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Driving in a car with Andrew's aunt Janet, I'm sleepy, we're not talking, she swerves, I'm about to tell her "your driving isn't as bad as they say" but then I realize she's a crazy driver and don't say it...

Chinese guy, wearing a light brown or maybe grey blazer, holding something in front of him with both hands, staring forward in awe or shock, big eyes, I ask "Glen, are you ok?" Scared to find out what he is shocked by...

Woke up from dream, scared and not wanting to be uncovered by blankets.

I should have recorded as soon as I got up, now I only remember one part of my dreams. One very weird part. :S

Something is wrong with my vagina, I'm having it examined by three people, my legs are spread open for the examination. The main person examining it makes a face when they realize what's wrong. She holds a mirror to it so I can see. I try to look but get scared, so don't actually see what's wrong but I know that something has come out of it that shouldn't be there. I get up to walk, I'm wearing heels, I'm limping now that I know what the problem is, as if I'm in pain, but I realize I wasn't limping before the exam, I wonder if I'm faking it. I'll be having surgery for the problem.

Remembered more - Andrew and I almost broke up, I decided I couldn't go through with it. Also, I was just making toast in the oven and remembered dreaming about burnt bread. Slices of black toast.

Wanting to swim with sharks...stuck in tight space (Dream sign? Proportions that are off)...suggesting they "let us take a one hour break," at school? Some some sort of class? Go skydiving, find out it wasn't really skydiving...


Will expand later.

I'm in an indoor pool, but it's the ocean at the same time, there are huge waves coming and I move to the side, Andrew's niece and nephew are about to get caught in the biggest wave I've seen, the wave overtakes them....I'm looking everywhere for them, I'm telling people how they got caught in the wave, then I find them, Andrew's niece is calm, they had fun...

I see two people I'm no longer friends with, come sit down with one on a bench, ask what's wrong, she's complaining about her life, how her parents don't believe in her, I tell her I have problems with my parents too...

I see my ex, he reaches out for a hug, we laugh, a person from elementary school that was a bully to me comes to hug me, there is a group of us now, we're all singing together and laughing...

A friend kisses me on the cheek...

Everyone is getting on an amusement park ride, I follow the crowd, wonder why nobody invited me, we get on a tilt-a-whirl type of ride, and after the excitement of getting on with everybody I say "ok, this isn't really fun, I'm just dizzy more than anything."

I come home into the kitchen and my brother has a pizza and there's a box of laundry detergent inside the pizza box. My mom (not my real mom, some dream mom) is standing beside my brother. I'm watching the scene as if it's TV, Khloe Kardashian is me. She says "what's that" to the box of detergent. My brother makes a comment about how I (or Khloe) should know this stuff. I want my mom to see I'm contributing, I clean up, tidy....now they're both in the living room and my brother is being lazy, I want my mom to see how much I did. I realize she took apart the vacuum cleaner because it needed to be washed. It's sitting outside on the deck with soap and water in it.

I'm watching two people interact, one of them is a character from Party of Five or something, one character says he should have done something or been somewhere, the other character (the Party of Five one) says something to the effect of "how could you be in two places at once?"

I'll record triggers for lucidity here:

- Being at home and realizing something is off, looks strange, something is happening that is unusual (And both times that this has happened in a dream, I've then smashed through a window in an attempt to make something happen or to change the scene).

I'm using this entry as a space to record themes and patterns that I notice in my dreams:

- going to the washroom in public, being exposed, people watching me
- trying to get home to Vancouver from my dad's in Edmonton, not being able to, being lost, not having enough money, having some obstacle preventing me from getting home
- lifelong dream: running around, going through people's houses, backyards, running away
- odd proportions

I'm in a home, exploring different rooms and levels, the home is a mansion, I find a bathroom but it's also a staircase, I try to go to the bathroom on the stairs, which are also a toilet, I'm exposed, anyone could come by....

I'm in a restaurant or some kind of public space, I'm in conflict with a woman, she's being aggressive, physical, she's behind the order counter and has rocks in her hands and I think she's going to throw them at me, I'm down on the ground at some point, she's a brunette...

We're outside now, I say something to her that I think will have an impact on her, make her realize how she's behaving and that's it not ok, I'm criticizing her but I think she understands that it's for her own good...we're sitting on the ground outside of the restaurant, she has light red hair now, it's thin and tied back in a small bun, I look at my reflection in the glass of the doors beside us, my hair looks like it has been done, I look pretty, I ask her how old she is, she smirks and says "2004"...I take this to mean she graduated in 2004 and calculate that she is 27 years old. She says she knows "Charles" and "Joseph" ....but Joseph doesn't like her....

I'm with my dad in Edmonton, I have to get home, Im trying to figure out if he'll drive me back to Vancouver, he says he can only take me so far but we can't go tonight if my mom can't pick me up, I imagine I can take a cab where he drops me off from and tell him it's ok.

Seeing some patterns - I've dreamt about going to the washroom before, in weird locations, where I'm exposed. Also the dream about my dad, being in Edmonton and wanting to get back home, needing to get back home, not knowing how I'll get back or if I have enough money, seems to be a theme.

I'm pretty sure the restaurant scenario with the woman has something to do with my mom.

It's been a year and a half since I last recorded a dream?? Jeez....ok, here goes, fuzzy on the details but there are bits and pieces and I have to start somewhere:

Andrew's doing something suspicious, I follow him around, partly on purpose, partly by accident, I'm on the skytrain and we end up in the same place and then I just watch what he's doing, I see him eating something, pudding or some other kind of dessert to be eaten with a spoon, he's sitting on the right side of some kind of padded bench, in a mall, the "bad guy" is on the other side...he's part of something illegal, something bad, some kind of conspiracy....I walk by and don't let him see me, he might have though...

Still in the mall I think, I'm looking at purses, I already have a brown one and a black one, and I want a grey one, should I be spending money? I shouldn't...

Andrew changed the trash basket in the bathroom to one I don't like, I go looking for the one we normally use so that I can put it back, I'm pretty distraught about the whole thing...

Wow. Fascinating stuff.

I feel like there's more, some kind of 'end of the world' scenario happening, aliens and war and being chased, running around the city, escaping....I can almost see it, but not really...

Run into my ex in Europe somewhere, with his friends, dining at a table along a seawall…one friend says “I can’t stand this anymore, let’s hang out” and kisses me on the mouth, meant to be friendly but also suggestive…looking through photos on my camera while another of his friends leans against me, he’s tired….I look out at the water and there are owls on a ship, someone mentions how beautiful they are, I agree. I try to get closer to get a shot, and when I look through the viewfinder there is no owl, but rather a dog on a plank, wearing a costume. I try to take several shots of him but they’re all blurry…..back at the table I mention that I never want to leave…

My family is there in Europe too, there is a party or some sort of gathering….I hear everyone start to scream that my nephew is missing, I go running in a panic to find him, then someone mentions how my nephew isn’t a child anymore…my nephew comes walking out of nowhere…

I’m part of some team putting together recipes in a competition or for school or something, except I’m been away a couple of days and haven’t contributed much. I go to my team and they mention that they weren’t going to say anything to me, but were just going to see what I did. Then the instructor comes to look at our presentation, and I want to tell him that I should do something separately since I didn’t contribute anything to this, but I don’t say it….

Hiding from zombies, barricading a room...

scarves...my mom? ...

It's my last day, at work maybe, I'm getting gifts and people are writing thoughtful notes...

Ex walks past my mom, she asks if ex was always hunchbacked and she didn't notice....

Marrying my ex, anxious, don't think it's right, day of the wedding, decide I can't do it, my boyfriend is the one I should be marrying...