FourKicks

In my classroom at work, one of the kids PC is standing by the window saying "girls" (he never says this.. ever). I walk towards him and.. I think he changes into someone else? But he starts sawing at my arm with a butter knife.. and in defense I do the same to him. I realize what I'm trying to do isn't working on him.. but when it's over I am covered in my own blood from slices on my legs, arms, and face. I don't want my mom to see (???) so I have a sweatshirt on and I pull up the hood.

On the street I grew up on, I am riding my bike down the steep hill (where I once flipped my bike so hard I still have visible scars). There is a guy who is also riding his bike with me. I call him "GB" even though that's not who it is. He says "Sometimes you just have to let go!!" and he rides his bike past me. I get to the bottom of the hill and there is something that looks like a giant Connect Four board.. it is flipping and turning and I can predict what will happen next.

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I'm in my kitchen and I'm making orange juice (?) in a giant tin can. My mom is there, holding a pitcher of orange juice, and its really frothy on top. She asks what the foamy part is, and I saw "It's Orangina". I turn back to my tin can and she asks again what it's called. I get frustrated and say "I just told you! It's called Orangina." Whaatt...??

I'm in a car sitting in the passenger's seat, and my mom is driving. Behind me, sis in law J, with brother J next to her, and M next to him, behind my mom. M is cursing at me and saying horrible things (reminiscent of the day of the rage), and he is getting physically abusive towards me. My mom and brother J don't have any reaction to this, but sis in law J is giving M the middle finger. I'm crying and begging him to stop but he won't. He throws something out the window but I'mnot sure what. We stop at 7-11 and I get out and go in a side door. I walk into a bathroom and I'm washing my hands, and I see two toilets on top of each other, but the one of top is smaller.

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I'm running through the woods on a dirt road and I see a path leading off the road and I turn down it and trip and fall.. There are Native Americans coming towards me, and I didn't want them to see me but I wanted to watch them.

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I see my car in the parking lot at work and I notice something under my windshield wiper, like a folded yellow piece of paper.

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(from 2 nights ago) I am in GB's room and see a big white envelope on his bed and I'm wondering what it is.

I see that I typed a text to someone on my phone that just said "dark tired and empty".

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I'm in a hotel room with M. We have separate beds, but mine is like half the size of his. He's trying to talk to me about our situation, but I don't want to.

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I'm in a car, maybe a taxi, and I'm with someone else. We are driving over a bridge and I see city lights. Someone jokes "There's New York City!".. even though we are clearly in another country.. somewhere in South America maybe?

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I'm at work with a kid, EK, and I'm holding her hand as we walk through the administrative hallway. I punch out, and then she punches out too, but there's some confusion about things that are coming up on the time clock screen... signing up for memberships and whatnot, and having to pay. People around me are getting frustrated because I'm taking too long.

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I'm in a parking lot and I'm sitting in the passenger seat of a car. I take my clothes off (???) and quickly sit in the next car over, to the right. I'm totally cool with my nakedness, like it was a necessary action for me to take. A couple of guys I went to high school with, can't remember who exactly, walk by and see me. Then I'm driving, and I know it's going to rain so I close the sun roof.. there are so many layers to closing it and I still feel air coming through.

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I'm in some hilly, green, and grassy area with GB. Seems like it's up in the mountains somewhere. This is where he lives? There are a lot of people around, and there is a really warm vibe. We say we have something to do (I don't remember what).

I am walking on a beach.. I think.. it is really flat and all of the sand is really wet, but there is no ocean, just wet sand. I see shells and sea weed, and I can feel the that it's cool and wet underneath my feet as I walk. There are a lot of other people walking around. I think someone is with me, maybe M?

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I'm walking underneath an over hang of an outside restaurant.. seems like somewhere in Costa Rica. I'm trying to be by myself but get the feeling I'm being watched. Now this is odd: I take a pitcher of water and pour it on my head and down the front of my shirt. I'm wearing the shirt I slept in.