false awakening

Dream 1:
I walked out of the house and married a man and was in his car, I had troubles closing the door. I suggested we go eat tofu and he said he wanted to eat something else. Then I walked into a room and it was a psych mental health group meeting. I sat down thinking God planned this and a young girl with black hair asked me to move up and sit next to her. A doctor or a leader came in and started talking, asking us to share our stories. I was writing something down and then I walked around wanting to get home so I talked with a woman about it, I told her I don't have my key and she told me that she had a spare key for me and I told her my address, at the time all I remembered was 25363. Then my dad was there and he yelled at me and was really mean. Then I went and got the key from the woman and the man pretending to be my dad tried to take the key from me and he grabbed my chest and a demon pushed down on my chest (sleep paralysis) and I woke up when I was pushing the demon off of me. I saw a demon, it was black and gray.

Dream 2:
I dreamed I was flying down to temple of the dog (a hangout spot in Pittsburgh I went to all the time by the river). My friends there asked me how they could see me, and I realized I was dreaming. I thought, I'm dreaming, and I told everyone, this is a dream. I started to fly and told everyone else to fly as well. Some people started to fly. Then I grabbed the hands of two people, one of them my voice teacher/church friend Polly's son, and flew them around the sky. I got really tired and was worried this was bad for my health.
Then I was in a room and I saw a girl from my church who is a little bit overweight. She was praying and a little boy was there with her. They were both children. She said, "I pray because I have to." It was a loving sight I was just a witness watching. Later, I was with my mom and my old roommate Sarah G. She looked like she lost a lot of weight (she's fat) and I told her so. I told my mom about the kid that has a big stomach and she said your sister was pudgy when she was a child too and she's fine now, she's skinny. She told me not to judge. In the beginning of the dream I was walking in the forest doing something strange I forget what was happening. It was 9 am in the dream, and part of it was lucid and then I had a false wake up and the rest of it wasn't lucid.

Dream 3:
In a play going on in a school, there was a fire hydrum and a house that was on fire. There were two houses and both were on fire. A woman walked out of the house from the front door. Everyone was smiling. People were saved. Thats all I remember.

Me, my sister Jenny, and my brother Justin and brother Peter were getting ready to go to school (none of us are in school anymore, Peter is working on his masters degree). Jenny was angry and I was trying to put on a pair of pink shoes but they didn't fit me (in real life that pair fits perfectly, in the dream they were too small). Justin said he needed Peter and I said I ned you too but what is your name, because I thought that Peter had a twin named Peter, so I asked him his name and asked is your name Peter too, is your middle name Harrison (it is in real life). There was a baby who had a red cut under his eyelids. I touched the cut to comfort the baby and then the baby turned into ash. The ash was black, not dark gray like ash usually is. I believe the baby turning into ash was a part of me dying. Later in the dream the baby was back but older and looked different, and didn't have the cut, so that was a part of me being reborn different. We all but Peter and the baby walked out the door to go to a high school and Peter stayed home (he's studying to become a teacher), and I called him "teacher-man" and said "It's teacher-man's turn to teach the baby" Peter didn't respond. Our mom wasn't there, but earlier in the dream my mom was there. I smelled garlic and wanted to eat breakfast. Jenny was angry and I was thinking about God. I was helping Jenny in some way in the beginning of the dream, I was eating bread and trying to show Jenny something.

After writing this dream down, I fell back asleep and had a dream about dying and going to heaven. I was in a cathedral with a bunch of elderly folks and we were all about to die and wake up with a new body in heaven. Jesus was talking to me and healing me of the demonic voices that I heal. I was meditating laying in a bed, there was spiritual knowledge that I now forget in the dream (this is a recurring theme, having powerful, scary mystical dreams, in one my spirit was floating in white and then I fell into a new body on the grass/on my bed, and then later I was in a powerful eagle for two minutes and could see the eagle. Earlier in that dream I had a false wake up outside it was raining and I was crying, the rain was masking my tears. I was in an unfamiliar place but had the feeling that I knew where I was and started to walk home. God and the devil was in the dream.). I thought I would go to the Cathedral of Learning in Pittsburgh after I died. (In real life I already died and now I will never die. My friend Ashley Shear also died and stayed on earth and told me, "If you think you died, you probably did" (this was in real life not a dream. God wanted her to tell me that, it was a part of His plan for me.). I had a lot of insight that is now lost and I was feeling at peace with myself and God and knew that the elderly people who were with me would start to grow younger soon.

Had an intense nightmare after drinking mugwort tea. My spirit was flying in whiteness and there were weird sensations. I then collapsed on the ground and "woke up" but it was a false wake up. I was in grass or my bed I think. Later in the dream, I was on choir tour with my church, and I was in a store, and wanted to buy a violin. I walked around saw instruments asked a man about if they had a violin I could buy. I awoke to my mom and talked with her. I awoke outside in the cold by a tree and I was crying and happy and it was raining. I started to walk home I knew where I was, but I had never been there before. God and the devil was in the dream, and it was like I was dying and awakening to spiritual truths that made no sense to me, from evil spirits and I don't remember them anymore and am glad that I don't. At the end of the dream my mom was present but not visible and there was a fierce bird alive by me, it might have been an eagle, its eyes were fierce and it was awake and its wings were scary. Other things happened in the dream. I'm afraid to go back to sleep. It was intense but I forget most part of it, but the bird image (my mom has a bird, a cockateel, but this bird was definitely stronger, maybe an eagle) resonated for about a minute or two before I woke up. I was sort of inside the bird and the bird was all I could see. Strong but scary dream. Definitely a result of the mugwort. What do you think? Later in the night i had a dream where I was fishing illegally with a friend and caught a sick shark, it was blackish gray.

I had a lucid dream the night before 10/2/2014. Two nights in a row! (I already posted the one from last night). I was sitting with a old lady and then I suddenly grew old. This happened before in a dream so I knew it was a dream. Suddenly there were many dogs running around me and one wanted to play with me and I was petting it, chasing away my fear of dogs. Then I saw my friend Cody and a weird huge cat, and I ran after her and the cat. Many cats were there and they were playing with each other. I heard someone say "Cats play with each other. Sometimes they hurt each other but they play with each other." Then, someone was teaching a kid martial arts so I tried to teach front stance. Then everyone started to do ballet we were in a large auditorium. I was following along doing arabesques and other leg raises and positions and I asked to stay in the dream longer and then i had a false awakening because I expected to wake up and then I woke up for real and wrote it down.

Before that dream I had a nightmare that a guy in a gang was attacking me and friends, and then a friend killed the attacker and then we were in a mental hospital and someone told him to tongue his pills and I said I would tongue them.

1. I was in a car driving it and it started to flip over and go into the air. I was terrified. The car started to crunch around my body. I woke up.

2. I dreamt that me and Peter and Jenny (my brother and sister) were secretly cultivating and taking care of a Mimosa Hostillis Root bark plant and Peter put a leaf of it under my eye and it stung my skin.. I cut off some leaves and hid it under some clothing. Then I craved water. (I don't remember that part but I wrote it down). I thought Peter knew how to extract DMT from Mimosa Hostillis Root bark. I saw Justin in Jenny's old room in the house my family lost, cuddling with a younger boy that might have been one of the students from my martial arts school. This was a dream within a dream I had a false awakening and told my mom (in the dream) about Peter knowing how to make DMT. I looked for the plant cuttings from the original dream and then I woke up for real.

I dreamt I was writing down my lucid dream, and then I woke up and wrote it down.
I was at a mall, and I was scared because I didn't know where I was, until I realized it was a dream. Before that, I was arguing with my mom about wanting to cook something, but she didn't want me to make a mess, and a man was talking to me about Jesus Christ. Then the man left, and I realized I didn't know where I was or how I got there, so I realized it was a dream. I went down an escalator. There were free energy drinks and I thought about drinking them but then I rejected them because I looked at the ingredients in one of them and they were strange chemicals that I didn't want to be in my body.

Then I saw people doing capoeira and I walked to them and I was suddenly wearing white and I did capoeira with a young boy/young man. They weren't people I recognized but I told them that I used to do capoeira 3 years ago. Then I wanted to look for DMT.

Then I saw a clothing store and wanted clothing. So I walked up a down escalator to strengthen my legs. I saw my friend Kirstin and talked to her and then I saw my friend and singing teacher Polly and her daughter Emma and she asked me to buy something for her when I told her I was going shopping. I prayed that the dream would be longer and that I wouldn't wake up yet. I walked into the store and I saw a pink bisquit and I really wanted to eat it because it would have 0 calories and I would taste it but it was only a dream so it wouldn't give me any real calories. I started spinning in the air and moving forward flying and I enjoyed spinning and flying. Then I woke up.

In the dream I was going to steal, and when I woke up for real after the false wake up where I reflected on the dream and wrote it down, I realized I shouldn't steal in a dream. But in the dream, there was no concept of money at all, like it was in the beginning of my life when my mom was stealing clothing for me and I was twelve and it was normal to me and I just thought the clothes were free. In the dream, everything was free.

New goal: eat desserts in dreams and taste it and not get the calories.

I was at a martial arts class, not the martial arts class that I usually go to, and then I walked outside it was like Pittsburgh, and I saw Han Mi Martial arts (my martial arts school) doing a demo, and I told them I would have come, but they said it was just for advanced students not beginners so they didn't tell me. Then I crawled in through a net and tried to pull my way through, and Han Mi Martial arts said it was bad and I shouldnt and they would tell me later. I ended up in a large cafeteria and I realized I was dreaming. I ate a bar (dream food) and walked around looking for lemonade. I closed my eyes and opened them to test if I was dreaming or awake. Nothing happened and I decided I would probably stay asleep, so I walked around didn't find the lemonade, and then I woke up.

Earlier in the night, I had a false wake up, and I was in a large bedroom with a window and a door to outside. It wasn't my bedroom and I thought Im dreaming, I might be, but I doubted myself and was too afraid to go outside, and then I slipped into a different dream that I forget now.

Another dream I had last night was I walked to a high school to apply to be a creative writing teacher. The principal in the office told me that he had a spot for a teachers' aid but then the devil posessed me and I did something crazy and blacked out and then the principal told me what happened and told me to leave. I said but I want to be a creative writing teacher but they told me to leave.