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    Spending time with Yuya & Crow

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    Hyu
    , 08-27-2014 at 01:27 AM (1364 Views)
    I'm a bit disappointed in myself for managing my time so poorly lately.
    Somehow I have picked up a really bad habit of procrastinating.
    And because of this I end up spending much less time on LD activities than I intend to.
    I'm seriously considering to block reddit/youtube like sites for a few days a week...



    I find myself on a beach. It is quite late, the sun is going down.
    I should probably walk back to the hotel before it gets too dark...
    Unfortunately I don't recognize any of the buildings alongside the beach.
    Am I lost? How does that even happen?

    Realizing that the situation is somewhat out of the ordinary I try to increase my awareness.
    However, my thoughts feel scrambled. I am unable to come to a conclusion.
    Now what? Am I dreaming or not? This does feel pretty real...
    I decide to fall back on a more robust technique, the nose plug RC.


    I can breathe normally through my plugged nose. This is a dream.
    Wait really? I look at my hands and they seem perfectly normal.
    I walk over to the first person I find, which is an elderly man, whom I assume is walking back to his hotel.

    "Excuse me."
    "Yes?"
    "Am I dreaming?"

    The man seems rather confused by my question.
    In retrospect, that was probably not the most intelligent thing to do.
    I decide that the answer to my question should be behind myself.
    I turn back towards the ocean.

    This is no longer the beach I was on previously on.
    This is my beach!
    I must have changed scenes during the short moment when I was turning.
    Sweet!

    I try to remember my dream goals, and for once I actually manage to remember them!
    My only dream goal at the moment is to "calm the fuck down".

    (Lately I often forget to properly stabilize my dreams when I become lucid.
    And then to make up for it, I rush through the dreams out of fear that they might end prematurely,
    which is of course the worst possible thing to do.)


    I slowly walk towards the ocean, taking all the time in the world.
    The sound of the water is very relaxing, and I love the contrast between the warm sand and the refreshingly cold ocean breeze.
    Eventually I take a few steps into the ocean, getting my feet wet. The water is very cold.

    As I look at the stars, I feel a familiar presence.
    It's Yuya! This is going to be a great night.

    Ever since I found this picture and felt that it reminded me of her,
    she's been playing around with hair colors a lot.
    Today it's mostly orange and blue.
    She can change it simply by shaking her head.
    She's smiling at me the way she always does.

    "Come out and play?"

    At first I find it a little amusing that she phrases her question this way.
    But then it reminds me of when I was very young, and I'd go knocking on the neighbours door to ask them to come out and play in the street.
    Back then there was nothing to worry about, no important decisions to make.
    I'd ask my friends to come out with the sole goal of having a good time.
    Perhaps what I initially found a little odd, was after all the perfect way to phrase it.


    This starts off a series of DEILDs.
    I've written down the fragments I remember.
    Unfortunately I don't remember them very well.
    The last few moments before I woke up are quite clear, but everything before that is a bit of a blur.


    Fragment 1:
    I help Yuya prepare dinner at her place.
    I'm not of much help though, given that I don't know any of the herbs and spices she has, nor the meat that she wants to prepare.
    She is very patient with me, and explains how to prepare everything,
    even though she knows that I probably won't remember any of it.
    It takes us a good hour to prepare everything.
    Liv joins us for dinner. (And there was someone else as well I think.)
    Everything tastes absolutely wonderfully.
    Later, I help Yuya to do the dishes.
    She knows that my dream time is limited, and I can feel that it makes her really happy that I spend it with her,
    even if it means doing something as mundane as doing the dishes.


    Fragment 2:
    In my scribble DJ I wrote "Dance" "Leaf in the wind" and "Happy".
    I don't remember anything about this fragment though, and I don't recall taking these notes.

    Fragment 3:
    We're at a Café, sitting outside, enjoying the good weather and some amazing drinks.

    Crow joins us. He felt my presence so he came by to say hi.
    Since there's drinks and Yuya and Liv are here, he obviously decides to stay.
    He ends up ordering something that isn't on the menu.

    They bring us a plate with very small pipettes on it, all containing a small amount of a yellow liquid.
    It's quite fun really, you use the pipette to place a single drop of the liquid onto your tongue.
    It immediately gives you that cold chill / frisson feeling all over your body.
    It also tastes rather sour. Perhaps a little like lemon juice.


    Fragment 4:

    Crow, Yuya and I are on some sort of airship.
    It looks more like an old sail ship though, nothing like an actual airship.
    Does fly rather well though, even though I'm sure this violates a few laws of physics.
    According to Crow, there are very few of these, and it is very difficult to get a ride on one.
    It is quite late and we all sit on the front deck watching the sun go down.
    Yuya leans against me because she is really tired.

    Crow is telling a very captivating story about love and betrayal.
    It is quite an emotional story.
    Usually his stories are about himself, and he exaggerates... a lot, I'm pretty sure he even makes stuff up on occasion.
    His stories are quite amazing though, I'll give him that. Plus, he's a fantastic story teller.
    I don't mind that he does this, we all know that it's for entertainment.
    But this time around he claims that it is a fictional story about another person.
    And then there's the way he narrates it. It is quite different. More serious, and seemingly less exaggerated.
    I'm convinced that this time, he's actually telling a genuine story from his past.
    The story eventually comes to an end. (It was a little sad, but I recall that there was a silver lining)

    "Say, aren't you supposed to wake up or something? You've been staying for an awfully long time."
    "Oh Crow... you're not supposed to remind dreamers about that."
    "Why not?"
    "Waking up is not something you want to think about."
    "Why?"
    "It could make you wake up."
    "It can?"
    "Unfortunately, yeah."
    "That is rather inconvenient."
    "It is."
    "Seriously though, isn't it bad for you to spend entire days asleep so that you can be here?"
    "Haha, I appreciate your concern Crow, I really do, but fortunately it doesn't work quite like that."
    "I assure you, on the other side I've been asleep for a few hours at most."
    "Huh, that is quite fascinating. It is good to know that I don't have to worry then."
    "I'll make sure not to mention anything about waking up in the future."

    "Thanks mate. I appreciate it."
    "Sure... mate."

    (There was a joke earlier in the dream about saying "mate", but I cannot quite recall what it was.)

    "Anyways, I'm afraid I have to get going. I'm running late."
    "Take care."
    "So long."

    Crow charges forwards and disappears in a cloud of colorful particles.
    I think that's the first time I've seen him do that.
    The dream is slowly becoming unstable.
    I can no longer see beyond the airship.
    The airship itself has also become somewhat blurry and desaturated.

    Only Yuya I can still see clearly.
    She seems to have fallen asleep, resting her head on my shoulder.
    I can feel her chest expand against me as she breathes.
    Even if it is just for a short moment, perhaps for just a fraction of a second,
    it makes me really believe that she is out there somewhere, and not a construct of my own mind.
    Sometimes I wish I could entertain this thought for longer, because I find it quite beautiful...

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    Comments

    1. Dthoughts's Avatar


      "But this time around he claims that it is a fictional story about another person.
      And then there's the way he narrates it. It is quite different. More serious, and seemingly less exaggerated.
      I'm convinced that this time, he's actually telling a genuine story from his past.`


      Hahahah. Genius !! Fitting for any Epic saga :3

      Seriously, this entire post also made me wonder about reality of ur dreams. The scenes you describe, the dream characters including the emotions that they show and the things that they say. I find it hard to belief that these scenes are NOT the result of spontaneous conversation between sentient beings. Why else would 'crow' ask you questions about your sentient experience? I uhh know that Yuya (?) mentioned to you that she is a part of you and thus a construct of the mind. I think we should believe that.. but... that may not be the end of it. I suspect there may be another side to it that we are not aware of. So she still might be something more than just imaginaton. (and she surely is!) .. Thanks for keeping us updated Hyu. It is a pleasure of the highest order to read up on ur dreams. Much love!
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    2. Hyu's Avatar
      Thank you for the kind words!

      Yuya has actually straight up told me that she is a sentient being, and not a dream character created by my subconscious mind.
      But I have a bit of an odd relationship with that idea. And frankly, I'm not quite sure how to put it in words.
      When I dream, I sometimes have these moments where I believe. And these moments are wonderful.
      But in dreams, it so much easier to believe in something.
      There is no need to reason. Things can become reality simply if you desire them.
      And that is obviously not the case in waking life, where I feel the need to understand something before I can accept it as a reality.
      Sometimes I do entertain the idea though, but more in a "what if?" kind of way.
    3. DawnEye11's Avatar
      I enjoyed reading this and those pictures are beautiful~
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    4. fogelbise's Avatar
      Wow Hyu! It has been a long time since I have come across your DJ and it is so beautiful! That picture of the likeness of Yuya is beautiful! One of the more ordinary comments stirred me though:

      But then it reminds me of when I was very young, and I'd go knocking on the neighbours door to ask them to come out and play in the street.
      Back then there was nothing to worry about, no important decisions to make.
      I'd ask my friends to come out with the sole goal of having a good time.
      This really brought me back to childhood in such a strong way that I wouldn't be surprised if it makes it's way into my dreams tonight as day residue.
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    5. KristaNicole07's Avatar
      (Lately I often forget to properly stabilize my dreams when I become lucid.
      And then to make up for it, I rush through the dreams out of fear that they might end prematurely,
      which is of course the worst possible thing to do.)
      This is the worst, and has happened to me many times. It makes you feel like you wasted the LD worrying so you didn't do anything.

      Awesome dreams! I could really picture the airship ride. It sounds beautiful.
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    6. CanisLucidus's Avatar
      Beautiful dream, hyu! Your dreamscape has some amazing citizens. I'm always glad when I stop by your dream journal!

      I slowly walk towards the ocean, taking all the time in the world.
      The sound of the water is very relaxing, and I love the contrast between the warm sand and the refreshingly cold ocean breeze.
      Eventually I take a few steps into the ocean, getting my feet wet. The water is very cold.
      Since Krista already quoted the first part, here's the other, more concrete part of that sequence that I'm going to try to keep in mind for my next lucid. I have always had good results when I do this, yet it can be so hard for me to remember to actually do it.

      I'm going to try to keep this firmly in mind for the next LD and get back the habits I once had. Thank you for the great DJ entry and for the inspiration!
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    7. Hyu's Avatar
      This really brought me back to childhood in such a strong way that I wouldn't be surprised if it makes it's way into my dreams tonight as day residue.


      This is the worst, and has happened to me many times. It makes you feel like you wasted the LD worrying so you didn't do anything.
      Since Krista already quoted the first part, here's the other, more concrete part of that sequence that I'm going to try to keep in mind for my next lucid. I have always had good results when I do this, yet it can be so hard for me to remember to actually do it.
      I wonder why it is so difficult to remember this. It helps so much to just take a moment to take it all in and relax.
      Then again, I'm an absolute catastrophy when it comes to remembering my dream goals. I should probably work on that.
    8. ~Dreamer~'s Avatar
      This entry makes me so happy!
      It's so nice to see that you're spending peaceful time in your dream world again.

      Time management can be stressful, but stressing about poor time management can make it even more overwhelming sometimes.
      I bet things will fall into place soon.
      It sounds like your mind is in a more peaceful place at least, if your dreams are anything to go by.

      A pleasure to read as always, thanks for sharing!
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    9. Hyu's Avatar
      @Dreamer
      It's so nice to have more peaceful and playful dreams again.
      And you're right, I shouldn't stress about it. I'm sure it's exactly as you say, and things will fall into place soon.
    10. Trungle's Avatar
      "Usually his stories are about himself, and he exaggerates... a lot, I'm pretty sure he even makes stuff up on occasion."
      - it's funny that you say that he makes stuff up, aren't you really the one making stuff up?
    11. Jetison333's Avatar
      Hyu, I just made an account so I could comment this, but have you ever heard of Tulpa's? They are kind of people inside of your head that you can talk too and they have their own personalities. One can make them by talking to them inside your head, and eventually they start to answer back. Maybe this is what you have accidentally done with Yuya and others? have you ever tried talking with them in waking life?