non-lucid

My internet at my house has been out for a couple days, as people weren't around to pay their bills. Therefore, this is going to be a pretty long update - 5 updates since the last time I updated!

12/26/2010 - First Person Shooter and Real Time Strategy

I was on a space station. I entered a large room and picked up a couple weapons (one of them was a gun like the ripper in Unreal Tournament). I entered a large chamber that was open to space. I recall looking up and seeing a number of stars and the planet that the space station was rotating around. I saw a large creature that was channeling what I can only assume was the power to destroy our galaxy. Needless to say, I engaged it.

Since we were open to space, there was little gravity, so I was able to flip around all of the elevated floating platforms in the area. I began flipping about, him remaining stationary while shooting beams of energy while I was firing my Ripper. Sadly, they were ineffective. I switched to another weapon to continue shooting him, but there was a tingling sensation as his channeling began to become powerful. I could feel the hairs on my arms begin to stand on end.

I landed on a platform high up, and spherical orbs of light inside a ring began to converge on the center of the platform. I knew it was too late. The disks circled the platform..the orbs shot out and then converged. There was an ear-deafening boom...and the galaxy was gone. I woke up.

12/28/2010 - Helping a Brother

I returned home again, and sadly my dream recall suffered, as I was sleeping on my house couch again.

I remembered that Eric had asked me a few nights before to wake him up and make sure that he went to the airport to pick up his girlfriend. I assisted him in waking up and helped him get all of his stuff together. I then woke up, realizing that this was a false awakening.

1/2/2011 - Dream Fragments - Free-running and Lightsaber Duel

I had two dream fragments this night. I know that in my 3rd dream of the night, there was a lightsaber duel, but I can't recall specifics. I also recall that I was free-running around an Arabic city in my 4th dream.

1/4/2011 - Zombies (again)

I was traveling through an abandoned city with James, Lane, Shane, and I. Lane was wielding double pistols. I was carrying something tech related, but I didn't actually have weapons (bad call, I know). James was decked out in odd vagabond clothes and double Uzis. Shane had a shotgun and a metal bat.

We fought our way to a safe room that was in a room high up in an apartment complex. It looked like a hotel room, however. There was a device outside the room that apparently controlled the heat exhaust for the entire building. I was concerned with the level of energy that the building was putting off, and realized that if I were to change the settings, we could conserve energy - but make ourselves more visible to zombies (apparently they have heat vision in this dream). The setting I picked helped us save energy. However, a zombie ran up the fire escape to confront us. I ran inside.

I slammed the door behind me with the zombie's upper torso and arm stuck in the doorway. I shouted at Shane to come over, who readies his bat and bashed the zombie's head in when I opened the door. Lane and James then ran out of the room upstairs in order to apparently take care of more zombies. Shane shotgunned the zombie's lower jaw off.

I changed the setting on the device, and once I had changed it James and Lane returned. Lane was bloody and said that he had been bitten. I saw his inventory with 17 bullets in his double pistols. We yelled at my brother to make sure that he wasn't bitten either. Lane hands me his pistols and takes off his arm guard. I wake up to a text message.

1/5/2011 - Australia

My dream started with an intricate flyover of the white, sandy beaches of Australia. We (myself and I'm not sure who else) were having a good time on the beach. We talked about all of the animals there and I recall looking down in the water and vividly seeing an eel that I walked across in order to not get shocked. I wanted to take pictures, but I forgot my camera back with my family. I was really devastated. I started to call my mother in order to ask where the camera was when I woke up.

I stood up and glanced around. I then made my way to my computer tower to look for my camera. I realized that it didn't make much sense for me to look for the camera and I did a reality check, but it was just me sleep walking.

Tonight I'm going to try to record three dreams and attempt to wake up enough to WILD during that third dream cycle. We'll have to see how it goes. This next weekend is going to be stressful, as I'm going to be doing conferences and retreats, so I might not write in my journal for a couple days!

12/25/2010 - Dream Fragment - Zombies

I dreamed that I was in an apartment complex with three other friends. We were looking for first aid kits throughout the run down complex. Unfortunately, every bathroom and first aid cabinet had already been raided.

I was woken up by a number of texts and phone calls this morning, as well, so I ended up shutting off my alarm and only wrote down this dream fragment, unfortunately. Hopefully I'll sleep better tonight!

The last dream of this segment I became lucid! This was my first lucid dream - ever! While it only lasted for a short time (due to, well, being new to it and not being able to stabilize), I can't tell you how excited I am at this improvement! Also, the dream that I had during was really, really vivid. Interesting.

12/24/2010 - Dream Fragment - Jail

I found myself competing in a drinking competition with Jim while in jail. There were lots of colorful drinks.

12/24/2010 - Superheroes

I had an intricate dream where I was on the beach. I think I was a superhero, but I definitely had the ability to control tornadoes. I do remember that we were on the coast. I had to help defend the town from three tornadoes that were ultimately creating monsoons for the town. As the town wizards rallied, a large lady (black, curly black hair) spoke to me and told me that if the waves causes a swell of greater than 8 meters, the levies would break and the city would be destroyed.

I became highly interested in this and we prepared at the coastline. All three tornadoes came from next to one another, causing huge tidal waves. The wizards attempted to quell the waves as we protected the coastal city, but it became quickly apparent that the wizards would not be able to successfully combat the three tornadoes when they were all in the same place. The waves were already reaching upwards of 8 meters (said the woman), and it was almost at critical mass. I watched the waves come crashing into the village as she said this. I decided that I had to take a gambit to save this town.

I used my powers to move one of the tornadoes. I was only able to apparently move one, because I was too weak after moving the first one. I changed it from all three tornadoes being right next to one another, northeast off the coastline, to one of them closer and northwest of the town. This gambit paid off, as it allowed the wizards valuable time to quell that tornado and then take care of the others. We were able to wrangle the tornadoes and take control of nature. We also protected the town.

(Diagram of the coast and tornado movement is here in my physical journal)

I returned to the beach, where I found my grandpa and the large lady talking with one another. My grandpa said that he was very proud of my success. He asked us for some hot chocolate (which I recall him asking for before, but I don't recall him before this part of the dream. He might of been talking with the large lady when I was solving shit). She asked why my grandfather was asking for hot chocolate so often, to which I said that my grandma always used to make it for him. I made some appear and gave it to him. He smiled large and my grandma's voice in my head said thank you. I told the fat lady I heard my grandma and I started crying. The scene fades.

12/24/2010 - Bar

I think this was supposed to be related to the first dream. I was in a bar that was colored very light brown and with a lot of beige. I was sitting at the counter of the bar. I recall there being dream characters about, but I don't recall seeing any. I do recall that Jimmy was in my dream again, but that I never saw or talked with him. I was watching a news report on the television while drinking a beer. I remember that Britney Spear's "Toxic" was playing on the jukebox, but I don't recall seeing the jukebox either. I was also irritated and a bit confused by it being on in here. I reached for the menu and opened it to look at it and I started to feel a bit odd. I read over the menu once, but then stared at it. The letters changed before my eyes. "I must be dreaming," I thought to myself.

There was an audible snap and everything became incredibly vivid as I became lucid. I was actually overtaken by emotion and excitement! This was my first lucid dream - ever! When I got excited, I remembered that if I didn't calm down I would wake up, but instead of calming down first I started attempting stabilization techniques. I looked at my hands in order to deeply observe them, but they seemed like they were cut off (I was missing half of each hand, diagonally, from my wrist bone to my index finger knuckle). It started to worry me. I stop doing this and got up quickly and I touched the table, tripping over a chair in scurrying over to one of the back bar counters. I grabbed one of the clear salt shakers that had a yellow lid and many, many holes (industrial) and began to feel it with both of my hands. While doing this, I accidentally closed my eyes and the scene faded to black.

I snapped my eyes open and I was in my room. I immediately tried a reality check, but it wasn't a false awakening. Success, ladies and gentlemen! After two years of on and off trying, I finally had a successful lucid dream - a DILD! Now the next step: Do it again, remain calm, and stabilize properly. I'm so pleased with myself I can hardly stand it.

Again, only a dream fragment, but it's something.

12/23/2010 - Dream Fragment - Sports

I found myself in the Recreation Center at school, going through all the possible sports we could play (I'm not sure who else was with me in the dream, but definitely someone). I remember mentioning Frisbee, but to participate in the league we'd need 12 people. I woke up.

12/21/2010 - Witness Protection

I found myself in my house being rushed out of the front door. I was quickly shuffled into one of my Brother's (Shane's) car and we were driving away from my house very quickly. I asked what was going on and Shane said that we had to find a place to hide me. I realized that I was in witness protection, though I'm not entirely sure what I did to deserve to be put in witness protection at this point. As we were driving, we went to a yellow house that was apparently near the campus. Shane pulled up into the drive-way and opened the garage door, to which I found a number of people sitting on a couch, hiding in the room. There was a television, but it wasn't on. I can't recall any of the people's faces in the house. We got out of the car and headed into the house. I noticed there was a yellow highlighter on the driveway of the house.

We sat down and chatted for a bit, but then again Shane yelled at me to get up and get in the car. I looked in the van and my real brother (James) and three Brothers (Jimmy, Shane, and Jim) were all in the car. James hands me his motorcycle helmet and tells me to put it on. We all put on motorcycle helmets as we drive, though I recall thinking it was somewhat claustrophobic in the helmet. Shane asked me where we should go. I point out that there is a hidden place behind a series of bushes near the library near our house and I'm told that this just isn't a realistic place to hide. I'm disappointed, but I can vision the place - there is another yellow highlighter on the ground. There is a causeway to the bushes, and there is a small slit in the bushes that leads behind. I think there was a nice couch behind this area as well, but I can't recall it like I recall the other places. Shane says he knows where to go, and he pushes on the gas. We end up driving into a Col-de-Sac of a rich neighborhood and stop outside a house. Again, another highlighter. We get out of the car and head into the house through the garage.

I take off my helmet and enter one door, finding myself in my "new room." It was very blue. Everyone else has their helmets off now. I start unpacking boxes and realize that I'm going to have to come up with a new name. I think I chose Faith as my new name, but I was disappointed because all of the things that I have have my old name on it. Shane points out that most of them don't have to go on the wall except one (he points to my paddle). I nod. Jim says he has some generic allergy pills, but that he can't take them. I start to think I might have been doing some computer hacking as what got me in trouble. I wake up.

12/21/2010 - The Next Step

I was sitting down in my room. I recall picking up my Inner Circle book and glancing through the pages for the 4th Quarter of the Coat of Arms (this is a program that I am involved in within my Fraternity). I recall that the text seemed odd, but it wasn't enough to tip me off to the fact that I was sleeping. The book was lime-green borders and white for the backing. The text of the book was black. I flipped through the pages to complete the activities within it. I recall one of the activities to complete read: "Have a Mexican fiesta for one, two, three, & four children." There was a picture of babies posted over a blank spot next to the description, and the signature of "Kelsey Sheeha" was on the signature line, indicating that she apparently completed it. The first name was in cursive, the last name was in confusing bubble letters. Each time I read one section in the book, I knew that I would be in the event fully completing it. I felt myself being pulled through the book and then I woke up to a text message.

I'm pretty sure my Fraternity life is going to end up being a dream sign for me, as these characters and themes keep constantly coming up in my dreams already. I think I am going to start doing a reality check anytime I communicate with a Brother or anytime that I read something Fraternity-related. Hopefully this will start carrying over into my dreams for a DILD. I think my dream recall is already improving pretty strongly, and I'm finding myself much more capable of getting up and writing in my journal - an exciting step for me, as that's where I got stuck when I first attempted to become involved in lucid dreaming! I might try and nap this afternoon (I'm usually really poor and getting back to bed during the waking hours). I also plan on recording three dreams tonight and I think I will attempt a WILD.

12/20/2010 - Interrogation

I dreamed that I was in a location in India (reminded me of the locale from Assassin's Creed, the original, after I woke up). I was in robes and entered a courtyard by myself. There was a woman here who I was supposed to capture and interrogate. As no one was around, I chased her through the pavilion and caught her. I dragged her back to the courtyard and began interrogating her. There was an individual helping me who I couldn't see his face, but I remember him using an odd mallet and water to get information from her.

She told us where we could find the target that we were looking to assassinate. Midway through the conversation, the locale faded out and I woke up.

12/20/2010 - False Awakening

I woke up in my room to a false awakening. I got up and walked around my house. I met with one of my Brothers in the house, who went on to talk about the previous night and how impressed he was at my tolerance from the night. I was a bit confused and surprised by what he was saying. I woke again in my bed.

12/19/2010 - A Short Dream

I was dreaming that I was in my chapter house room. I remember sitting in my computer chair, but I wasn't using my computer. I was thinking about thinking and learning more about lucid dreaming. I walked over to my nightstand and picked up my dream journal and jotted in it. I don't remember what I wrote in the journal, nor did I remember to do a lucidity check. I then woke up to my alarm going off.

This is my first official dream in my dream journal. My dream recall isn't exactly strong, so I plan on focusing on strengthening my recall in the next couple weeks.

12/18/20 - Snowy Fortress

My dream began when I was in an area that I identified as Antarctica. I wasn't within my own body, but watching myself as though from overhead. I also recall that the dream was similar to a video game. I recognized a couple themes: Metroid, a bit of Borderlands, and an espionage-like feel.

The dream started with a character I identified as a girl named Sam. She had really long blonde hair and was wearing a blue jumpsuit (thus Metroid). She, two other individuals that I never saw, and I broke our way out of a prison / base. I think it might of been from Inception. Sam knew where we were and what we were supposed to be doing, but I decided to go off on my own (despite disagreement from the heads-up display).

I broke off from the three others and jumped off the cliff nearby. Sam was extremely displeased and voiced this through the radio to me. I realized that I had to do some sort of collection quest in order to return to the group. I looked to my right and found a Jeep and got in it. I drove through the snow and reached a kind of valley. I found and ran over both a goblin and a bunch of rocks that were housing some creatures, and then I got out and picked up something from the ground. I know it was supposed to complete my quest, but I can't remember what it was.

I left the canyon and then began driving alongside the cliffs. I remember the terrain was jagged along the cliffs, and that there were plateaus right up against them. I started to follow them and then I woke up to my alarm.