room and on the far end opposite the door was an old claw footed tub. It seemed to be in near perfect condition save for maybe some discoloration and weathering here and there. It was filled with a murky green/black water and I knew immediately that she was in there hiding. I felt like I should be scared, but I just wasn't. I was calm and felt compelled to go to the tub and get closer to her. Not like I had to, but like I wanted to.

When I got to the tub I leaned over and at this point my view changed from first person to third. It was a weird sensation. I was myself, and I could feel my actions, but I was watching from a distance rather then with my own eyes if that makes any sense.

I got close to the edge of the tub and peered inside when suddenly the girl's hand came out from the water and grabbed my wrist. She started to pull me in though it wasn't forceful. She allowed me to step into the water and I sat there with her as she started to come out of the water. For once I finally got to see her face though the details were hazy. She kept her hand on my wrist and her mouth wasn't moving, but I strongly felt like she was trying to talk to me. Trying to tell me something, but before she could something woke me up. I think it was my alarm, but the dream ended before I could figure out what she wanted and I didn't dream of her again for a long time.

I actually told a friend about her and when I saw that friend later she said she had done something to take care of it. There are a lot of people in my hometown that claim to know magic and be wiccan/pagan though in all honesty from what I've seen of them most of it just seems to be a lot of fluff from college students (not saying it all was of course). In the case of my friend I'm 100% certain that was the case so I didn't think much of it at the time. However after wards I didn't have any dreams about her for a very long time. It wasn't until I moved into my second apartment that I had my last and final dream about her if you could really call it that.

It was very weird. I remember laying in bed trying to sleep while my then girlfriend was in the living room watching TV. At no point did I feel like I was asleep or even getting sleepy. The entire time I felt like I was wide awake, but at the same time it was still kind of an out of body experience where I was seeing things that I couldn't possibly have seen from my vantage point.

The way my bed was set up the head of the bed and one side was pushed up against a wall so only the foot and other side were left open. I remember laying there on my stomach with my head facing towards the side of the bed that wasn't against the wall when suddenly this massive dark void, like a hole, opened up on the floor, parallel to where my head was on the bed. My arm was hanging down a little from the edge and I kind of 'watched' as the girls hand started to claw it's way up out of the void trying to reach for mine. Suddenly I started to feel a horrible panic, and I could tell that she was struggling to claw her way up from the hole. She gripped at the floor and the side of my bed and anything she could reach, but she never managed to make it out. Honestly I can't remember how it ended. She didn't get sucked back in that I remember and I don't recall anything that I could call waking up. It felt more like I was coming back to myself. Like the whole thing had never been a dream though it didn't exactly feel real either.

Again another friend claimed she was trapped and tried to free her, but again I question the sincerity of her belief just because the way she lived her life seemed rather hypocritical compared to what I've read about wiccan/pagan practices.

I haven't had any dream like it since and I've never seen her or anything that looked like her again. To this day it still bothers me. I feel like she had been trying to tell me something that I missed and will never fully understand though I'm not sure if maybe that's for the better or not.