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    Past, present and future - Shinave

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    Hyu
    , 06-06-2012 at 12:38 PM (1006 Views)
    Too much conversation.
    Some things are going to be phrased incorrectly etc, I tried to patch it up as well as I could.
    Usually I use pink and brown to color code female and male DC voices, but there's 2 women this time,
    so I'll use pink and green, pink being Yuya.


    There's no more messing around.
    Going anywhere but Haven feels dangerous.
    Whenever I'm on the plane I can feel the Templars scanning for my aura.
    It is inevitable that they will find me if I linger for too long.
    Haven is one of the only places I feel safe. The barrier prevents them from locating my aura when I'm here.

    But I cannot remain here forever.
    Not only am I imprisoning myself here until I tackle the Templar issue, I'm doing the same to Yuya.
    The Templars are after her as well.
    In fact they're probably after everyone, the whole team from back then... back when lucids still came naturally to me.

    There is only one solution.
    I will fight them.
    But not alone; that would be utter suicide.
    I will gather the old team, the team with whom I fought the evils of this world back in the days.

    I feel like a hero, about to embark on a long and difficult journey.
    First I will gather a team capable of surpassing the strength of the Templars.
    And then I will have to come up with a plan to beat them.
    Because this is what I do. This is what I have always done.
    Regardless of how much more powerful my enemy is, regardless of what it takes, I will beat them.
    Because I am dragon.

    "So... who will we find first?"

    It is scary being in company of a serious Yuya.
    I'm used to her playful and innocent self.
    Not the one capable of carrying the weight of a world.
    The whole atmosphere has changed.

    "Silver?"
    "... No. We will find Silver last. I'm not sure how to convince him to join us yet."
    "Will he not want to join us?"
    "I'm not sure. Back then he fought with us to pay for his sins. But he has already given back so much to this world."
    "True..."
    "I will convince him. You know I have my ways with words."
    "Yes. If there's anyone who can motivate him it is you. You're the only one he listens to."
    "So, if not Silver..."

    "Shinave"
    "..."
    *sigh*
    "You're making me meet her again huh?"

    "Yes. We will meet with the goddess of ice."
    "Alright then... I know where she is. I sure hope you know what you're doing."
    "Probably."

    I most certainly do not. Why is Yuya somewhat reluctant to meet with her again?
    Did we part on bad terms?
    Meh, it will come to me eventually.
    These memories have a habit of popping up whenever I need them lately.

    Yuya opens a rather odd looking portal and it seems to take her quite a considerable amount of energy to do so.
    Right... we'll mask our auras. It should buy us enough time for a meeting and to get back before the Templars find us.
    We hop through the portal and end in a rather odd looking place.


    It's an old temple of sorts. Parts of it are covered with rather beautiful ice crystals, but most of them are broken.
    Right. The goddess of ice. Or rather the person who used to be the goddess of ice.
    Back then two gods fought together with us.
    The goddess of ice: Shinave; and the god of fire: Ifrit
    Yeah... there was 6 of us I think.
    The 3 gods Shinave, Ifrit, Yuya, and Silver, Selene and myself.
    I will reunite all of us... somehow...

    We walk through the old temple, searching for Shinave.
    I have a feeling that she's here somewhere, even though I cannot sense any aura besides Yuyas and my own at all.
    I can feel the Templars scanning the entire plane though.
    Their searching pattern reminds me of that of a computer rather than that of a sentient being.
    They are perfectly coordinated.
    But it will take them hours to track me down with my aura masked.

    "You have some guts to show up here after what you've done."
    "Indeed..."

    The voice coming from behind caught me by surprise, but I'm not showing that I was off guard.
    I turn around slowly and full of confidence.
    Shinave.


    Her eyes look young, but she's clearly older than Yuya or myself.
    She has long white hair, deep blue eyes, very similar to Yuya's, and a rather pale skin.
    A wise woman, once one of the most well known gods.
    But now she lives in a seemingly abandoned temple.
    And somehow I get the feeling that it is my fault.

    "How are you?"

    She answers me with a small hand gesture that's not really saying much.
    Is she mad at me? Is she mad at us?
    I feel that she is in some way, yet it also feels like the complete opposite.

    "And how are you... Yuya?"
    "I'm alright... mother."

    mo... Mo... I... wait what?
    Nonono.
    Oh shit.
    Fuck my life.
    Goddess of ice, goddess of water... yeah. Am I fucking retarded? How did I not remember that.
    And I have... with Yuya... oh my god...
    Yeah, I might be screwed.

    "You haven't talked to me in a long time."
    "I have not. Not after you suggested that I shouldn't try to bring Hyu back."
    "It was a bad idea."
    "Yet here I am."
    "Yet here you are."
    "I guess I should be impressed that you managed to find your way back after what happened."
    "I should also kill you for what you have done."

    She approaches me without changing her facial expression.
    I'm at a complete loss. I can't tell if she's serious.
    Well. She is. But there's something more. Something she isn't telling.
    She stands right in front of me and stares into my eyes.
    I don't blink.

    She hugs me tightly.
    What?

    "I hate you Hyu. I hate you so much."

    She starts crying and grabs more tightly onto me.
    I'm getting mixed signals here.
    But somehow I understand. She wants to hate me, but she can't. She cannot help but love me for whom I am.
    She looks deeply into my eyes again.

    "You've sent my daughter towards certain death you know."
    "Stop! It's too early."
    "No."
    "Yes it is! It is too early for him to remember!"
    "Maybe. But there's no choice. He must remember."
    "And then what? What if he does remember?"
    "What if he realizes that he has cheated? Then what? What if he dies if he remembers that?"

    "If he abides by the rules then yes, he will die."

    ... yeah.
    I don't like everything I'm hearing, but I do want to know.
    And I am so close. I can remember parts on my own. The puzzle is fitting itself together as we speak.
    A tiny nudge in the right direction and I'll remember everything.
    I look at Yuya and say reassuringly:

    "Am I the type who abides by the rules?"

    She can't help but smile for an instant, but then quickly puts on a serious face again.

    "It's too soon."
    "Yes. And bringing him back is impossible, yet here he stands. And yet here you stand."
    "..."

    I'm beginning to remember on my own.
    Because I need to remember.
    Because now is the time to remember, even though Yuya suggests otherwise.

    "We all fought together. We fought many evils. But there was one we simply could not beat."
    "... the Templars."
    "13 of them there were, and only 6 of us, but that was not the issue."
    "The issue was that one of them was a true immortal, and the 12 others had their lives linked to him."
    "All 12 of them were unkillable as long as the 13th was alive. And he had perfected the art of combat."
    "He was supposedly unbeatable. And even if he would be killed, due to his immortality he would just resurrect."
    "Yes..."
    "So I came up with a plan."

    "You did come up with a plan."
    "You always did, regardless of how hopeless the situation was."
    "But this plan I did not like."

    "This plan I did not like."
    "But it was yours."
    "It was mine."
    "I didn't choose it because it was a good plan, I chose it because it was the only plan."
    "Indeed..."

    ... what a horrible plan it was.
    I have trouble saying the words, but they must be said.

    "... Yuya would give her life to allow Silver to cast the ultimate spell."
    "I would hold the Templar in place."
    "And Silver would kill him with this spell, and the both of us in the process."

    ...

    "This would send the Templars soul to hell. Because that's where immortals go."
    "But immortality means you only have to spend a single minute, and then you are reborn."
    "And I have the phoenix wings. I can move through the realms. I can go to hell once I am dead."
    "Even after dying, my soul should have an afterglow of energy, enough to go there and challenge him."
    "One minute to do the impossible. One minute to kill the soul of the only one who ever perfected the art of combat."
    "And all of that without any energy left."
    "But if I would kill his soul, he would truly die. You cannot be reborn without a soul."

    "The plan was ludicrous. All of you would die for certain, for a glimpse of a chance to do the impossible."
    "But it would cripple the Templars for years."
    "It would... And it has."
    "But things did not turn out according to your plan."

    "Fortunately they did not. If they did we would be dead."
    "So how did you kill him? And how is my daughter still alive. And how are you?"

    ...

    "How I won the fight in hell... I truly do not know."
    "I do not believe in miracles. But if they do exist, then this was one."
    "We were joined in hell by our swords, and fought for a full minute without any energy."
    "A true old-fashioned sword fight."
    "I didn't stand a chance of course. He had figured out the perfect technique."
    "But for some reason beyond me, as we danced in the fires of hell with our swords clashing..."
    "..."
    "I stabbed him in his chest."
    "He never made a mistake, there was never any opening. I never figured out the perfect technique."
    "Yet it happened. Neither one of us did understand. And I released the last bit of energy I had left in me into my blade..."
    "And his soul evaporated. He died the true death."

    "And then...?"
    "And then I died."

    ...

    "But how?"
    "If you die you have to pay the price. Unless you are immortal you have to pay your soul."
    "That is what dying is."
    "But I never had a chance to give my soul."

    Shinave's expression changes. She understands.

    "The dragon within me. The dragon soul I shared my body with."
    "He gave his soul before I had a chance to give mine."
    "And with the price paid, I was no longer bound to the world of the dead... so I left... so I came back."
    "And then I approached Yuya's lifeless body. And I summoned the true phoenix wings, and I brought back her soul from the dead and resurrected her."

    "So you did use your one resurrection."

    She sighs.

    "So not only is the dragon soul, the one who taught you the ways of the dragon, no longer with you; but you also sacrificed your near infinite source of energy. The phoenix catalyst."
    "That is the price the phoenix must pay to perform a resurrection, and the reason why he can perform only one."
    "But these were the reasons why you were so strong. The dragon soul and the phoenix catalyst. And now you have none of them."
    "A small price to pay."
    "A truly huge price to pay."
    "Perhaps, but the choice was an obvious one."
    "It was not. You could have used the catalyst to destroy the remaining templars."
    "And let Yuya be dead?"
    "..."
    "It would have been the logical choice."


    "Pff... logic. Yes, I might have noble goals, some people may even have called me a hero."
    "But I truly am a fool and you know it. I do not regret having made that choice."
    "And I love you for having made that choice. You saved my daughter."

    "We all paid a huge price back then. Selene died. Silver managed to get back for some reason which is beyond me."
    "The council of gods was destroyed."
    "But the Templar died. And now they are mortal."
    "And they are after you."

    I shrug.

    "And I am after them."
    "You're mad."
    "I am Hyu."

    Yuya has been awfully silent.

    "I understand how you were able to come back and revive me."
    "Your soul is taken when you die. But for you, 'a' soul was taken, but not yours."
    "But still. After that you should never have been able to come back to this world."
    "You are supposed to be dead."

    "You have tried quite intensely to bring me back though. Surely you must have believed that it would work."
    "Maybe... but what now that you know that you are supposed to be dead?"
    "Nothing."

    "But... what if death comes for you."
    "There is only one thing you do if death comes for you."
    "... give up... ?"

    I give her a disapproving stare and raise my voice.

    "You look death straight into its eyes and you say: 'not today'"

    Shinave smiles for the first time.

    "It is good to know that you are still Hyu. It is good to know that you are still the fool I remember."
    "Can he do that... just like that?"
    "How would I know? Do I know anyone who has tricked death itself?"
    "What I do know is that he is Hyu."

    "He is..."

    Shinave inspects me from top to bottom.

    "You have aged."
    "You are weak."
    "And you come to me now, which means..."

    "I will ask you the impossible."
    "After all that has happened, you really dare ask me?"
    "Yes."
    "And what do you suggest we do if I agree?"
    "We will be a dead man walking and 2 gods that are no longer gods up against the Templars."
    "How is that going to work?"

    "You're forgetting about Silver and Ifrit."
    "Ifrit? You are more insane than I thought."
    "But even then. That's 2 dead men walking and 3 gods that are no longer gods. My question remains."

    "I will come up with a plan of course."
    "Because you are Hyu."
    "Because I am Hyu."

    For the first time in what feels like an eternity I put on a certain smile.
    It is a somewhat dark smile. A smile looking forward to a battle that seemingly cannot be won.
    A smile that challenges all beliefs. A smile that says that we can do the impossible.

    "Will you come with me, oh goddess, and fight with me again?"
    "..."
    "Of course I will."

    She looks at Yuya, then at me, back at Yuya, and back at me, clearly understanding what is going on.
    Then she faces me and says:

    "Back in the days the gods would have killed your for this."

    But she doesn't say it in a serious way. I'm not sure if she approves, but I do know that she does not mind.

    "I wonder what Ifrit is going to think about this."

    I turn around and start walking towards the portal and shrug.

    "I'd rather not."

    We laugh, even though it isn't really that funny. He's one of the very old gods. He can never know. He would indeed kill me.
    I stop.

    "As long as we can still laugh like this, the world isn't lost."

    That puts a reassuring smile on Shinave and Yuya's face.
    Ha. I still have it in me.
    I am still a leader.
    And I will do this.
    I will end what I have started 15 years ago. I will end the tyranny that is the existence of the Templars.
    I just have to figure out how.
    Preferably without killing half of us in the process this time.

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    Comments

    1. Linkzelda's Avatar
      The fact that you had to condense the conversations, man, I love your amazing ability to recall these conversations.

      Awesome dreams!
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    2. Hyu's Avatar
      I wish my memory was that good for other things. -_-
      I'm currently reading the code I wrote yesterday evening for my masters thesis.
      I have no idea what on earth I was doing lol.
    3. Linkzelda's Avatar
      You've gotten this far in life, don't worry, something will trigger some memory for you!
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    4. Micael's Avatar
      Very interesting... the fact that you have that many memories that only come to you in dream time is very fascinating, makes one wonder what we may have "behind the carpet" waiting for us to unveil. That is if they are legitimate memories of course.
      I'm very curious about that god of fire, usually characters that identify with fire tend to be aggressive and a little cocky (at least in my head), since you already remembered him do you think this will be the case?
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    5. Hyu's Avatar
      You've gotten this far in life, don't worry, something will trigger some memory for you!
      Let's hope so, I could really do with some better memory in waking life. ~_~

      Very interesting... the fact that you have that many memories that only come to you in dream time is very fascinating, makes one wonder what we may have "behind the carpet" waiting for us to unveil. That is if they are legitimate memories of course.
      It's odd how these memories work. They start out as more of an intuition, as an idea of what may have been.
      Until now I usually ignored these, because of course, an idea is just that: an idea.
      But I have learned that this is not the right approach. Dream logic and waking life logic are completely different.
      Things like ideas, expectations and intuition play a much stronger role.
      It turns out if I let those ideas surface, they can turn into memories occasionally.

      I'm very curious about that god of fire, usually characters that identify with fire tend to be aggressive and a little cocky (at least in my head), since you already remembered him do you think this will be the case?
      Ha, you're pretty much spot on.
      Ifrit is old and powerful, he follows old-fashioned and conservative ideals.
      He thinks very highly of himself.
      He's aggressive and arrogant and views non-gods as inferior beings.
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    6. Micael's Avatar
      It's odd how these memories work. They start out as more of an intuition, as an idea of what may have been.
      Until now I usually ignored these, because of course, an idea is just that: an idea.
      But I have learned that this is not the right approach. Dream logic and waking life logic are completely different.
      Things like ideas, expectations and intuition play a much stronger role.
      It turns out if I let those ideas surface, they can turn into memories occasionally.
      Oh that's good to know, I was starting to think there were these sort of parallel memory lines with events you could only recall there as much as there are things you usually can only remember here.
      The way you put it resembles some of the theories I read regarding communication with your subconscious through dreams and dream interpretation, people talk about a subjective "language" and messages being understood relying heavily on intuition and less on logic as we see it, makes sense.

      Ha, you're pretty much spot on.
      Ifrit is old and powerful, he follows old-fashioned and conservative ideals.
      He thinks very highly of himself.
      He's aggressive and arrogant and views non-gods as inferior beings.
      Sounds like fun, seems like these templars have it coming.
    7. fOrceez's Avatar
      Ahah, I get it.. Categories: Memorable. Nice!
      * fOrceez hi5s himself
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    8. Marlowe's Avatar
      Yea...I swear your dreams resemble a good novel.
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    9. TheForgotten 's Avatar
      "You look death straight into its eyes and you say: 'not today'"
      Hahaha, I loved it in Game of Thrones when the 1st sword taught Arya that.

      I've actually seen that temple before you know ..... it was a little different, I didn't see the etchings in the stone but I've seen that place before. Is that an actual place or just a video game creation? Link?

      Wish you'd lucid dream and write a bit more. At your current rate you'll have invited all the members in a about a year XP

      Good stuff, looking forward to reading more... especially Selene since that's also one of your dream goals.
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    10. Hyu's Avatar
      Hahaha, I loved it in Game of Thrones when the 1st sword taught Arya that.
      Yeah, that was a great moment and I immediately remembered it when the topic came up.

      I've actually seen that temple before you know ..... it was a little different, I didn't see the etchings in the stone but I've seen that place before. Is that an actual place or just a video game creation? Link?
      I just googled for "temple interior" and this was one of the first results:
      http://upload.wikimedia.org/wikipedi...interior_1.JPG
      I changed the base color to a more blue-ish tone to better match what I saw in my dreams.
      It appears to be a picture of the Someshwara temple in India.

      Wish you'd lucid dream and write a bit more. At your current rate you'll have invited all the members in a about a year XP
      I wish I had more time to write about my dreams. x_X
      I need to hand in my masters thesis on the 1st of July, and I'm nowhere near finished. D:
      If only there weren't soooo many distractions.
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    11. TheForgotten 's Avatar
      http://upload.wikimedia.org/wikipedi...interior_1.JPG
      I changed the base color to a more blue-ish tone to better match what I saw in my dreams.
      It appears to be a picture of the Someshwara temple in India.
      Very helpful! Thanks

      Good luck with that thesis.

      At least July warrants a vacation.

      I wonder if your recent childhood dreaming has to do with finding Selene since the last time you've seen her was there. Guess we won't know till it happens, lol.
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    12. fOrceez's Avatar
      If Selene is dead.. how do you hope to meet her?
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    13. Hyu's Avatar
      Good luck with that thesis.
      Thanks, I might need it. >_>

      I wonder if your recent childhood dreaming has to do with finding Selene since the last time you've seen her was there. Guess we won't know till it happens, lol.
      If Selene is dead.. how do you hope to meet her?
      Yeah, I think you may have misunderstood something.
      I never found Selene. She has died many years ago, most likely due to my own actions.
      I don't think I'll ever see her again.
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    14. TheForgotten 's Avatar
      Yeah, I think you may have misunderstood something.
      I never found Selene. She has died many years ago, most likely due to my own actions.
      I don't think I'll ever see her again.
      I was under the impression death didn't limit things >.> that might be my misunderstanding.

      That and, didn't you die, Hyu?

      That and.... nothing is impossible in dreaming...... some things just might take more effort....? No? I don't know, I haven't really tried to do impossible things yet.

      Something kinda cool I found on facebook though, Hyu! One of my friends has been traveling, today she posted this picture:



      Caption is: Nandi the Bull ,Shiva's vehicle
      — at Angkor Wat, Cambodia.

      Thought that was pretty awesome.
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    15. Hyu's Avatar
      I was under the impression death didn't limit things >.> that might be my misunderstanding.

      That and, didn't you die, Hyu?

      That and.... nothing is impossible in dreaming...... some things just might take more effort....? No? I don't know, I haven't really tried to do impossible things yet.
      You are right of course. Nothing is impossible in dreams. The whole concept of "impossible" does not exist.

      These dreams occur in what feels like a different realm though, a realm that abides to certain rules, similar to our laws of physics.
      Energy works and can be used in a certain way, and in no other way etc.
      Now I'm fully aware that this is a limitation I could possibly overcome?
      But I don't think I'd want to. It feels like cheating.
      These rules also feel like perfectly obvious facts when I dream, so I imagine this would be rather difficult.

      And death in this realm... it is complicated. Or probably really simple, I have no idea.
      Yes, I died, but not really. A part of me died, and I paid a huge price coming back.
      I also know that resurrection is possible, though it seems to be extremely rare.
      When I dream these things are really obvious. Makes perfect sense that I deliberately died, then entered a one minute transition period in which I could go to hell, kill the soul of another guy so he can't resurrect, pay a soul and then come back.

      My intuition tells me though that Selene will never come back. She died, and the only way of resurrection I know of I have already used and I will never be able to use again.
      And my intuition has always been right in these dreams lately.

      So yeah, the laws surrounding death are kind of weird. I'm also not really sure what death means in this realm.
      It feels more like a transition into a new phase of life in a different realm rather than the end of existence.

      Something kinda cool I found on facebook though, Hyu! One of my friends has been traveling, today she posted this picture:



      Caption is: Nandi the Bull ,Shiva's vehicle
      at Angkor Wat, Cambodia.

      Thought that was pretty awesome.
      That really makes me want to travel again!
      I love going to countries far away and visiting such cultural sites.
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    16. TheForgotten 's Avatar
      I just realized... Shiva and Shinave are different XD My bad.

      I agree with much of what you said about different rules for various realms... and it makes sense, if there are no consistent rules, it's difficult to form or experience that world. It makes a lot of sense what you said.

      Then I can't help but wonder, aren't some things worth fighting for? I understand how intuition works... and sometimes it's best to let things be the way they are. Sometimes that's just how the world works. Other times, things can be changed if there's enough energy and persistence thrown into it. I mean, for anything I've ever wanted... I've gotten. It might have taken years ... but eventually I get it. Although sometimes I've changed what I've wanted because it simply took too much energy to prompt a change. I'm not saying it's a plausible route but for things we really, deeply want... things we're willing to work for.... things we're willing to dedicate ourselves to..... we can normally find ways to work around challenges.

      Sorry, I think I may have gone a bit too far there with this. I don't understand your relationship with Selene well enough to even begin to gauge what sort of options you'd be open to exploring. But even if it didn't involve finding Selene... now I'm wondering what your thoughts are in regards to the expanded version of this.

      Whatever this is.

      Lol. Brain tangent. Sorry.
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    17. Hyu's Avatar
      I just realized... Shiva and Shinave are different XD My bad.
      I thought so. If you ever played one of the final fantasy games I can see how that happened though.

      I agree with much of what you said about different rules for various realms... and it makes sense, if there are no consistent rules, it's difficult to form or experience that world. It makes a lot of sense what you said.

      Then I can't help but wonder, aren't some things worth fighting for? I understand how intuition works... and sometimes it's best to let things be the way they are. Sometimes that's just how the world works. Other times, things can be changed if there's enough energy and persistence thrown into it. I mean, for anything I've ever wanted... I've gotten. It might have taken years ... but eventually I get it. Although sometimes I've changed what I've wanted because it simply took too much energy to prompt a change. I'm not saying it's a plausible route but for things we really, deeply want... things we're willing to work for.... things we're willing to dedicate ourselves to..... we can normally find ways to work around challenges.

      Sorry, I think I may have gone a bit too far there with this. I don't understand your relationship with Selene well enough to even begin to gauge what sort of options you'd be open to exploring. But even if it didn't involve finding Selene... now I'm wondering what your thoughts are in regards to the expanded version of this.

      Whatever this is.

      Lol. Brain tangent. Sorry.
      Brain tangents ftw!

      I definitely agree that some things are worth fighting for.
      If I ever encounter some means of resurrection I definitely see myself trying.
      But right now there are more urgent matters to take care of.

      Another thing with Selene is: I barely remember her.
      I sort of remember what she looks like and her character, but that's about it.
      I guess that there is a certain lack of motivation because of that maybe?