nightmare

BLACK: Regular
BLUE: Dream
RED: Notes
PURPLE: Quote (specific words I remember clearly)
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I'm not quite sure how this dream started or ended.
Date: November 30th, 2013
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I was in a hospital [ it looked like one I'd been in before ]. It was quiet, which made me feel very uncomfortable. It didn't seem right. A man [ He appeared to be in his early/mid 20's and had brown hair, young face, was tall, thin, and had dark eyes. He seemed very familiar ] grabbed my arm and pulled me away from where I was. He mentioned something to a woman by me [ I believe she was a nurse like figure, but I'm not sure ] about "finding all the pretty girls in the hospital and raping the f-ck out of them." [ I don't think he thought that I'd heard him. That, or he didn't care if I did or not. ] I began feeling incredibly nervous, but I hid it to the best of my ability. We passed my family [ always female members from my mother's side or my father. None of them ever noticed me, save my father. He glanced at me but said and did nothing ] two times. Some time along the way I mentioned something about "not wanting to be treated this way again." The man looked at me and we sat on some stairs [ the "nurse" woman stood off the the side. The stairs were hard stone ] and he asked me, "You've been raped before?" [ those words rang in my head over and over when I woke up ] I mentioned something about being a virgin but that I'd been sexually abused in the past [ this is true. I have been ]. He raised his eyebrow and almost seemed to feel sorry for me. I thought he'd let me go. Suddenly, he pulled me to my feel and literally dragged me to a room [ more details on the room below ] that looked like both a physical therapy facility and an x-ray/CT scan room. He had the nurse take me to a machine on the far right side of the room. I faced the closed end of it. The man said "We're making sure you won't get pregnant. STAND STILL!" I was shaking violently by this point. I was scared. He had the nurse woman spread my arms out and made me stand holding some bars on either side of me. After this, the man literally growled and tore me away from the machine. He took of my jacket [ it was red ] , leaving me in my tank top [ grey ], jeans, and socks. I noticed my dad outside the room and I told the nurse to shut the door. She did this. The man pushed me onto my back [ I landed on another machine that was on the floor. I hit my back on two bars ] and I crossed my legs over each other and put my arms over my chest. I started pleading with him. "Please, please don't!" I cried over and over [ I was literally crying ]. The man towered over me and he ripped his shirt off and started trying to take my clothes off. I kicked at him and screamed repeatedly. Eventually, I think, I got so afraid that I just woke up. The ending is blurry.
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NOTES:
About the room-
It was on the top floor in the west side of the building. The sun was setting outside the single window which had blinds over it. The room was cold. The colors were desaturated, but there was blue and white all around me -ironically my school colors-. There were various "machines" strewn about. The door that I saw my dad out of was on the right side of the room right next to the machine I stood by. The door was a flimsy plywood sliding door that had no lock. The only light in the room came from that one window. It was dark-ish

Various notes-
I remember that I didn't scream for my dad's help because I didn't want him to see me so vulnerable. I would rather be raped than have him see me like that.

No one seemed to notice what the man was saying. The nurse never spoke or made any noise.

The man was very familiar and was rough, then gentle, then rough.

My dad looked through me when he gazed my way.

All I could think about when I woke up was the mysterious man who'd made me do something sexual (no details because I don't want to say it) when I was 5 years old.

Around the time I started to faze out from the dream, I remember that the man looked animalistic. He also started to "melt." His image literally just began to melt.

I remember my dad (after the whole ordeal, probably) saying something like "Oh I never wanted this to happen again. It's like 10 years ago."


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If you can offer any help here, I'd appreciate it. This dream hits home in too many ways. I've had more and more dreams like this one, lately, It's as though my subconscious is trying to make me see something.

(I've been having so many nightmares recently)

I woke up in my room, my clock said 3:38 AM. I could hear my brother and sister in the living room, and I wondered why they were up. My dad came in and told me that school was canceled for the day because the teachers had some big meeting in Indianapolis. I got up and the dream kinda derped for a moment because I don't remember what happened .... After that, though, I was inside of our church -ew- and I was with my little sister. We went outside because we saw my brother outside. I suddenly sensed that someone out back. That's when I saw someone darting back and forth. It terrified me, because I could feel that he wasn't a good person. I told my sister to go inside, but she didn't listen! The guy came around and he had a knife, a long one, too. I started screaming at her to go inside, but she kept saying no! I pushed her behind a car because he kept getting closer. He came closer and threw the knife at me, with more appearing in his hands. I picked it up (he was a terrible aim) and begged him not to kill me. He said nothing, but kept coming closer.
Then the dream ended.

It was scary... Just saying.

This is a nightmare I had a few nights ago.

I was holding a young girl, an infant, in my arms. I was inside a building when a man pushed me into a room, slammed the door, and locked it. Inside, I saw a woman cowering in a corner, sobbing so violently she was shaking. I heard something being released through small rifts in the floor, and I felt suffocated. I was in a gas chamber. (Just to let you know, I was 20 ish in the dream. Six years older than I am now) I held the baby against my chest and fell to my knees, not wanting this baby to die. She cried and cried until I shushed her, calming her. They opened the door and took her from me, and I heard her screaming. The other woman lay dead before me. I stared in horror at the corpse before screaming for them to give her back to me. The baby, that is. The man from before laughed and kicked me hard in the abdomen, causing me to fall backwards.

From this point on, it was like I was outside my body, watching the proceedings from afar. I saw him laugh as a woman ran up, a large wooden beam in her hands. She drove it through my stomach, and I heard a myself cry out, blood trickling from my mouth. She pulled it out of me, making blood spill EVERYWHERE. She drove it in again...and again....and again. I was begging for death. She laughed, torturing me until there was so much blood around me I thought I had to be completely drained. I saw her drive the stake into my heart, and, hearing myself softly grunt, I watched my body slump forward.... dead. In the background, I heard a child crying until silence came and I woke up.


Note: This is the first time I've ever seen myself die in a dream.

non-dream non-lucid Lucid

Dream one: I was at church. I went outside and suddenly I was in some room(I think I had been heading to the church van but I had seen the others or something). My friends Scotty, Becca, Caleb, and my mom were there. Suddenly Caleb walked up to me and put his mouth either near on on my ear (yeaaah he kinda kissed me I guess) (not sure how that works out but ehhh whatever). Scotty had a O.O "holy crap" face, Becca had a :3 "d'awww" face, and my mom had a D:< "wth was that!!" face. I blushed really red and hid my face. The end of that dream...

Dream two: I was in a car all alone. I knew I had to get home. Somehow I was on the passenger side holding onto the steering wheel. I was afraid. Wait no, terrified. I got into the driver seat and gripped that wheel like I would die if I let go. I got lost and I turned on the GPS. It didn't help me. I couldn't call my mother for help. I was terrified and I thought I was going to die. I then woke up.

I think this dream shows my true terror of the thought of driving. I'm sure I'm overreacting.


Well, there you have it. Please comment.

Ok so I have been gone forever but I had two dreams recently that I wanna remember.

This one was lucid almost the whole time, but it was a short one. (about a week ago)

I am sitting somewhere inside a building. I think it is the youth room in my church. It is dark. A guy a like, let's call him "C", is sitting next to me. He is six years older than me so in real life I would never be able to do this. ... Anyway, I know i am dreaming for some reason so I just lean over and kiss him, but there was no feeling. It was like I didn't have nerves. (dangit) Then I woke up.

Dream 2 ( two nights ago)
This one was totally non lucid, but was totally clear and I remember almost all the details. It felt real.

Again I am at church, inside the lobby area. It is very dark, near black, inside. I am all alone, or so I think. From behind me, arms encircle my waist, and I hear a familiar voice next to my right ear, "I know how you feel about me, Jessica," it is C, my secret crush, "I can tell by the way you look at me, and the way you blush when I talk to you. Remember the time I spoke into your ear to tell you to play louder? I saw you blushing. I can tell that you like me. I like you, too." At that point, he turns me around and leans as if he is about to kiss me (note that he is almost a foot taller than me) but we are interupted when our Youth Pastor calls for us. Next thing i know, I am in my family's van. The door is open, and I am on the right side. C is standing there, again about to kiss me, again interupted.
Next, I am in my house during the day time. My mom looks at me as if she knows that C and I secretly like each other. I am texting him. He says he wants to hang out some time. I say that we can meet after church, because he is the church's drummer and i am the bassist, we stay after church longer to help put stuff away or to practice. That night happens to be Youth Night, so our friend, Scotty, wants us to practice. I get there a few minutes early, and so does C. At that point, though, the dream blurrs and I wake up moments later.

You know, I have been having so many dreams about "C" lately. I wish these would come true. My dad was talking to my mom about something last night about "C", something funny he did or something, and I asked who they were talking about. My dad said "C____." and i said "you mean the one from church" And my dad said "Yes, your C____." How in the heck does my dad know I like C?!? Or does he really know? Eh whatever.

Here is one I had when I stayed at a hotel with a graveyard next to it.

I though I had woken up. There was what appeared to be a ghost next to me. I woke up for real and was totally freaked out.

here is the dream I had last night.

I was in a hospital room. Jen Ledger was standing next to the bed, crying her eyes out. I looked over and saw Ben Kasica laying there, pale as a ghost. Jen was clutching his hand, begging him to wake up. He had been in a coma. She put her hands on his face and cried, he stayed still. Suddenly the moniter was like this -------------------------------- BEEEEEPPPPPP. Jen cried out and the dream went fuzzy and I woke up. (the song Comatose was playing....)


dream 2:
I was at a concert. I was up on stage with John, Korey, and Jen. Ben was still gone... We played some songs before I woke up... SADFACE SADFACE!!!

Ok. I couldn't get on yesterday so...
1-28-11
dream1. I was at Atlantic...or Ardent...records. I watched as Skillet recorded an acoustic version of a song. It was "Never Surrender". Ben was singing. When they were done, Ben told me that he'd sang 2 others and I got this "ohhh" look on my face. THen I woke up.

dream2. I was with a dream version of Alucinor, I think. I asked him when I'd get better dream control. "Alucinor" told me I would get better after a while. Then I woke up.

Last night.
Dream1. I was at my house. I was in my living room. I held a card that had a pic of Frodo and the ring on it. A RingWraith appeared in my house and demanded I gave him the card. I didn't. I ran into the hallway and we began to negotiate. I saw that the door to my room was open and I ran in there and locked the door. The 7ft tall RingWraith said I'd regret that and I pressed my back against the door, to keep him from forcing it open. He punched it open and I hid behind the door, screaming, "Oh please no. No no no! NO!!!" as he thrust his sword into my side and I screamed, "Oh God help me!! GAHHGHGH!!!!" Then I "died" and woke up @ 2:48am, sweating and freaking out.

non dream dream lucid

I was sitting in my room. Everything seemed normal. I left my room and went to the living room, thinking my parents would be there. They were'nt. I went to my little sister and little brother, who were playing in their room. I asked them where mom and dad were. They said that they were probably in their room, watching a movie. So I went in to their room. They were not there. It looked like they had been, but they were not there now. I panicked and called them on their cell phones. Neither one answered. I called my older brother, Zach, and he didn't answer either. I ran back to my brother and sister and screamed, "The rapture happened, we were left behind!" then I noticed they were no longer there. They had gone too. I didn't understand why I'd been left behind. I've been a Christian all my life. I loved God. I was ao confused. I cried and screamed and kicked everything I could. Then I saw my bible, sitting on my bed, and I cried harder. I went over to my window, outside it was a sickly yellow color, and I prayed to God to give me a second chance. I knew he wouldn't. I had missed it. Now I was doomed to the same fate as everyone else who had been left behind. I walked to my school, and went into the band room. My best friends, Emily, Daniel, Keygan, and Jared were there (Jared is also my boyfriend). Both Emily and Daniel are Christians like me and they knew what was going on, but like me they didn't know why they'd been left behind. I looked at Jared and Keygan who were confused and said, "Guys, Jesus came back and took all the Christians. It might seem bad now, but it's gonna get worse." Jared embraced me crying and said, "You were right! All those times you told me about God, you were right! Why didn't I listen to you!?" I hugged him back and said into his ear, "Give your heart to God, he's the only one who can let us survive this. Please. Do this for me." Jared nodded, still crying uncontrollably, and he gave his heart to God. Keygan did too, and he was crying. I reached into a bag I was carrying, it had bibles in it, and I gave one each to Keygan and Jared. Emily and Daniel had one with them. We left the school building and went to my house. We all cried and prayed. I held on to Jared, sobbing into his shoulder. Emily, Daniel, and I didn't know at all why we had been left behind. Jared softly kissed my cheek in an attempt to comfort me. Then they all went to their homes. I felt so alone. My family was gone. I had been the only one left behind. I loved God just as much as they did, but I was so confused. The next "day" we all met back in the band room and discussed who the Anti-Christ might be. We had no idea. Suddenly, someone was in the room with us. He looked evil and we ran from him, going through a corn field and ending up at my house. There we stayed for "days", not daring to leave the house. Outside there were people cutting down the little woods that was near us. We held bible study every day, it seemed to be the only thing keeping us alive. One "morning" I "woke up" and looked outside, the trees there were gone now. Jared walked up to me, and I told him, "What if this is all a dream? If it is, I want to wake up NOW." the dream went fuzzy, causing me to go lucid, and I told myself to not wake up. I looked at Jared with teary eyes and said, "This is a dream. When we wake up, everyone will still be there." Then I embraced him, kissing him slightly. He asked me if he and the others were dreaming too. I said, "I don't know. But if you are, then I hope you have learned from this dream, and that in the waking world, you'll give your heart to God just like you did here. I love you. I'm going to wake up now." Then I grabbed his hand. And I saw myself fade away as I woke up. This was one of the most vivid dreams I've ever had in my life.

non dream dream lucid dream

here is the dream I had last night
I was walking on a road close to my house. Suddenly there was a big dog that looked really angry. I stared at it for a little while and then I realised it was gonna attack me. It lunged for me, trying to take a bite outa my leg. I didn't wanna hurt it but I could see I didn't really have much of a choice. So I hit it and then I tought. Wait, that dog's bark is weird! In fact, it sounds like me cough! (I have bronchitus) This is a dream! Then I became lucid. I jumped away from the dog and began flying!!! I flew all around town, it was like a birds eye view! It was so fun! Then I woke up.

Here is a dream I had a year ago. Last night's dream made me think of this one.
I was in my backyard, sitting next to a tree. And there was a male tabby cat sitting next to me. We were talking. I know, I'm a cat freak, and that's why I dreamed about a talking cat (haha!). Then suddenly the cat ran away and a big, black, evil wolf with gleaming red eyes appeared. I jumped up in sheer terror and clung to a tree. One of my feet slipped and I tried kicking the wolf. I hit it and it looked REALLY mad. I slipped and fell off the tree, right in front of the wolf. I kicked him again and he grabbed my left hand, biting it in the center and scratching it underneath the circle. Kinda like this o except imagine the line closer to the circle. Then the wolf ran away, leaving me laying on the ground, my hand _ bleeding like heck. The male tabby cat came back to me, his brown eyes gleaming with fear. (oh my gawsh I should write a story about this!!!!) He took me to another cat. It was a female cat. She had calico fur and green eyes. She put her paw on my bleeding hand and looked it over. She licked the blood away to reveal that the wounds were quite deep, the bite almost going completely through my hand, and that they were slightly infected. The male tabby looked at me seriously, and he said, "I must get something for this wound. Don't worry, I'll be back. Don't worry about me." Then he left, leaving me with the female calico. Her eyes watched the place where he'd left. It seemed like a long time passed, and he hadn't come back yet. We were very worried for the tabby. The calico looked at me and said, "He is not coming back..." I swear, there were tears in her eyes. My hand by then was almost totally purple and black from infection. I asked the calico, "What are we going to do." She said, "Nothing... We can do nothing." He eyes seemed to burn holes into me, her serious tone telling me that it was more serious than a wounded hand. Then suddenly the dream turned into blackness and I woke up. Immediatly once I woke up I looked at my left hand, it hurt so freaking bad when I woke up, but the pain quickly faded.

Here is another from 3 years ago I'd like to share. (my mom thinks the dream means something. Just wanna know what you guys think, because a few months ago, before I told her of my dream, she had a similar dream)
I was in a green van with my family. We were driving down a long road. Everyone in the van, my family, were depressed looking. I looked out my window, to the right, and I saw that there were blue and red tornadoes sucking up all the wheat in the fields and destroying everthing. There was a barn too, burnt and falling apart. But in the middle of all the destruction, there was a white calf, standing in the only patch of ground that wasn't destroyed. It was surrounded by light and the grass it was standing on was so green, with flowers surrounding it. I remember it all so clearly. Then I woke up.

I am sick with strep right now and I dreamed of this last night:



I was at school and I had a bucket-like thing filled with icewater and shut with a lid. I kept my head on this because I had a horrible headache. Then someone from my church was there, but in the dream she was the school's principle, and she said "Okay, anyone who needs to go to the nurse has to go to the library instead of the nurse's room because we're doing work on it." Then she left and I begged my teacher to let me go to the nurse. As soon as I did, my friend Ryan got up and puked on someone's desk. Then my friend Hannah walked up to me and said "I will take you. Come on, Jessie." but when I followed her, I lost sight of her and got lost. Then suddenly I was on some sort of ledge that was above the cafeteria. I was really afraid and got back to the hallway. I found a place in the school that looked like a train station and I sat next to a girl and guy. Then suddenly we were outside. I saw something that looked like Disney World and I was really confused. Then I was back at the train station like place and the ground started moving. I was shoved under the little place under the wall and I think I got crushed. It hurt then I woke up.

Here is a dream that made me wanna barf

I was in school, in science class actually, and I was sitting next to my friend Hannah. She looked really ill and I asked her if she was alright. She said she felt like she was gonna throw up. Then she got up, ran to the trash can...and did. Then it was the end of the school day and I sat at a computer in the hallway, just playing random games. My science teacher came out into the hallway and sat next to me. (He's like 40 I dunno) He said "Hi Jessica. Watcha doing?" I looked at him kinda freaked out and said "Um...I'm on the internet..." He nodded and put an arm around me and kissed my cheek. I stare at him in horror. "What was that?!" I screamed. He just smiled and watched me as I just looked at the computer.
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I was at home, sitting on the porch. My science teacher showed up and walked towards me. "Hi Jessie" he said, smiling. I suddenly thought "ohh noo" as he sat next to me on the porch. He was wearing shorts and a tank top, which was really freaky. He suddenly got closer to me and put his arm around me once again. I felt a shiver of disgust run through me as he rubbed my arm. "Why-are-you-here" I said, a hint of anger rising in my voice. He only said, "I wanted to see you!" I looked away from him, feeling really akward. "omg he likes me" I thought, shuddering again. I felt so akward and i wanted to get away. But I couldn't move. I felt a hand suddenly on my knee and I saw that it was HIS hand.He squeezed my knee and smiled at me, his eyes had a faint glimmer in them. Then he leaned close to me and kissed me. I pulled back, finally able to move, and I screamed. I ran away from him, feeling violated. I felt like I had been raped. I hid from him. He was looking for me. After that I woke up.

Ohhh whyyy didn't I forget that one?! Now I'm gonna feel akward when I see my science teacher next. Ughhh

I had two dreams last night... (none were lucid)

I was outside at my house. I heard multiple meows near me. So I looked around. There were a bunch of cats just sitting there looking sad. I think there were about 20. I picked them up and let them stay in our little "playhouse". Then there were a bunch of mice and the cats went crazy...Then I woke up...

I was in band practice. Well, band practice was over, and I went over to my friend "Em" and we walked down the stairs. Suddenly, we were in something that seemed like a scary game. It made me kinda think of Jumonji (or however you spell that). We were in some sort of container. We had to find a way out. There were fake snakes and there was a snake shaped gouge in the wall. So we picked up the snakes and shoved all of them into this until we found one that fit. Then the door opened and we received a bronze charm that looked like a snake. We went through about three more, each different and more difficult each time. We got charms once we completed each of those. Then I was suddenly with my little brother. We went through about seven. They were insanely hard by now and my little brother, being only seven, (even though he's really smart) started to cry. He was scared. We had to get out of this! They just kept appearing and we couldn't get out! Finally, when we had about 20 0f the charms, we came to what was the last, so called "challenge". We had to climb up the "eiffel tower" in KingsIsland. We climbed up the stairs, it was raining and storming. I held on to my little brother, who was shaking like a leaf, asnd we climbed. Finally we were at the top. We got another charm(this one shaped like the eiffel tower) and we poofed back home. Then I woke up. That was a freakin' scary dream!! Heck man, that, for some reason, seemed freakin' real!

I had two dreams last night... (none were lucid)

I was outside at my house. I heard multiple meows near me. So I looked around. There were a bunch of cats just sitting there looking sad. I think there were about 20. I picked them up and let them stay in our little "playhouse". Then there were a bunch of mice and the cats went crazy...Then I woke up...

I was in band practice. Well, band practice was over, and I went over to my friend "Em" and we walked down the stairs. Suddenly, we were in something that seemed like a scary game. It made me kinda think of Jumonji (or however you spell that). We were in some sort of container. We had to find a way out. There were fake snakes and there was a snake shaped gouge in the wall. So we picked up the snakes and shoved all of them into this until we found one that fit. Then the door opened and we received a bronze charm that looked like a snake. We went through about three more, each different and more difficult each time. We got charms once we completed each of those. Then I was suddenly with my little brother. We went through about seven. They were insanely hard by now and my little brother, being only seven, (even though he's really smart) started to cry. He was scared. We had to get out of this! They just kept appearing and we couldn't get out! Finally, when we had about 20 0f the charms, we came to what was the last, so called "challenge". We had to climb up the "eiffel tower" in KingsIsland. We climbed up the stairs, it was raining and storming. I held on to my little brother, who was shaking like a leaf, asnd we climbed. Finally we were at the top. We got another charm(this one shaped like the eiffel tower) and we poofed back home. Then I woke up. That was a freakin' scary dream!! Heck man, that, for some reason, seemed freakin' real!