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The first dream I remember having involved me driving down the road on a single-track road. I looked to my left and saw 2 cats, one on either side of a gateway, perched on columns, both staring at me oddly. I looked back to the road and saw a cat about 10 ft in front of my left tire. No time to steer avoid it, I just hoped that I wouldn't hit it. As it came closer, I clenched up as I felt a thud... I heard the cats on the columns (and others, I assume) meowing loudly, almost angrily, when I saw fourth cat about 300 ft ahead jump into the air and sort of divebomb toward my windshield. I was scared for what was about to happen and as the cat came closer, I realized: "Holy shit, cats don't fly.." I went lucid. Unfortunately I don't remember much of the dream from the time I went lucid. I just remember the cat disappearing out of the sky, and that really familiar feeling that comes with lucidity in a dream. Shortly after, I was no longer in my car, and I remember jumping over a building (I usually attempt to fly in my few lucid dreams, but usually end up jumping really high and landing). At some point I believe I lost lucidity, because I don't really remember much else.

In my next dream, I was meeting my father at one of his friend's houses, I believe. I don't remember why he came up (He lives about 3 and a half hours away from where I'm staying now), but he had in his possession a bag of cocaine, which he was debating on letting me have for the longest time. This is completely out of character for him, as it's an old habit that he has long since kicked, and something he doesn't want to happen to me. He ended up giving me the bag, which I figured was a little more than a quarter-ounce of coke (about 7 grams, which is a lot of $$$). I remember him getting mad at me for even accepting it, because he knew I was going to sell it, and disappointed that I even knew people that I could get it off to. I remember putting it in a secret pocket in one of my hoodies and eventually leaving (there was a lot more conversation I don't remember, but unimportant).

There was a time-lapse which I'm not sure if I should consider a separate dream, or whether it was even related to the last, but I ended up at my mom's apartment (where I currently reside). When I open the door and come in, she comes from her room to greet me, and I can almost immediately tell that something is wrong with her. She's drunk, and it's extremely unsettling because she's been almost 3 years sober now and I didn't think she was on the road to relapse. After exchanging some words with her, I see some middle-aged dude emerge from her room and I stop talking to her, since she's not saying anything important due to her intoxication. I immediately ask, "Who the fuck are you?" and he said he was her friend. After a short interrogation, I came to the conclusion that she recently met him and he pretty much brought wine over, not knowing she was a recovering alcoholic. I told him to get the fuck out my house or I'd be forced to call the cops, and he told me something like since it was her apartment, he wasn't going to leave unless she said so. The next thing I remember about the dream was the most unsettling. I'm not sure how it got there, or why, but there was a katana in place of where my guitar usually sat propped against the wall. I told hold of it, and threatened his life unless he left the place immediately. He taunted me, saying the sword was probably dull. For some reason, he picked up a pillow off the couch and I took a slash at it, cutting it cleanly into two. His face, I remember, was priceless. He was scared out of his fucking mind, and that's about all I remember before waking up.

The last two dreams I'll classify as nightmares. Both of my parents have a long history with drugs and alcohol, and it isn't coincidence that they both relapsed simultaneously. I think it's a deeper fear of mine, because I care a lot of both of them, and I know what would happen (especially with my mother) if they did. My dad I wasn't too worried about, because I'm pretty sure he can handle himself. Plus, the fact that he just gave me 7~9 grams of coke is pretty cool, because that can fetch a pretty penny nowadays. Looking at the dream involving my mom, I was really surprised that I was so protective of her, to the point of threatening another person's life. My mom told me after I woke up, that she heard me in the middle of the night. It's been awhile since I've had a nightmare this realistic, as most of the time it's something that doesn't really have a strong possibility of happening, and for that matter, doesn't seem so real. I was legitimately scared for my mother's life here, and I think that's what drove me to the point I was at when I was ready to take that guy's life in her defense.


I had trouble falling asleep that night before dreaming. I'm sick right now, which has a lot to do with it, but I used the mantra: "I will have lucid dreams tonight" repeated about 150 times before I quit counting, just trying to keep dreaming in my mind before falling asleep. I remember trying to picture something specific as well, which was originally a giant horse*** (big enough to step on buildings), which eventually morphed into a giant cat. This may have some relation to my first dream involving cats, but I can't be sure.

***I figured trying to picture something completely unrealistic and keeping it in my mind before going to sleep might trigger that thought manifesting itself in my dreams. I figured a horse the size of king-kong is something you don't see everyday, and should immediately tell me that I'm dreaming if I were to see one. The horse ended up becoming a cat as I lost focus while succumbing to sleep, and it's possible that it did have wings; like the cat that triggered my lucid. I can't recall at this point. I'm not sure if this is a common method for triggering a lucid dream, but it's something that seems to give me results and will continue to keep trying as I document my results in my DJ

No recall. I did the mantra "I will know I am dreaming" like 100 times before I fell asleep.

No recall at all. Blegh.

I don't remember shit. I'm staying at my friend's house for the weekend, so it makes sense that I'm not particularly focused on dreaming, though.

Tried to WILD; fell asleep. Don't remember my dreams

I didn't recall a single dream last night. I thought I was on a roll, too

I attempted WILD before taking a short nap, laying on my back for about 5 minutes before I could feel numbing. After hearing what i thought to be footsteps outside, I rolled over to stop the numbing and listen in case someone was outside. After a minute or two, I decided it must have been an animal and tried to go to sleep. Interestingly enough, I fell into Sleep Paralysis after basically daydreaming (I wasn't in REM as I wasn't even asleep... My mind was just wandering), having a scenario play in my head. My mom and I were looking for my cat in the bushes. I stood near the doorway of what I guess was our house when she got in her car. She turned it on and began to drive forward (towards me) and I felt SP hit me. I wasn't planning on it happening, and so I was a little shocked, but I was able to move my arm to shake out of it within seconds. In the 5 seconds after I had fallen into it, though, I could feel my body vibrating and a very loud roaring (I guess of the engine of the car).

This is the furthest I've ever gotten with WILD, and it was completely unintentional!

Can't remember anything from last night. I tried MILD again, with the mantra "I will do reality checks in my dreams". Must not have worked.

Fuck, I couldn't sleep last night. Got home from work at 11:30 then couldn't sleep because of people stomping around upstairs. I ended up moving my bed into another room where it was less noisy and fell asleep around 1. I only remember one dream from last night, and only a fragment at that. I thought I was on a roll with the dream recall until today.

All I remember about my dream was going to Levi's house and playing Runescape I think. His house looked a lot different. I can't place where I've seen it before, but I have.

I downloaded a binaural beat app for my phone and I may try it if I can get to any bed earlier.

I don't remember any dreams I had during my nap, and I'm not sure why. I attempted FILD but fell asleep quick (I was tired).

Went to bed and didn't try anything special so I could predict an REM cycle for WILD. My alarm was set for 7:50 (approx 6 hours after I was going to fall asleep) but I woke up are 6:30. I went to the bathroom and got on the computer for literally like 2 minutes then went back into bed and couldn't WILD because I got a runny nose! It was distracting me bad enough that I sort of rolled over and gave up. I can't remember a single dream from last night (even when I originally woke up at 6:30), so bleh.

I couldn't concentrate at first because there was too much light coming in through the windows. I put up some old bedsheets over the windows so it would be a lot darker in my room. Right when I settle down to WILD, my dad takes a telephone call and is practically shouting at it, which I can hear from my room. I had a numbing sensation all over my body and felt like I was beginning to spin, but I couldn't clear my mind because I could hear my dad talking on the phone. I will, of course, try again tonight. I do not remember any of my dreams from this session.

I tried to get comfortable on my side, and began to feel my body numbing. after a few minutes, it stopped getting stronger and my neck was uncomfortable so I tried my back, while telling myself "1, I will dream a lucid dream, 2..." I guess I eventually fell asleep and I don't remember a thing about my dreams. I will try a WILD tonight.