lucid

I don't see anything and know I'm dreaming. I ask out loud why the dream feels the need to immediately respond to anything I think or feel, like if I were to just come up with the notion, "Send me to a nasty place." The dream responds by placing me in a classical Dante's Inferno type of hell, complete with fire and lava. I say "Well okay, if you want to do that then how about some ecstasy. I feel different nerves stimulating in my brain until it reaches the top, where I feel ecstasy for a brief period.

I'm now in a world made up of planes that are all at 90 degree angles from each other, sort of like Minecraft. To the right of me is a fenced house where two of my cousins are staying. They seem to be the boss of this world. To the left I see a wall stretching all the way to the horizon, a black void with stars shining from it. I pick a spot and am quickly transported to a planet around that star. I have a look around a house just like any earthly home and hear a voice speaking, "He'll bring water to where it's needed in the galaxy." I walk into a room with a fire hydrant in the middle of it. It shoots off through the ceiling and suddenly water is erupting from the ground. I run off but pause a moment when I see a cat trying to climb in a toilet of all places to hide from the water. I try to help the cat but am transported back to the Minecraft star junction.

I pay Earth a visit next. It zooms into view from outside the Milky Way on in to our solar system, then Earth, then the U.S., Missouri (which is labeled by the way - so is Illinois, but it's misspelled), then the St. Louis area onto a dock by a lake at sunset. I relax a bit, take a look around, then back to the star map.

I see a dark spot on the map where there are no stars and quickly pick a different spot because I have a fear of hurtling through space with no end in sight. The dream must have sensed my apprehension because instead of sending me where I wanted to go it shifted my view back to the dark spot. Not one to back down from a challenge I dive headlong into the black area and just float through the void a bit. Back to the star map.

Since I always wondered what the view was like on a planet within a nebula, I pick one. As it zooms in I find it's super close to a black hole and in danger of being sucked in. My view keeps trying to shift to the black hole but I hold steady and arrive at the planet. It's a really cool sight to see plants and trees lifting off the planet with the nebula as a backdrop, even though it all would inevitably be gone soon. I'm lifting off the planet and into the black hole, which can be scary but I'm always curious what I find inside. When I hit the singularity I'm back on the planet again, except everything is normal. I look to the sky and see no nebula; instead, there's a giant red star in the sky. I'm now thinking that I traveled back in time right before the star exploded so now I would be treated to a real visual treat watching a supernova, but I wake up.

All the fun today was in the hypnagogia. Not a whole lot to this dream, so I'll go into detail about the ecstasy. But wow... what an intense and pleasurable experience it was!

I start having euphoric flashes that can best be described as that slight pleasant feeling you get in your head when you just wake up and are about to get out of bed. I get the feeling they are heavily-oxygen dependent as they come only when I'm breathing in. I've long since recognized these as a precursor to a lucid dream, and even better, ecstasy.

The ecstasy comes and doesn't last the normal 5-15 seconds; instead, it continues at an intense level for at least a minute. At points it starts to fade away as it offshoots into tingling sensations down the spine into the body, but I suppress the tingling, avoid waking up, and the ecstasy picks back up again.

Tom Petty's "You Don't Know How it Feels" is playing on Pandora, and the nerves in my brain start to pulse to the tune of the music, with a full body pulse at "roll another joint." I see my phone and start to dive into it. I am now on a forum where something called "AE" is being discussed, which apparently has to do with having negative thoughts. Sometimes I feel like the dreams are trying to train me to have only positive thoughts (imagine if your body responded to your conscious thought: "Stop my heart" wouldn't be the best thing for you).

After I wake up, Muse's "Undisclosed Desires" starts to play. Would've enjoyed feeling the pulsing to the tune of that slap bass.

Euphoric flashes into ecstasy. It got pretty intense today.

I feel myself get out of bed, open the door, and leave my bedroom, all while not seeing anything and still feeling as if I'm lying down at the same time. Only when I reach the laundry room do I start seeing things. It's dark in there and I'm searching for J (gotta remember to do Mindraker's password next time). I walk a bit farther in and find her, but she's a zombie and comes after me. I throw her in the wash, able to fit her, and shut the door and turn it on.

The dream starts over and I get out of bed to look for J again. She's outside on the deck, and I walk up to her and chat for a bit, about what I'm not sure.

The dream starts over again and J is in my room. We start making out, then I see me making love to her so I don't get to feel anything. Unfortunate.

I'm in an apartment, and I turn out to be roommates with Brian, the dog from Family Guy. He goes on about how we have to stop Bugsy, an outlaw pug.

I now find myself in an epic battle to stop a demonic summoning. The man who holds the key to where the demon will be arriving attacks me, but is taken out by a stray arrow. I grab the key away from him. The tide of the battle is turning our way, so I decide to make it interesting. I see five objects on the wall that I hookshot and pull out. Before anyone can stop me I rush down to the wall and insert the key in the appropriate hole in the middle of it. The wall comes down and...

Nothing. I walk into the room and see an elevator off to one side, so I figure the demon just hasn't taken the elevator yet. A few cohorts and I take the elevator down to an expansive dank, dark cave. While walking forward I am able to make out a fishy face in the mist, and this thing was huge. The size of a blue whale. The face opens its mouth and shoots its tongue at one of my comrades, wrapping it around him. I quickly chop off his head so he wouldn't have to suffer being eaten. I fly down to where the fish was and get a good look at him. It's a giant navy blue hagfish. It opens its mouth again to attack a comrade, but I knock her out of the way before it can feed on her. I see that the hagfish demon is sitting in a shallow pool of water, so I coax it to come after me. It starts to open its mouth again, and I back way up, out of its reach. It then rushes at me and when it reaches a certain point I come running after it and dive under its belly. I then thrust upward with my sword, raking it across its stomach, and I get a pleasant feeling as its insides wash down on me. Victory!

I'm back in my apartment and am getting congratulatory phone calls about what I accomplished. Brian is there handling some of the calls. He tells me there's something on TV he wants me to see. It's a program on Bugsy the outlaw pug's latest wrongdoing. Go figure.

Flashes of euphoria into ecstasy. Today's dream is about control, as I feel the pleasure in my brain there are sometimes neural offshoots down into my body that if I let get out of hand can wake me up. So I keep them short and sweet, never traversing past my shoulders.

I'm being chased by something up a giant curved hallway, with a step upward every few paces. I look back and see it's a kind of giant dragon/monster hybrid. I have something on my mind I want to ask, so I wonder out loud "How do we communicate with beings across the universe?" Last time the answer was that there's a special structure within our cells that allows us to do so. This time I am reading through some writing, come to the bottom, and see information on a dragon ring. I stop running and ask the dragon/monster about it, and it shows me a glowing cyan ring it's wearing. After it takes the ring off, the glow stops, but I put the ring on and the glow reappears. I notice the monster is gone, so I try communicating with it through the ring. It works!

I am gliding along a path in between 2 forests, with a clearing between the path and the forests. I am looking for T. I see her just ahead, but notice there are trees set up around her like bowling pins, and between me and those trees are giant bowling balls that could roll down and crush her if I'm not careful. I figure this is a way for the dream to test my level of control. I slow way down, gliding around the bowling balls. I walk around to the back of the trees, hook the one that's blocking her escape and pull it down, then invite her to walk out. She does and we head off down the path. We stop and get down and dirty. She's wearing a blue dress with a yellow skirt. I pull up the frills of her skirt to see she's wearing panties. I pull those off to the side, then have some middle-of-the-forest hero sex with her. I reach climax (only in the dream), then the dream ends.

There was a bunch more to this dream I wasn't able to recall.

I start by feeling my usual flashes of euphoria into what is normally ecstasy, but today I don't get that oh so pleasurable feeling that makes me call it that. Instead, it feels like the nerves in my brain are stimulated in a liquid sort of way, then it goes down the sides of my neck and I will it back up to my brain and try to transform it into ecstasy, but the dream starts.

I have an OBE, casually getting up and walking away from my body. Sometimes my head gets stuck in the same spot where I'm resting, but not today. Next thing I know I'm falling down to an ocean where a cartoonish shark's jaws are open, waiting for me. Since it looks like a cartoon, I do a midair run right above where the shark just closed its mouth shut, missing me entirely as I zip away.

I am now on a rollercoaster in the clouds, but am not getting the thrill that rollercoasters provide, until I will the scene to become more vivid. It quickly gets 10 times more exciting once that happens. We reach a steep, actually completely vertical drop and while on it, the coaster comes off the track. Everyone, myself included, jumps out of the cars and we end up doing a mass skydive, with parachutes coming open below me. I reach back and do a pulling motion as if I came prepared, but no chute opens for me. I end up grabbing two DC's hands and float down gently.

I am in a hallway, with a room straight ahead of me. I do a quick glide across the floor into that room (think of the glide Android 17 does during the opening theme of Dragonball GT, the English version). In the room I see some DC's, my cousin included, sitting at a table. My cousin tells me that he won the lottery and is going to split the winnings with me. I tell him that's great, now just do that in waking life and we'll be set.

I'm alone in a void with T, one very hot woman. I could just take her right then and there, but I decide to play things by the book. She tells me, "We have to do this together," which is a thought played over and over in my head. So we start to strip together. I take off my shirt and she takes off hers, displaying ample bosom. I drop my pants and she does the same. She's wearing stunning black lingerie. Then she turns around, about to take off her underwear, so I turn around myself, take off my underwear, then turn back around to find that she's now sporting gymwear. I don't have time for this horseplay, it's time for some foreplay. I walk up to her, grab her waist, and kiss her. The dream ends.

This was a carrot-on-a-stick dream that had me chasing after something I have only seen a couple times before in my dreams.

I get out of bed, then walk outside. I request some rollercoaster ecstasy, but only get RE lite. In addition, as if to slap me in the face, it's accompanied by me falling through the earth into the pits of hell. I'm used to about anything in these dreams so I stay relaxed. Down there I see a monstrous form rising up out of a crouched position. I try to will it to be something cute and cuddly, but it brings its head into view and after I see 2 curved horns there can be no mistaking this for anything other than Diablo from the game (which I hadn't played in 10 years). I shoot a ball of fire at him that he easily stops with one outstretched clawed hand. He fires it back at me and I slice at it, expecting it to break up; instead, it stops mid-flight. The dream moves on before our fight could reach its conclusion.

I am at a beach now, where a girl with big boobs (probably fake) is walking by. I say hi to her, disrobe her bikini, then suck on one for a couple of seconds, then bring her to the ground. After giving her about 5 seconds of oral, the dream moves on. A man just can't get satisfaction.

I've seen unbelievable cityscapes of St. Louis a couple of times before, so I ride along in a car to downtown. It's nighttime. I can barely catch a glimpse of the city, missing the arch (or 2 arches as it has happened), before we move on to an apartment complex, which looked pretty cool in itself. I get out of the car and start heading back to the city, using a hookshot to get around. Over every roof I expect to see that breathtaking cityscape, but over every roof I only just see something, maybe a rollercoaster peaking or a tall, somewhat curved building bathed in dazzling lights.

I walk inside one of the buildings blocking my view and jump up into the ceiling, digging like a rodent to reach the top. I quickly see an overview of my area and notice someone digging down to stop me. Back in 1st person, I find that our tunnels have reached each other, and his was wide enough to hookshot up. A muscular Homer Simpson joined me along the way, contributing nothing. At the top I was hoping for the city, but a fog had settled in the meantime! Ugh. I saw a bridge and knew this was it, once I get past that I would get my spectacular view. The man who was trying to stop me appeared and I just run past him yelling "You can't even appreciate this anyway, you're probably only semi-lucid!" I step foot on the bridge and...

...I get kidnapped. My vision turns to tunnel vision, where there is blackness all around except for a small circle. I look about and slowly deduce that I'm on a boat in a swamp with a large rickety house on an island in the middle of it. I'm taken inside to the kitchen and my vision returns to normal. I find a box of cereal and grab it, munching on the food to console my disheartened self. One of the kidnappers uses telekinesis to draw the box away from me and I use telekinesis to get it right back, so I can eat while I continue to brood.

I am now back at my house. I realize there's a pool now and think "Oh cool" right before I am thrust backward like in karate movies where someone is punched super-hard. I take control now and start flying, making my way back to St. Louis until I decide willing myself there would be faster. I arrive just short of the same bridge as before, but it's up on a terrace so I have to hookshot up a few ledges. At least this time there's no fog to deal with. I walk through 2 brick monuments on either side of the entrance to the bridge, then find out I have a bit farther to go as the bridge arcs upward and I can't see past it's peak. I move pretty quickly hookshotting the sides of the bridge, then...

I wake up.

This was the usual morning/noontime lucid I have every time I take that nap, and it started the way they almost always do. I felt flashes of euphoria in my head, leading into full-on ecstasy. Not a very intense ecstasy today.

I get up out of bed, then start doing the worm. I then float through the wall outside, ask the dream what it thinks of me finding the DV forum, and I feel the dream take over as I do a front flip then a cartwheel. I decide it's time to get it on, so I concentrate on having a woman appear. I feel my arms around her before I see her, then begin to explore her with my hand but not too aggressively. Her face appeared, she was a bit disfigured. I'm pretty picky so I left her alone.

I'm in the kitchen with my mom. There was a question I had been wanting to ask the dreams, so I pose it, "What's the best way to get my idea out there?" referring to an idea I have that it's through exuding powerful body language that we socially accelerate, i.e. change other people positively. She opens her address/phonebook and words begin to scrawl on it but the phonebook disappears before I could read more than "righteous" and "call someone" and some information about Alaska that makes sense at the time.

Everyone is hanging out in the kitchen, including Dad. I get a bit manicky, then see Dad walk past. I say "Uh oh, Dad has that look on his face. He's going to throw me in the psychiatric center," in proper mocking fashion. I get a bit indignant and follow him outside, where there's snow on the ground. I yell at Dad, "Why the fuck couldn't you see what was happening?" (Something personal.) He seemed genuinely sorry and said, "I don't know. Maybe the script is off."

I try out being a Xenomorph from the movie Alien for a while, walking around and hissing, but no one around to taste with my extending mandible.

I woke up, which I must've done about 5 times during the dream. I just lay still each time not opening eyelids or moving a muscle and the dream resumed. Probably 4 out of the 5 times I re-entered I did through a device in my dreams I call a "strover," which is like a tablet I can expand itself by gripping the corners and pulling apart. I'll see the screen, then sort of try to get in the screen to join the dream.

I try my hand at humor and being talkative, almost to the point of spaztic, getting the feeling that the dream will end if I stop talking. While I was saying different things (I don't remember what) I felt sensations at various points in my spine, slowly crawling upward.

I walk into the building of a Google-Apple merger for an interview, but through a side door where a technician was working. He directs me to where the interview would take place. As I reach the very inviting, ornately decorated room I see a man and woman, my interviewers, sitting across a desk. I continue to talk, getting them to laugh. I have an item on me I call a "silly shield," a normal shield I just name after my personality at the moment. I would be back with them later.

I feel a fabric stretched out across a metal square rim pulled over my head. Then I welcome the subsequent whirring sound and brainwork as something is drilled into the northeast region of my brain, while the nerves in the southwest tingle. It continues to enter at different angles, each time the opposite side tingling.

I'm back in the interview room, and the interviewers turn cold on me. "We've seen your silly shield, now what about your serious side?" I feel continuation of the dream is on the line, so I quickly whip out a "serious sword" and show it to them. Right as I'm sheathing my sword a zombie busts down a door off to one side and rushes me. I quickly reach over my shoulder to draw and in one motion bring my serious sword down across the zombie's neck, then arc it back upward to finish the job, lopping off the zombie's head. Five more zombies charge me and I notice a small bomb where people normally keep a fire extinguisher. I light a match and toss it at the bomb, blowing it up and taking care of the zombies. I let the interviewers know we need to get out of here and grab and carry the woman down a hallway while the man follows behind, falls behind, then falls down. I console my charge, saying, "There's nothing we can do for him. I need to save a woman..." Another woman, dressed up as a commando with gun drawn, marches in the opposite direction to fight the zombies. I grab her as well and finish the thought by saying "...or two." I carry them into a side office, do a quick recount of what had happened to make sure I was indeed dreaming, then jump through a window with women in tow. Nothing like free-falling holding onto two beautiful girls. The dream ends sometime during the fall.

I start off in a living room, sitting and listening to one man talk. I'm tempted to do something, anything, out of the knowledge that I'm only getting so much dream time, but I continue to wait because on occasion I will start moving involuntarily in my dreams and I wanted to see where that would lead. The dream moved on before that happened.

I am now anticipating making an important speech to a large crowd in London, with scores of citizens cheering me on. It reminded me of the speech Obama gave in Germany during his 2008 campaign. This part ended before I could give any speech.

I am now in a large shopping center, getting around by hooking onto walls and ledges by thrusting out my arm and having a grappling hook shoot from my wrist. So I swing around like Spiderman until I see the pope himself with his entourage, carrying a golden trophy. During this time two men were talking about something mundane over a loudspeaker until one of them asserts that this presents an "Oppor-fun-tunity" for this young gentleman. I hook onto the ledge just above where the pope was climbing some stairs. I pull myself over the ledge just as he reaches the top of the stairs, rush over and gank his trophy, then start racing down the stairs while his guards chase after me. Two guards climb up the stairs to greet me and I'm thinking "Where's the colorful garb that Vatican guards wear?" Now I'm pretty big, 6'5", and one of them is a short older fellow that looks at me in exasperation and exhaustion and I knock the poor guy down as I reach the bottom of the steps and get out of there.

Later I request to be transported to a far off planet to try some exotic fruit. It's just after dusk on this planet, with mostly twilight but some waning sunlight. There's a large lake or perhaps ocean underneath me, with a tree standing tall and angular out of it. I pick fruit from the tree and try it, it didn't have any taste to it. Perhaps this was fortunate; I see large birds hanging out along the shoreline. I invite a bird to land on my elbow, just not too large (a large bird walks away looking dejected) and with small talons (same thing: a bird with ridiculously long talons, think "Man with world's longest fingernails," walks away disappointed). A regular sized bird flies up and lands on my elbow. Then I notice bird heads popping out of the fruit, or eggs, as I now realize. I look over at the bird on my arm, realizing what I had done, and it tries to bite me. The dream ends.