Lucid Time!

I remember being lucid and seeing what looked like ayers rock in Australia. Only in it were carved about a dozen screaming faces (like Mt. Rushmore) only the faces were abstract, distorted, and a little creepy. They sort of seemed to melt into one another, had big pits for eyes and I don't think they had noses. I think there were also two moons in the twilight sky.

I remember thinking to myself 'alright, but where is the rest of the lucid dream?' I noticed that I could still feel myself in a horizontal orientation in my bed, and that I was very close to waking up.

I know there were several awakenings, at 3:15, 5:00, and 6:30 before I got out of bed at about 7:30.

Maybe I was trying a little too hard last night

I'm going to make a few more audio recordings this morning. One of the things I need to focus on now that I seem to be lucid dreaming (heh, I'm basically lucid dreaming nightly, if you count bits like this). I just haven't posted because some dreams were sexy, personal or both. I guess the main goal now is to focus a little more on what I'm doing when I get lucid. I'm going to come up with three goals. (Since people supposedly remember things well in threes.) And here they are.

Goal #1: Manei, NO KIDS!

This cropped up the night before last night, and a couple times while I was gone. Read my previous DJ entry for info. The simple version of this is Manei, my DG is attempting to convince me that it would be fun to explore a future timeline where we have kids. Now I've put up with a lot of the romantic BS (and even enjoyed some of it) but I'm drawing the line here. I can think of many reasons why this is a terrible idea, but what is basically boils down to is the fact that the reality would be awkward, entail too much responsibility for a dream world that is supposed to be about freedom and exploration, and serve no purpose. I'm 20 years old, have no WL partner at the moment and while I might get married in the future, I do not want to ever start a family. I don't see what benefit I could gain from this dream.

I tried to convince myself she wasn't gonna play evasive and would just listen to what I had to say. In general, she's been evasive, annoying, and not nearly as reliable and understanding as she used to be. I used to appreciate her straightforward attitude, but she seems to have lost it. What really annoys me is she won't even afford me the opportunity to express my side of the story with dignity, because she knows I'm opposed to it.

The ultimatum is that we could perhaps explore this timeline in a couple more years, but it's not something I'm ready for right now.

Manei has also lost her profile picture privilege until she cuts the BS and lets me talk to her about what really matters.

Goal #2: Mind Hacking to drop a bad habit

I came up with this goal forever ago, and still haven't gotten around to it. I have a bad habit of biting my fingers and wanted to try using lucid dreaming to break it, since willpower based efforts in waking life never seem to cut it. How exactly I would go about this is uncertain. I might try manifesting a personification of the bad habit and conversing with him/her about how I might break the habit.

Goal #3: Elemental Mastery

This one is even more straightforward. But it's lowest on my list of priorities. My dreams have always held a heavy association with Avatar and the bending arts in it. I would like to master all four elements. Back when Manei was a little more useful, she gave me some pointers on water, so I'm pretty proficient at it. I pretty much figured out Fire on my own and use it for flying more than fighting. (In fact, I have some trouble with using it for fighting, so maybe practice that). I've hardly explored earth and air.