devotee013

it could be, that a computer game, like that of a dream, is not real.
its simulated.
what video games do you play?

Originally Posted by aussiemusician

what video games do you play?

I have an old computer so I am playing 2d games ....
Rayman Origins
River City Girls
OwlBoy
Etc...

If I play games then I get Vivid Dreams
But for past 3 days i have not played Any Video games....

I have a Deep FEAR OF FAILURE

And after i am not successful in LD i get DEPRESSED

When i am depressed I don't feel like doing ANYTHING ... I lie down on my Bed and keep Listening to music....

I don't even feel like playing games or watch Anime ...
That is why I think for the past 3 days i have not played Any Video games..

I will start playing Video games but it would be Half Hearted

I have kept a Target for myself....
"I want to become a Lucid Dreamer by December 2022"

I think 1 year should be enough time to achieve my goal...

So please Help me ... I am open to Suggestions and Change..

Thanks 😊

Originally Posted by devotee013

I have a Deep FEAR OF FAILURE

And after i am not successful in LD i get DEPRESSED

When i am depressed I don't feel like doing ANYTHING ... I lie down on my Bed and keep Listening to music....

Please correct me if I make any incorrect assumptions.

I get the impression that you have a very strong desire to dream lucidly, and that this is affecting your mood negatively because you are not having any success.

Part of me wonders why this is so important to you; what is the value of lucidity for you?

And why do you have to see it as a binary success/failure? For example, with this dream you had, you say you didn't become lucid despite remarking that it was a dream. And maybe some part of you may have been aware that you were dreaming, and so could be why you said it. It may not be full lucidity, but even vague dream awareness like that can be considered a step forward. The only possible exception to this logic is if you are making a habit of saying such things as a mantra while awake, which can form a habit that doesn't actually consider your situation fully and with some depth.

Perhaps some advice there would be for you to decide that the next time you say words such as "this is a dream", you will remember to really think about your current situation and how it is (or isn't) dream-like.

Also, I still think you might benefit from making a post in the "introduction" part of the forum or the "attaining lucidity" section, because you may get more attention and comments there, especially if you are actively looking for help with these issues.

Today in the night I was stressed out so I took 2 sleeping pills and went to sleep
But even thought I had taken sleeping Pills I was able to remember my dreams..
But I did get anywhere close to becoming Lucid

Today in the night I was stressed out so I took 2 sleeping pills and went to sleep
But even thought I had taken sleeping Pills I was able to remember my dreams..
But I did get anywhere close to becoming Lucid

Part of me wonders why this is so important to you; what is the value of lucidity for you?
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I am not even able to imagine what a LD will be like ... I simply have zero clue.. because of which I am NOT able to Day Dream about LD because I dont know what to think of...
What will MY Lucid Dream will be like ??? No Idea.....

Originally Posted by devotee013

I am not even able to imagine what a LD will be like ... I simply have zero clue.. because of which I am NOT able to Day Dream about LD because I dont know what to think of...
What will MY Lucid Dream will be like ??? No Idea.....

The feeling of being lucid seems to have some universal common factors between different people; for example you will probably feel very grounded in the moment during the dream when you are lucid, and you may also feel thrill and such in a way that non-lucids typically don't make you feel. I would guess that the exact feel varies from person to person, but the same person can also seem to have very different lucid experiences in different dreams; you can be more or less aware of your waking life details and still be lucid, for example.

What you are describing sounds like a "pre-lucid" dream to me. While it may not be a fully lucid dream yet, this is great progress. Definitely treat it as such. It says that the topic is on your mind, and your awareness is building, you just may need a little more consciousness to get there.

You'll know when you have a true lucid dream. There's no mistaking it. It will probably not last long at first, and that's normal. It feels like an "aha moment." You might have an odd sensation such as prickly feeling or even vibrations. That's normal too. The main quality is that it will feel like you're completely awake and alive in this fantastical new world.

Good luck and I hope you get there soon. I know you will.

what has triggered the deep fear of failure?

what has triggered the deep fear of failure?

I always give my 100% and If I do not succeed at that then I become Easily deppressed...

Do you have to give 100% at everything?
Can you give 90, 80, 70% perhaps?
Or break it down, so that the expectation doesn't have to be so important.
Maybe even do a little bit at a time.
You could do 100% of a little bit, be it 10%, instead of 100% of all of it, being 100%.
Think of a circle, and cut it, into pieces, like that a cake.
have one small piece, take a break, and then have another small piece.
Does any of that work for you?