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I went to bed around 9. Did good Waking Life Recall.

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At parents old house, my dad and sister outside with the car and a light. Maybe moons in the sky.

I remember dreaming of a special type of support group meeting along with (M).

The meeting seemed to have a heirarchy. (M) was going to work for them. I think (M) and I tried to escape using one of their go-carts, and then got down to the water, and jumped in. Something about a phone in the water.

Something about some jail thing. People had different demonstrations.

In the next part, C and O were there. It was some kind of party thing. I remember chat room text with glow in the dark parts. I tried to switch to a bright white font so it would all be equally easy to read. They said something about drugs and/or alcohol. I said I hadn't been doing that.

J tried to show me this square icon of a book labeled "D". I was like, "Is that the gnostic Gospel thing?" He said, yeah. I wanted to say, "That's a really important part. It's where they say if boys were supposed to be circumcized, they'd have been born that way." But didn't get the words out.

He said how the book costed like $5,000. But to order it, he just bought dolls (American Girl Dolls?) for 1 dollar each and sold them for 2,500 dollars each. I was wondering why he only sold 2 and didn't just keep buying and selling, beyond the cost of the book.

A girl wanted to show us something from another book. She had jeans on but they were soft felt on the inside. She called them a special name. They reminded me of horse back riding jeans. The part near the hamstrings could show just tan felt or be adjusted to show denim. She had a denim shirt thing where the long sleeves had a flap on the triceps part.

I tried on some of the pants with the felt on the inside. They were really comfortable.

I might have dreamed about smokers. I'm not sure. If I did, it was earlier.

I remember being in a kitchen. I got mad at DW or BC for eating my food or something like that.

They were all wet, either sweaty, or from water. Standing in the door of the kitchen. Or working over a metal sink.

In this last part I had made someone angry. An oriental doctor guy. So he was going to make me give birth. Or I would have to give birth to make him not angry. So there was a whole thing where I was being made ready to give birth.

It showed some X-Ray diagram things. My insides definitely didn't look like standard anatomy diagrams. There were lots of tunnels and weird places the baby would have to squeeze through.

I remember as a break from the birth thing, I was seeing Super Mario 64. Mario was going around this platform that went in circles vertically. He did a wall jump but missed the platform, landed and fell. That represented some play time or an escape from the operation.

The operation scene resumed. I was really scared. I figured it would all be over soon and that was the only way. One diagram showed the baby's head getting out of one tunnel and about to pass through another.

When it was getting intense, I woke up. I hadn't felt physical pain, just fear and psychological discomfort. I switched to dream-recall mode pretty soon and made sure to recall them before falling back to sleep.

I think sometimes when I "fight" my sleep too much to recall a dream it makes me wake up too much. I'll see what happens when I lay back down. I wish I could have described these dreams better. I felt there was more to them. Like in the scene with the denim pants we were on a stair thing outside the girl's door. Well, now it is 11:15 PM so I must have only slept 2 hours. Back to bed!

Oh, in the scene near the water, while M and I escaped, a phone fell in the water. I think it was one of the guards'. Something about saving it to get us some mercy.

There was the doctor there and then a few other doctors at the table. My head was facing left on the "dream screen" and we were on the left side.

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Okay, cool! Not much trouble getting to sleep and I had good recall this time. Something with my Dad, a bed, and encouraging my sister to get what she needed for school. Maybe a hug and then something about my Dad smelling like a girl from hugging my sister, but not minding, because he's a Dad.

Something with a Mario game. I remember Mario running around the various wall paintings, looking for one to go into. The painting rippled when he got up to it. However there were other dream-original elements mixed in to it. Those, I'm not too sure about, even though I know they were cool. It was about choosing the right level to go to. I remember thinking of what level each painting was, one up and to the left, etc. Wish I could remember that.

Something about G A, a previous employer, driving on the highway. Maybe this was when I got the traffic violation. I got a traffic violation thing at one point in this drema. This was so far back I'm not sure.

R M and others in Nana's back yard. R M saying how he now drinks his full gallon of water a day. Previously he wasn't quite getting there. But now he drinks the whole gallon, something about how he spaced it out. Near the pool pump. There was more to this, maybe with R S.

Something with boldly asking Nana and Uncle G if I could go on their plane with them. My sister or someone was taken aback by me doing this. This might have been where I got the pin on my chest. I got a red pin on my chest indicating I would have to go to court that came into play later. My family was around a bunch of circular tables.

Then I was on a forum. Along the top were thumb nails for videos. By various people. One was this droopy green face with a long nose and it looked like an artistic rendition of The Hulk. Another thumbnail was blue and talked about "How to Sleep on Your Side Comfortably". This got my attention so I book marked it for later, or tried to.

There were so many green thumbnails that I clicked one. They all had various titles indicating a sequence but were not listed in the same order it seemed. Well, the droopy nose turned out to be the teacher's belly button or belly. He had a different kind of distribution of adipose tissue. A lot of it was on his lower body but then he was thinner up top. And his belly was very droopy, drooping down far.

He went on to say some things, while illuminated green, then change the light, so he became shown as skin color. Then he started to demonstrate a workout. He was sitting on the edge of a bed, facing the camera, until this point. Then the camera showed him from a diagonal angle from behind his right shoulder.

It showed him doing lots of arm movements. He said to do them for 20 seconds then rest, and swung his arms in a freestyle fashion. This went on for a while. I wondered if it was past 20 seconds. Also I thought it would be bad for his shoulders.

He began to be shaped more like a body builder and his arm movements became more controlled. He was saying to make sure to focus on just front delts, then just side delts, then just rear delts, in sequence, throughout the thing. I wanted to say you can't really isolate one head of the deltoids although you can emphasize one.

He also said that it was important to do some heavy compound movement like deadlift or overhead presses before or after this. I think it was before it. It showed him overhead pressing 135 with ease. There was 185 on the deadlift bar. I tried to help him remove the plates. I did this by crawling around and lifting the bar like a lever. I was thinking of how crawling was a good workout. And how I could military press 135 but maybe only 4 reps, and not easily. (At one point in my PL career, not now though)

So then the police came along and asked me if I'd been to my court thing. I said yeah, yesterday, someone talked to me, and everything was okay. (This was true in the dream context) The police officers kind of laughed. I laughed too because I didn't realize the pin would attract so much attention. If it did, I wouldn't have worn it. The police had actually come there for a different reason but I forgot what.

The next parts involved being at my high school. Outside the window, there was a burning bag of kale. I was outside the big glass windows near the hall but also thinking I was directly beneath my bedroom. The bag of kale was ripped open and the top flap of plastic was set to flame, burning brightly. I got worried because the smoke could get into my room. But remembered my windows were closed. Still, I wanted the bag to stop burning. I felt it was a retaliation by smokers who got mad at me for saying "Stop smoking."

There was also a sense of danger, like the whole school was under some kind of robbery or lock down. And I was just out there. I thought of getting a fire extinguisher and putting it out myself, but it seemed dangerous. I was by the hallway between the middle school cafeteria, middle school bathrooms on one side, and the gymnasium and way out to buses on other side, near the outer entrance to the girls locker room, and vending machine.

I decided the best course of action would be to go down the hall and find the gym teachers. Then they could protect me and help put out the fire. When I turned that corner, I saw two shady criminal men in masks. 'Oh, no!' I thought. 'They saw me!'

"Let's get him," I think I heard them say. They had some weapon or thing in their hands. I ran down the hall toward the middle school cafeteria, in "flight mode". I got to where I could have branched off and hid in the tech lab, but realized that I could hide in the girls bathroom in a stall, and crouch on a toilet. They would never think I would hide in there.

Sure enough I ran in there before they turned the corner. And they passed by without looking in. the door was open the whole time. But when I got inside, there were lots of people, as if this had been chosen as a refuge room. Some people showed me to a spot at a row of computers, next to a guy I thought I had seen earlier. I was glad he escaped too.

They told me about a game system where there were two people who would play a game. The outcomes were bored/bored, um... Oops, I forgot the rest. Took it for granted I'd remember them from remembering bored/bored. Well, either way, I think the winner got to stay in the refuge room but maybe the loser had to leave? But there were two ways of having a tie which seemed like both players could agree on. Someone else was sat to my right, and this was the seating order for each next person who arrived.

I felt safe. But the burning bag of Kale was still on my mind heavily. Miss Y passed by. I remember she was tall and had blonde hair and thought it must be Miss Y. I got up and everyone was saying, "Charles! No!"

I poked my head out the door and whispered, "Psst! Miss Y!" (her full last name) She turned around, like, "Charles... No..." but with this tone like I had seriously ruined everything. I figured she must have been making a run to get to another room and they didn't notice but now they would hear my voice and notice her. I felt pretty bad. Also maybe I drew attention to the refuge room by doing that and gave up our location.

I forgot if the danger became any more imminent but then I woke up. I woke up very alert from the REM cycle and immediately able to go to recalling these dreams. Which is probably why I got to recall so far back. Then recorded. I think the Mario level had some kind of teddy bear character or ice thing. Maybe dragon things. It would be the #1 part I'd like to remember if that was possible.

Now it's 3:14 AM so from about 12 to 2:30 I must have slept. So now I'm at 4-5 hours of sleep. I feel pretty good now.

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Aw, shucks. 4:15 AM and I can't sleep.

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Okay, 5:13 AM. I just did some work and now feeling sleepy so back to bed.

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Cool! So now its 7:25. I must have slept like 1.5 more hours so I'm at 6-7. Not really the most in the world but I feel pretty rested.

I had more dreams. This was one of those times I'd wake a little, think of it, let myself sleep, drift, and accumulate dreams. I tend to be able to "get away with" this in the last sleep cycle when I have lots of micro awakenings and my brain works again.

In the first dream I was one of 5 people on a bed. There was something about how there were holes in the bed 2 of us were poking through. KP was on the far right side and it wasn't symmetrical because there was already someone on that side with only 1 person on the far left. So he had to get up but the bed was angled so that he couldn't get up by rolling out. One of us in the middle poking through the holes would have to roll in, then he could roll in.

He must not have wanted to wait, because he tried to roll out anyway, and got his neck stuck in some of the bed rails. I remember the red marks on his neck and how he continued straining against it, making it worse.

I had an false awakening which I almost detected as lucid, in my room at my parents previous house. I remember trying to test it by opening my eyes and seeing if I saw through my eye mask. I was sleeping on my right, like in physical world. But in this case a wall was in front of me, illuminated with yellow squares of light.

The second time I opened my eyes, I saw black. I figured this meant I was looking at the inside of my eye mask. However, I still tried to roll out of body. It just didn't work, or I was too hesitant to roll my physical body.

I felt some cold shower water falling on me, and couldn't move. I am not sure if anything else happened in that room.

This guy was doing a self improvement thing. He was feeling kind of down about himself and listing his previous qualities which he no longer liked about himself.

Then the dream showed his wall thing which showed various qualities he wanted to have, or had "accomplished". He also listed some sub-reddits he went to for support. r/90km was a support group to run 90 kilometers. r/stinkinthinkin was a support group for "positive self talk". (BTW I'm not sure if these are actual sub-reddits and what they really correspond to! Just what they were in the dream.)

There was also some stuff other people added. One was a paper plate with a cute kid's drawing of a person and it said "married".

In another part I was in my Nana's room, but it was my room, and it was around 4:02 PM. I was eating sugar because I had taken a supplement which it would help the absorption of. Pure table sugar. Then I got worried because I don't eat table sugar in waking life, and thought I had relapsed. I ate some brown rice afterward. It was 4:02 PM and I thought I should do some exercise until dinner at 5, but decided to just have dinner early, because I was hungry.

Next I was in a class room. The teacher was teaching in front. However instead of just desks, the class room had some library shelving. Kids from class were hiding on the far side of the library shelving, out of the teacher's sight, to eat things or do whatever they were doing.

I was sitting near J and a red haired girl who I will call L but might have been M. J did a joke of throwing something at L. A few moments after he had done the joke, I pretended to try to block it in slow motion. Knowing I was too late anyway. "You saved me!" Joked L. I felt happy she got my joke and was playing along. I think I said something else.

Then J became R. L was dating R. They had been together a while. I remember some white circles becoming blue.

Then I was walking down the hall with L. She was like, "I'm glad R is finally gone. I was getting so sick of him." I felt for a moment that she wanted to be with me now but I knew they were a long term couple. So I joked that she would be wishing R was there within a few hours and would be to where she couldn't wait to see him. She laughed and went up the hall. Even though I was not lucid, I still feel good about my dream-state-self's response to that. Like it was the "right" thing to do.

I think there was also a thing of putting on my grey sock. And there was a big brown bug or something. I can't tell what that's from.

So, that was good. I had a thing at 7:30 so I had to make short hand notes and finish writing at 8:30. However it worked out fine.