false awakening

- Eating chocolates with C in the bedroom (Cadbury eggs, yum!) when I look down at a half-eaten one and notice it has this disgusting thing in it:



These are parasites that normally get inside fish and eat, then take the place of, their tongues. They then proceed to steal all of the fish's food as it eats it. So, I freak out majorly and cry etc. I end up saying to C's brother that I'm just gonna have to wait 'til a lump forms in my tongue, then go get it taken out.

- Helping a young teen girl with long, straight blonde hair get out of an abusive family situation; dragging her around town trying to find a safe place, feeling like we're being hunted/followed; go to my old house in town where there are other people living now, take her in and lock us in a room; feels like we're safe, but the owners of the house come home I guess and we have to leave. Later on, girl is gone and I'm frantically searching for her and some other people we were with for a second (Lu, Z & C I think). They'd been parked along the road, waiting for me. It's night and I can't find them. It seems like they had to drive off for some reason, like the bad people came or whatever. I keep looking in dark vehicles, hoping they're hiding in one. Most of them are empty at first, then I start finding scary dark shadow people that I don't know. I get really freaked out and become sort of lucid. I just know that if I fly to the moon I can get out of this reality somehow. So I take off and zoom as fast as I can towards the moon. The going is a little slow due to fear. I top a hill covered in buildings and find myself looking at a big lake with hills far across on the other side. The moon isn't reflected in the water, but its light shines off the surface all over. I'm still trying to get to the moon but I start sinking towards the deep dark water. This scares me, but I'm so tired of being scared that I just say "fuck it" and let myself follow the curve of the dream. This decision actually raises my lucidity to normal levels. I end up deep down in some flooded underwater facility. Alarms and lights are going off and some of the crew is still trying to get things to work. It feels very space-like and reminds me of "The Abyss" except everything is completely flooded and we're all swimming around inside. Things go even more wrong and I want to get out of the situation even more. Suddenly C is with me, helping me calm down and guiding me to the "edge". I feel like the dream has an edge and when I pop out of it I'll wake up. We reach a weird corner that seems superimposed over everything else and we start to push against it, side by side with arms locked together. It's difficult, but I draw strength from C and we both persevere. Slowly the stuff starts to bend outward and our heads start to go through. C starts yelling like there's a really weird sensation, then I notice it. My head feels HOT and very tingly and I "see" pink and purple sparkles on the other side, a little like the static on an old, inactive TV. I can see a cross-section of my own head where it has entered the other side and it is much darker purple than what's around it. I get scared because it feels like there is intense pressure on my head, but I remain determined, let go of C's arm, and dive through the rest of the way. I feel almost like a baby falling out of a mother with the last push, but I also feel like I'm ENTERING a womb-like space. Once totally across, I assume the fetal position. Almost immediately I sit up in bed and all seems normal. My bed is in a different position now, but I don't notice. I decide to RC anyway and surprisingly to me I'm lucid! I wonder what to do, not caring about tasks, and decide to have some adult fun. I stand up and walk out of my room calling for D. I have a short moment of doubt about whether or not he will appear, but I dismiss it. I turn the corner into a small dining room that normally doesn't exist, and there he is, sitting and eating at the table wearing nothing but white boxers with red hearts on them. I interact with him verbally (no recall) and he gets up to come into the other room with me. His form seems weirdly insubstantial though, so I just walk away by myself. I encounter some people already having sex in my bedroom, so I decide to just watch. The guy is facing me while the girl is not and he keeps noticing me and being weirded out. I mutter some things like, "I'm not here, you don't see me," and wave my hands over my face and he stops paying attention. I end up getting involved then waking up.

I remember "waking up" in bed. Light from morning is coming in the window. As I get out of the covers I notice that all my fingernails are bare except my thumb, even though I painted them just last night. I think to myself that this is really odd, but I don't think to RC because I believe the paint got rubbed off on the covers. Dangit..