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    My Anti-Social Dream Guide

    by , 06-17-2010 at 01:24 PM (671 Views)
    Sometimes, my dream guide really irks me. But yay, lucidity!

    1- Scary Lucidity
    I am listening to a song on my mp3 player that was written by someone on MM. It's very creepy... Makes me think of Alice in Wonderland. Eventually I get tired and turn it off, intending to go to bed. As soon as I lay down, the song starts playing. Ugh, not THIS song again. Wait, didn't I take my earbuds out already? I sit up and RC. Lucid!

    Suddenly it is very dark in my room. I vaguely think about lights, but I cannot focus enough to make the darkness go away. An aura of fear, of pure terror, weighs down the air, making it somewhat difficult to breathe.

    Annoyed, I walk to the center of my room and stand perfectly still. I picture what I will do to any attacker, even Leroy (who I know is behind this), for coming to me in such darkness with the obvious intent to scare me. But it's just so freaking dark, I can't hold the dream together.
    FA

    ((Note: I know it was Leroy, because fear is his "energy signature." Why he has to be so anti-social, I don't know.))

    2- A Dream of Wakefulness
    I am in MM chat, telling everyone about the lucid dream I just had. Moonbeam tells me that the person who wrote that song is banned from MM, because he stole our "void game." I am appalled. How dare he!?

    Later, I am a guy wandering around a college campus. I hear a "Hey, you," behind me and turn around. A girl is standing in the doorway, looking at me. "The manager told me to look for a Junior, and you're the only Junior around here. Even though you look more like 17 than 20. If you want to join our ranks, go meet Nelson by the band house."
    ((This is pretty much an exact quote of what she said, as I woke up afterwards and wrote it down as quickly as possible.))

    3- Alice in Dreamland
    I am cleaning out my grandmother's house; apparently she's moving. We fight all sorts of strange things in there, my favorite being some type of primitive war machine. It is a cart, with a catapult attached to one side, a removable spiky club attached to the other side, and spikes in the front. Useful for both long ranged attacks and ramming into enemies.

    Later, I am no longer myself, but a girl named Alice. I am standing in a graveyard with friends, sanctifying the grave of our deceased friend, Whisper. I say a spell which animates the concrete Angel used as her gravemarker. It now has her spirit. She thanks me, and offers to help in times of need.

    I am following some weird storyline as I wander further into the graveyard, away from my friends. A narrator says I will get attacked by the thugs who are after me, and my friends won't be able to hear my cries for help. The rational part of me realizes that I could leave now before the thugs find me, but this Alice part of me isn't aware of my future predicament.

    I see my (Alice's) father walk around the side of the church.

    Rational me: *gasp* My father has something to do with those thugs!

    Alice: Hm, I wonder where he's going?

    As I sneak closer, I spot the thugs loading some things into a car. Too late to hide: the short fat one has spotted me! I run, and he give chase. How can he run so fast!? I see my friends over the hill, leaving the cemetery. As predicted, they cannot hear me calling to them.

    Suddenly another of the thugs is standing in my path. This one, however, I know to be friendly. "Alice!" he cries out as I collide into him. He catches me and holds me with my back against his chest.

    "Being... chased..." I pant. Shorty walks up to us.

    "Neil! Good, you got 'er! Let's take 'er to the boss!"

    Neil doesn't move; I can tell he's debating with himself about what to do. Set me free, or follow orders? Right now, I don't really care which one he decides. I know that he'll save me eventually, if not now. Besides, I'm feeling very comfortable in his arms... "Neil, what are you waiting for?" Shorty growls impatiently.

    Neil suddenly lets me go and puts himself between me and the other thug. "Go! Run!" I don't want to leave him, but I must follow the storyline.

    "Thank you," I say, taking off down the sidewalk. I think I am going to get away, but at the intersection I am intercepted by another thug, who looks like Fabio. Damn it! Neil got in trouble for nothing!
    ((At this point, my mom's phone goes off, waking me. No fair... I was going to end up having a romance with Neil...))

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    1. Samael's Avatar
      Suddenly it is very dark in my room. I vaguely think about lights, but I cannot focus enough to make the darkness go away. An aura of fear, of pure terror, weighs down the air, making it somewhat difficult to breathe.
      I'm starting to see the similarity here. Just a thought: if this darkness is anything like the stuff that seeps into my dreams, it reacts better to being accepted (and possibly absorbed) than banished with light. Think of it this way: it's easier to redirect energy and control it, than it is to destroy it once it's been summoned.

      Also, if Leroy skipped over into my dreams, he may be trapped as a plushie right now.
    2. Hazel's Avatar
      I've never thought of it like that, I will have to try it next time. Light represents clarity in my dreams; if there is no light, then I have no control and the dream is very unstable. Normally I use telekinesis to make the sun rise, but under the circumstances that wasn't really an option. I had to put all my effort into keeping Leroy's aura from screwing with my head. It was worse than usual; he must have been angry about something.

      LOL I don't think I could picture Leroy as a plushie.
    3. Samael's Avatar
      LOL I don't think I could picture Leroy as a plushie.
      Maybe that's why he's so mad!

      BTW, I tend to have the same problem with light as you do with darkness. Everybody's different, but dreams/nightmares tend to have overpowering elements only because you let them.

      I think Raven Knight has been experimenting with dark powers, as well. Her dreams are typically based in light energy, so she might be having similar experiences as you. Um, this is one of them, I think.
      Updated 06-17-2010 at 07:56 PM by Samael
    4. Hazel's Avatar
      Because I can't picture him as a plushie? Or because you turned him into one? He's not the type to succumb to something like that.

      I think he may be mad at me because I've been growing closer to the Queen. Or because I've been purposely trying not to think of him. Who knows?
    5. Samael's Avatar
      Haha, you replied just as I was expanding on my comment. I was just joking about the plushie thing. The monster in my dream was made out of my own dark energy, I think, which was why it was so easy to absorb it.

      Possibly. Why don't you ask him?
      Updated 06-17-2010 at 07:59 PM by Samael
    6. Hazel's Avatar
      Glad you pointed it out or I never would have noticed. (Hehe, and I figured you were joking.)

      For one, I'm really not supposed to search for him right now. I told myself that if he wants me, he can come find me. Also, I seriously doubt he would answer. Of course, now I'm way too curious not to try it. I believe it is once again time to try to get information out of him.

      That's very interesting. I normally wouldn't let the darkness be so overpowering; even if I have absolutely NO CONTROL and can't do anything about the lights, I can usually wander around until the problem fixes itself. And I resolved long ago not to let fear have power over me, especially when it comes to Leroy. It's gotten to the point where I almost enjoy the fear.

      I remember how she used to have problems controlling dark energy... What type of energy would you say is predominant in my dreams? While it's true that the light improves my clarity, a lot of my dreams tend to be dark in a more metaphorical sense. The fact that I have an evil DG is a good example of this. (But what is good and evil, really?)
    7. Samael's Avatar
      If he's acting as an antagonist, it would be a good idea to confront him. It's one thing taking advice from benevolent entities, but this guy sounds like he enjoys playing games with you a little too much. In my opinion, it's time to fight back - he's not respecting your boundaries, so you shouldn't respect his.

      In the context of the dream world, of course.

      It's gotten to the point where I almost enjoy the fear.
      I kind of know what you mean. When dark/fear based powers attack me, I usually just let them feed my anger/hunger/bloodlust. I find that these are similar reactions to the fear it's trying to provoke. The way I think of it, I'm diverting the sharp, icy sensation of fear into a calmer, more focused sensation of heat. The great thing about dreams? These things aren't always metaphorical.

      What type of energy would you say is predominant in my dreams?
      I'm not entirely sure. I actually hadn't realized that you're more comfortable with light - I was thinking of you as having an aura similar to mine, just more... spiky. Keep in mind, though, I haven't actually met you in any dreams yet (what was your stance on shared dreaming, again?) so this is more my impression of you on the forums.

      I'm considering, though. If I have an aura based in darkness... My colours are generally red and back, though they're generally calm and swirly. Kind of the feeling you'd get from rainclouds. Recently, that's been shot through with a bright blue, spiky energy that keeps disrupting my dreams. So, if my aura is dark, shot through with uncontrolled light energy...

      Maybe your aura is actually light-based, shot through with uncontrolled dark energy?

      But what is good and evil, really?
      I'd be less concerned about his relative goodness or evilness than his intentions towards you. After all, it's your dreams that he's affecting. If he's wreaking havoc on defenseless DCs, good for him? But when he starts causing problems for you, it's time to confront him.

      Oh, this is fun.
    8. Hazel's Avatar
      If he's acting as an antagonist, it would be a good idea to confront him. It's one thing taking advice from benevolent entities, but this guy sounds like he enjoys playing games with you a little too much. In my opinion, it's time to fight back - he's not respecting your boundaries, so you shouldn't respect his.

      In the context of the dream world, of course.
      I've been told this before, though I have never done anything about it. To me, the entire situation is an enigma, something exciting and new. I may complain about it sometimes, but if I'm entirely honest with myself, I love the games as much as he does. I don't know the true nature of dream guides; some say that they are representations of your subconscious, which I guess is a possibility. However, I believe they're more than that. Regardless, I don't think a person would get stuck with a DG they couldn't handle. Most people wouldn't be able to put up with Leroy and his antics, but because of the type of person I am, I am able to.

      I kind of know what you mean. When dark/fear based powers attack me, I usually just let them feed my anger/hunger/bloodlust. I find that these are similar reactions to the fear it's trying to provoke. The way I think of it, I'm diverting the sharp, icy sensation of fear into a calmer, more focused sensation of heat. The great thing about dreams? These things aren't always metaphorical.
      I've never noticed it before, but this is exactly how I handle it. You can't really be afraid when you're visualizing ripping the enemy to shreds. It's this sensation of heat that you mention, combined with a rush of adrenaline, that makes me enjoy the fear.

      I'm not entirely sure. I actually hadn't realized that you're more comfortable with light - I was thinking of you as having an aura similar to mine, just more... spiky. Keep in mind, though, I haven't actually met you in any dreams yet (what was your stance on shared dreaming, again?) so this is more my impression of you on the forums.
      It's weird. During the day, I dislike light. I much prefer cloudy days to sunny ones, and the cold, dark winter is far more appealing to me than the hot, bright summer. In dreams, it seems to be the other way around. Based on this, what if there's an equal amount of dark and light in my aura, just that the dark energy has blown out of control? There's really only one way to find out. (And yes, I definitely believe that shared dreaming is possible. If you ever come across me in a dream, feel free to examine my aura and tell me what you see.)

      I'd be less concerned about his relative goodness or evilness than his intentions towards you. After all, it's your dreams that he's affecting. If he's wreaking havoc on defenseless DCs, good for him? But when he starts causing problems for you, it's time to confront him.
      Yes, his intentions towards me... That's what it really boils down to. Especially after the freaky name incident... After one of the first few dreams I had of him, I looked up his name and found out it means "The King." It didn't hit me until much more recently that my own name means "Princess." There's that Queen that's been bugging me for a while, too, around the same time I came across Leroy. What's with all the references to royalty? My point is that I really don't think it's a coincidence. So... more questions added to the list, and still no answers.

      Oh, this is fun.
      Yes it is.
    9. Samael's Avatar
      I've been told this before, though I have never done anything about it. To me, the entire situation is an enigma, something exciting and new. I may complain about it sometimes, but if I'm entirely honest with myself, I love the games as much as he does. I don't know the true nature of dream guides; some say that they are representations of your subconscious, which I guess is a possibility. However, I believe they're more than that. Regardless, I don't think a person would get stuck with a DG they couldn't handle. Most people wouldn't be able to put up with Leroy and his antics, but because of the type of person I am, I am able to.
      I'm not saying that you should end the game. Conflict is the main thing that makes dreams fun, and conflict with a reoccurring character is the stuff epic dreams are made of. What I meant was that maybe - maybe - it's time to vary your approach and initiate a confrontation. Just because he's your dream guide doesn't mean you have to listen to him - but it doesn't mean you should get rid of him, either. Just my thoughts.

      It occurs to me that I've actually had a very Leroy-like character in my dreams, who I called "The Lunar God", though I haven't seen him in a while. His appearance was kick-started by a nightmare, and he came back after a year or so of absence to try to kill me a few times. The last time I saw him, I was returning some uber-powerful dreamer-killing bullets in the hopes that I'd get a little respite. So he's probably out plotting somewhere - I'm sure I'll see him again.

      Actually, I'll probably see him the next time I try to get to the moon.

      I've never noticed it before, but this is exactly how I handle it. You can't really be afraid when you're visualizing ripping the enemy to shreds. It's this sensation of heat that you mention, combined with a rush of adrenaline, that makes me enjoy the fear.
      Right. I mean, I've been told that I should stop running away from things in my dreams, but why would I? The chase is exciting whether you're predator or prey, and I would really miss my running dreams if I didn't have them anymore. Fear - or high levels of any emotion - is what makes dreams exciting.

      That said, I really don't like dreams where I can't react. Dreams can be as scary as they want to, but as long as I can run or fight, they don't count as nightmares.

      Based on this, what if there's an equal amount of dark and light in my aura, just that the dark energy has blown out of control?
      I think this is likely. I don't think that anyone's aura would be one solid colour or type; human beings are just too complicated.

      (And yes, I definitely believe that shared dreaming is possible. If you ever come across me in a dream, feel free to examine my aura and tell me what you see.)
      Maybe we should actively try to share dreams; our brains seem to be scarily compatible.

      Yes, his intentions towards me... That's what it really boils down to. Especially after the freaky name incident... After one of the first few dreams I had of him, I looked up his name and found out it means "The King." It didn't hit me until much more recently that my own name means "Princess." There's that Queen that's been bugging me for a while, too, around the same time I came across Leroy. What's with all the references to royalty? My point is that I really don't think it's a coincidence. So... more questions added to the list, and still no answers.
      The first thing I thought of was a deck of playing cards... but I suppose "Princess" wouldn't really fit. Unless you made her the Jack?

      Ah, unanswered questions. You just can't get any closure in dreams, can you? The stories just keep going on and on and on...

      And it's brilliant.
    10. Hazel's Avatar
      I'm not saying that you should end the game. Conflict is the main thing that makes dreams fun, and conflict with a reoccurring character is the stuff epic dreams are made of. What I meant was that maybe - maybe - it's time to vary your approach and initiate a confrontation. Just because he's your dream guide doesn't mean you have to listen to him - but it doesn't mean you should get rid of him, either. Just my thoughts.
      Oh, I must have misunderstood. I have actually tried to get answers from him before, but it has yet to work out in my favor. The most recent time, instead of answering my questions he was going to make me face a whole hoarde of zombies all by myself. But I do believe that it is time to try again. I've gone through a lot since then, so maybe he will finally consider me worthy enough to have a normal conversation.

      It occurs to me that I've actually had a very Leroy-like character in my dreams, who I called "The Lunar God", though I haven't seen him in a while. His appearance was kick-started by a nightmare, and he came back after a year or so of absence to try to kill me a few times. The last time I saw him, I was returning some uber-powerful dreamer-killing bullets in the hopes that I'd get a little respite. So he's probably out plotting somewhere - I'm sure I'll see him again.
      I think any recurring DCs like that, regardless of how hostile, are trying to teach a lesson of some sort. We may find their methods annoying at times, but you have to admit that it makes you stronger. Specifically, I've noticed that since meeting Leroy, I've managed to get a bridle on any fear that has been hindering me. Even to the point where I am able to ignore fear in waking life as well.

      Right. I mean, I've been told that I should stop running away from things in my dreams, but why would I? The chase is exciting whether you're predator or prey, and I would really miss my running dreams if I didn't have them anymore. Fear - or high levels of any emotion - is what makes dreams exciting.
      The only other person I have met who likes to be chased in dreams is my dad. Most people hate it, but I think it is the best feeling ever! I used to provoke DCs just so they would chase me. Even in non-lucids, when the danger seems real, I cannot help but feel the thrill of the chase.

      Maybe we should actively try to share dreams; our brains seem to be scarily compatible.
      Definitely. I'm excited to see how this plays out.

      The first thing I thought of was a deck of playing cards... but I suppose "Princess" wouldn't really fit. Unless you made her the Jack?
      Funny, the first thing I thought of is a chess board. I rather hope I'm not the pawn, though.

      Ah, unanswered questions. You just can't get any closure in dreams, can you? The stories just keep going on and on and on...

      And it's brilliant.
      Which is one of the things that makes it so exciting! Definitely treating my wanderlust, at least....
    11. Samael's Avatar
      I have actually tried to get answers from him before, but it has yet to work out in my favor. The most recent time, instead of answering my questions he was going to make me face a whole hoarde of zombies all by myself. But I do believe that it is time to try again. I've gone through a lot since then, so maybe he will finally consider me worthy enough to have a normal conversation.
      You'll just have to be sneakier than him, then. If you increase your dream control to the point where you can find him and spy on him, you don't need him to tell you. Granted, he'll probably catch you the first couple times and send you packing.

      Who knows, maybe that's what he's waiting for.

      I think any recurring DCs like that, regardless of how hostile, are trying to teach a lesson of some sort. We may find their methods annoying at times, but you have to admit that it makes you stronger. Specifically, I've noticed that since meeting Leroy, I've managed to get a bridle on any fear that has been hindering me. Even to the point where I am able to ignore fear in waking life as well.
      Anyone quite so independently bloody-minded as myself wouldn't have it any other way. Could you imagine being coddled by a DG, and actually relying on them for lesson plans? I think I'd rather learn from my antagonists.

      Funny, the first thing I thought of is a chess board. I rather hope I'm not the pawn, though.
      I hate to use a cliche, but pawns can become queens. Kind of like princesses.
    12. Hazel's Avatar
      You'll just have to be sneakier than him, then. If you increase your dream control to the point where you can find him and spy on him, you don't need him to tell you. Granted, he'll probably catch you the first couple times and send you packing.

      Who knows, maybe that's what he's waiting for.
      Hehe, that seems rather stalkerish. Then again, I know he spies on me as well. That's a good suggestion. If he refuses to answer my questions yet again, I'll just find out for myself.

      Anyone quite so independently bloody-minded as myself wouldn't have it any other way. Could you imagine being coddled by a DG, and actually relying on them for lesson plans? I think I'd rather learn from my antagonists.
      That'd be terrible. Antagonists are so much more fun than nice characters.

      I hate to use a cliche, but pawns can become queens. Kind of like princesses.
      Wow... "You know, you could be Queen if you wanted to." I think I might have realized what's going on here. But yet another theory doesn't mean much unless I get some more information.