lucid

Going to bed 1
Goals: Recall
9 Dancing in the Rain Was at an amusement park with my brother and sister, just walking around in between rides. We are watching this huge ride that swings peoople all over the place when it comes loose and goes flying through the air. I rem thinking about how badly people would get injured because there is nothing protecting them from what they might crash into, It tumbles to the ground as me and my siblings talk and gasp about it. When this happens i start to question whether or not im dreaming. I start to look at my hand and quickly notice that my pinky is short and stubby like a thumb. As soon as i realize im dreaming it starts raining.

I begin running around in circles and just focus on feeling the rain and really being there in the dream. The rain starts to feel pretty intense on my skin, i even start singing that song "feel the rain on your skin"( lol) Unfortunatel the stabilization didnt work too well and the dream started going black. I was in a void and i decided to try and teleport back to the amusement park. I imagine where i want to go and start screaming with the intention, screaming so loud that i worry i may be doing so in waking life as well, i start to see something appear, i try to use my hands to interact with it but i end up moving my "real" hands and can feel my blanket,

as real as it seemed it turned out to be a fa, i rem getting up from bed and heading into the bathroom, dont rem what i do, i rem coming back and realizing i still havent wrote my lucid in my dj, i get ready to do so, dont rem afterwards, i awoke later pretty confused but still remembered the lucid.

*Flash of being in the woods with my brother and some others. We are watching someone through binos on the other side of the park, apparently there are people after us and they know were over here. All else i rem is my dad driving his truck to our area, i rem some dude who mustve been a park ranger or something showing him the way.

Weed Summoner: Had a dream that i got into the passenger seat of jessicas car outside of my house and we took off somewehre. As soon as we start driving i notcie that in the distance i can see the ocean, it spans the entire horizon despite being in a neighborhood. When i see this the first thing i think is im dreaming. I hand rc but it fails, i keep staring at the ocean and talking to jessica about it, we keep questioning it until i hand rc again and have some extra fingers. I yell,i knew we were dreaming, and tell jessica to stop the car. To my surprise she pulls over immediately, for some reason i thought she might keep driving, and i get out, telling her to follow me.

We get out and stand in the middle of the street, throughout this whole dream i was hearing really strange sounds, i want to fly so i ask jessica to help me. I try to lift off but it doesnt work, before long i just suggest we smoke dreamweed instead. We head to my house, I get inside and hear a lot of noise again, i rem when i opened the front door it like ran over my cat, i knew i was dreaming so i didnt really worry about it, i rem my sister yelling something, i go to the back of the house and tell my sister were dreaming.

I walk into my room and decide to try and summon some weed, i find an empty bag that was in my room irl and held it between my hands, imagining what it would feel like if a bud was in there. I do this for a few moments when i see lights flashing in the bag and feel a bud form in my hands. I look inside and there is a giant nug, i smell it and its kind of a mild skunky smell. I hand it to jessica and she takes a wiff, i start to get it ready on the table, the whole time reminding myself im dreaming, i dont rem rolling it up but we end up with a joint somehow anyway, i rem hearing all kinds of strange traffic noises, i look out the window and see nothing unusual.

Then the dreams shifts, causes me to lose a little lucidity but only for a moment, im now outside on the deck, and it keeps changing into another deck ive never seen before, jjessica is smoking a joint, and these two dcs are walking towards us. She says something about them being her family or something and kind of hides the joint. They keep walking towards us until they are just standing next to us. I remind myself its a dream and decide to try and fly again, this time i stand still and just imagine i am weightless, i dont try for long and still no success. Instead i try to impresss some dcs, i decide to summon more weed.

I find the same bag, on a different table on the deck, i do the same thing, the light flashses, this time i was trying really hard to get some purple weed. When i summon it i pull it out and show the dcs, they both seem very surprised. I get quite surprised too when i pull the bud out and it looks like a giant purplish turd. I rem noticing strange veigns in the bud/poo, and it was really sticky, not in a weed way though. I just rem handing it to one of the dcs, then i wake up.

I go lucid in my bros room when something happens with my cat to make it obvious, i get really excited and start running around the house frantically. When i calm myself down i take a good moment to stabilize the dream, rubbing my hands together and controlling my breathing, everything feels really stable and looks good, like waking life, my pinky and ring finger look quite unnatural and sometimes nonexistant, i also rem seeing a random stranger in my house but i just ignored them.

I quickly try and think of my goals, i actually have a really hard time remembering them in this dream but i finally remember i am supposed to use super powers. I go outside to try to fly, I start flapping my arms like wings and jumping in the air like an idiot, it doesnt work despite trying for quite a lot of dream time, for a moment i was hesitant to act so silly outside but a few more reality checks gave me the confidence.

After trying for a while i hear someone call me, they say hey. I turn to my right and in my yard is this dude i used to know from high school soccer, frank. He has no legs and is sitting down in the grass with a collection bowl for money. He tells me that to get it to work i have to go visit Arsenal, in england. I had no idea what he meant but i just said ok, when i did i rem seeing a bunch of dudes in arsenal jerseys in my minds eye, when i stop seeing them i am back in my house, while in my house i can hear a song by rishloo playing, cant rem which one but i was jamming to it in the dream.

I am excited and making a lot of noise, my bro yells at me from his room, i tell him were dreaming, hes no longer upset but starts asking me if i rem dreams like this every night. I told him my recall has been bad lately and not every night. I head into the living room and decide to try and play with some guns. I go get my airsof gun out of the garage and try to imagine its real, i point and shoot it at the back of my house but nothing.

Next i go into my living room and try to grow dragon wings to fly with, doesnt work no matter how hard i imagine. I rem my bro, who is sitting on the couch now, said i just need to try harder and had some other shapeshifting tips. At this point i decide to try pyrokenesis. When i get the idea i grab a lighter from my pocket, its blue, i light it, i move my hand over and around the flame and then take my hand away from the flame, a flame follows my hand and then goes out. I try again, this time i get a nice flame in my hand and throw a fireball across the room, at my bro who is now sitting on the couch, the firebally was pretty small but when it hit it flared up. It hit his shirt and had no effect on him or the shirt. I continue to bend the fire for a bit.

I cant rem what but here something causes me to close my eyes and i quickly lose the dream, i think to myself, ok lets just wake up so we can write this down. I focus on waking up and not going into another dream, this starts a quite long fa.

I remember waking up and its already past 10( i have to do something at 10 today) I am with jessica and we are getting ready to go. Shes telling me about her dreamss and i tell her i had a pretty nice lucid one, i especially mention the succsesful firebend. We are sitting in my living room eating some weird wraps with red tortillas. I keep trying to find a way to write down my lucid dream in the fa. At one point i was gonna write it on some napkins but finally i tell jessica im gonna go get my computer to write it down. I think i may have one other fa after this before finally waking up. Still remembered the lucid quite well though.

Went to bed 12:30
Goals: MILD
8:34 You're Out of Here Had a dream i was in my bros room talking to rachel about something, i go into her bathroom and keep talking, as i finish a sentence i turn around to look more torwards the door. Somehow i can still see rachel from here, but there is also a complete stranger in the bathroom with me. It looks like a lady who lives across the street, except younger and her hair looks to be dyed white or something, she is looking at me and has a very creepy smile. When i see her i freak out and start yelling at her, who are you, get the f out of here, she just smiles and walks away from me into my bros room, she gives me an evil vibe. For some reason in the dream i just get so scared by this lady, i follow her into the next room and grab her by her hair, when i do this i say to myself, im dreaming. Im still quite frightened by how sudden the lady appeared and i have no proof its a dream yet, dont rc because im holding the ladys hair, so i decide to toss her out the sliding glass door. I fling her by her hair towards the door, she goes flying through it at high speed, breaking glass and then flying across the backyard and hitting a side fence. When i did this rachel said , whoah and was quite surprised. I just rem thinking, that was a pretty sweet way to get rid of someone, unfortunately i opened my real eyes here.

Went to bed 12:15-12:45
Goals: Detailed recall
6:40 I rem being at school and seeing that girl heather sitting down at a table, she is looking at magic cards, she asks if i will be at a tournament next week, i say im definitely thinking about going. She starts saying that in her last tournament she made it to the last round. I ask her if shes any good and she kind of just lets her previous statement answer for her, dont rem much else.

*I rem walking through my house, going to the bathroom, there are huge houseplants in the hallway blocking it, two very big ones uprigt, and a third lying on its side with spilled dirt and water all over the floor, the pot is in a plastic container. When i see this i say im dreaming. I start doing hand rcs but they fail one after another, giving me the correct ammount of fingers each time. I still really thought i was. i rem thinking that in a recent dream my hand rc failed and i should nose rc just to be sure, i start pinching my nose and trying to breathe, i can breathe but it feels like the air is just slipping through because my nose is runny, i continue doing this but never go fuly lucid.

*Just went on dv real quick, when i saw nitos picture it reminded me of a flash where i got my lip pierced. I cant rem where i was or much of anything else i just rem getting it done and leaving, when they put the needle through i could feel it go through a like ball in my lip, it felt very uncomfortable and started bleeding like chunky blood. I just rem leaving, its really bright and green outside, im on the pavement, i rem thinking about the piercing, feeling the thin ring on the right side of my lip, wondering what others would think as well. Dont rem much else.

8:24 Some Good Juice I was having my reocurring dream where i have a school assignment that im not ready for, and its due. Im in the house walking out to the study thinking about it when i realize its a dream. Instantly all of the anxiety about school melts away, I hand rc and my two middle fingers are very short, i get so excited and yell im dreaming, i run out to the garage, when i realzed i was dreaming the door floated closed, i kick it right back open.

Rachelle is sitting in the chair out there, i tell her lim dreaming, she seems to believe me and gets really excited, i tell her to smile, she does, i continue to ask her to smile bigger and bigger wondering if her face will stretch or something but it all looks pretty normal. I stop that and walk back into the dining room. I decide to nose pinch, i do so and for the second time tonight take some dream breaths, it felt the same as in the previous dream, almost as if i was able to breathe because my nose was runny or something. I rem my goal is to stabilize using senses, i look at my hand, two short middlefingers again, just as my sis comes in from outside.

Shes wearing a strange hat and shades, the hat is pink, i tell her, we are dreaming bitch, she says whatever bitch and starts walking down the hallway, i laugh and say dude we really are dreaming though, as i spin around. I rem my goal and head to the kitchen, i open up the fridge and grab a carton of red juice. I take a swig, it tastes very fruity but at the same time more hearty and wholesome then juice in waking life. While drinking juice i rem wondering how long this dream will last. I remind myslef that the longer i believe it will last the longer it will and i stop thinking about it.

After the juice tasted so good i want to try some good weed, i also want to complete my task, i start to head back to my room when i notice there is no curtain on the door, its overcast outside, our neighbor comes to the front door. I get in the hallway, rachelle and my sister are talking about my neighbor, saying they could hear her walking up from where they were, i hear this and think about it too much and i lose lucidity.

We go to the door, my neighbor is telling us some story and somehow i was involved. She hands me a warrant for my arrest and tries to give me a hug, in the dream im very angry and say please dont try to comfort me right now.

*Had a dream that my bro and sister were in my sisters room with the door closed, the whole house looks different but has the same rooms. I just rem they had a lot of bottles of gatorade, i rem drinking a bit of some red gatorade, wondering if they wanted it.

Going to bed: 2:00
Goals:WILD, MILD, Stabilize
7:OO Flash of watching a soccer highlight video. I just rem watching a player in orange recieve the ball and kick it over the goalies head.

8:50 Lost in the Void Had a dream that i was in my house in the living room area, no lights are on in the whole house as if there is no power. I dont know how this all starts exactly but there are two armed gunmen in the house, they are in the study, its quite dark in all of the rooms so i dont actually see them. In the dream i feel like there are supposed to be cops or something helping us but never see any. I rem going out into the study, still cant see anything, i hear one of them say something about fighting their way out, im really low to the ground when they say this, as they do i look up and imagine red bullets flying overhead.

I leave the study and walk into the living room. I see a small sawed off shotgun on the ground. I pick it up and walk back a bit towards the kitchen. When i do there is a fat guy with a gun in the dining room, he is pointing the gun towards my back door, i walk into my kitchen and get behind a counter for cover, i point the sawed off shotgun right at him and shoot, the blast hits him right in the chest and he falls to the ground.

I thought he was done but when i look back he is lying prone and still pointing his gun towards the back of the house, my sister walks out of the hallway and he begins to shoot at her. I point the shotgun at him again and shoot but it wont fire, i walk up to him and start hitting him in the head as hard as i can with the shotgun, i rem it even hurting my hand to swing so hard. I knock that guy out, but rem there is another one in the study, i ditch the gun and head to the back of the house.

Im pretty scared at this point in the dream as i have no self defense, i tell my sister to follow me and i walk into my brothers room. My sister doesnt listen and is acting like everything is normal, she goes to her room. I peek out into the hall and call her again, i look the other way and see a shadow walking through the living room, im really scared at this point, my sister finally gets in the room and i slam the door shut and lock it, just as i sense something coming down the hall, the timing was way too close. Still quite scared i start to panic a bit, i dont know if it was a defence mechanism but i realize im dreaming.

I say outloud i am dreaming, and instantly all the fear of the situation is gone. Its extremely dark in my bros room so when i realize it the dream fades to darkness and im in like a void, i focus on trying to enter another dreamscene, i rem the dark changed to a bright white light and i saw the number 37 i think, it looked like the adress to a house or something, still trying to renter a dream until the 37 is gone and im just staring at my eyelids.

Going to bed 1:00-1:30
Goals: Detailed recall
5:08 Just rem talking to jess, maybe her bro to, i think about a song, i rem the number 3 being significatnt

6:36 I just rem being in a restaurnant and waiting for something in particular to be out on this buffett table. I just rem watching it as an employee goes back and fourth between there and some room adding more to the table each time.

8:20 Had a dream i was standing in line for something school realated, the line is quite long and where i am standing the only person i recognize is janade from a long time ago. In the dream i think her name is sarah. I tell her, last night i dreamt this exact scene, standing in line and you being here.

9:OO Briefly Exploring the Dreamworld Me and jesicas brother are in school for a class, somehow i become lucid. I dont think i tell him or anything, in the dream it felt like i had dreamed this scenario already so i knew it was a dream. This dream shifts like crazy, sometimes i just think of where i want to go or what i want to do and its happening. This actually made it quite difficult to remember and piece together but i gave it my best shot.

I leave the school and i am outside in the dark down the street from my house, a small walkway leads down from the entrance of the school to my street, people here and there on the walkway. The dream is shifting like crazy and i dont even rem traveling most of the time, im just somewhere new. i get to my house and go inside, i tell my brother im dreaming. The dream shifts and i rem being in like vietnam or something with some local, dude with black shirt dark skin dark hair, and we are in a house that is collapsing, the house has a giant beam in the center, Firs the center room falls in like a sink hole, then rooms on each side of the house, we run out of the house and hide for a bit from people passing by a road, they look like refugees or something and give us weird looks when they see us.

we hide under a food trough protected by many plants it has a red dead redemption feel to it. just sand all around and montains in the distance, inside of the fence around the house everything has kind of a tropical feel, outside the fence is more like west texas or something. We get up just as a girl passes and follow her down into a valley. She is telling us something and trying to help us, she wants to give us something but i cant rem what. Down in the valley the local left and i rem standing with that girl and her horse i think. She had changed in appearance from before, first she had dark skin and dark hair and was somewhat attractive, now much lighter skin and hair and kind of strange looking.

I randomly start kissing her when we are down there, it was weird i just walk up to her, she looks at me and i think gets ready to say something when i start kissing her. i rem her mouth and tongue felt really cold and tasted quite strange, it grossed me out, so i quickly stopped, she kept trying to kiss more and i kind of had to push her away. I stop and she tells me about something but i dont really pay attention. The dream shifts and I end up back home and tell my bro we are dreaming again, that i have been in a dream for a while now and i try to remember some of it. I sit down, in the floor in my room, in lotus to meditate and try to rem but im too excited and quickly get back up.

I get up thinking i want to smoke, i ask my bro if he does, he says yes, i go into my room and get some weed, it looks like good stuff but pretty much the same as what i have in waking life, i ask my bro what does it feel like to be a dream character, he says something like, hmm idk what did i say last time you asked. i start to break some weed up but before i finish i change my mind and go outside. When i walk outside it is like a theme park, there is a ferris wheel in the distance, some other rides on each side, and many people walking around, it is beautiful outside, sun is shining, sky is blue, i seem to be standing on some sort of boardwalk.

I want to ride a skateboard and without even finding one i start riding, i go across this wooden bridge that takes me down to some area lower in the park almost like a parking area, i think about trying some tricks but dont because im afraid of hurting myself, I lose the skateboard and walk down a small road towards a building. i rem going inside the building with, theres an escalator. I ride the escalator down into some room, there are people behind a counter up front and people sitting in rows on either side, it reminds me of jury duty, the room is blue and grey.

Cant rem what i did in there, i rem going back up the escalator when somehow the dream shifts and im back in the neighborhood, i head towards my yard and start thinking of dream goals, I decide to eat something so i go to my neghbors tree and look for fruit on the ground, now its dark outside, i rem tripping out at the way the dreamtrees looked at night, i pick up a smal black fruit but its also juicy like its already been bitten into so i throw it in the street. i go into my yard, its day now and pick up a small blackish blue rock and eat it, it cracks in half with very little pressure in my mouth and becomes chalky, it tastes terrible, i spit it out.

I end up back inside, i rem one time thinking about my real body, when i did this the scene got very yellow, like yellow spots were bursting into my vision, but i was able to stabilize in time by rubbing something that was randomly in my hand, i rem a small rock. I rem going out into the study and there being a random dc there, light skin, i think maybe red or light brown hair, looks anywhere from 16 to my age. For whatever reason i start trying to manifest a gun to shoot him with. First i use my fingers and make sound effects, then i rem the airsoft guns out there, i pick up one and pretend it is real,, i pretend to shoot the guy, it no longer appears i am holding an airsoft gun, just my hand. I shoot him and he falls back as if he was faking getting hit.

I try to summon a sword by stretching out my hand and imaginging it but it doesnt work. I head back to my room. I rem my bro sitting in my room and im trying to teleport from one side of the room to the other. I try imagining viewing the scene from a different spot. It doesnt work so i try to teleport behind him. I pretend to start running and then i blink but it didnt work. I sit down and my sister comes in. I tell her ive been dreaming for a long time, im afraid i wont be able to rem it all but i dont want to wake up. I tried recapping everything in my head. Now no body is in the room with me, i decide to look at my dream jorurnal, i pull it up, and lay down on my bed.

the dj looks pretty close to waking life except my list of goals is longer and the print is bold in certain spots. The window is also much bigger than i usually have it. I dont rem what goals are listed but i rem when i read them they all seemed correct. I rem thinking about how stable the text is despite people often saying its hard to read in dreams. I was going to try and write this entry now, in dream, so i could rem better when i wake but I start to see yellow spots again and before you know it im staring at my eyelids

Went to bed 1:15-1:30
Goals: Teleport
8:54 The Teleportation Device Im in my house in my bros room and i go lucid. I check my hands and only count five fingers but i am convinced so i check again and count only one with my hand being shaped really weird. I check many times throughout the dream and the most common one is fingers coming out of my other fingers. I start to get excited but i quickly calm myself down and decide what i should do. First i head to my bathroom to look in the mirror. On the way as i exit my bros room i rub my hands together. The dream feels really stable, and exactly like waking life. I dont rem doing much in the bathroom. I decide to head to the living room.

My bro is in there and i tell him we are dreaming but he just ignores me and asks if i want something to snack on. This reminds me of my lucid goal to eat so i say sure and head to the kitchen. When i get there and look i quickly change my mind and decide to head outside instead. I cant rem why i changed my mind. I go outside and start walking around my frontyard. I was going over everthing that had happened so far to help me rem. Once again i am amazed by the quality of the dream and would easily mistake it for waking life. I remember crouching down and looking at the ground to stabilize, it was so detailed, every blade of grass some green others brown or yellow.

I looked up at the sky and noticed there were mostly rainclouds. At first i thought i would try to make it rain but instead decided to make lightning strike. I focused on a cloud and imagined lightnig falling from it. I imagined seeing and hearing it. A second later a loud bolt of lightning formed and fell from the cloud. I almost lost my shit at this point i was so happy to have dream control working. I did it again in different spots of the cloud, doing it several times until im satisfied, i rem three times. I decide to head back in. When i do my bro and sister are in the kitchen. I tell my sister that we are dreaming.

Now i want to smoke so i tell them that and head for my room. When i get there the lights are off and i dont want to mess up my lucidity so i go into my bros room instead. Rachelle is there and is watching tv, i go get some weed and head to tthe kitchen. I hand it to my bro and for a moment just reflect on the dream. I rem thinking how happy i was to be in such a stable lucid with dream control. My brother rolls up the weed insanely fast and when hes done he has multiple kinds even though i just brought some crappy weed. He hands me a joint saying its the best one and i light it up. I notice he did a terrible job rolling it, and the end i am lighting is spilling weed all over. I get it lit and take a couple hits off of it before handing it back. I remind them we are dreaming and tell them about the lightning.

Then i say ok guys im gonna teleport and i turn to my pantry door. I start at the bottom left and draw my fingers up tracing the door. As i do this a blue dotted line outlines the frame. I flip out so excited that all my dream control is working. The room turns into a large wooden box and i step inside. I rem the door of the box for some reason had a small pot plant growing in the side of it and when you closed the door it clamped the leaves. I moved the plant. There was also a shit load of stuff on the floor but i just ignored it and i think it went away. I put my hand on the wall to the right and looking away imagined there were buttons. I felt the controls manifest instantly under my fingers. I looked and there was a lightswicth and a nob. I did it again on the very front of the door and created another console with many buttons.

I put my hand on it and said repeatedly in my mind, take me to my room in the dream castle/ I imagined my teleportation room shakiing violently and moving upwards. I started to feel it and it was like being on a rollercoaster. I start to close my eyes hoping that it will help create the new dreamscene. I open my eyes a bit and am still in my box and as i start to close them again i feel the dream fading. I decide to just roll with it and try to DEILD. It feels like my dream body flips upside down and starts falling until i land in my real body. It was incredibly strange sensation/. I lay still and soon fall back to sleep into a false awakening but i lose awareness. The time in the fa was 10 something when real time was 854. Luckily the fa didnt last long and when i woke up for real it only took me a second to sort it out. I just hope i didnt forget any good details during my fa. Had a shitload of fun though and am so glad to finally have some success with my dream control

5:OO Was on the computer on a site that looks like dv but im not there for help with a dream, instead im getting help with some video game. The game is a fighting game and the only character i rem you can choose from is buster from arrested development.(Haha) Im getting help by using some chat/game where you bounce around side scrolling, using an emoticon, the level looks like something from little big planet.

Im not using an emoticon in the dream but someone else is, they are leading the way with a big smiley, my char is just some little animated figure with a blue shirt. At some point we are no longer getting help with the game but the other emoticon assumes like a guardian role and starts trying to lead me to a safe in the game. They dont say it but in the dream i know they want to lock me in the safe or something, it seems the guardian figure is upset with me for smoking.

LUCID 7:14 At the park with my mom and sister and we are just walking around exploring. There are some other people walking around the park too, a random group of dudes that look a bit younger than me, like still in high school. I look at my hand to do a reality check and i notice my pinky finger is coming off of another finger like an extension. I know im dreaming but do a reality check again anyway, interestingly it doesnt work so well the second time, looks like i have 5 fingers, but im already convinced.

I yell this is a dream and I start rubbing my hands together like crazy just reallly focusing on what it feels like and trying to stabilize the dream. I rem feeling the tension as they rubbed together pretty intensely, so much so that i didnt even feel the rest of my body. I rem my goal is to eat something so i start to look around and consider how i should approach it.

I walk to the top of a small hill and notice the group from before walking through the park. One of them turns and looks at me strange, i think because im still rubbing my hands together. Unfortunately for some reason I wake up here. I rem how strange it felt to be standing in a park one second and then the next to be staring into nothingness and realize its your own eyelids. I didnt really try a DEILD but instead fell back to sleep while thinking about this dream. I started dreaming again but this time non lucid.

*I have a false awakening in some room, looks like a really nice hotel room. I leave the room and find my brother in a room very similar to our living room. I go talk to him and i tell him that i had a lucid dream like 30 min ago, thinking i had just woken from the previous dream. I told him it was cool but really short and he said thats cool. I was kind of confused when i woke from all of this and i forgot some of the fa trying to rem my lucid.

*I rem being outside someones house, a house i dont recognize and just walking around on the deck. They have a bunch of wild rabbits with really long tails, in the dream i was calling them wild hares. I rem seeing one run under the deck and another following it but choosing to go on top of the deck instead, it stops for a moment to look for its friend and then continues on across the deck. It had brown and white spots.

3:48 I rem being briefly lucid in a park like grissom with jessica. Im walking with jessica in the park and i believe i fail reality check several times but something keeps making me want to until i start to notice i have six fingers. I almost didnt notice as i was just looking at my hands and not counting at first, but it looked like too many fingers so i counted. I still had a little doubt from the times it failed but the reality check then consistently gives six fingers so i know im dreaming.

When i realize it i start getting a little too excited, the excitement seems to come in like three intense waves before i finally start walking and rub my hands together and keep it from fading. I start trying to do the first thing that comes to my mind which turns out to be shooting a ball of lightning up into the air. I imagined energy flowing to my hands and then thrust them foward but it did not work. I tried using sound effects but that didnt help either. I try a few times but with no success decide to try and fly. I do the energy thing and thrust my hands towards the ground hoping to send me in the air but i just stay there.

When i do this jessica kind of copys me and makes noises moving her hands too which was pretty funny. I rem jessica was talking to me during this all as well but i was just kind of ignoring her. After trying for a while I started listening to something she said but cant rem. I dont rem past this so i must have lost lucidity because i didnt wake up right after this dream.

Wednesday May 25 2011
7:00am

I was walking around in the backyard and i realized i was in a dream. Nothing really happened to trigger it specifically and my hand reality check did not even work but i just knew i was dreaming. I told lissa who was back there about it and said my reality checks didnt work but i rem going to sleep this is a dream. Im walking around the backyard and i decide to try and cast some fire spells. I decide to say it outloud to make it more effective and when i get ready i hear a deep voice in my head that is not me say fireball or blaze? like it was asking if i was sure what spell i wanted. I said fire ball aloud and moved my hand toward the roof of the deck. I saw yellow and a bit of red and orange light start to form in my hand and then saw a fireball although very small and not too vivid shoot from my hand and fly towards the house. It didn do anything to the house and kind of just dissapeared.

I tried to do some other fire spells but couldnt get anything else to work. On the side of the house i tried to make a wall of fire but nothing happened. I decide to try some passive control instead. I turn to lissa and say rem that plant ive been growing on the side of the house thats just ripe now. She said yeah as if she either knew i was dreaming or she was just playing along with my new plot. We head over ther to the side of the house with the water heater but i couldnt find the pot plant anywhere, only saw weeds and stuff. I told lissa as we walked towards the center of the backyard that I can find some in a jar but wake up before i get to the deck...

Friday May 20 2011
8:00am

Im outside on the left side of the shed and i see the cat lying in front of the shed facing it and he actually kind of looks dead. I dont see the dog anywhere in the yard and realize i'm dreaming. I look at my hand and two of my fingers look like thumbs. I look again and its the same thing. When i first went lucid i rem hearing a strange vibrating sound but it went away really fast.

I yell out saying im dreaming and running across the yard ready to start flying. I leap into the air and put my arms up like superman. It doesnt qutie work so i keep jumping in the air. I start trying to jump higher and higher and a few times i get pretty high up. The highest i got was about ten feet up. I begin jumping back and fourth over the barrier in the yard and get a good twenty foot leap going. Then i decide to head inside. Before i did one of the last times i tried jumping over the fence one of my feet kinda caught on it but i barely felt it and moved on. I remember on the way in just marveling at how real the deck and back door looked, there was not noticeable dif between it and waking life.

I go inside and go to tell my brother im dreaming. Him and his gf are in the study and everything is literally as detailed as real life. I go tell them and they seem skeptical so i show them my hands and easily i can jump up to the roof but they still dont catch on. I was worried they may try to convince me i wasnt dreaming but they didnt. I figure since i wasnt able to fly i can go smoke some dream weed instead. I go outside in the front yard and see the neghborhood is pretty active. At first im nervous to try smoking but i just remind myself im in a dream. I decide to sit on the chair in the front yard and smoke a joint. I decide that when i reach into my pocket i will find a joint but instead only feel a toothpick. I give up on that and figure ill go inside and get a jar of weed from my room.

On the way im hoping for the jar of purple hash from a previous dream. When im almost to the hallway crystals brother from down the street comes over and asks if i want to play soccer. I know he came over because he mustve seen me sitting in the chair outside but I ignore him and go back to my room but the lights are off and i rem that in dreams its supposed to be hard to change them. I try turning on my ceiling light but it doesnt go on. I then try my floor lamp but it wont work either. Its very dark so i head back out into the hallway and the dream begins to fade so on the way out i start feeling my shorts with my right hand. I dont want to lose it so i sit down in the hallway and start rubbing my hands together and saying outloud i am dreaming i am dreaming. I was worried my brother would see me and think i was crazy but i knew i was dreaming so i kept up with it.

My eyes were closed and i started to peek out and everything was like grey static but i kept rubbing my hands together and the dream scene reformed and i was back in the house in the hallway. I hear melissa come home so i go to the living room to tell her we are dreaming and that im about to smoke dream weed. I go back to my room and now the lights are on, so i walk over to my desk and get a jar and can still see its full of weed, well it has about 4 or 5 buds, way more than i actually had in waking life and it looks like violator kush. I get some papers and get ready to roll it up. I get really happy to have it and am ready to smoke when my bro comes in and starts talking to me about a book where a guy chriogenically freezes himself. The book has large white print on a brown cover, he is standing by the bed and lissa is sitting on it. He keeps talking and for some reason i let myself get engaged in the conversation. Then i wake up damint.